from dying to living !lols

md: cloudy(m), sunny (e)

Sickening ! feel so weak in the morning even until reaching school, feel like vomitting, having sore throat and headache=( took panadols slept in class until lesson start then felt better... sorry guys if u all find me so moody in the morning... anyway, in the evening i receive a new water bottle from ger =) hope i can fully recover from the sore throat which have been pestering me for about 2 weeks ? haizz

an ideal girl ?

md: cloudy?

An ideal girl? One who will not hesitate in loving and caring for him? Doing things together (cooking, sports)? putting in efforts in understand him and support him at the back? love him the way he is?

a guy with nothing.. jus plain simple but no one understand..

wat a day...

md: rainy

what a day ?! yawn, wanted to go swim in the morning but I woke up late, then rush to school hope able to make it in time to have lunch with her. then a long afternoon busy doing aquatic IG stuffs, sending out emails. Didn't get to swim today, cos the weather didnt allow us to, what to do? eat fries lorz. next thing have to do is to do proposer for morning trainings wah then aquatic trial, then AGM, OMG!! so many stuffs. some days back, jin have made me reflected on somethings, as a captain, as a person. sometimes people are not appreciative, may it be doing things for the IG, for the ger. I guess they simply don care as they might just think that it is none of their busniess. Guess now in relationship, i am in the middle of no where. when your friend sick, you worry about them, do you worry about me when i am sick ?In the past, do u love me for who i am or what i am? If you don't hhave feelings for me can you just tell me that and be cruel to me for once(at least i cn try to forget you by all means) ? can you just explain to me? or rather giving me some assurance ?Now in me, i know i still love you but I don't know wat to do. we are like serparated but together... i noe it might be a no, but i hope the answer is yes, what you always say is i don noe...

once in a blue moon week!

md: sunny with rain

Everythings come to an end at AVA as 13th of april comes by. I guess i will be missing everyone there, mr tan HL, mr leong, tutu village head, mr ong, all the aunties and uncles up there, justine, both clements and christina, thanks ms poh for all her teaching too. back to blue moon week, hahaz finally complete the sowing device, although much improvement still needed to be made, but at least i complete it in time. Next cooking, after so long not touching the knife and wok, finally i am back to the kitchen to cook and they taste not bad too :) a bayam potatoes soup with 2 dishes (fried bayam with ikan and dark sauce miced pork with egg tofu), loving the dark sauce miced pork tofu the most. didn know until that day that the vege i loves most was bayam. Folding and packing my clothes was also one of the things i seldom do, that's the reason why i am always wearing back the same similar crumped clothings. Growing chili plants at home, gonna get some soil and fertilizer (NPK) some days, don be amazed to see vegetables growing at my hse corridor. Ate pizza with AVA NP friends, thanks guys. went to TYR warehse, hmm things there wasn't really cheap but with the 30% discount, it's consider cheap ba, brought a jammer, a goggle for me and another for ger. waoh, had a great dinner today, cos ytd was my elderest bro bd ! 2 weeks didn get to see her, missin her..

LS BBQ gathering

md: breezy

whoa.. what a busy day at AVA today, whole morning taking photos for AL then whole afternoon data observation, 150 pots ... think of it, sianz. then cab down to east coast for the preparation for the life saving BBQ gathering, waH pocket burned a big big hole for this gathering manz, sian i organize de ma, so have to pay for everything first lorz, see whether others will pay back anot, hope they will ba.. well money aside, felt really happy to see everyone making their efforts coming down to this gathering, rather touched, where everyone sit and chat, take photos, play around.. thanks guys, esp long fei, jenny(young) and jin. should i train for compeititive swimming? commitment and determination.. unhappy with my dad again, sorry cant control my temper, if only you can be more responsible in the past, guess things wouldn ended up like tat but i do ask myself, why am i angry with you over such small matters? a tiger that nv know how to care for his cubs..

wwat to do?

md: breezY

damn buzy today with picking up calls and calling people, all for the BBQ coming this thursday.. yawnz .. don't nod wat the hell am i doing nowadays.. lost again liao ba.. lost of focus.. wat to do? get them back lorz.. how to get? think think think lorz.. 60 lapz + obstacles 2morrow.. last time sure can do it la... but now ar? my stroke like got problem like tat.. brought a new bike helmet today ! so happy, wanted to tell sy about that but ... haiz

rather be a naive, stupid person than moving into the complicated and corrupted world of fame and greed .. one of my principle.. don't do anythings that will harm anyone.

