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First step toward my dreamsSs =)

the posting came out earlier then i expected, ah ben called me this morning and told me that the posting was out.mY posting result was REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC BIOTECHNOLOGY R16,whopee my last strand of hope make it!This was my 4th choice.My dreams toward saving life.heeZz.but life going to be tough from then onward.hmm, last night my bro, sis and i were discussing about that i shouldnt work when my sch start. but if i dont work at ark, there will be no income for me and further more when my mum return, i will become a finacial burnden to her. I have thought of the ways of settle my education fees, A: study in the day, work at night,my studies might suffered.B: sign-on JPSDS, for these 3 years there wouldnt be any worries, but there will be 5 years contract which i have to worry years later.C: loan from bank, this will also create problems in the years later. D: rely on my bro,sis and mum, life will be tough for them. which way should i choose ? So many years, i still dont understand why have such a irresponsible father,if only i have a responsible father... my mum told me that something has happen to him in the past that cost him in the current state(slacking and not supporting the family), but shouldnt a guy should be strong and responsible supporting the family of his? even when life's tough ? i dont know whether i sld hate him anot, i dont know what feeling i have to him." i don mind if u have try supporting us, we can endure this together as a family, but u are not even trying. my only good memories with you was when i was v young, u brought us out with a pick-up with lucky around.but the remains were bad memories."Now in my current life, i hav to commit to NPCC, Judo, taichi, work, fuhui... blah blah blah.. hahaz, stop talking about these stupid stuffs liao. this was just the beginning of another stage of life where i will grow stronger and think deeper.hahazZz, i realise something today,"people show off because they wanted to share with u their achievement,because u r somebody to them,they wanted to share with u the feeling of that they finally make it to their goals,to the destination they have set.that's the sense of achievement" where u can only feel it after hardworks toward your goals or when u realised ur individual talent.however if u felt that this friend of yours is showing off to u, that mean u r jealous which is a feeling u shouldnt be feeling,instead u should be happy that u have such a friend that willing to share with u their's successes,and by sharing this might motivate u to do something that u nv thought of achieving it. i belive that success is something that comes with understanding(talent), hardwork and of cause some luck.