md: rainy
what a day ?! yawn, wanted to go swim in the morning but I woke up late, then rush to school hope able to make it in time to have lunch with her. then a long afternoon busy doing aquatic IG stuffs, sending out emails. Didn't get to swim today, cos the weather didnt allow us to, what to do? eat fries lorz. next thing have to do is to do proposer for morning trainings wah then aquatic trial, then AGM, OMG!! so many stuffs. some days back, jin have made me reflected on somethings, as a captain, as a person. sometimes people are not appreciative, may it be doing things for the IG, for the ger. I guess they simply don care as they might just think that it is none of their busniess. Guess now in relationship, i am in the middle of no where. when your friend sick, you worry about them, do you worry about me when i am sick ?In the past, do u love me for who i am or what i am? If you don't hhave feelings for me can you just tell me that and be cruel to me for once(at least i cn try to forget you by all means) ? can you just explain to me? or rather giving me some assurance ?Now in me, i know i still love you but I don't know wat to do. we are like serparated but together... i noe it might be a no, but i hope the answer is yes, what you always say is i don noe...
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Saturday, April 14, 2007
once in a blue moon week!
md: sunny with rain
Everythings come to an end at AVA as 13th of april comes by. I guess i will be missing everyone there, mr tan HL, mr leong, tutu village head, mr ong, all the aunties and uncles up there, justine, both clements and christina, thanks ms poh for all her teaching too. back to blue moon week, hahaz finally complete the sowing device, although much improvement still needed to be made, but at least i complete it in time. Next cooking, after so long not touching the knife and wok, finally i am back to the kitchen to cook and they taste not bad too :) a bayam potatoes soup with 2 dishes (fried bayam with ikan and dark sauce miced pork with egg tofu), loving the dark sauce miced pork tofu the most. didn know until that day that the vege i loves most was bayam. Folding and packing my clothes was also one of the things i seldom do, that's the reason why i am always wearing back the same similar crumped clothings. Growing chili plants at home, gonna get some soil and fertilizer (NPK) some days, don be amazed to see vegetables growing at my hse corridor. Ate pizza with AVA NP friends, thanks guys. went to TYR warehse, hmm things there wasn't really cheap but with the 30% discount, it's consider cheap ba, brought a jammer, a goggle for me and another for ger. waoh, had a great dinner today, cos ytd was my elderest bro bd ! 2 weeks didn get to see her, missin her..
Everythings come to an end at AVA as 13th of april comes by. I guess i will be missing everyone there, mr tan HL, mr leong, tutu village head, mr ong, all the aunties and uncles up there, justine, both clements and christina, thanks ms poh for all her teaching too. back to blue moon week, hahaz finally complete the sowing device, although much improvement still needed to be made, but at least i complete it in time. Next cooking, after so long not touching the knife and wok, finally i am back to the kitchen to cook and they taste not bad too :) a bayam potatoes soup with 2 dishes (fried bayam with ikan and dark sauce miced pork with egg tofu), loving the dark sauce miced pork tofu the most. didn know until that day that the vege i loves most was bayam. Folding and packing my clothes was also one of the things i seldom do, that's the reason why i am always wearing back the same similar crumped clothings. Growing chili plants at home, gonna get some soil and fertilizer (NPK) some days, don be amazed to see vegetables growing at my hse corridor. Ate pizza with AVA NP friends, thanks guys. went to TYR warehse, hmm things there wasn't really cheap but with the 30% discount, it's consider cheap ba, brought a jammer, a goggle for me and another for ger. waoh, had a great dinner today, cos ytd was my elderest bro bd ! 2 weeks didn get to see her, missin her..
Friday, March 16, 2007
LS BBQ gathering
md: breezy
whoa.. what a busy day at AVA today, whole morning taking photos for AL then whole afternoon data observation, 150 pots ... think of it, sianz. then cab down to east coast for the preparation for the life saving BBQ gathering, waH pocket burned a big big hole for this gathering manz, sian i organize de ma, so have to pay for everything first lorz, see whether others will pay back anot, hope they will ba.. well money aside, felt really happy to see everyone making their efforts coming down to this gathering, rather touched, where everyone sit and chat, take photos, play around.. thanks guys, esp long fei, jenny(young) and jin. should i train for compeititive swimming? commitment and determination.. unhappy with my dad again, sorry cant control my temper, if only you can be more responsible in the past, guess things wouldn ended up like tat but i do ask myself, why am i angry with you over such small matters? a tiger that nv know how to care for his cubs..
whoa.. what a busy day at AVA today, whole morning taking photos for AL then whole afternoon data observation, 150 pots ... think of it, sianz. then cab down to east coast for the preparation for the life saving BBQ gathering, waH pocket burned a big big hole for this gathering manz, sian i organize de ma, so have to pay for everything first lorz, see whether others will pay back anot, hope they will ba.. well money aside, felt really happy to see everyone making their efforts coming down to this gathering, rather touched, where everyone sit and chat, take photos, play around.. thanks guys, esp long fei, jenny(young) and jin. should i train for compeititive swimming? commitment and determination.. unhappy with my dad again, sorry cant control my temper, if only you can be more responsible in the past, guess things wouldn ended up like tat but i do ask myself, why am i angry with you over such small matters? a tiger that nv know how to care for his cubs..
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
wwat to do?
md: breezY
damn buzy today with picking up calls and calling people, all for the BBQ coming this thursday.. yawnz .. don't nod wat the hell am i doing nowadays.. lost again liao ba.. lost of focus.. wat to do? get them back lorz.. how to get? think think think lorz.. 60 lapz + obstacles 2morrow.. last time sure can do it la... but now ar? my stroke like got problem like tat.. brought a new bike helmet today ! so happy, wanted to tell sy about that but ... haiz
rather be a naive, stupid person than moving into the complicated and corrupted world of fame and greed .. one of my principle.. don't do anythings that will harm anyone.
damn buzy today with picking up calls and calling people, all for the BBQ coming this thursday.. yawnz .. don't nod wat the hell am i doing nowadays.. lost again liao ba.. lost of focus.. wat to do? get them back lorz.. how to get? think think think lorz.. 60 lapz + obstacles 2morrow.. last time sure can do it la... but now ar? my stroke like got problem like tat.. brought a new bike helmet today ! so happy, wanted to tell sy about that but ... haiz
rather be a naive, stupid person than moving into the complicated and corrupted world of fame and greed .. one of my principle.. don't do anythings that will harm anyone.
Friday, March 09, 2007
0903' 06
breezY
painting, painting... no place to do my stuffs, went all the way up to the out field shelter, wanting to finish my draft for the sowing device. Forgot the measurement, unable to draw liao, then mr lee was there again to share his theory and knowledge of the seedling trays, yawns gg to bore to tears. Then when to find suhaimi at the store for the arcylic, then ended up there helping them, talking, looking through those unwanted stuffs, playing with spider. First time went out for lunch with those NP friends, 'thanks guys!' for taking me as ur friend. emo, cold, hard to get with was the first impression i gave to most people, cos i don't know how to... express myself hmm? sometimes kept saying wrong things, oh ya i guess i own Jus a sorry man, becos of the overboard joke on wed. A dumb lizard got stuck on the wet painted window grill ! lol. guess what? while waiting for my chocolate milk shake, there was a little girl filled a full cup of pearls then say give me! lol whooa, if i really take those pearls i guess my stomach will be bloated with pearls. Went to swim, sianz so many people! felt my strokes was improving! but.. my body felt so reluctant to swim, was it the chocolate milk shake reaction? or was it my mentality?
tmr gg for 2BL4 and Riding theory test, i will pass them! then will be working again at GWP.. till 1am...
painting, painting... no place to do my stuffs, went all the way up to the out field shelter, wanting to finish my draft for the sowing device. Forgot the measurement, unable to draw liao, then mr lee was there again to share his theory and knowledge of the seedling trays, yawns gg to bore to tears. Then when to find suhaimi at the store for the arcylic, then ended up there helping them, talking, looking through those unwanted stuffs, playing with spider. First time went out for lunch with those NP friends, 'thanks guys!' for taking me as ur friend. emo, cold, hard to get with was the first impression i gave to most people, cos i don't know how to... express myself hmm? sometimes kept saying wrong things, oh ya i guess i own Jus a sorry man, becos of the overboard joke on wed. A dumb lizard got stuck on the wet painted window grill ! lol. guess what? while waiting for my chocolate milk shake, there was a little girl filled a full cup of pearls then say give me! lol whooa, if i really take those pearls i guess my stomach will be bloated with pearls. Went to swim, sianz so many people! felt my strokes was improving! but.. my body felt so reluctant to swim, was it the chocolate milk shake reaction? or was it my mentality?
tmr gg for 2BL4 and Riding theory test, i will pass them! then will be working again at GWP.. till 1am...
Thursday, November 23, 2006
all the way down
md: cloudy
everyone need to be love, want someone to care, hope somebody will understand them.
ytd headache, didn perform well in class, kanna scold for nth from the security guard, demanding guest, serving like hell, WTF!#$%^&! then today?
life just too sucky this semester... don nod why. may it be results, friends, work, everything seem so dull... life's a mess...
everyone need to be love, want someone to care, hope somebody will understand them.
ytd headache, didn perform well in class, kanna scold for nth from the security guard, demanding guest, serving like hell, WTF!#$%^&! then today?
life just too sucky this semester... don nod why. may it be results, friends, work, everything seem so dull... life's a mess...
