another stage of life

another stage of life
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3rd - 14th dec
Sch holiday
: NPCC (NCO training camp)
: OBS 9'days
: life saving training

NPCC camp 02 days
: late in the morning due to sleeping too late the night before , busy preparing the presentation for those lecture. A good teacher? i guess i am not. for 2 days giving lecture continuously. it's hard, unable to keep my spirit up.sometimes just felt that i am not doing a good job as a CI, have those knowledge passed down to those cadets? how am i going to enforce it? how to become a good teacher? how to become a good leader? how to become a good CI ? tired. sometimes just thinking that why am i still serving in NPCC, moreover it's not my own sec sch but other. Y? thinking back, i become a CI to repay what my sec sch have given me, a sign of gratitude from my CIs that have mould me, making the unit grow. but now serving other unit. a sign of gratitude from the NPCC itself? i have other dreams to fufill, other goals to achieve, but why am i doing all this?

OBS 09 days
: a room of unknown to a group of hi bye friends .. now i got the meaning of hi bye friends. Friendship, which doesn't seem to be exist to some.

day 01
- ice breaking, logistic stuffs, evening PT (2.4)
all unfimilar faces, only know some ppl from the ALC. i change to be selfish ? evening time run 2.4 wow! long time din run .. fun!brought 2 shoes one too small ... instructor: belinder!! and hiap lun
02
- PT, high element, logistic, PT(4.8), tent pitching ...
PT the running of 2.4 with timing taken, i came in the 3rd of all, the timing was very lousy, 13.32, but the ber say tat all timing was slower compare when running in school becos of the terrain, up and down and muddy, the first JW has a timing of 10.3 plus i guess lolz he damn pro chiong all the way, sprint all lehz !! haha then 2nd was N 5 sec before me ... high element, i climb to the greatest !! at a look it seem easy to achieve but after taken the first step the fear came in. achieving the greatest height with my partner YR, thanks for her for not giving up with me !! lol... pulling you up is my responsibility as a team, cos we have to achieve together as a team=) PT running 4.8 Km, running as a whole watch, hmm rather slow for me, end up running behind encouraging others with JW.
03
-PT, mini kayaking expeitition, PT (6)
morning PT, 2.4 personal timing again. no strength to run xia... again came in 3rd, the first was the same but the second was a girl !! hahaz i lose to her but few second, she was great, basketball women, MVP somemore, no wonder, lotsa determination could be seen in her. thanks to her, my timing improve by a few second 10.25 lol! mini kaya xp, my partner was S hmm, quite fun, everything was great, then became the port side of the formation. Evening PT 6 Km run ... lol, doing the same thing again, running behind encouraging others. doesn't felt tired at all..
04
-land xp
land xp around ubin, went to the highest point of ubin and german girl shine. learn about the history of those. helping others but will they know? will they show gratitude to what u have done? NO!!! sianzation, people just take things for granted
05
-solo camp out
all alone in the forest, having the commando mosquitoes as companion and a spooky chair. thinking of the past, those people who have taught me important values.
06,07,08
-sea xp, 9k run
sea xp, the reveal of the bad side of me during the part of towing when channel crossing... i was totally drained out..felt angry about my weakness(body size), felt helpless...some people around does care... portside, in my point of view: to be the first to show the marking, also to be the last to show the marking. choinging up and slowing down with no more momentem ...
9k run, just after the finishing of the sea xp...at first targeted 45 min to complete it. however halfway there, felt the foods i eaten during lunch comig up, feel like vomitting, wearing a shoes that is too small for me, hard to continue manz!! continue till the turining back part, walk all the way back haha ... slack .. only a few people overtake me, lesser then i expected, came in 7th
09
-confidence jumping
everything come to an end. with a final sharing of the highest point and lowest point of the camp also what u have learn. highest point , the achieving of high element? lowest point, sea xp? what i have learn ' be the nobody where everybody thought somebody will do it but nobody did it' ' don thinki things that way, then it is not that way, just do it .. ' and finally a word i have learn, Understanding ...

Life saving
went to lifesaving lesson after the 9 days camp... worn out manz!... but learn alot about life from richard, 'things get complicated as u grow ... not avioding it but learn how to manage it.'

' how i wish life is just as simple as i thought ...'