the two side

19102005

raining heavily

break le

injured neck..

181005

181005
: dark cloud over the sun

-RP
-Today's A102 was interesting
- lifesaving( loner)
- SAS poster design
- UT prep

today's school, i felt fufillful as i really so into the understanding of the hybridisation!! i finally understand it!! hohoho.. hmm then went to life saving which no one turn out for the extra training, even the one who ask me to go... so disapointed...swim myself lolz.. omg !! guess wat? i met a gay!! shitty ! when i was resting at the pool side he talk to me, what's more was he stalked me even ask me for dinner... HOLY COW~~~ hmm then went onto train, lucky sitting beside me was ger xia .. phew ... linz's moody... why ? i don noe ... wat can i do to make u happy?

141005

141005
>dark cloud hanging over the sky

-slack at home
-night cycling with j and tiong

don feel like doing anything, therefore i did nth, think nth, all i did was sleeping, stoning ... no life, cant figure out...

holy cow~~

131005
still air, motionless

-RP
-Rp judo
-mac with choon hong

Sianzation !! hmmm, today, in a team that TBDN ( talk but do nth) ... hmmm, ate nasi bryani before training, shiok manz.. filling up my hungary stomach. Today's judo, uji komi 1 set 20, moving uji komi, moving kata randori, physical games, randori and finally na waza randori.. hmm.. not that siong after all, maybe i was too slack in training ? i want to improve, but it seems that i was stuck at the level, unable to find ways up... sometimes i really felt that we were living in our own world, i don't understand you, neither do u understand me, i hope that i can read your mind but i cant... i wonder... tell me how ? hmm ... linz 'really hope to see you happy again'... i felt tired and useless... ' seeing ur's smiles brights my sky up', ' in this world, when/how many will one find someone that understand him/her? the star that belongs ?'

120905

120905
m: bright sun shinning down the clear blue sky

-RP
-Kjudo
-met ZY

hahazZ, started with a sleepy morning, dragging my way to school. Today's team was fun!! hahaz, the more talkative team i ever met so far in my new class... we were crapping !! hohoho.. LOL stupid SH mistook my 'sis' as my gf, lolz as always, she's baka ... jkjk.. next judo training, wah!! siong lehz, so much physical.. hahaz, but i like it... chiong chiong chiong, finally a siong training... hahaz i am going to improve!! cos i have good teachers, and good partners.. ! hmm, met ZY today, pass her the water bag.. hahaz nth changes in her.. hmm linz still worring about her result, what can i do ? if she worry = moody = unhappy = affect ME ... haizZ, hey i having a start in drving towards my dreams!! good results, excel in judo !! " when i belives, i will be there " - k6i

111005

111005
back to the past
m: cloudy

-RP
-President at RP
-visiting lifesaving instructor (CGH)

Today, a intresting lesson i had, finally, a facilitator that teaches, she tried to clear my doubts about obital electrons which was something not needed for this lesson, although she was unsuccessful in clearing my doubts, but she earn my respect from my heart. Thanks for not giving up, it's probably that i am too slow in understand things. Then after lesson, follow the lifesaving IG to welcome the president. Then slack in the library till the night as we have to wait for james for his floorball compeition and then we went to CGH to visit richard( our lifesaving coach) as he just has an operation to remove the don noe wat thing in his don noe wat organ. hahaz , cant remember.seeing him like that make me think that i am lucky compared to him, although i has 3 operation in my life, but i don have any memories about it, i cant emember anything about the operation, nothing at all, probably because it was done when i was young. This also reminds me that i am not that healthy compare to others, confidence level drop, the limit i can stretch might not be as far to others physically. hmm, today linz took her maths and sciences paper, she thinks that she did badly for it, but such things as long as u has tried your best can le , the rest i think still have to rely it on fate/luck. Looking back, i gone the hard way through, eversince i posted to eastview, my life seem to be decided. from primary to secondary, then wanting to take bio ended up taking art(i finally manage to pass my english but failed my maths), from then onwards, i understand that as long as u have tried your best, you should be happy over it, everythings i do, i tried my best, yes i failed once, twices, even thrice, or more, yes i failed, but i wldn regret, i understand more about how to achieves it. Even posted to art class, i didn give up(as i think that will be the worse thing can happen in life- giving up in urself) , i was unsatisfied with the posting , why am i posted to the last class? although posted to last class, i always tried to top in the class, keeping myself compeitive with other classes( although i might mean nth to them) but at least i tried, there i go, ended up in republic poly, if i have give up , i sld be in ite by now or even becoming a useless person. ' although might not achieve, at least i tried, leaving no regrets behind' i hope linz could understand this, sometimes, somethings might not just the way u wanted to, there might be more efforts needed, might be more thoughts needed...since we are still breathing, let's continue the journey and not stopping here and ponder over it 'leaving those footsteps behind, and not just the thought of stepping over it' originated by k6i ...