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Monday, October 09, 2006
jess last day
md: -
-last day working under jess at GWP le =( missing her
- customer = er somehow irritating ... but nvm
- fun day @ the end, having durian mooncake, shandy 'celebrating' for jess last day at work
- there goes another person who somehow dote me ... nvm still can visit her during others occasion de
- guess GWP will have large reduce in number of part timer haha including ME ...
- working for money liao not for relation lol
oh ya lost previous post due to dc...
to the one i love
'treasure her, find all ways to love her, getting rid her feeling of being neglected'
O 'level' coming liao
jia you wor dearY, no worries i will still miss you and love you de =)
haha
nxt
jess is somehow like my godmum, have being taking good care of me since my first day of work .. 1 year le .. now she's leaving GWP liao... she taught me something, the words 'fairness' and 'understanding' through her action.
'life is about reaching a destination and leaving for another'
-last day working under jess at GWP le =( missing her
- customer = er somehow irritating ... but nvm
- fun day @ the end, having durian mooncake, shandy 'celebrating' for jess last day at work
- there goes another person who somehow dote me ... nvm still can visit her during others occasion de
- guess GWP will have large reduce in number of part timer haha including ME ...
- working for money liao not for relation lol
oh ya lost previous post due to dc...
to the one i love
'treasure her, find all ways to love her, getting rid her feeling of being neglected'
O 'level' coming liao
jia you wor dearY, no worries i will still miss you and love you de =)
haha
nxt
jess is somehow like my godmum, have being taking good care of me since my first day of work .. 1 year le .. now she's leaving GWP liao... she taught me something, the words 'fairness' and 'understanding' through her action.
'life is about reaching a destination and leaving for another'
Monday, September 25, 2006
unfair yet fair
md: breezY
working ytd and today, both is CWD, both is 1 to 1 but today i feel as if i am doing 2 to 1 ... we were given 3 to 3 table, but one of my partner was a new bird so BB lo ... hmmm but nvm la ... guess what today winsor ballroom change name to tudor ballroom 2 lol, jus becos of some typo error they printed, then have to guide those guest (anyway din really did any thing much) what most coincidence was tat both groom have the same surname, both brides have the same christian name lol *confusion*. anyway i like the guest for ytd and today, know why ? not they give me tips but just simple a word 'appreciative' they appreciate things i have done for them, there was one lady who keep saying thank you from the first drink i serve her to the last desert i served her, also a little ger from another table smiles at me whenever i clear plate, serve drinks etc. Also not forgeting jessica (my 'godmum') at work, thanks her for being so understanding towards me, a great captain who i will be willing to work for, cos she cares for her part timer, she went through those hardship and she understand us =) smile my sis's bf jus brought my favourite bing pe moon cake for me !! =D wahahaha ... tmr another schday, really stress over having majority biomed students as classmate, they are compeitive, unlike us most biotech student, mayb will affect my daily grade =( have to self motivate lol ... pumpping 75% lol... dearY having prelim now *pray for her to score well*=) jia you ger...
working ytd and today, both is CWD, both is 1 to 1 but today i feel as if i am doing 2 to 1 ... we were given 3 to 3 table, but one of my partner was a new bird so BB lo ... hmmm but nvm la ... guess what today winsor ballroom change name to tudor ballroom 2 lol, jus becos of some typo error they printed, then have to guide those guest (anyway din really did any thing much) what most coincidence was tat both groom have the same surname, both brides have the same christian name lol *confusion*. anyway i like the guest for ytd and today, know why ? not they give me tips but just simple a word 'appreciative' they appreciate things i have done for them, there was one lady who keep saying thank you from the first drink i serve her to the last desert i served her, also a little ger from another table smiles at me whenever i clear plate, serve drinks etc. Also not forgeting jessica (my 'godmum') at work, thanks her for being so understanding towards me, a great captain who i will be willing to work for, cos she cares for her part timer, she went through those hardship and she understand us =) smile my sis's bf jus brought my favourite bing pe moon cake for me !! =D wahahaha ... tmr another schday, really stress over having majority biomed students as classmate, they are compeitive, unlike us most biotech student, mayb will affect my daily grade =( have to self motivate lol ... pumpping 75% lol... dearY having prelim now *pray for her to score well*=) jia you ger...
Sunday, September 17, 2006
tat's life
md: cloudy
- was getting sore throat, cough and flu ... woaHhh
- nxt thursday school reopen
- nxt wed last day of attachment at AVA
- things to complete = PP, 20 pages attachment report, presentation to DBIO, soil analysis... yawnZz
- life's unfair yet fair?
- no one is resistant to change ?
- ever wonder how many people know how to treasure time, people and things around them?
- i wan to be contented, but ppl ard me shows me that i shouldnt be... am i too compeitive ?
- was getting sore throat, cough and flu ... woaHhh
- nxt thursday school reopen
- nxt wed last day of attachment at AVA
- things to complete = PP, 20 pages attachment report, presentation to DBIO, soil analysis... yawnZz
- life's unfair yet fair?
- no one is resistant to change ?
- ever wonder how many people know how to treasure time, people and things around them?
- i wan to be contented, but ppl ard me shows me that i shouldnt be... am i too compeitive ?
Sunday, August 27, 2006
let it go
md: nil
- let go
- understand
'how ppl piorities things, shows that how important are things meant to them'
- AVA attachment turn out to be sort of dissapointment (things was not plan for what we going to do there)
- treasure ppl ard, and their existance
- life turning back to those solo days...
- once he care for everyone but himself, then he care for himself more then anyone, after that he treat ppl the way they treat him... now or the future ?? who should he care?
- let go
- understand
'how ppl piorities things, shows that how important are things meant to them'
- AVA attachment turn out to be sort of dissapointment (things was not plan for what we going to do there)
- treasure ppl ard, and their existance
- life turning back to those solo days...
- once he care for everyone but himself, then he care for himself more then anyone, after that he treat ppl the way they treat him... now or the future ?? who should he care?
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
mHNS
md: showering ...
miss her no use
in his mind:
he put her before any other things
but
she put him after everything
... he seem to be upset about it
but there's nothing he can do ...
cos he belives in freedom in relationship...
that's his life... his fate
life filled with misses ...
unhappy ... back to no life like the past ...
he jus wan to know how much does she care...
miss her no use
in his mind:
he put her before any other things
but
she put him after everything
... he seem to be upset about it
but there's nothing he can do ...
cos he belives in freedom in relationship...
that's his life... his fate
life filled with misses ...
unhappy ... back to no life like the past ...
he jus wan to know how much does she care...
Monday, August 14, 2006
thing happen with signal ?
md: nil
when i was young i wonder... does thing happen with characteristic before hand?
saw a email receive from my bro about a ger who met with an accident due to a drunk driver, she was not dead but was ard 80% burn .
this morning took bus to sch on 969 saw a person knock down by a bus, guess it dead, it was cover with white canvas, with one of the leg sticking out(appear to be white), and blood appear at the head part. with the forensic number plate on the bus screen.
life is full of coincidence...
when i was young i wonder... does thing happen with characteristic before hand?
saw a email receive from my bro about a ger who met with an accident due to a drunk driver, she was not dead but was ard 80% burn .
this morning took bus to sch on 969 saw a person knock down by a bus, guess it dead, it was cover with white canvas, with one of the leg sticking out(appear to be white), and blood appear at the head part. with the forensic number plate on the bus screen.
life is full of coincidence...
Friday, August 11, 2006
once a life
md: :(
- sometimes, someone will just get together for somethings which might happen once in life. things might happen always, but time and people might not...
- needa redo the whole lit review, forgot to transfer to D while reformating
- lappiz very lag as running on 1 ram instad of usual 2
- getting new ram -> getting broke
- no life...
- cut down extra activities (judo...) can save money ... may be jus on swimming lifesaving ?
- hope she will recover from her blisters and sore eyes soon ...
- sometimes, someone will just get together for somethings which might happen once in life. things might happen always, but time and people might not...
- needa redo the whole lit review, forgot to transfer to D while reformating
- lappiz very lag as running on 1 ram instad of usual 2
- getting new ram -> getting broke
- no life...
- cut down extra activities (judo...) can save money ... may be jus on swimming lifesaving ?
- hope she will recover from her blisters and sore eyes soon ...
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
complain!
md: thunder storm
i am not happY
- laptop gg crazy, blackout out anytime
- got my 3rd UT for Bio Chem E....
- C for app chem daily grade ...
- swim so slow.. .
Everythings jus too sucks...
LIFE is unfair !
- i went to acer to repair, that guy told me that nth is wrong jus some software error, after reformating things will be fine... BUT i reformated yet things still goes wrong!! is this what you call professionalism?! haiz with my warranty over ... if service who knows?
-i went studying so hard for that UT, yet those hard work didn paid off, and i got my 2nd E in UT ... argh ! daMN... i will work harder ...
- excuse me miss soh... do you noe how to grade fairly?! do you think getting goods results in UT shows everything about the daily grade? why does a person did no contribution (with good UT grade) and a person did contribution (with average UT grade) gets the same daily grade? jus like DEATH SENTENCE !!
