e memories ..

md: drizzy

back to work in GWP this evening, the feelings was kinda.. hmm don noe how to say, but i really miss the people there. but becos of some reason, i jus don wanna go back, as some tupid ppl might think that i need tis so desperately. ok i really hate him alot, he doesn fit to be a manager there ! ok others blackies were better except for him, at the v least they appreciate my presence. that was e past then... sound really childish rite ? haha..

back to work today, in the whole tudor ballroom, only 5 old staffs, the rest = new staffs (most from impact). ok then out of this 5, i think only 2 working. therefore in conclusion, only 4 staffs working in this ballroomm of 21 table, 2 oldies, 2 newbie. it's tat litta secret... I kept thinking of dear, suddenly recalled that the first time i noticed her was a CWD at tudor (not sure issit her first day of work at GWP anot). I just kept thinking of her, thinking and thinking back to the past.

That time we promise to get each other a present at 31st, tat time she added me in friendster, that time we went out together, the time we hold hands together, that time she bake cookies for me, the time i went to her sch jus to pass her something, the time i met her after her sec sch, the first time she hugged me, her's and mine first () at west coast... but thinking backi suddenly felt that i m just not good enuf for her.. WHY in e past i didn treasure her as much as i do now? why in the past i always tot of working, judo, lifesaving, studying and left her alone? things were good after her O levels, things change, she start to prefer living w/o me... at her friend chalet she stated break out, but we did not... the birthday celebration at PRP... she didn brought or do anything for me.. soon after, new year day, her feelings faded, we broke up.. 6 mths later we are back together, finally i knw that she hated the feeling of being neglected.. I have been trying hard, so that she will nv feel alone... but few mths after, things really changed, she broke my heart again and again, she neglect me n my feelings , nto appreciating things i did for her, why? thoughts wondering ... is that a pay back? or she got back to me becos of pity? or is it that i am just to sensitive? past .. present .. what will be the future?

just like i msg her,
fate got us together,
being together with her is a blissing,
as she called me dear i really felt happy,
when she cared for me i felt fortunate...

all these is from the bottom of my heart..

even just a single 4 letters words, i am really satisfied,
a call from her, asking me to care for me is enuff..
nowadays i didn ask for much more le..

I waited for u every night cos tat's the minimum i can do..
i really want to protect u and acc u home...
buy u e things u like...
gg the place u like ...
eating the things u like ..
but i knw i cant .. cos u wldn allow me to .. and i hv to respect ur decision ..
pls respect me too, not taking the minimum i want to do ...

u knw u r tired,
but becos of friends and shows,
u don go to bed,
when it come to me,
u will tell me that: let's talk tmr..
i really hope to share ur happiness, worries and sorrow with u, open up to me ... hao ma?
i really hope that for the sake of me, pls take gd care and protect urself. :'(