091005

091005
m:breezy

-slack home
-work shilin

Today? slack the half day home, ytd night used the whole night to do the camp proposer, sianz... NO LIFE.. haha.. hmm last day at shilin.. BYE guys, take care!! home- dark sauce egg fry rice by ME.. not bad after all.. wow, my brother brought protein power, amazing, but it taste suckY .. dad give me $50 for allowance, suprised, cos he don does that in the past.. hmm hope to see linz on wed...'life have to goes on as things gonna changes' - k6i

071005

071005
m:v cloudy

-RP
-discussion abt camp
-meet JJ

Today's team, is good, better then the past few days, everyone doing something. nth much to say. tired. met cin for discussion abt dec nco camp, broke her thumbdrive, brought a new one. sianz, unexpected expenses. I don like things that is complicated, just like nowadays with the new wci just joined, hmmm things seem to get complicated.haiz my 1st week grade seem to be dissapointing , suffering from depression LOL. no la .. now i just want my life with Judo and study, and work. I guess i will stop going to NP after the campcraft compeition. v tired so many things to do. 'i hope to accompany u till the day we walk till the edge of the earth' linz
i feel like killing !! don noe why v sian, cos of npcc, make me so sian. 'things are complicated until u understand it, they become simple'

061005

061005

-RP
-RP Judo

Fun day!! hahaz CH came for judo training !! muhaha , didnt go for astro... guess i quitting soon ? hmm haven made up my mind. what tactic shld i focus in judo ? anyway guess what i saw my future!! hahah An 5 years degree from NTU, biological science , combination of the studies of chinese and western medicne !! so motivated to study 'At the end of the 5 years, successful students will receive two degrees, a B.Sc. (Hons.) in Biomedical Sciences and a B.Med. in Chinese Medicine.' Wa!! cOol!! biomedical sci NTU... haha, save save ... lol.. they also accept my dipolma !! i have a chance.. ' saw it!! path it- reach it'

011005

011005
fridaY
m:breezy

-WGP
-edit edit edit psn

Lame and tiring day ...

RESULTS AND CLASS IS OUT!!
result, 4B+ and 1B(satisfy, hehe, reaching for higher!! I AM GREEDY) , sem 2 target = 5B+
class, PS0105 (yeaH!! no more mountain climbing early in the morning !!)

current schdule
mon-RP, WSL
Tues-RP, RPLifeSaving
Wed- RP, KJudo
Thurs- RP, RPJudo, RPAstro
Fri- RP, (WGP)
Sat- NPCC,(WGP or KJudo)
Sun- WSL

=sianz, some life
stress lehz, almost suffocated... should i quit my work in shilin ?I WANT TO QUIT MANz!! thinking thinking thinking
Reduce commitment ... damn it
Didn bother goin to the bbq, tired ...
happy birthday to HL ...
hope linz will see a doctor, and be happy...

290905

290905
m: cloudy

-RPJ

Had a terrible dream last night, dreamt of someone impt to me left me in the sudden.. the dream make me thought of it the whole day round. wakeY late, late for judo training.. my throws sucks!! i cant excute properly.. kata randori partner with raft, cant throw him properly becos of my stupid leg.. then follow by demo, learn kata guruma but still unable to excute it properly.. then tamoe naga.. Then when to collect shirt.. took 33 from queenway to bedok, didn bother to change to mrt, 1.5 hrs trip, lotsa thoughts went through my mind...a thoughts of k6i.. 'i exist here because of fate'.... finally finishing the disc ...

