md: :)

Fri - Sat

- Night Cycling
- sentosa trg
- k boxing

Trg was sort off slack, so sleepy everywhere i go.. k box, vonn sings well.

sometimes staying by the side and caring might be a difficult task to accomplish due to circumstances, but will try my best :) mission for everyday: tiny 's smile!! =Pp

doc says, nv nv find someone who have the similar med condition, if not the future generation will suffer. where minor + minor = 75% chance of major. which will be a big problem then.

vonn's alright from the med checkup :)

LAST week in RP:

some of the photos taken:

w35p (AY 06/07)









GMP I & II ( the only class of biopharm track in the biotechnology course)

no sense post

md: lo

this is a no sense post, so don't bother to read it, write it down for the purpose of venting out my anger and disappointment. nth else

it need to be done,
everyone knows it,
but no one take up the job,
delay.. delay..
someone know that this cant be delay,
he got it done.

A rude/ 'non- professional'/ no respect reply in return,
there was a feeling of replying back with #$$%#,
forget it,
small matters,
just swallow it will do,
don let the small little matter spoil the whole purpose...

After which came in the term 'hero',
why bother?
because it's our IG,
for things to move on and higher,
but all people see is 'stupidity'...

People only want to do BIG things and tend to neglected the small little task...

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'all human is sinful' a term heard which i strongly disagree...

some were blessed, some were not,
some were intelligent, some were not,
some were talented, some were not,
some were handsome, some were not,
some were pretty, some were not,
some were rich, some were not,
some were lucky, some were not,
some were ... , some were not...

there wasn't a ALL being used... how can you judge ALL just by one?

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it was designed similar,
meant to be a set,
but now it just meant nothing more than a training gear,
for he's will just turn into 'antique' which will be kept ...
expected too much ...

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see no strength, but only weakness
see no good, but only bads
hear no praise, but only criticisms

helping others and get into troubles
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Just a negative post.. sorry if i do offend anyone out there..

md: nil

At the age of 10
teacher ask: 'so what you want to become in the future?'
boy answer: 'i want to become a policeman when i grow up!'
: ' why ?'
: ' because i believe in the fairness and people should be punish for their wrong doings'

as the boy grew up, he realized that there were things more important, the word 'fairness' actually doesn't 'exist' in this world. people often said that 'when you lose something, you gain something' so it's fair, but there were others who said 'if the world is fair then everyone should be equal, born with equal statues, having equal opportunity and luck'. So what is really fair? and what is not? 2 thief steal, one steal as it was an easy way out, but another steal as he is in real desperate situation (to save his family, etc). Both were caught and jailed, it's justice. but if thief B were given a better situation(born with silver spoon), will him become a thief (he could have simple use his own money to solve the problem) ?

Some people said everyone will experience the same things, but it's just happen at the different point of time in life. there was a chinese saying 'shuan, tian, ku, lia', sour, sweet, bitter, spicy is part of life. One who never experiences sour, bitter will not appreciate the sweetness in life.

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a old friend who will nv think of the consequence when doing things ... was it the environment that have made him the way it is ? or was the environment meant to be a test (he could have choose another decision which will then change his life) ?

'ming yun shi zhan wo zai wo men zhi ji de shou zhong'

md: --

- aquatic chalet (nice choco cake =D)

Monday (first day of sch) unable to attend lesson due to the stupid SAF med checkup again, which have cause my grades for AI seriously suffer..

next next IVP .. my 400m event didn came in last !! phewWw .. so stress over it .. didn beat my PB, but it's alright, improvement requires more training !! :)

8

md: low

it's really demoralizing, i am alr slow and today is slower, which going to make me the slowest among the slow , the BIG 8! I cant find any reasons for such disappointing performance... the goal have just drifted further away..

guess things have changed alot since 23rd... don noe what is happening, it's just felt like as if the past is going to repeat itself again, fated..

everythings just drift further .. and soon to be unreachable ..