- i swim too slow, not improving ... gonna train harder and win !
mummy gg oversea tmr... hope she will have a safe trip
ahHhh hHHHh!!!! life getting crazY . . . dreams so far away . . . future are so dim . . .
life will get better ...
i am not happY
- laptop gg crazy, blackout out anytime
- got my 3rd UT for Bio Chem E....
- C for app chem daily grade ...
- swim so slow.. .
Everythings jus too sucks...
LIFE is unfair !
- i went to acer to repair, that guy told me that nth is wrong jus some software error, after reformating things will be fine... BUT i reformated yet things still goes wrong!! is this what you call professionalism?! haiz with my warranty over ... if service who knows?
-i went studying so hard for that UT, yet those hard work didn paid off, and i got my 2nd E in UT ... argh ! daMN... i will work harder ...
- excuse me miss soh... do you noe how to grade fairly?! do you think getting goods results in UT shows everything about the daily grade? why does a person did no contribution (with good UT grade) and a person did contribution (with average UT grade) gets the same daily grade? jus like DEATH SENTENCE !!
- i swim too slow, not improving ... gonna train harder and win !
mummy gg oversea tmr... hope she will have a safe trip
ahHhh hHHHh!!!! life getting crazY . . . dreams so far away . . . future are so dim . . .
life will get better ...
Sunday, July 23, 2006
100th post
md: breezY
the 100th post
- POP (out of GV), miss u guys =)
- received a watch from the teacher officiers esp Mr Seong
- thanks Mr Seong TY for everythings =)
- Went for charity swim, make a mark @ 100 lapS!! =D
- the process was rather blurR, with 30 breast and 70 free!! haha so amazed by myself LOL!! tot i will swim more breast then free..
- just keep swimming and i will reach there soon
- dryer rougher hair ...
- got a E for genetic UT2 =(
'life's like a roller coaster, fulls of ups and down' 23rd' 07' o6
the 100th post
- POP (out of GV), miss u guys =)
- received a watch from the teacher officiers esp Mr Seong
- thanks Mr Seong TY for everythings =)
- Went for charity swim, make a mark @ 100 lapS!! =D
- the process was rather blurR, with 30 breast and 70 free!! haha so amazed by myself LOL!! tot i will swim more breast then free..
- just keep swimming and i will reach there soon
- dryer rougher hair ...
- got a E for genetic UT2 =(
'life's like a roller coaster, fulls of ups and down' 23rd' 07' o6
Thursday, July 20, 2006
md: nil
as dust blew past and settles...
- got the attachment to Agri-Food & Veterinary Authority (AVA) =) out of so many and only 2 from RP got the chance( won by 1 vote), however feeling sad about it as i won shawn by 1 vote, whereby he's my good friend and better than me in almost everyway =(
- not going for K. Judo training for 3 weeks as UTs coming up on the following fridays =( feeling bad about it... but have to score for the those UTs if not GPA will be affected, at the v least giving my best for it.
- Going for charity swim on next sat 29th july, swimming to donate , aimming for 50- 60 laps but die die will swim 20laps
- change in attitude ? felt it ...
thinG tO kEep in minD:
'never take things for granted'
'keep the positive attitude going'
as dust blew past and settles...
- got the attachment to Agri-Food & Veterinary Authority (AVA) =) out of so many and only 2 from RP got the chance( won by 1 vote), however feeling sad about it as i won shawn by 1 vote, whereby he's my good friend and better than me in almost everyway =(
- not going for K. Judo training for 3 weeks as UTs coming up on the following fridays =( feeling bad about it... but have to score for the those UTs if not GPA will be affected, at the v least giving my best for it.
- Going for charity swim on next sat 29th july, swimming to donate , aimming for 50- 60 laps but die die will swim 20laps
- change in attitude ? felt it ...
thinG tO kEep in minD:
'never take things for granted'
'keep the positive attitude going'
Monday, June 12, 2006
a bad day at work
md: =(
- went carry box of wines... slippery floor + hole = fell down ... to prevent the wine from breaking : hold it tight and tried my best to reduce impact = injured feet and scratches on hand ...
- feet: still ok at work, after work return home... guess it getting abit swollen ...
- they will be fine after a few days ...
- went carry box of wines... slippery floor + hole = fell down ... to prevent the wine from breaking : hold it tight and tried my best to reduce impact = injured feet and scratches on hand ...
- feet: still ok at work, after work return home... guess it getting abit swollen ...
- they will be fine after a few days ...
Thursday, June 08, 2006
5th mth
md:=)
- messed up the present for her =(
- out with her =)
-happy 5th mth to dearY
-happY birthday to eugene
- he's still like the past nv change(life jus about fighting?), hope he will find his way for the future
'life's not just about, admiring and saying, but it's also about dreaming and achieving '
- messed up the present for her =(
- out with her =)
-happy 5th mth to dearY
-happY birthday to eugene
- he's still like the past nv change(life jus about fighting?), hope he will find his way for the future
'life's not just about, admiring and saying, but it's also about dreaming and achieving '
Sunday, June 04, 2006
born fortunate =)
md: -
everyone fated to meet.
when i was born:
although not in a wealthy family,
not having a responsible father,
but i have a mother, 2 brothers and sis,
who cares and dotes me.
when i face different life stages:
feeling stressed up,
feeling down,
feeling helpless,
feeling useless,
there will always be someone there for me:
everytime in my life:
having brothers and sisters around, providing me their's ears for listening and their's hand in holding me.
now:
having a wonderful ger in my life, who have been providing me the moral support and loving me.
In GWP
having the GWP gang
having the 'godmum' who somehow dote on me
serving as a CI (in greenview)
not having the tradition of senior guiding junior in EV,
A CI in the name, a NCO in the role ?
having mr seong around, guiding me and teaching me, he taught me life
having cindy and HO around, things were make posiible
in those NDP days
having a butTy in my life, who have influence me and gave me the energy in going on.
to care and love
having hardcore who make life there more enjoyable
Judo days
might not be as well as expected,
but they were there to guide me along through the learning of spirit, techniques,
Back to EV
Respect of honour:
Mr Don Yeo
Mrs Tan SF
Mrs Ng PY
Mr Yeo LS
CI lum ZY
Tan JX
the power of perseverances and determination
when you loves someone, make sure that they are happy?
having buddies who share woes and sweats together,
playing together
study together
copying homework early in the morning
being punish together
achieving something together
tat's when i: understand the meaning of caring someone
in those primary sch days
playing catching
playing soccer
picking rubbish with mr tay (the great chinese teacher of mine), make me care about the enviroment
i might not remember everything, but i noe if they wasn't there in my past, things will be differents.
ever wonder if they wasn't there, how different will things be?
Many people, many things ...
if u wasn't there, my life will be different
if i don exist, others life will also be different
nv take things for granted
everyone is fortunate in some ways=)
be happy and think of it, treasure it...
everyone fated to meet.
when i was born:
although not in a wealthy family,
not having a responsible father,
but i have a mother, 2 brothers and sis,
who cares and dotes me.
when i face different life stages:
feeling stressed up,
feeling down,
feeling helpless,
feeling useless,
there will always be someone there for me:
everytime in my life:
having brothers and sisters around, providing me their's ears for listening and their's hand in holding me.
now:
having a wonderful ger in my life, who have been providing me the moral support and loving me.
In GWP
having the GWP gang
having the 'godmum' who somehow dote on me
serving as a CI (in greenview)
not having the tradition of senior guiding junior in EV,
A CI in the name, a NCO in the role ?
having mr seong around, guiding me and teaching me, he taught me life
having cindy and HO around, things were make posiible
in those NDP days
having a butTy in my life, who have influence me and gave me the energy in going on.
to care and love
having hardcore who make life there more enjoyable
Judo days
might not be as well as expected,
but they were there to guide me along through the learning of spirit, techniques,
Back to EV
Respect of honour:
Mr Don Yeo
Mrs Tan SF
Mrs Ng PY
Mr Yeo LS
CI lum ZY
Tan JX
the power of perseverances and determination
when you loves someone, make sure that they are happy?
having buddies who share woes and sweats together,
playing together
study together
copying homework early in the morning
being punish together
achieving something together
tat's when i: understand the meaning of caring someone
in those primary sch days
playing catching
playing soccer
picking rubbish with mr tay (the great chinese teacher of mine), make me care about the enviroment
i might not remember everything, but i noe if they wasn't there in my past, things will be differents.
ever wonder if they wasn't there, how different will things be?
Many people, many things ...
if u wasn't there, my life will be different
if i don exist, others life will also be different
nv take things for granted
everyone is fortunate in some ways=)
be happy and think of it, treasure it...
md: breezy
Complains or compliment?
whoa, guess what today?1 to 1 table, then first time experiencing the real kan chong feeling of being a bar man, although it was only for the start of the wedding dinner. hmm, back to serving my own table, hair were found in the food! follow up next was fly found in the coke, which was too dark to be notice by me! however the guest, go straight to telling the black jacket(ace), not to me(maybe they know that i was a part timer?). Actually i enjoy serving them, their appreciation towards the service, although we were paid to serve, they did not too us for granted like others(those act like tai tai, da shao ye). What stunted me most was the guy who suddenly dragged me to a corner and gave me 5 bucks and just walk away, i was like(there wasn't such a need, as it was my duty to provide service, i was paid to do that.)