280905

280905
w:breezy
m: cloudy

- katong judo

linz is unhappy today, so as i... hmm guess she's stress about exams, going into the bioclass, and over the stuffs happening in her family ? I cant guess what's on her mind ... gers thought are so deep... today's judo lesson was interesting!! combination tatics !! from , ko ouchi gari to osoto gari, osoto gari to uchi mata then the breaking of stiff hold- main the pull and the push in wrist follow by any tatics, still trying out the comb of ko ouchi gari to uchi mata.. 'got confidence for ivp ??' my answer to her no ... i havent reach the standard... 'find and play your style of judo!' - sensei ...

k6i 2409

another typical daY of k6i
W:biG biG suN hanging in the skY
M:aku tatawu

NPCC meeting: with 2 wcis of GV (for dec camp)
Katong Judo
Work (GWPH)

today ??? ANOTHER BORING DAY!!! yeaH!! saw linz , but she look so 'not okie' , hmm injured so long le, but still didn bother to see a doc...haiZzzzzZZzz feel like dragging her to doc manZz.. tired today... 'tomorrow mayb my last day of work in shilin', ' quit ? still thinking' heY guess wat? today's funtion was a 50th wedding anniversery of a couple !! wow, 50 years lehz.. every time i see people marry, i felt happiness for them, hmmm so when will it be my turn??

1609

mY 1st Judo compeitition
m:=(
w:sunnY

Today, i am having the first judo compeitition in my judo life( old boys vs present), saw lotsa sch mates. Today competition's results turn out unexpectedly, heavy vs light, light win, don noe wat's HB doin ... not attacking at all, playing defensive... hmm, JT play real well in winning HB... linz won her match=) before that she was still worring that she cant win... I was always look down by others as usual... hahaz... my first judo match, i was defeated by JT within 10sec ... by low seoi toshi...which i tot was a wazari, refree gave a ippon... i was a step slower in grapperling , i failed to take control in the first place... 'there's always next time, the harder u fall the firmer u'll stand...' i belive in that... i LOSE as expected...luckily the team event overall win(thanks to vincent)... one of my friend told me that actually i could win, but it seem that i has fear in me... that's true ba, after she said that i realise it myself ... went out with linz, didn tok much.. sorry linz.. then linz told me about maybe her father knowing our relationship, as her sis saw her holding onto my bag outside sch... don noe wat will happen later, hope nth serious will happen..let nature take it's course 'my love for her has got stronger ... i don noe why ...the room of heart is getting smalller ..that's nature i guess?''i love her the way she is ' ... I must get serious now, 'try the keys i found in judo, mayb they might just works' ...feel like quiting as a CI, i feel tired every now and then... unlocking the myth... 'CONTROL, FOLLOW,EXCUTE' .. everyone out there, i gonna train hard cos i will win my next judo compeitition,'that's a promise to myself' !!

ready for it?

1509
w:sunnY
m:low

Today, meet linz, mark and malaysia for katong training, when for a haircut, look more fresh now ... wanting to buy gi from sensei but he doesn't have size 4 gi then have to rush home to getmy drying gi. Today, low morale but learn alot from song lin today about randori =) thanks alot bro!! 'u let me gain some morale' what's more today ?? hmm, i felt fortunate in my life, regardless of family, friends, my linz ,i got everythings the best ? yes!! to me it is!! I have got everthing best in the world, my experiences is what others cant get=) I felt support from my friends, felt some care from my family, concern from linz and that's enough for me le, i am happy about it , no more no life!! muhahahaz... but maybe one day, everythings will be gone... cos nothing last forever... just like PL0103, everything have to serparate, one day everyone will go seperate ways, ' u go ur heaven way, i go my wood bridge way' , not becos we wanted to seprate but it's fate , it's fate that bring we together as a class... so we should treasure every moment together, be it with yr family, friends or loves one =) muhahaz 'everything can be taken away expect those memories, the things written in mystory... they live in my mind... ' OPOP , out of point... back to topic, hmmm, judo competition - old boys vs present boys , training for it but was unable to excecute my tatics correctly during randori , hmmm must think how it's work !! think think think, fight(randori) for the sake of learning not winning ... why ppl pin hopes on me ? encouraging me ? but ... i still think that i am still inexperience... nvm la ... just do it!! nothing to lose, be it win or lose, experience of it is wat matter most, ppl out there listen up!! i will try my best !! that's a promise to u guys , linz and me, myself .. i may not win but i will become stronger !! muhahahz cos i am tian cai okiee dokie ? (linz injure again, KL oso injure her shoulder , hmm hope they'll heal soon =))

