260110. tues. white breeze
Life's sorta monotonous with a little spices once in a blue moon. book out - exerise, clean bike, sleep, eat, go library, buy stuffs at times, book in - hmmm that's life in this vocation, the good things is you are free when others are not, so don't need to worry about long quenes, squeezing bus, heavy traffic, packed gym or shopping centre , but on another side, unable to meet up with friends except those who came from the same shift.
i am troubled as usual. i start wondering about the future and those thoughts and stands that use to hold firm in me. i am clueless again.
" It's not about the beneficial or losing outcome, it just simply right or wrong."
--- " ---
240110. sun. breeze
As we grow, we experiences, we learn and we change from simplicity to complicity.
simply eating --
A baby only need to open his/her mouth to eat,
A child uses utensils to eat,
A teenage often trouble about getting what to eat,
A adult have concern over the monthly expenses on eating...
As we grow, we take up more responsibilities, worrying more things around us..
why moth is being stated as a spiritual representative ? what was the story behind it ?
there a tiny moth landed on my waist, i placed my hand on my waist, slowly it climbed and stop on my index finger as if it want to tell me something.
I tried to scare it away with another of my palm moving right above it, moving so near that i almost could crush it instantly but it remain there unmove as if it read my mind that i am not killing it.
ye: ' haha your ah gong come visit u liao ar! '
kai: ' if it's really my ah gong then ask him to stop the mosquitoes from biting me!'
kw: 'haha this kind of things better dont anyhow say uh ! must repay de hor'
kai: *stoned , " ps uh just kidding de."
then it flew away.
once in my life i felt relief to be stung and suck by mosquitoes that night ...
--- " ---
220110. Fri . Cloudy
There i saw orion belt and hunter right above me. Here i am getting upset and angry over others busniness. Over people who are irresponsible to a large extend affecting others. Things could been better handle by doing necessary things. People often neglect duties and responsibilities. They thought that things could be settled just by saying 'i don't know' when they know, 'I didnt received it' when they received it, 'it's too late now' when things could be settled earlier. 'it's not my duty or responsibility now. I am seriously blowing my top off. I understand that different way of doing things but in my point of view, it's just not right.
someone who seriously dislike people who are irresponsible for their own actions.
' A nice place to chat and chill with the breezy wind and starry sky. '
---" ---
210110. Thurs. Cloudy
It 's up to individual and there's no right and wrong about it, it's purely up to personal judgement, experience and principles.
You cant fault one for not giving up sit to the needy.
You cant blame one for not being as helpful as you.
No one have the rights to do so.
It might go against what you think,
what you want,
but that's life.
you can blame them because you wasnt in their shoes.
mr high income, might think that donating $900 per month is ok.
But mr low income might think donating $1 once a while will be enough.
mr generous might think giving out 90% of your income is something everyone should do,
But mr more responsibilities might think spending on family comes first.
mr helpful might think that helping others should always come the first piority,
But mr workaholic might think finish urgent tasking should come first.
The question is if you are helping something that can be done much later and neglected the more important and urgent task on hand ?
It's just like a man who left with a 10% oxygen tank pass his 10% to a person who left with 20% oxygen and died, when the rescue boat is coming soon. how necessary is it ?
how kind, how helpful ? depending on individual aspect. one shouldnt expect others to see and do things the same as they thought.
you shouldn't blame him, he's 25 and got his own views, stand, piority and ways. you shouldnt blame your son being different from you.
- should we help those who receive sufficient help from others ?
--- " ---
adios