Complains or compliment?
whoa, guess what today?1 to 1 table, then first time experiencing the real kan chong feeling of being a bar man, although it was only for the start of the wedding dinner. hmm, back to serving my own table, hair were found in the food! follow up next was fly found in the coke, which was too dark to be notice by me! however the guest, go straight to telling the black jacket(ace), not to me(maybe they know that i was a part timer?). Actually i enjoy serving them, their appreciation towards the service, although we were paid to serve, they did not too us for granted like others(those act like tai tai, da shao ye). What stunted me most was the guy who suddenly dragged me to a corner and gave me 5 bucks and just walk away, i was like(there wasn't such a need, as it was my duty to provide service, i was paid to do that.)
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
16th May '06
md: cloudy
- did not learn the main objective for today's lesson, due to work the night b4
- did not perform up to expectation for UT
- went out with GWP family, for dinner and K box
- did not able to hand up the student evaluation, quiz and RJ (today's daily grade gone, needa work extra harder for the rest)
md: cloudy
- did not learn the main objective for today's lesson, due to work the night b4
- did not perform up to expectation for UT
- went out with GWP family, for dinner and K box
- did not able to hand up the student evaluation, quiz and RJ (today's daily grade gone, needa work extra harder for the rest)
Monday, May 08, 2006
nth
md:-
- really sorry for not going out with the GWP familY pai sei pai sei...
- ytd was the most cork up funtion, some accidentally pour wine on the biggest guest, some kanna complain, me accidentally spill champange container on grass ... haiz .. (why was it my fault? i am only a part timer, i collect it under order, it not according to my will... jus don get it... y didn u talk to the black jacket ? wth... 4 ppl collecting them, am i kanna those shit... to collect(order from manager) or not to collect(order from swiss ambassor's wife) ? i noe it's rude to collect while the guest is sitting... but was i given a choice?
- 4th mth (want her to be the most xin fu ger in the world hehe)
- really sorry for not going out with the GWP familY pai sei pai sei...
- ytd was the most cork up funtion, some accidentally pour wine on the biggest guest, some kanna complain, me accidentally spill champange container on grass ... haiz .. (why was it my fault? i am only a part timer, i collect it under order, it not according to my will... jus don get it... y didn u talk to the black jacket ? wth... 4 ppl collecting them, am i kanna those shit... to collect(order from manager) or not to collect(order from swiss ambassor's wife) ? i noe it's rude to collect while the guest is sitting... but was i given a choice?
- 4th mth (want her to be the most xin fu ger in the world hehe)
Friday, April 28, 2006
judo 27/04
judo 27/04
Md: =)
Respect them in Judo
:sensei steven chee
:sensei kong
:sensei koseiki
:sensei Faizal
-Learn 5 sarcrificial throws
-injured little toe and knee
- INTEResting judo
Md: =)
Respect them in Judo
:sensei steven chee
:sensei kong
:sensei koseiki
:sensei Faizal
-Learn 5 sarcrificial throws
-injured little toe and knee
- INTEResting judo
Saturday, April 08, 2006
tired ? or fun ?
tired ?or fun ?
md:breezY
wow, today outside catering @ Swiss embassy residential, with jess and ramlan, then heard alot about the upper management, 'makan' money ... act hardworking... taking over the PIC's job etc... then returning back, we even act like some of those upper level, the way they talk, the things behind they do, the way they work , i noe it's kinda evil but it's fun ! in summarY it's kinda of integrity and politics stuffs.
After work went eating with par cun and ramlan, then went 'amazing race' - the search for an unknown bus stop LOL... from far east to bukit timah int then ard the town center which is JIN bukit MERAH then walking ard till somewhere near henderson and lower delta !! to search for the bus stop which has 852 not knowing that it's located @ UPPER bukit timah OMG ! haha, then think of solution, take to the YS int and change ? nah, try luck walk ard again, then found 855 which have a similar destination as 852!! SO LUCKy but then reached too early, somemore there's nth ard there, then take further down saw mac sit down and reach and wait for time to pass, haixz unlucky things haven end yet, while taking back to the bus stop, i miss IT!! argh somemore miss till i blur cos night .. wah BTH!~~~ grwwW lucky when taking back, manage to reach b4 ger... pheW ... hope she will like the prizzies =) happy 3rd mth
I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!
: haha ... first thing first RP judo: someone rised that for year 1 joining in members hav to pay $10 per mth, 5 for club and 5 to jun yi(the 'coach'). i was wondering, do u think u are u enuff for others to hired u as a coach ? the way u does things? i find alot others out there doing alot better then u, if u are here to learn, fine we give u a chance to teach, but things wasnt gg the way( the way u think) AND who will wanna join ? if u were to pay 10 bucks every month ? i wln for a training and training ground like that, everything wasnt setted up properly, no proper katas, no proper set of things to learn, everything u teach just for IVP ?compeitions ? have u forgotten the meaning of judo? it's okie to modify for better uses, but DO U THINK OUR BASIC IS THERE ???!! no basic and u are talking about flying... there's no proper exposure to traditional judo techniques(throws) how u expect us to think, to choose a techniques that best suit us ? what about those who wanted to learn about the art of judo ? this 10 bucks things will make this IG a money minded IG ? i mean IG purpose is to gather, to have fun, to learn, to interact, AND NOT FOR$$$!!and
second: recruiting target setted by JY 100 -_-", 100 ? enuff space anot!? plz be more pratical ! don keep thinking about $$, even 20 we might not hav space!!
third NPCC, since mr seong stepped down, things seem to becoming inactive, we(siew ern and me) wasnt inform abt anything(any parade, etc), everything we have to get to know through the cadets... haizZz really hoping to make a POP for this SY '05/'06 NCOs, also a handing over ceremony, which might motivate those little ones in doing things =)
what have been happening ? haizZ ... am i wrong ? nah , this is ME !
md:breezY
wow, today outside catering @ Swiss embassy residential, with jess and ramlan, then heard alot about the upper management, 'makan' money ... act hardworking... taking over the PIC's job etc... then returning back, we even act like some of those upper level, the way they talk, the things behind they do, the way they work , i noe it's kinda evil but it's fun ! in summarY it's kinda of integrity and politics stuffs.
After work went eating with par cun and ramlan, then went 'amazing race' - the search for an unknown bus stop LOL... from far east to bukit timah int then ard the town center which is JIN bukit MERAH then walking ard till somewhere near henderson and lower delta !! to search for the bus stop which has 852 not knowing that it's located @ UPPER bukit timah OMG ! haha, then think of solution, take to the YS int and change ? nah, try luck walk ard again, then found 855 which have a similar destination as 852!! SO LUCKy but then reached too early, somemore there's nth ard there, then take further down saw mac sit down and reach and wait for time to pass, haixz unlucky things haven end yet, while taking back to the bus stop, i miss IT!! argh somemore miss till i blur cos night .. wah BTH!~~~ grwwW lucky when taking back, manage to reach b4 ger... pheW ... hope she will like the prizzies =) happy 3rd mth
I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!
: haha ... first thing first RP judo: someone rised that for year 1 joining in members hav to pay $10 per mth, 5 for club and 5 to jun yi(the 'coach'). i was wondering, do u think u are u enuff for others to hired u as a coach ? the way u does things? i find alot others out there doing alot better then u, if u are here to learn, fine we give u a chance to teach, but things wasnt gg the way( the way u think) AND who will wanna join ? if u were to pay 10 bucks every month ? i wln for a training and training ground like that, everything wasnt setted up properly, no proper katas, no proper set of things to learn, everything u teach just for IVP ?compeitions ? have u forgotten the meaning of judo? it's okie to modify for better uses, but DO U THINK OUR BASIC IS THERE ???!! no basic and u are talking about flying... there's no proper exposure to traditional judo techniques(throws) how u expect us to think, to choose a techniques that best suit us ? what about those who wanted to learn about the art of judo ? this 10 bucks things will make this IG a money minded IG ? i mean IG purpose is to gather, to have fun, to learn, to interact, AND NOT FOR$$$!!and
second: recruiting target setted by JY 100 -_-", 100 ? enuff space anot!? plz be more pratical ! don keep thinking about $$, even 20 we might not hav space!!
third NPCC, since mr seong stepped down, things seem to becoming inactive, we(siew ern and me) wasnt inform abt anything(any parade, etc), everything we have to get to know through the cadets... haizZz really hoping to make a POP for this SY '05/'06 NCOs, also a handing over ceremony, which might motivate those little ones in doing things =)
what have been happening ? haizZ ... am i wrong ? nah , this is ME !
