25nov09 wed : hazy red

' to achieve perfect fairness in the world is 99% impossible, cause the earth is not evenly round'

some people are just that stubborn, refuse to accept others suggestions.

fairness, complications, responsibility, selfishness, autocratic ....

you wldn understand the feelings of it unless u are the one going through it.

mum's back from india

wants to go oversea !!! omg , alright it's not the time yet

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26nov2009 thurs : rainy purple

First time I experience a child crying infront of me after coaching so long. guess i sld have put to a stop and not trying to get him over his comfort zone at that point of time haiz somemore he's just a 2 years old kid. it's a thin line between comfort zone and learning new things. have to take things more slowly next time. Seriously i need more experience and explorations in handling kids ... *sigh

sometimes taking public transport is good. can rest, can observe things around .

loves OREO CHEESE CAKE !! thanks sis for that .

oreo + cheese = happy

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adios

nowcast: hazy purple

how i hope people around me didn treat me that well.

sometimes i wonder do i deserve such kind treatment from u all ? i feel bad about it. Something i realised, there are times where i didn know how to repay the kindness that you all have given me. But there's somethings i hope to remember 10yrs, 50yrs down the road, that when i was young till now u all are always with me, supporting me therefore i must not forget to repay these kindness. do forgive my selfishness and stubborness at times. thanks uncle dad, lao sim and mum.

if every kind deed is calculate as +1 then i think i wouldn be able to repay all these kindess this life time.

I guess i have sort of forgive and forget what he had done and the damages he cause to us. things went wrong, and he made the wrong choice. He choose to be irresponsible and neglect this family of his. But it isnt his fault entirely, it's because all of us resent him, isolate him, didn give him a chance to chance. I felt sorry for him, although he did not play his part as father, but still i will play my part as a son.

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people wonder why things have to be calculative. why cant things just go in a simpler way ?

however if things wasnt calculative, the world will be in havoc condition. Everything will just be anything and anyhow. Calculation is also a part of order, and fairness. but to what extend, you decide yourself.

any simple sport match can reveal the reality of the world, the practicality of human. it's ugly somehow.

sometime if life doesnt have any feelings or emotions to consider, things will be so much simpler. but think about it again, will you want to leave in a world without care and concern ?

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Went to Run for Hope '09 , 10km jog with butt. I ask myself what's the reason i am doing it for, for the organisation that organize? for cancer research? for friend ? - i dont know, remain in a blur zone. anyway i guess it doesnt matter.

Just when i am getting numb to the world, someone did something that remind me to be helpful. helpful means helping others we are in need of help, by helping these people their task will be easier and faster, by helping these people they are able to do certain things that are not possible to be done alone. To what extend or under which circumstances should we help, i guess it's up to individual.

bad headache hit again. i cant find out the reason for it this time.

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i need a personality change. a change for the better.

nowcast: hazy purple

this is the problem which i might also face in the future. this problem will only arise in middle to low income family, where money is the green light to go or not to go for further study. I guess that's life. We have to make use of what we have in life and work things out. It's gg to be tough, really tough but i know she will make it because of her determination, hopefully things will go smoothly for her. Take a break, sit down and think of the future, think of what we really want in life and how are we going to achieve it. The future lies in our hands.

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long long week. where there's so much of uncertainties, changes and repeititions. where the only thing to look forward is the time it's over.

tough times like this will reveal the nature of human. selfless or selfish. it's where everyone plays their part to achieve it. 'tough time dont last, tough men do'

make use of every seconds, there will be time for rest .

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06nov09 fri : windy blue

- K box with sis and bf

- had fav cereal prawn !
do i deserve such good treatment ? i wonder. i really hope the predicted future is untrue. i hope that our siblings bonds will also stay strong and unite.

[dt east][changi]

07nov09 sat : sunny orange

- OW trg . the wave that day was really nice to swim , or issit some sorta psychological effect ?
- didn noe why is there such adrenaline rush throughout the trg ... issit food ? sleep ? people ? weather ? previous day mood ? i wonder ... and for no reason yk is falling in love in doing push ups that day . hmm . strange . - tireness did not appear in my head at all -
- receive 1 x call. quite suprise (big question mark)to hear that he/she is taking off on that day but happy though.
-supper with butt. everyday people die, but how did these people handle death so calmly ? And how did those close ones manage to accept the fact that he/she have to go ? i wonder.

[sentosa][bdk 85]

08nov09 sun : leafy green

- nutrilite jog, stated 4.5k but i feel that it's much lesser. happen to see my sispec buddy there ! yup it's coincidence, kept knocking onto him this week, twice i guess.
- library. books tonnes of books but only restricted to 4 .
- cant resist the temptation of the chicken chop ...

[expo 3] [tamp]

leave leave off off long rest week

31st Oct (Sat)

- dislike the term 'china man', pls don use names like that just because people 'ang mo' is way belows u all.


- i guess that's the problems when people from all walks of life comes together. the tendency to look down or dislike one another. i guess education does plays a part in making friends ?


- rain rain rain
hate it when i have to ride my bike under the rain, esp jus after washing !!

- but no choice, took leave for the RFH runner pack collection

- went through erp gantry without cashcard.

-almost lost in the process but thanks to 'butt's moving gps'.

[regent][sgh]

1st Nov (Sun)

- went to pray

- have a fulfilling lunch with bro at the Tanjong Pagar hawker , nice traditional wanton mee (the tomato sauce type), with soya drink and a plate of cai tou gue wooOOoo that's heaven !

- went for a 30mins jog
it's that cold stingy feeling agn. well i guess it comes once in the blue moon, hopefully it don come during RFH... haiz

[tanjong pagar] [tamp-psr-tamp]

2nd Nov (Mon)

- went swimming with bro
haha he is learning butterfly ! ok la, consider very good since his 2nd time practising =)

- Rotting at home watching (general hospital drama) nice !

- nice chat with vonn, thanks =)

[tamp SC][home]

3rd Nov (Tues)

- went light re workout after hours and hours of self motivation ... haha

- went swimming after butt's first prac then had a rainbow paddlepop which i have been missing for soo long ! =)

- met gwp gang, michael birthday =) LT's treat. realise that i spelled michael name wrongly on the keychain. have great time catching up with them =)

[TNCC gym][bedok][bugis]

- wants to live life to the fullest !
- wants to help needy people but but at the same time dont wanna being take advantages of.

adios