simple day, memorable gifts

md: nil

Thanks for remembering my 19th birthday ! =D
- tiny
- zy butt
- vonn
- si jie
- sin yee
- xiao hui jie
- sherilyn
- jason
- jun ming
- wei si
- justine bud
- yong kai
- christina
- thomas
- ah ben
- jessamine
- micheal da ge
- jasmine
- eneida
- ai ling bud
- stella lao ma
- UG
- uncle daddy
- er yi mum & dad + krystal
- jie ying
- joyce
- ci liang

Happy Birthday to :

uncle daddy (26th dec)
mum (27th dec)

sin yee (26th dec)
jasmine (24th dec)
ci liang (31st dec)

Thanks tiny, butt, vonn for the gifts =D and those ang bao from my mum, bro, uncle daddy, er yi mum=D.

it's a birthday where 3 impt people are not in SG (mum, big bro & tiny), hmm anyway let's start from the morning, someone visited! it's lao sim (my grandaunt, who is closer to me as compared to my grandmas, and i missed her), she's here to feed the rabbits . chatted with her :D nxt nxt, went to school for lunch, then went to the lappiz outside OSG to play game and check mail, er ended up doing a simple budget for open water training.

ANYWAY GOODIE NEWS!!( to all LS ppl ! esp to tiny!), as planned open water training will commence starting on the week of sch reopen saturday! timing will most probably be 12pm to 2pm as i set. LET"S TRAIN HARD AND BRING GLORY TO OUR SCH! =D

Back to the day, present from vonn, small pie from eneida, thanks. Training followed by rotting in the pool. dinner at coffee shop thanks that witch again haha jkjk. back home, nuggets, fries and lian ou soup waiting for me =) with 2 cakes ! ( one from uncle dad, another from sis). Fats and cholestrol forecast: will increase in the nxt few days :x thanks for the efforts put in for my present. it was the most simple birthday of all my 19 birthday, but i have received 2 most memorable gifts in my life...

mood

Mood for the day... good start, bad ending...

goes downs and up with the weather and situations..

a) bad planning for the day... or rather didn expect the unexpected

b) raining

c) work issues

d) bad location, wrong buses

e) t mood

f) milo spill

arghH daMn it ! today suppose to be a happy day but things changes just like the weather.. a day that i have been hoping for after ....

culprit for blame = mE , haiz

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fortunate to have her in my life :) dream -> reality thankie for everything tiny :D

mum, bro gg malaysia back 1 week later
impt person flying off soon, another 7 days

md: :(

- problematic sunday... with the lessons ...

- hope she's enjoying her trip there now :) hope the foods there suit her..

md: sunny










e boxY project... :D

md: sunny

Guess GMP is the only fun and memorable module this semester, the people.. my friends .. UT for CChem = die , although it's easy but but but it's just too easy that 1 grade different might just be 1 marks different after moderating... yaWns..

Swim, with tiny and then went to paint our 'BOX' project =D really happy tiny thanks u.. for making my life more meaningful and fulfilling=) heez when childish + childish = ? :x muhahhaha

back home, i guess some problem arised again :( if only ...

md: cloudy

medical checkup , missed today's stem cell lesson.. haiz.. due to my negligence in planning. that's bad, bad things happen in the check up too, not because of the amount of the needles and 3 tube of blood sample taken, but somehow or rather, i am once demoralized again ..worst of all, i have to report back there on monday for further evaluation, which then i have to skip my lesson again. some people are given a healthy body, but they are unwilling to make good use of it, while there are some out there who were given a more unhealthy body are trying hard. this is the different between healthy and fit i guess, u might be fit but not healthy, on another side you might be healthy but not fit. i cant speak, make me dumb, i cant heard, make me deaf.

do everything without worries and confidently. hate the feelings of being look down by others over the years, relatives, teachers and people around.. the 'colour lens'..

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thoughts, thoughts ...
what if .. what if.. there's alot of what if in this world, what if things doesnt turn out the way it shld be? this are things that we cant do much about it, assuming that if future turned out this way and not that?just check it out then why ask or bother over it? we are not fortune teller, even if we are, our fates still lies in our hands.

assume that things will turn out that way and we took a step back letting opportunity passed,
everybody was searching,
somebody say 'it not possible',
anybody can take the step forward,
but nobody did,

who knows ?
what lining up ahead on the trail is the happiness we have been searching for..
since we were given a chance to pass by this unknown trail.. why not?