Thursday, April 06, 2006
04-05 mar'06 md: sunnY
juS change the paper of mine and also edit some boxY in the blog wah spend hours to do those stuffs, well jus not born to be good at those=P hmm... as time passes things changes, more things comes into our's storY, memories faded, jus like pictures getting smaller, leaving behind the impt memo in ur life, everythings end with a full stop, jus like life too ...
woaH! canT helP falliNg in love in SWIMMING!! enjoy tues's LS training, learn alot=D
'there's always alternatives towards a problem just like different ways towards curing illness' =)
happy birthday to KL & joey(PL0103) on 4/4'06 & 5/4'06
soon to come birthdays
stella mama 14/04
BIG bro 13/04
butTy gg overseas soon in few hrs , b3st wishes =)
juS change the paper of mine and also edit some boxY in the blog wah spend hours to do those stuffs, well jus not born to be good at those=P hmm... as time passes things changes, more things comes into our's storY, memories faded, jus like pictures getting smaller, leaving behind the impt memo in ur life, everythings end with a full stop, jus like life too ...
woaH! canT helP falliNg in love in SWIMMING!! enjoy tues's LS training, learn alot=D
'there's always alternatives towards a problem just like different ways towards curing illness' =)
happy birthday to KL & joey(PL0103) on 4/4'06 & 5/4'06
soon to come birthdays
stella mama 14/04
BIG bro 13/04
butTy gg overseas soon in few hrs , b3st wishes =)
Saturday, April 01, 2006
md: -
wow, have been raining the past few days, but is those 'short short' type de...
some people are thought to be evil,
some people are thought to be kind,
can i say that everyone have the kind side of them?
also the evil side of ur's ?
u say that he's good,
she say that he's bad,
so who to belive?
eyes are meant to see,
ears are meant to listen,
'heart' are meant to feel...
judge it urself...
choose the people u wanted to have in your story,
in the story where the important are noted,
be the one that have being written in other's story...
be someone who make others smile...
be one who mould other's into a better person...
=) life isn't that bad
:k6i
wow, have been raining the past few days, but is those 'short short' type de...
some people are thought to be evil,
some people are thought to be kind,
can i say that everyone have the kind side of them?
also the evil side of ur's ?
u say that he's good,
she say that he's bad,
so who to belive?
eyes are meant to see,
ears are meant to listen,
'heart' are meant to feel...
judge it urself...
choose the people u wanted to have in your story,
in the story where the important are noted,
be the one that have being written in other's story...
be someone who make others smile...
be one who mould other's into a better person...
=) life isn't that bad
:k6i
Friday, March 24, 2006
ever question urself why?
md:sunnY ?
ever question about why do you wanted to do something, achieve something? haha, suddenly i asked a question to myself, y do i wanted to save life in the future ? how will that benefit others ? what about those evil people ? those people who don want to live anymore? To live another day is an beautiful, as u might realise or experience things around u, the people, the things, the nature, they are wonderful=) Y save? i think that everyone shld be given another chances to do something they wanted to do, to talk, to care, to touch the lifes ard. of cos nothing is forever, but wouldnt it be great if everyone is able to leave peacefully without regrets ? how do u feel when u wanted to do something but u are unable to?
ytd took cab home with Po tiong, haha discussed about JJ, he have changed alot in his character, too cocky? he changed because of a girl ... is that worth? is it fair to others around u? well that question only he himself can answer that (it's his life). then PT got off, the taxi driver chat with me, saying that nowadays people are turn more and more materialistic, well i do agree about that, look around you, how many people will actually put kindness(ties) or the heart to care in front of $$ ? how many people will actually willing to work as a social worker ? how many will actually accept a lower paid job then a higher paid job ?people that care, people that cant be bother, people that care becos of something , people who don noe how to care, come and go, leaving those who really treasure you ard, they stay with u becos they care about ur existence, becos u r there for them, becos u r that impt to them. but how will u care about people who really important to u in your life? keep it in the dark ? tell them openly ? or show it out ? wonder wonder wonder.... .... ...
unable to project my voice losen my confidence as a CI, i mean, who will really accept someone who unable to show good communication as a leader? who will actually respect someone who always speak so softly and not loudly? i noe the skills but how can i improve others? always not a good teacher... haiz sick and tired for being a CI, back in EV for judo, saw my npcc junior, i really hope to go back and serve that unit(which was the main aim of becoming a CI), but fate play me out ? i was posted to another sch? well it's life... saw jas mei and gang hanging around the canteen after judo... haha their looks changed...
'living life with a purpose, it's life'
md:sunnY ?
ever question about why do you wanted to do something, achieve something? haha, suddenly i asked a question to myself, y do i wanted to save life in the future ? how will that benefit others ? what about those evil people ? those people who don want to live anymore? To live another day is an beautiful, as u might realise or experience things around u, the people, the things, the nature, they are wonderful=) Y save? i think that everyone shld be given another chances to do something they wanted to do, to talk, to care, to touch the lifes ard. of cos nothing is forever, but wouldnt it be great if everyone is able to leave peacefully without regrets ? how do u feel when u wanted to do something but u are unable to?
ytd took cab home with Po tiong, haha discussed about JJ, he have changed alot in his character, too cocky? he changed because of a girl ... is that worth? is it fair to others around u? well that question only he himself can answer that (it's his life). then PT got off, the taxi driver chat with me, saying that nowadays people are turn more and more materialistic, well i do agree about that, look around you, how many people will actually put kindness(ties) or the heart to care in front of $$ ? how many people will actually willing to work as a social worker ? how many will actually accept a lower paid job then a higher paid job ?people that care, people that cant be bother, people that care becos of something , people who don noe how to care, come and go, leaving those who really treasure you ard, they stay with u becos they care about ur existence, becos u r there for them, becos u r that impt to them. but how will u care about people who really important to u in your life? keep it in the dark ? tell them openly ? or show it out ? wonder wonder wonder.... .... ...
unable to project my voice losen my confidence as a CI, i mean, who will really accept someone who unable to show good communication as a leader? who will actually respect someone who always speak so softly and not loudly? i noe the skills but how can i improve others? always not a good teacher... haiz sick and tired for being a CI, back in EV for judo, saw my npcc junior, i really hope to go back and serve that unit(which was the main aim of becoming a CI), but fate play me out ? i was posted to another sch? well it's life... saw jas mei and gang hanging around the canteen after judo... haha their looks changed...
'living life with a purpose, it's life'
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
21st mar'06
21st mar'06
Md: sunnY
today manage to swim better in lifesaving training !! those senior class are going for Bronze medalion nxt week... woah best luck for them=) if passed liao can become a lifeguard... nxt thing nxt of the day: I maintianed my 3.4 GPA:
Basic Sciences II B
Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving II B+
Computing and Mathematical Methods II B+
Contemporary Issues in Culture & Aesthetics B+
Enterprise Skills II B+
Although didn meet 3.6 from what i setted in the start of the sem, but at least did not 'deproved' haha, nxt sem mus pull lotsa petrol to get 3.8 then get into the roll of honour, then can get scholarship = ease finacial burden !! haha
'as time passed, the dark clouds will also be drift away=)' nothing is permement
Md: sunnY
today manage to swim better in lifesaving training !! those senior class are going for Bronze medalion nxt week... woah best luck for them=) if passed liao can become a lifeguard... nxt thing nxt of the day: I maintianed my 3.4 GPA:
Basic Sciences II B
Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving II B+
Computing and Mathematical Methods II B+
Contemporary Issues in Culture & Aesthetics B+
Enterprise Skills II B+
Although didn meet 3.6 from what i setted in the start of the sem, but at least did not 'deproved' haha, nxt sem mus pull lotsa petrol to get 3.8 then get into the roll of honour, then can get scholarship = ease finacial burden !! haha
'as time passed, the dark clouds will also be drift away=)' nothing is permement
Sunday, March 19, 2006
inter tertiary '06
Inter tertiary '06
md: cloudy
Does weight really matter in judo, does strength plays a great part in throwing? morning weighting in, omg i am only 55 kg while my opponent was 72, pack with muscles, compact size, whao ! haiZz chances of winning seem so dim then... he won me with and osoto gari makikomi, hmm, mayb i was too k chong or scare ba, didn noe what to do in such a compeition, i he was really good, i saulate =) well things then were spread ard that some people were not playing the belt catergory they should hav played, 'the self demote declaration form' lol. but who cares? it's the xp that matter most. then while watching other matches, i realise i missed out something in my tatic, 'explosive'. one of the most important component in compeitions for winning in judo. 'timing' another impt component, when u got it, u win, u missed it, u 'll either get a counter, or continue with another attack. jus keep on trying with your brains on.
then team event, losed to another heavy weight guy through ground work, but thanks to him, i found my own judo,compeition not that scary play your own style enjoy it.
weight doesn't matter at all!! but strenght does play a big part in breaking balances.
-more weight training
- tai otoshi, ouchi gari, osoto gari, hari goshi, tani otoshi
-EAT EAT EAT !!
- jus on judo ? no more npcc?
- train be dare to strike (explosive)
-create the ku jushi and not wait for it
haha not forgetting to congrats ning ning, gab and raft in winning 2 3rd runner up and 1 2nd runner up in white to yellow open cat, white to yellow under 75 and above 75 =) cheers first medels for RP's first match =) u rocks guy... for others, we did done well but others were stronger, so we'll have to train harder ! yeah ... haha
md: cloudy
Does weight really matter in judo, does strength plays a great part in throwing? morning weighting in, omg i am only 55 kg while my opponent was 72, pack with muscles, compact size, whao ! haiZz chances of winning seem so dim then... he won me with and osoto gari makikomi, hmm, mayb i was too k chong or scare ba, didn noe what to do in such a compeition, i he was really good, i saulate =) well things then were spread ard that some people were not playing the belt catergory they should hav played, 'the self demote declaration form' lol. but who cares? it's the xp that matter most. then while watching other matches, i realise i missed out something in my tatic, 'explosive'. one of the most important component in compeitions for winning in judo. 'timing' another impt component, when u got it, u win, u missed it, u 'll either get a counter, or continue with another attack. jus keep on trying with your brains on.
then team event, losed to another heavy weight guy through ground work, but thanks to him, i found my own judo,compeition not that scary play your own style enjoy it.
weight doesn't matter at all!! but strenght does play a big part in breaking balances.
