problems
i have got the points that i satisfied, the course i dreamed to go, but how will my future be ?I have received the enrolment letter from republic poly,now i have to worry about the poly fees. I have to pay the 1st sem payment and buy a laptop, but my mum was oversea, working hard to support this family. i didn let her know abt this, didn want to keep her worry, keep telling her that i have sufficient. for the saving i having now was only able to afford either the fees or the laptop. wtf, i thought that school fees has to pay only at the end of semester, shitty. now i have to seek help from my big brother and sister but not my 2nd brother, cos he intend to use his saving to buy a bike, dont wanna bother him. But my big bro have to pay for the family bill.so many troubles. sis asked me to loan from bank but i am thinking of borrowing from UD.5/4/05 was the due date. feeling so troubled, "why do i have such a irrespondsible father?". I admire my friends who have their fathers who is respondsible and supporting them. But i am happy living in a family where my brother and sister cared alot for me. hoping that my father will change one day...overcoming barriers and move toward my goals.there'll always be a way out.
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Monday, March 28, 2005
26/3/2005
saturday 26/3/2005
wah, so tired early in the morning, slept v late the night before becos of work. then have to wake up in the morning for GV NPCC. hmm, that day , was the day they took their promotion test. I was the examiner for the promotion for sergent to staff sergent test. That was the first time taking a promotion test grading others. out of 11, there's only one failer and 1 on hold. of cos the rest of the 9 all passed. then went home ard 130pm , due to the discussion of the test. Mr Seong was great, he even want to sponor us CIs to attend the air rifle cost. Went to tai chi, hahaz there's 2 new members joining, they were ah ben and hong yan. Then have to rash to work. unlucky day, i broke a cup while drying it, dropped the food on the floor and broke a cap of a flask. Suai ah !! Tired . .
wah, so tired early in the morning, slept v late the night before becos of work. then have to wake up in the morning for GV NPCC. hmm, that day , was the day they took their promotion test. I was the examiner for the promotion for sergent to staff sergent test. That was the first time taking a promotion test grading others. out of 11, there's only one failer and 1 on hold. of cos the rest of the 9 all passed. then went home ard 130pm , due to the discussion of the test. Mr Seong was great, he even want to sponor us CIs to attend the air rifle cost. Went to tai chi, hahaz there's 2 new members joining, they were ah ben and hong yan. Then have to rash to work. unlucky day, i broke a cup while drying it, dropped the food on the floor and broke a cap of a flask. Suai ah !! Tired . .
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
22/3
First step toward my dreamsSs =)
the posting came out earlier then i expected, ah ben called me this morning and told me that the posting was out.mY posting result was REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC BIOTECHNOLOGY R16,whopee my last strand of hope make it!This was my 4th choice.My dreams toward saving life.heeZz.but life going to be tough from then onward.hmm, last night my bro, sis and i were discussing about that i shouldnt work when my sch start. but if i dont work at ark, there will be no income for me and further more when my mum return, i will become a finacial burnden to her. I have thought of the ways of settle my education fees, A: study in the day, work at night,my studies might suffered.B: sign-on JPSDS, for these 3 years there wouldnt be any worries, but there will be 5 years contract which i have to worry years later.C: loan from bank, this will also create problems in the years later. D: rely on my bro,sis and mum, life will be tough for them. which way should i choose ? So many years, i still dont understand why have such a irresponsible father,if only i have a responsible father... my mum told me that something has happen to him in the past that cost him in the current state(slacking and not supporting the family), but shouldnt a guy should be strong and responsible supporting the family of his? even when life's tough ? i dont know whether i sld hate him anot, i dont know what feeling i have to him." i don mind if u have try supporting us, we can endure this together as a family, but u are not even trying. my only good memories with you was when i was v young, u brought us out with a pick-up with lucky around.but the remains were bad memories."Now in my current life, i hav to commit to NPCC, Judo, taichi, work, fuhui... blah blah blah.. hahaz, stop talking about these stupid stuffs liao. this was just the beginning of another stage of life where i will grow stronger and think deeper.hahazZz, i realise something today,"people show off because they wanted to share with u their achievement,because u r somebody to them,they wanted to share with u the feeling of that they finally make it to their goals,to the destination they have set.that's the sense of achievement" where u can only feel it after hardworks toward your goals or when u realised ur individual talent.however if u felt that this friend of yours is showing off to u, that mean u r jealous which is a feeling u shouldnt be feeling,instead u should be happy that u have such a friend that willing to share with u their's successes,and by sharing this might motivate u to do something that u nv thought of achieving it. i belive that success is something that comes with understanding(talent), hardwork and of cause some luck.