'winners make things happen, loser let things happen' from a giodarno tee ... haha

the steps we are taking, the choice we are choosing make different in the future of ours.
'think wat can be done and not ponder over things that cannot be done'

everyone were given a chance to live, with time ticking down towards death... sound negative but that's fact which everyone is running away from.me too. people never treasure things as we always have the thought that 'there's still time..'. why not spend time wisely and lead a fulfillment life today and ahead?

'what is going to happen tomorrow 'or 'what can i do now or tmr?' which thought ?

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md: ...

early in the morning just when i step into the class, i thought i have gotten into a wrong class because of a BIG BIG camera! wahHhh did i even enter a STA block ?

today's GMP was scary, calculations and charts again.. hmm but lucky I am in a v good team !=) sophia and buk ! whoOo no problem, no sweat..


life's happy and simple :) thanks tiny

happy and worse things that happened

Mon =)
SPCA
Swimming
MTG

Tues =))
Swimming
Cycling

Wedn =)))
Trek @ BT
Swimming

Thurs =))
BB
Cycling

Fri
movie
swimming
mtg

Never see someone so happy before, is the real happiness that touch right down into my heart ...

This week is really the most happy week in my poly life :) the things, the people

cherish.. treasure.. future.. tgt :)

be myself ..

this holiday: lotsa changes, truth revealed(sorry i really didn noe it, and i didn manage to handle it well, there wasn't a best solution out of all solutions).

md: --

wah whaaa!! what is happening to me !!! it's only week 7 and i took 4 leaves? one for O level examination, so excusable, but the others ?! haiz damn me ! wake up my idea can anot?! life shouldn't be like that..

looking back, one of my goal is to learn more, experience more. attending school with the purpose of learning as much as possible. if i am good, i will want to be better cause the sky is the limit .. life suppose to be something that treasuring every moment to become a better person.

but now ? very bad time management, or rather i cant be bother, keep finding excuses for myself not to attend sch ... what the hell am i doing?!

haiz enuff of these stupid stuffs ...

kai discovery ...

life = decision + fate
fate = intersection of lines

one day when i am free, gonna draw out my story lines !=D


ytd night i was burning mid-night + morning oil, then something strike my mind with i almost drop the cup i am washing in the middle of the night..

the 'something'
- why do children cry or get angry ?
- it's just simply because they do not know what to do ! that was what that strike
- look at simple example, when baby break the cup for the first time, she/ he cried, but if the mummy say ' don worry, just sweep it up will do =)' then 'okok don cry, it's ok', the second time when cup is broken again, will the baby cry or sweep it up?

- so in the future, tell them what should be done, rights and wrongs, don leave them in confuse ... - life is about experiences, when you experience something and learn from it, you will be able to handle the something in the future.rite ?

md: --

ytd went to ah ben hse to study english right after wl lesson + meeting.. saw cockroach in the lift ! woaH! haha if you were in the lift i bet u will be laughing at the stupid reaction of this 3 guys in the lift when they saw a flying croach!

so today.. O level Eng! cannot make it i think, dumb me forgotten to write the question number on the cover page for paper 1... till paper 2 then i realised it.. dead shit! then went to TP with ah ben, to submit his leave application, that the good thing about RP : self declaration ! haha saw JASON! then vincent and gang and the most shocking part was someone who walked up to me and say hi ! i was like .. er who is that .. and that person was QM, my sec classmate... then opp EVSS coffee shop, saw sensei steven ..RISK! RISK! haha have risk with ah ben, CH and my brother, er I win!:x thanks to luck. work.. really like to teach kids in small classes, i find that then they will be able to benefit more, hmm mayb is just that my ability wasn't there to manage bigger classes.

i am getting berserk again!! haiz why like tat, i really hate myself for being like tat.. and I lost myself again, after trying so hard to get myself back the past few days.. I guess i know things, but i need to comfirm, face the reality idoit ! wake your damn sense up! someone ...

md: low

left class early, wanted to study eng but haiz the running nose and headache .. jus felt so uncomfortable. Unable to concentrate.