-more weight training
- tai otoshi, ouchi gari, osoto gari, hari goshi, tani otoshi
-EAT EAT EAT !!
- jus on judo ? no more npcc?
- train be dare to strike (explosive)
-create the ku jushi and not wait for it
haha not forgetting to congrats ning ning, gab and raft in winning 2 3rd runner up and 1 2nd runner up in white to yellow open cat, white to yellow under 75 and above 75 =) cheers first medels for RP's first match =) u rocks guy... for others, we did done well but others were stronger, so we'll have to train harder ! yeah ... haha
Monday, March 13, 2006
1303'06
md:hmmm ....
today, working all the while wah!! first time becoming bar man so shiok =)know more things from velu, learn alot of things, thanks Jessica(my captain) for teaching me and giving me the chance... it's fun to learn and experience new things... 'man with great ego?' mayb ... guess i need to learn how to do things slowly (calmly)... time to sleep working tomorrow morning at 8 left 3 hrs of slp ... wah!!
today, working all the while wah!! first time becoming bar man so shiok =)know more things from velu, learn alot of things, thanks Jessica(my captain) for teaching me and giving me the chance... it's fun to learn and experience new things... 'man with great ego?' mayb ... guess i need to learn how to do things slowly (calmly)... time to sleep working tomorrow morning at 8 left 3 hrs of slp ... wah!!
Friday, March 10, 2006
an end to sem 2 Y1
28/2 - 10/3 '06
Md: -
Sem 2 come to an end, missing some of my friends in the class, those who i usually hang out with in sch(eat together, outing, taking photos, crapping and achieving better grades), thanks for bringing joys to me in this sem, or else life in sch might be jus too boring=) thanks for everythings... haha now what ? it's HOLIDAY till mid april !! muhahahha, packed for working, judo, lifesaving, my dearY and some findings in my curiousity hehehe ... oh ya mayb also preparation for G902 PPM(so can take up more electives learn more things, hope so). loves my mum, my siblings, my dearY, buttY, my buddys, my friends, my teachers ... life will not be the same without them=) hmm, judo inter tertiary coming up nxt on 19th march, wow !! so near, somemore i am far from good, sure died, haizZ, nvm la just treat it as a experiences, winning is not the most important ma, compeitions is to display and sharing of skills between others? needa hav more weight training and swim more or else life gonna be difficult LOL..
'the sky is always the limit'
Md: -
Sem 2 come to an end, missing some of my friends in the class, those who i usually hang out with in sch(eat together, outing, taking photos, crapping and achieving better grades), thanks for bringing joys to me in this sem, or else life in sch might be jus too boring=) thanks for everythings... haha now what ? it's HOLIDAY till mid april !! muhahahha, packed for working, judo, lifesaving, my dearY and some findings in my curiousity hehehe ... oh ya mayb also preparation for G902 PPM(so can take up more electives learn more things, hope so). loves my mum, my siblings, my dearY, buttY, my buddys, my friends, my teachers ... life will not be the same without them=) hmm, judo inter tertiary coming up nxt on 19th march, wow !! so near, somemore i am far from good, sure died, haizZ, nvm la just treat it as a experiences, winning is not the most important ma, compeitions is to display and sharing of skills between others? needa hav more weight training and swim more or else life gonna be difficult LOL..
'the sky is always the limit'
Monday, February 27, 2006
Fated?
Cant it just be a little bit better?
Md: cloudY
whY? everytime the tuition fees from RP comes always gives me BIG worries... Y ? simply becos i have an irresponsible father who didn take up the responsibility in taking care of our life, our neccessity, my mother who's CPF have been used up as to pay for my elder brothers poly and have been working so hard to support us... i feel useless when i have to rely on my mum to pay for my school fees, why am i unable to support myself ? sometimes wondering, am i spending time wisely ? i am not a rich man son, neither a person who have resposible father. was the birth of my a fault? was my existence unecssary? sometimes just wondering who am i and what am i doing ... too tired ...
i feel sad... for not doing things better, for not achieving better grades myself... it's time to give up somethings in life.. .
Md: cloudY
whY? everytime the tuition fees from RP comes always gives me BIG worries... Y ? simply becos i have an irresponsible father who didn take up the responsibility in taking care of our life, our neccessity, my mother who's CPF have been used up as to pay for my elder brothers poly and have been working so hard to support us... i feel useless when i have to rely on my mum to pay for my school fees, why am i unable to support myself ? sometimes wondering, am i spending time wisely ? i am not a rich man son, neither a person who have resposible father. was the birth of my a fault? was my existence unecssary? sometimes just wondering who am i and what am i doing ... too tired ...
i feel sad... for not doing things better, for not achieving better grades myself... it's time to give up somethings in life.. .
Sunday, February 26, 2006
road to life again?
2602'06
some days before, i asked myself what have i been doing all this while,what i want to achieves, what can i do to benefit the society in the future, what should i do to provide a better future for my loves ones. am i thinking too much ? mayBe after watch the story of a unfortunate ger, who is good at everything and one day because of her sickness, she have to give up alot of things, to dream ... time is precious ... to live is fortunate, to have the ability is fortunate, having what you have now is lucky... cos there are always ppl who live in the darkness, heading no where to the future ... is the heaven unfair? is there something controlling what we are now? what we have now?because of that fate existed...
people regrets, always hoping for a time machines that can bring them back to the past... one day anyone will died, peacefully or otherwise...
For the future to saves live, i want to become a med tech...
To protect, i learn judo, lifesaving
working for a better life ? to achieve more ?
can the world have more time? can time machines existed, so that people know how to make the best uses ofthe time ?
NO... the world have 365 days/ year, 24 hrs per days .... ...
' am i heading towards where i want to ?'
some days before, i asked myself what have i been doing all this while,what i want to achieves, what can i do to benefit the society in the future, what should i do to provide a better future for my loves ones. am i thinking too much ? mayBe after watch the story of a unfortunate ger, who is good at everything and one day because of her sickness, she have to give up alot of things, to dream ... time is precious ... to live is fortunate, to have the ability is fortunate, having what you have now is lucky... cos there are always ppl who live in the darkness, heading no where to the future ... is the heaven unfair? is there something controlling what we are now? what we have now?because of that fate existed...
people regrets, always hoping for a time machines that can bring them back to the past... one day anyone will died, peacefully or otherwise...
For the future to saves live, i want to become a med tech...
To protect, i learn judo, lifesaving
working for a better life ? to achieve more ?
can the world have more time? can time machines existed, so that people know how to make the best uses ofthe time ?
NO... the world have 365 days/ year, 24 hrs per days .... ...
' am i heading towards where i want to ?'
Friday, February 17, 2006
it's the new phone !!
md: =o
today left hse at 6am for sch, as i didn study for the UT, so went to sch earlier to study, woah things were different when i taking the train, the people, the sky, the feeling. The science UT today was basically testing our sec sch learnings, but it's very time consuming, only 1 ques was related to what we studied. After 1st meetin, i left sch, for npcc, at least see them for the last campcraft compeition training, be there for them ?saw improvement, i felt happy internally, thanks mr seong alot for providing them with the mantality and constant reminder to them, if there's only my myself, i guess we are still halfway there. hmm, therefore sarcrificed my daily grade for today but think it will be okay, as for G102 i got A and B for daily so there's no need to cover up for Cs and Ds, hope P15 and P16 will get A.
I find my mentality during dropped week by week, focus wasn't there. So for the next few weeks i will stop NPCC for judo, FOCUS JUDO !! hope can improve and be the best for the opponents, hope to win something, so that the chances of getting proper tatami mats will be higher in school.
Something to learn in life: things gets more complicated when growing up, the outside world wasn't that simple as u see, u only see one side of it how about many others? i use to only belive in my own view, what i see, how ppl treat me, but things seem complicated when u know ppl's view towards certain things, u choose not to belive it but that seem like sticking in u unconscieniously.
Brought a new phone, K700i, wantedto buy 750i but too ex, only can afford 700i, thanks both of my brothers taking out their time in accompanying my to get the phone.
' so many things to be done, yet i keep forgetting them ... '
Sunday, February 12, 2006
it's a sunday
md: sunny
-out with GWP jies
- saw buttY @ orchard =)
-thanks dearY for the cookies =)
'life, a road that full of unexpected...'
1202'06 2323
-out with GWP jies
- saw buttY @ orchard =)
-thanks dearY for the cookies =)
'life, a road that full of unexpected...'
1202'06 2323
Thursday, February 09, 2006
gain and loss?
md: cloudy ...
- wat's my life about? wat do i really want? i dn hav enuff time to commit to so many activities, i felt tired ...
-i have nv understand somthing which is call 'gain and losses', to gain weight? too much training? weight or training ? balancing ? haizZz ...