0903' 06

breezY

painting, painting... no place to do my stuffs, went all the way up to the out field shelter, wanting to finish my draft for the sowing device. Forgot the measurement, unable to draw liao, then mr lee was there again to share his theory and knowledge of the seedling trays, yawns gg to bore to tears. Then when to find suhaimi at the store for the arcylic, then ended up there helping them, talking, looking through those unwanted stuffs, playing with spider. First time went out for lunch with those NP friends, 'thanks guys!' for taking me as ur friend. emo, cold, hard to get with was the first impression i gave to most people, cos i don't know how to... express myself hmm? sometimes kept saying wrong things, oh ya i guess i own Jus a sorry man, becos of the overboard joke on wed. A dumb lizard got stuck on the wet painted window grill ! lol. guess what? while waiting for my chocolate milk shake, there was a little girl filled a full cup of pearls then say give me! lol whooa, if i really take those pearls i guess my stomach will be bloated with pearls. Went to swim, sianz so many people! felt my strokes was improving! but.. my body felt so reluctant to swim, was it the chocolate milk shake reaction? or was it my mentality?

tmr gg for 2BL4 and Riding theory test, i will pass them! then will be working again at GWP.. till 1am...

all the way down

md: cloudy

everyone need to be love, want someone to care, hope somebody will understand them.

ytd headache, didn perform well in class, kanna scold for nth from the security guard, demanding guest, serving like hell, WTF!#$%^&! then today?

life just too sucky this semester... don nod why. may it be results, friends, work, everything seem so dull... life's a mess...

life ?

md: just like the rainy weather today

life ?
none understand
none care
none love

jess last day

md: -

-last day working under jess at GWP le =( missing her
- customer = er somehow irritating ... but nvm
- fun day @ the end, having durian mooncake, shandy 'celebrating' for jess last day at work












- there goes another person who somehow dote me ... nvm still can visit her during others occasion de
- guess GWP will have large reduce in number of part timer haha including ME ...
- working for money liao not for relation lol
oh ya lost previous post due to dc...
to the one i love
'treasure her, find all ways to love her, getting rid her feeling of being neglected'
O 'level' coming liao
jia you wor dearY, no worries i will still miss you and love you de =)

haha
nxt
jess is somehow like my godmum, have being taking good care of me since my first day of work .. 1 year le .. now she's leaving GWP liao... she taught me something, the words 'fairness' and 'understanding' through her action.

'life is about reaching a destination and leaving for another'

unfair yet fair

md: breezY

working ytd and today, both is CWD, both is 1 to 1 but today i feel as if i am doing 2 to 1 ... we were given 3 to 3 table, but one of my partner was a new bird so BB lo ... hmmm but nvm la ... guess what today winsor ballroom change name to tudor ballroom 2 lol, jus becos of some typo error they printed, then have to guide those guest (anyway din really did any thing much) what most coincidence was tat both groom have the same surname, both brides have the same christian name lol *confusion*. anyway i like the guest for ytd and today, know why ? not they give me tips but just simple a word 'appreciative' they appreciate things i have done for them, there was one lady who keep saying thank you from the first drink i serve her to the last desert i served her, also a little ger from another table smiles at me whenever i clear plate, serve drinks etc. Also not forgeting jessica (my 'godmum') at work, thanks her for being so understanding towards me, a great captain who i will be willing to work for, cos she cares for her part timer, she went through those hardship and she understand us =) smile my sis's bf jus brought my favourite bing pe moon cake for me !! =D wahahaha ... tmr another schday, really stress over having majority biomed students as classmate, they are compeitive, unlike us most biotech student, mayb will affect my daily grade =( have to self motivate lol ... pumpping 75% lol... dearY having prelim now *pray for her to score well*=) jia you ger...

tat's life

md: cloudy

- was getting sore throat, cough and flu ... woaHhh
- nxt thursday school reopen
- nxt wed last day of attachment at AVA
- things to complete = PP, 20 pages attachment report, presentation to DBIO, soil analysis... yawnZz
- life's unfair yet fair?
- no one is resistant to change ?
- ever wonder how many people know how to treasure time, people and things around them?
- i wan to be contented, but ppl ard me shows me that i shouldnt be... am i too compeitive ?