swim away all my sorrow i hope ..

walking away from the city, to the isolated town ...

md: -dwn-

reali idoitic! i wake up at 12 plus then 3plus then 4 plus again, but I OVERSLEPT! and i woke up with a v bad sore throat.. then went to drink alot alot of water !! hope to recover.. yaWns.. didn go sch cos don noe why, mayb really need sometimes to sort my brain out ba.. then went to sch manage to study some format, then Bb with vonn, clarence and peg bud. fun! but hope i didn hurt my bud with the ball, so sorry about it.. anyway bud ! nice conversion of the song lyric !

went home, argH! that irresponsible guy of the family argue with my brother again, door slamming, vulgarities... then still threaten us to pay rent! i mean wtf ! this house 80% is paid by mum CPF ok! u got no rite! i pity him, but i hate him too... if only u were more sensible, i guess this family wouldn't reduce to such a state, the way ur children treat u.. ask urself what u have done for us then ...

why why why !! everything isn't simple ! it's complicated... everyone is out to kill each other.. just for their own benefit.. is this what the world should be ? do i really have to put the mask on to face the world ? haiz

okok i was thinking of contributing to the society, hmm but what should i do? hmm i don have $$... nowadays, the most i do going to those charity swim..

md: aRgH!!

today i am really angry over what tigor have done to me! i wasn't treated as a teammate and i don no for wat reason, he's have made my grade for today suffered. Disappoint about that... ok in th lab, i shared with him my findings, giving him ideas. if not where he got the idea of combining the graph together?! how he know about the 2 types of liquid in the first place?! i am not trying to claim credits, i treat u as a teammate sharing. But U ? you spilted the work according to your own idea, without asking. there were others in the team who not in class, you gave them any share, what about me? i don giv a damn whether you are a 20 odds 30 guy ! f**k you man! if u treat me like a shit, don expect me to treat you as a teammate in the future! Now i am sure that the tupid faci mus be thinking that i am slacking when i am not...

Mel! THANK YOU! =) for the smiley cup cake! haha training today er slack.. have a great talk with peg and clarence. vonn thanks.. reach home.. msn with butt once in the blue moon, thanks! i finally can say sorry to her after 3 years? shared some past..

' too nice? deserve a better girl ?' haiz..why girls i like have the same mindset?4 year ago, present... what's the meaning behind it? is that something wrong ?

md: --

Went to sch, planning out the night Hunt route with long fei and vonn, explored the hidden side of the sch, admiratly park, actually RP IS BEAUTIFUL! :) just that we didn take some times to explore it!

i felt really bad knowing that my training buddy have train and injured, and i was the main factor. mayb i shouldn't have ask her to train when i want to, maybe i should have gone alone.. then no injuries. Sorry buddy. ok there's something i want to achieve, is to correct her stroke and get her confidence for comp swim, cos buddy can do it, jus some confi.

I guess the best thing for me to receive before leaving Aquatic will be 1) seeing bud and vonn improve in their swimming (maybe i just don wan them to follow my footsteps ba) 2) have a better management team for the IG, i felt really sad for the IG as i am not good enough ba.

'somethings are suppose to be hidden , and shown it only to me, myself... '

回忆的声音
播在夜里
像是一首旋律
多么美丽
那时我很肯定
你是我唯一
眨个眼我们就各分东西
再说我爱你
泪把心占据
却有些甜蜜
让伤心被允许
说过的话语
做过的事情
像歌曲陪我每个冬季
纪念着我和你相爱这主题

时间早已忘记
分手时候的无情
你给的美好回忆
让我有怀念的勇气






今夜想为妳唱首歌
请妳别急着说要走
眼神交会的那一刻
妳低头避开我

妳说妳并不适合我
渴望拥有更多自由
就算给妳再多温柔
妳还是不快乐

妳抱着我 说要分手
要我答应当妳最好的朋友
就在妳哭着离开以后
我的心早已经被泪水淹没

为妳第一次唱情歌
面对第一次分手
我好想对全世界说
我爱妳不要走

当我第一次唱情歌
那种心痛的感受
我好想妳 这心情谁能懂