-sometimes i was thinking... shld i giv up on npcc? i really don like to be a 'leader' i simply hate ordering others ard, as i was unable to prove something in life, 'the different view ard'
- this week was a really bad bad week for me, i was unable to give my fullness in my trainings
- i am really looking down on myself?
- valentine day is getting nearer... somethings special for the special her =)
: 2336 0902'06
- wat's my life about? wat do i really want? i dn hav enuff time to commit to so many activities, i felt tired ...
-i have nv understand somthing which is call 'gain and losses', to gain weight? too much training? weight or training ? balancing ? haizZz ...
-sometimes i was thinking... shld i giv up on npcc? i really don like to be a 'leader' i simply hate ordering others ard, as i was unable to prove something in life, 'the different view ard'
- this week was a really bad bad week for me, i was unable to give my fullness in my trainings
- i am really looking down on myself?
- valentine day is getting nearer... somethings special for the special her =)
: 2336 0902'06
Sunday, January 01, 2006
A brand new year in Goodwood Park
A brand new year in Goodwood Park
m: sunny
Wow.. spended my new year celebration working in goodwood park serving people who has paid five hundred bucks per person to come for the counting down new year celebration @ good wood park hotel new windson ballroom ... hmmm serve a hyflux vice president.. seem to know alot about appreciating wine ..haha offended him while serving a bun .. but before he went off he actually shaked hands with me!! oOoo unbelivable... someone who is so high up there... jus like idols and fans ... thanks twins for my birthday shirt present =) ' according to history... everyman have chances to success.. so which way did u went to ?;
m: sunny
Wow.. spended my new year celebration working in goodwood park serving people who has paid five hundred bucks per person to come for the counting down new year celebration @ good wood park hotel new windson ballroom ... hmmm serve a hyflux vice president.. seem to know alot about appreciating wine ..haha offended him while serving a bun .. but before he went off he actually shaked hands with me!! oOoo unbelivable... someone who is so high up there... jus like idols and fans ... thanks twins for my birthday shirt present =) ' according to history... everyman have chances to success.. so which way did u went to ?;
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Digital camera!!
digital camera
m: multiple changes ...
wow brought a digital cam at PS today with my sis and her bf haha!! hmm... 350 xia!! my sis paid 50 ... i pay the remainding haha.. but nvm, tmr my bros paying some of the share LOL... gdgd, not that xiong afterall ... hmm then to judo at katong.. hmm some things that i supect actually turn to a fact-_-" hmm i thought those suspect was that i think too much but it wasn't so... things actually happen where i nv expect it to be truth... friendship ... relationship ... they are fragile...
So far i hav met/saw 5 kinda relationship ba, the possive, lonely,compeitive, freedom, consideration type hmm might be too harsh but i don noe how to put it in other words... think there's somemore ba... possive type was those who are selfish and always thinking that she/he only belong to he/her self ... not to others , if the partner give in... lotsa unnessary sacrifices will be make..family, friendship might be wreck .. next the l type .. hmm... they get into relationship for the sake of it, just asking for companion, having assurance by having the name 'steady' there, sometimes willing to give in everything just to keep a broken ship going... competitive type, those who want to go steady with someone for the sake that she/he is pretty and handsome, being court by many, having the mind set that winning her/him is proving that he/she is more capable then others, this kind is usually short lasting... as there's always someone appear more prettier/handsome ...hmm freedom ? people who usual belive in fate of love, chemistry between two, it might be short but also long lasting, this depend on how both work it out, letting nature take it course, beliving that things change as time passes.. consideration type, opposite of possive they alway think about her/him if making a move(going out...), they are good but just that they think too much, they tend to belive what they foresee is true, what they think is true, therefore hesitate, which resulted to he/her think that they guy/ger doesn't seem to care anymore having the facts that they do ... beliving in giving freedom, alway think about the consequense... things didn work out ... still ended with misunderstanding...things needa change... me too ..
back to training... losing lotsa morale today... i think too much about my weight.. losing much of my strength too... i doesn't seem as active as the past ... seem like the lose in vitality ... no life again ? omG!! haiz ... having the mindset of will i able to made it for ivp? sensei koseiki told me how to gain weight ... drinking protein in the morning, don eat sweet stuffs, more chicken ... lolz thanks .=). took pic with LH, sensei koseiki and vincent ... lol with my new cam .. muhahha !! cooking pasta late at night, craving for it... super late dinner ...
not forgetting a big THANK YOU to zY the butt of mine for ya spiderman !! =) thanks i like this present =)
m: multiple changes ...
wow brought a digital cam at PS today with my sis and her bf haha!! hmm... 350 xia!! my sis paid 50 ... i pay the remainding haha.. but nvm, tmr my bros paying some of the share LOL... gdgd, not that xiong afterall ... hmm then to judo at katong.. hmm some things that i supect actually turn to a fact-_-" hmm i thought those suspect was that i think too much but it wasn't so... things actually happen where i nv expect it to be truth... friendship ... relationship ... they are fragile...
So far i hav met/saw 5 kinda relationship ba, the possive, lonely,compeitive, freedom, consideration type hmm might be too harsh but i don noe how to put it in other words... think there's somemore ba... possive type was those who are selfish and always thinking that she/he only belong to he/her self ... not to others , if the partner give in... lotsa unnessary sacrifices will be make..family, friendship might be wreck .. next the l type .. hmm... they get into relationship for the sake of it, just asking for companion, having assurance by having the name 'steady' there, sometimes willing to give in everything just to keep a broken ship going... competitive type, those who want to go steady with someone for the sake that she/he is pretty and handsome, being court by many, having the mind set that winning her/him is proving that he/she is more capable then others, this kind is usually short lasting... as there's always someone appear more prettier/handsome ...hmm freedom ? people who usual belive in fate of love, chemistry between two, it might be short but also long lasting, this depend on how both work it out, letting nature take it course, beliving that things change as time passes.. consideration type, opposite of possive they alway think about her/him if making a move(going out...), they are good but just that they think too much, they tend to belive what they foresee is true, what they think is true, therefore hesitate, which resulted to he/her think that they guy/ger doesn't seem to care anymore having the facts that they do ... beliving in giving freedom, alway think about the consequense... things didn work out ... still ended with misunderstanding...things needa change... me too ..
back to training... losing lotsa morale today... i think too much about my weight.. losing much of my strength too... i doesn't seem as active as the past ... seem like the lose in vitality ... no life again ? omG!! haiz ... having the mindset of will i able to made it for ivp? sensei koseiki told me how to gain weight ... drinking protein in the morning, don eat sweet stuffs, more chicken ... lolz thanks .=). took pic with LH, sensei koseiki and vincent ... lol with my new cam .. muhahha !! cooking pasta late at night, craving for it... super late dinner ...
not forgetting a big THANK YOU to zY the butt of mine for ya spiderman !! =) thanks i like this present =)
Monday, December 26, 2005
it's a SPECIAL day 2 me!!
a special day of mine!!
m: sunshine
although early in the morning went to work(saw pris on the MRT!!=) ) , facing a attitude but funny customer.. then hav extended working hours from 1800 till 1900 ... ate the remainder of the buffet left by the guests.. yummY !! but then stomachache sometime later ... haha... have a simple celebration for me by my da ger and da jies from GWP hotel !! M, X hui, LT ... first time spending birthday with friends... went eating pasta mania and then singing!! first time singing in karaoke =) heeZz thanks for everythings guySs =) haha.. also saw jas mei at cine there, haha she shout happy birthday to me haha lol... thanks=) oh YA not forgetting a special twin of mine !! having the same birthday as me ... hahaz exactly 1 year younger then me wor!! we were like asking for each other prezzie from one another.. haha don worry on the 31st u will get ur's ... LOL... 1st to greet me this year was my buddies from WGP!! also the 'twin' of mine lol... then from cindy, ug, gabe, micheal, mayfen, stella lao ma, lenna, JY and hider.... more to go !! NOT forgetting the special butt of mine ZY!!! =) it's the thoughts that u guys rem and take the effort to wish me=) and some which celebrate with me!! touched ... haha receive presents from RP judo, sis heeZz an special year of mine ... i hav grown ... felt the diff in life , in the world experience a bad side of mine myself... the days, experiences ....
'with them ard ... i will be able to stand firmly on the ground'
'admire someone, wanting to be with them.... but it's diff from being with them... it might not be that perfect as u thought he or she is, he/she/i might not be able to provide the needs from he/she/me... reality is diff from what u thought...not really.. it takes time to stand up from a fall, it takes time to heal... IT TAKE TIME TO LEARN... and it take time to be ready... i am not ready for those relationship thingy i guess... i have too much commitment in other things... if i have one i will have the one who understand me, my thoughts, the inner of me but in this world i doubt so.. only few.. but things just turn out to be too late... cos the past is the story, might be his, her or my ... the present is doesn't allow things to turn back ... only allowing things to happen ...
stars = those who mean alot to me, special to me ....
tmr... having lunch with my lao jiao ci cindy and HO garfield lol and dinner with uncle dad, family ... my dad? he doesn't seem to care... not even a word... back to the past where my dad don exist in my life ? a dad = no father ?
m: sunshine
although early in the morning went to work(saw pris on the MRT!!=) ) , facing a attitude but funny customer.. then hav extended working hours from 1800 till 1900 ... ate the remainder of the buffet left by the guests.. yummY !! but then stomachache sometime later ... haha... have a simple celebration for me by my da ger and da jies from GWP hotel !! M, X hui, LT ... first time spending birthday with friends... went eating pasta mania and then singing!! first time singing in karaoke =) heeZz thanks for everythings guySs =) haha.. also saw jas mei at cine there, haha she shout happy birthday to me haha lol... thanks=) oh YA not forgetting a special twin of mine !! having the same birthday as me ... hahaz exactly 1 year younger then me wor!! we were like asking for each other prezzie from one another.. haha don worry on the 31st u will get ur's ... LOL... 1st to greet me this year was my buddies from WGP!! also the 'twin' of mine lol... then from cindy, ug, gabe, micheal, mayfen, stella lao ma, lenna, JY and hider.... more to go !! NOT forgetting the special butt of mine ZY!!! =) it's the thoughts that u guys rem and take the effort to wish me=) and some which celebrate with me!! touched ... haha receive presents from RP judo, sis heeZz an special year of mine ... i hav grown ... felt the diff in life , in the world experience a bad side of mine myself... the days, experiences ....