1309

1309
w:rainYzz
m: from enthu to no life

when to judo training @ RP, everything were fine till the final randori session, which made me wore out totally, continously fought s faizal, then s junyi , gabby, big ball, raft, micheal, then s faizal again,they are fresh while my energy level kept depleting continously... i = totally hopeless for friday i guess... unable to concentrate, kept using the same technic, brain jus stop working... didn went to lifesaving training, too tired, both physically and mentally... lost my permenent contact ytd , brought daily contact today, cos having some constraint to buy a monthly or yearly, needa buy gi, stuffs for ophir... going dry... no life la... ' win or lose? i will still try my best for it!! '

1209

1209
W: rainY
M: no life

hmm, what's life of mine about ? so tired to think about it, have been working for 4 days consectively some more got so many events, activties going on... Back to today, went for ophir training in sch, so tiring don feel like doing it, but i done it. then went to ev judo training(saw lotsa my goodie friends, sharil, mf, jas mei ...), looking at myself = low morale for friday's comp... then went working after sending linz hm... that's all about today.. Friday playing east view's old boys vs present boys, my first judo competion in my judo life, lose how? 'no confidence= half battle lose, jj told me that b4'need some morale booster(only my own action can boost it, nth else)!! lol hahaZz hope wldn let linz down...'win with beautiful and correct tactic' Past, i live my life for others, present, living for self, FOR the future i will live my life for both others and self !! gonna get a new gi this wed, else no time to wash gi . 'if there's one day this happen, don worry, i will understand it'

lifeless

10092005
0107 hrs
w: breezy

NOT ENOUGH SLEEP,
work from 1000 -2300
felt tired..
lose concentration ..
pour a glass of water accidentally on a guest..

linz is feeling better =)
new CI posted to GVSS, from siglap..
tomorrow, npcc drill compeition, 0800 at hai sing
work 1300 - 0000
'what will happen if tomorrow never come ?'
wore out totally...

09092005

09092005
W:sunnY/ slightly drizziling
T: 0402

Today, went to the NEW water plant in bedok(a ce activity by RP), then follow by life saving till 2plus , hmm, finally some time to rest, went straight home boom !! onto the bed. skip astronomy session. Went cycling with, SL, JJ, V, ZJ and GJ,unlucky day ?? hmm, guess so.. we went to ECP then went all the way to town/city area.Took photos with stamford raffles, PS, NAC... On the way there, SL buang, rolling breakfall off the bike, no serious injuries to him, while the bike brake spoil, but then later repaired with the help of an unknown biker, thanks anyway. On the way back to tamp, we fly all the ways, vroom...!! then way back, SL tire , burst, then JJ and SL take turns to carry the bike while i lobang GJ.Finally home!! Tomorrow still got work from 1000 - 0100, 15hrs tomorrow.. another tiring day ? nono sld put it in ' another fulfilling day !! 'haiz, linz injured her chest while having kata randori with ben, hmm, y did he play so rough on girls too ? he's a bully ? well, i must beat him totally in judo !! Hope linz will recover soon=) hmm, also thanks KL's for the disc given on tues =) like those songs v much. Focus- study, Judo.. OA- work, npcc .. the rest don care, cos too tired, sori abt the JP, guess i will be quiting astronomy soon, as i find the IG was abit too complicated( in politics?) , i don noe... All i want is a simple life, with my dreams .. and fulfilling them. 'Think think think, that's what keep a person improving'

strange things

today, a boring and weird day? okie... wakey then have a 'slibing gathering' hahaz, have a talk with my bros and sis during the lunch, topic was about my mum as she was strange after that incident, well my dad have become responsible le, but my mum ? i not sure ? things seem to be flip around... i am v tired !! then went to work, from 1500 - 2200, slacking ? hahaz today i drop chicken, foods and money abnormal ... then sam told me the stupid story of shaggy , lol then ended up i keep tinking of the name shaggy then got 2 customers order and asked my age, then i blur blur told them, somemore this customers were at the age of 13 or 14 nia .. wth blur until like that...NO LIFE LA, hahaz today got to know kl experiences in life lolz, intersting and similar to mine, after so long i met another person which share the similar interest with mine lolz, hard to find ppl who listen to songs which touch feeling de. tomorrow is another day... going east view judo, cos requested by linz, lolz seeing ya !! :' being a gf of mine must be a v tough things i guess...' cos i am guy who has lotsa commitments and unable to spend time for the special ones, sorry... ' guess i needa give up on some of my interest le, but judo and npcc will still remains. 'my passion is burning' , saturday is npcc drill compeition le, hope gv can make, ' winning is not everything, the process is what matter most..'