the posting came out earlier then i expected, ah ben called me this morning and told me that the posting was out.mY posting result was REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC BIOTECHNOLOGY R16,whopee my last strand of hope make it!This was my 4th choice.My dreams toward saving life.heeZz.but life going to be tough from then onward.hmm, last night my bro, sis and i were discussing about that i shouldnt work when my sch start. but if i dont work at ark, there will be no income for me and further more when my mum return, i will become a finacial burnden to her. I have thought of the ways of settle my education fees, A: study in the day, work at night,my studies might suffered.B: sign-on JPSDS, for these 3 years there wouldnt be any worries, but there will be 5 years contract which i have to worry years later.C: loan from bank, this will also create problems in the years later. D: rely on my bro,sis and mum, life will be tough for them. which way should i choose ? So many years, i still dont understand why have such a irresponsible father,if only i have a responsible father... my mum told me that something has happen to him in the past that cost him in the current state(slacking and not supporting the family), but shouldnt a guy should be strong and responsible supporting the family of his? even when life's tough ? i dont know whether i sld hate him anot, i dont know what feeling i have to him." i don mind if u have try supporting us, we can endure this together as a family, but u are not even trying. my only good memories with you was when i was v young, u brought us out with a pick-up with lucky around.but the remains were bad memories."Now in my current life, i hav to commit to NPCC, Judo, taichi, work, fuhui... blah blah blah.. hahaz, stop talking about these stupid stuffs liao. this was just the beginning of another stage of life where i will grow stronger and think deeper.hahazZz, i realise something today,"people show off because they wanted to share with u their achievement,because u r somebody to them,they wanted to share with u the feeling of that they finally make it to their goals,to the destination they have set.that's the sense of achievement" where u can only feel it after hardworks toward your goals or when u realised ur individual talent.however if u felt that this friend of yours is showing off to u, that mean u r jealous which is a feeling u shouldnt be feeling,instead u should be happy that u have such a friend that willing to share with u their's successes,and by sharing this might motivate u to do something that u nv thought of achieving it. i belive that success is something that comes with understanding(talent), hardwork and of cause some luck.
Sunday, March 20, 2005
19/3/05
19/3
today-tiring plus boring day:ark holding function, hav to clear up all the mess by myself
.wat's life abt?
.skip taichi again,cos work starting at 3
.borrowed 2 books. abt ninja .haven read yet
today-tiring plus boring day:ark holding function, hav to clear up all the mess by myself
.wat's life abt?
.skip taichi again,cos work starting at 3
.borrowed 2 books. abt ninja .haven read yet
Saturday, March 19, 2005
18/3
18/3
-sunny
-playing armies of exigo
-ark:learned how to make mix fruit tea, paradise dream, taught by mimi
"do everything with the best u can do, leaving no regrets behind"
-sunny
-playing armies of exigo
-ark:learned how to make mix fruit tea, paradise dream, taught by mimi
"do everything with the best u can do, leaving no regrets behind"
Friday, March 18, 2005
11/3-17/3
days passes so slowly
11/3
-reported to mr seong @ GVSS
. felt so uneasy working in a new enviroment with new people
.mr seong: a responsible teacher in charge
.take pride in his achievements
.daring
.well-organised person
-helping out in EVNP(NPCC sv day)
.didn really help out alot
-EVNP sec 1/2 camp
12/3
-first parade @GVNP
.V tired due to that i only slept 2hrs the night before
.hope that i can do something to buck up their drills
.their system were far different from EVNP:rely most on NCOs ,CIs over looking things like OCs probably due to the past of not having CIs to run the unit.