let it go

md: nil

- let go
- understand
'how ppl piorities things, shows that how important are things meant to them'

- AVA attachment turn out to be sort of dissapointment (things was not plan for what we going to do there)
- treasure ppl ard, and their existance
- life turning back to those solo days...
- once he care for everyone but himself, then he care for himself more then anyone, after that he treat ppl the way they treat him... now or the future ?? who should he care?

mHNS

md: showering ...

miss her no use

in his mind:

he put her before any other things

but

she put him after everything

... he seem to be upset about it
but there's nothing he can do ...
cos he belives in freedom in relationship...
that's his life... his fate
life filled with misses ...
unhappy ... back to no life like the past ...

he jus wan to know how much does she care...

thing happen with signal ?

md: nil

when i was young i wonder... does thing happen with characteristic before hand?

saw a email receive from my bro about a ger who met with an accident due to a drunk driver, she was not dead but was ard 80% burn .

this morning took bus to sch on 969 saw a person knock down by a bus, guess it dead, it was cover with white canvas, with one of the leg sticking out(appear to be white), and blood appear at the head part. with the forensic number plate on the bus screen.

life is full of coincidence...

once a life

md: :(

- sometimes, someone will just get together for somethings which might happen once in life. things might happen always, but time and people might not...
- needa redo the whole lit review, forgot to transfer to D while reformating
- lappiz very lag as running on 1 ram instad of usual 2
- getting new ram -> getting broke
- no life...
- cut down extra activities (judo...) can save money ... may be jus on swimming lifesaving ?
- hope she will recover from her blisters and sore eyes soon ...

complain!

md: thunder storm

i am not happY
- laptop gg crazy, blackout out anytime
- got my 3rd UT for Bio Chem E....
- C for app chem daily grade ...
- swim so slow.. .

Everythings jus too sucks...
LIFE is unfair !
- i went to acer to repair, that guy told me that nth is wrong jus some software error, after reformating things will be fine... BUT i reformated yet things still goes wrong!! is this what you call professionalism?! haiz with my warranty over ... if service who knows?
-i went studying so hard for that UT, yet those hard work didn paid off, and i got my 2nd E in UT ... argh ! daMN... i will work harder ...
- excuse me miss soh... do you noe how to grade fairly?! do you think getting goods results in UT shows everything about the daily grade? why does a person did no contribution (with good UT grade) and a person did contribution (with average UT grade) gets the same daily grade? jus like DEATH SENTENCE !!
- i swim too slow, not improving ... gonna train harder and win !

mummy gg oversea tmr... hope she will have a safe trip

ahHhh hHHHh!!!! life getting crazY . . . dreams so far away . . . future are so dim . . .

life will get better ...

100th post

md: breezY
the 100th post

- POP (out of GV), miss u guys =)
- received a watch from the teacher officiers esp Mr Seong
- thanks Mr Seong TY for everythings =)
- Went for charity swim, make a mark @ 100 lapS!! =D
- the process was rather blurR, with 30 breast and 70 free!! haha so amazed by myself LOL!! tot i will swim more breast then free..
- just keep swimming and i will reach there soon
- dryer rougher hair ...
- got a E for genetic UT2 =(

'life's like a roller coaster, fulls of ups and down' 23rd' 07' o6

md: nil

as dust blew past and settles...

- got the attachment to Agri-Food & Veterinary Authority (AVA) =) out of so many and only 2 from RP got the chance( won by 1 vote), however feeling sad about it as i won shawn by 1 vote, whereby he's my good friend and better than me in almost everyway =(
- not going for K. Judo training for 3 weeks as UTs coming up on the following fridays =( feeling bad about it... but have to score for the those UTs if not GPA will be affected, at the v least giving my best for it.
- Going for charity swim on next sat 29th july, swimming to donate , aimming for 50- 60 laps but die die will swim 20laps
- change in attitude ? felt it ...

thinG tO kEep in minD:
'never take things for granted'
'keep the positive attitude going'

a bad day at work

md: =(

- went carry box of wines... slippery floor + hole = fell down ... to prevent the wine from breaking : hold it tight and tried my best to reduce impact = injured feet and scratches on hand ...
- feet: still ok at work, after work return home... guess it getting abit swollen ...
- they will be fine after a few days ...