-at hm sleeping like a pig (too tired)
-skip tai chi lesson due to over sleeping
.felt so bad for skipping taichi class, felt that i have let sensei kong down
13/3
-helping out for GVNP sec1 camp
.only have 1/2hrs sleep due to the tying of rope obstacles
.only 2 helpers, helped me
-Ark interview
14/3
-release from camp
-overslept, late for first day of work at ark
15/3
-work at ark
16/3
-EVNP CD trip
.talk alot with mr yeo on the way back, he taught me lotsa things
-katong judo
.fun,my spirit is back
17/3
-pass CD trip attendent to Nan
.met Liyana R on the way there
-ark
11/3
-reported to mr seong @ GVSS
. felt so uneasy working in a new enviroment with new people
.mr seong: a responsible teacher in charge
.take pride in his achievements
.daring
.well-organised person
-helping out in EVNP(NPCC sv day)
.didn really help out alot
-EVNP sec 1/2 camp
12/3
-first parade @GVNP
.V tired due to that i only slept 2hrs the night before
.hope that i can do something to buck up their drills
.their system were far different from EVNP:rely most on NCOs ,CIs over looking things like OCs probably due to the past of not having CIs to run the unit.
-at hm sleeping like a pig (too tired)
-skip tai chi lesson due to over sleeping
.felt so bad for skipping taichi class, felt that i have let sensei kong down
13/3
-helping out for GVNP sec1 camp
.only have 1/2hrs sleep due to the tying of rope obstacles
.only 2 helpers, helped me
-Ark interview
14/3
-release from camp
-overslept, late for first day of work at ark
15/3
-work at ark
16/3
-EVNP CD trip
.talk alot with mr yeo on the way back, he taught me lotsa things
-katong judo
.fun,my spirit is back
17/3
-pass CD trip attendent to Nan
.met Liyana R on the way there
-ark
Thursday, March 10, 2005
09/03-10/03
tiring day
didn slept for the night in the chalet, then finally can catch some sleep during 10++ ,hahaz then the cherry kept disturbing us(those who wanted to sleep) finally she settled down then can get some sleep liao,hahaz, after a while stomachache, wah!! after coming back from the toilet, cherry sleeping liao. then during 11, mi and orange tried to wake her up but useless she was sleeping so soundly, after sometimes finally waked her up.then after awhile everyone has waked up, then TCS lolz, feeling so sleepy. went to np teach those sec 3 rifle drill, after tat still got judo training, wah so tired. wakey next day sore throat got worse with flu, sickening, feel weak.
didn slept for the night in the chalet, then finally can catch some sleep during 10++ ,hahaz then the cherry kept disturbing us(those who wanted to sleep) finally she settled down then can get some sleep liao,hahaz, after a while stomachache, wah!! after coming back from the toilet, cherry sleeping liao. then during 11, mi and orange tried to wake her up but useless she was sleeping so soundly, after sometimes finally waked her up.then after awhile everyone has waked up, then TCS lolz, feeling so sleepy. went to np teach those sec 3 rifle drill, after tat still got judo training, wah so tired. wakey next day sore throat got worse with flu, sickening, feel weak.
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
28/2/05
the result
of cause i was worring that i might got a E8 for english. but i make it, i was able to make it to poly,i was happy. although not much choices, but still make it. did not disappoint those ppl who care for me.but did not make it to fufill the promise, 18points,feel so lousy.
of cause i was worring that i might got a E8 for english. but i make it, i was able to make it to poly,i was happy. although not much choices, but still make it. did not disappoint those ppl who care for me.but did not make it to fufill the promise, 18points,feel so lousy.
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