'with them ard ... i will be able to stand firmly on the ground'
'admire someone, wanting to be with them.... but it's diff from being with them... it might not be that perfect as u thought he or she is, he/she/i might not be able to provide the needs from he/she/me... reality is diff from what u thought...not really.. it takes time to stand up from a fall, it takes time to heal... IT TAKE TIME TO LEARN... and it take time to be ready... i am not ready for those relationship thingy i guess... i have too much commitment in other things... if i have one i will have the one who understand me, my thoughts, the inner of me but in this world i doubt so.. only few.. but things just turn out to be too late... cos the past is the story, might be his, her or my ... the present is doesn't allow things to turn back ... only allowing things to happen ...
stars = those who mean alot to me, special to me ....
tmr... having lunch with my lao jiao ci cindy and HO garfield lol and dinner with uncle dad, family ... my dad? he doesn't seem to care... not even a word... back to the past where my dad don exist in my life ? a dad = no father ?
Thursday, December 22, 2005
a major turning in life
a major turning in my life
22/12/2005
the one who lead
the one who teach
buddism, christianity
plz plz i am confuse ...
Over the years in my life, i have been learning and following the teaching of buddism...all in the sudden with a rise of hand and i became a christian? my sub conscious did that... the within me... which made me blur too...renewal centre ... Is that the religion that suit me the most ? for what i am? just like mr seong did(finding the suitable religion?),like having the a strong sense of belonging to the earth ? the mother nature?
I always belive that buddha, gods, juesus are heros, they did incredible things to mankind, savlage, teaching ... now above everything there's god, one who created mankind? beliving in these solves lots of questions i alway ponder ever since the past, how was the earth form, how was the very first human form?beliving in the existence wanting to know more ..
can i be a free thinker who belives in all religion ?
for whatever ... whoever...
just be who i am... my ideal character of me myself !! yeah!!
-determination
-responsible
-selfless
- free from greed, anger and ignorance
THE wise man ... LOLZ jkjk
reminder to myself...!!
goals to achieves ..
in life ...
-save lifes
short term
-win judo IVP!!
-3.6 GPA for sem 2 !
-becoming a life guard
22/12/2005
the one who lead
the one who teach
buddism, christianity
plz plz i am confuse ...
Over the years in my life, i have been learning and following the teaching of buddism...all in the sudden with a rise of hand and i became a christian? my sub conscious did that... the within me... which made me blur too...renewal centre ... Is that the religion that suit me the most ? for what i am? just like mr seong did(finding the suitable religion?),like having the a strong sense of belonging to the earth ? the mother nature?
I always belive that buddha, gods, juesus are heros, they did incredible things to mankind, savlage, teaching ... now above everything there's god, one who created mankind? beliving in these solves lots of questions i alway ponder ever since the past, how was the earth form, how was the very first human form?beliving in the existence wanting to know more ..
can i be a free thinker who belives in all religion ?
for whatever ... whoever...
just be who i am... my ideal character of me myself !! yeah!!
-determination
-responsible
-selfless
- free from greed, anger and ignorance
THE wise man ... LOLZ jkjk
reminder to myself...!!
goals to achieves ..
in life ...
-save lifes
short term
-win judo IVP!!
-3.6 GPA for sem 2 !
-becoming a life guard
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
another stage of life
another stage of life
:unknown
3rd - 14th dec
Sch holiday
: NPCC (NCO training camp)
: OBS 9'days
: life saving training
NPCC camp 02 days
: late in the morning due to sleeping too late the night before , busy preparing the presentation for those lecture. A good teacher? i guess i am not. for 2 days giving lecture continuously. it's hard, unable to keep my spirit up.sometimes just felt that i am not doing a good job as a CI, have those knowledge passed down to those cadets? how am i going to enforce it? how to become a good teacher? how to become a good leader? how to become a good CI ? tired. sometimes just thinking that why am i still serving in NPCC, moreover it's not my own sec sch but other. Y? thinking back, i become a CI to repay what my sec sch have given me, a sign of gratitude from my CIs that have mould me, making the unit grow. but now serving other unit. a sign of gratitude from the NPCC itself? i have other dreams to fufill, other goals to achieve, but why am i doing all this?
OBS 09 days
: a room of unknown to a group of hi bye friends .. now i got the meaning of hi bye friends. Friendship, which doesn't seem to be exist to some.
day 01
- ice breaking, logistic stuffs, evening PT (2.4)
all unfimilar faces, only know some ppl from the ALC. i change to be selfish ? evening time run 2.4 wow! long time din run .. fun!brought 2 shoes one too small ... instructor: belinder!! and hiap lun
02
- PT, high element, logistic, PT(4.8), tent pitching ...
PT the running of 2.4 with timing taken, i came in the 3rd of all, the timing was very lousy, 13.32, but the ber say tat all timing was slower compare when running in school becos of the terrain, up and down and muddy, the first JW has a timing of 10.3 plus i guess lolz he damn pro chiong all the way, sprint all lehz !! haha then 2nd was N 5 sec before me ... high element, i climb to the greatest !! at a look it seem easy to achieve but after taken the first step the fear came in. achieving the greatest height with my partner YR, thanks for her for not giving up with me !! lol... pulling you up is my responsibility as a team, cos we have to achieve together as a team=) PT running 4.8 Km, running as a whole watch, hmm rather slow for me, end up running behind encouraging others with JW.
03
-PT, mini kayaking expeitition, PT (6)
morning PT, 2.4 personal timing again. no strength to run xia... again came in 3rd, the first was the same but the second was a girl !! hahaz i lose to her but few second, she was great, basketball women, MVP somemore, no wonder, lotsa determination could be seen in her. thanks to her, my timing improve by a few second 10.25 lol! mini kaya xp, my partner was S hmm, quite fun, everything was great, then became the port side of the formation. Evening PT 6 Km run ... lol, doing the same thing again, running behind encouraging others. doesn't felt tired at all..
04
-land xp
land xp around ubin, went to the highest point of ubin and german girl shine. learn about the history of those. helping others but will they know? will they show gratitude to what u have done? NO!!! sianzation, people just take things for granted
05
-solo camp out
all alone in the forest, having the commando mosquitoes as companion and a spooky chair. thinking of the past, those people who have taught me important values.
06,07,08
-sea xp, 9k run
sea xp, the reveal of the bad side of me during the part of towing when channel crossing... i was totally drained out..felt angry about my weakness(body size), felt helpless...some people around does care... portside, in my point of view: to be the first to show the marking, also to be the last to show the marking. choinging up and slowing down with no more momentem ...
9k run, just after the finishing of the sea xp...at first targeted 45 min to complete it. however halfway there, felt the foods i eaten during lunch comig up, feel like vomitting, wearing a shoes that is too small for me, hard to continue manz!! continue till the turining back part, walk all the way back haha ... slack .. only a few people overtake me, lesser then i expected, came in 7th
09
-confidence jumping
everything come to an end. with a final sharing of the highest point and lowest point of the camp also what u have learn. highest point , the achieving of high element? lowest point, sea xp? what i have learn ' be the nobody where everybody thought somebody will do it but nobody did it' ' don thinki things that way, then it is not that way, just do it .. ' and finally a word i have learn, Understanding ...
Life saving
went to lifesaving lesson after the 9 days camp... worn out manz!... but learn alot about life from richard, 'things get complicated as u grow ... not avioding it but learn how to manage it.'
' how i wish life is just as simple as i thought ...'
:unknown
3rd - 14th dec
Sch holiday
: NPCC (NCO training camp)
: OBS 9'days
: life saving training
NPCC camp 02 days
: late in the morning due to sleeping too late the night before , busy preparing the presentation for those lecture. A good teacher? i guess i am not. for 2 days giving lecture continuously. it's hard, unable to keep my spirit up.sometimes just felt that i am not doing a good job as a CI, have those knowledge passed down to those cadets? how am i going to enforce it? how to become a good teacher? how to become a good leader? how to become a good CI ? tired. sometimes just thinking that why am i still serving in NPCC, moreover it's not my own sec sch but other. Y? thinking back, i become a CI to repay what my sec sch have given me, a sign of gratitude from my CIs that have mould me, making the unit grow. but now serving other unit. a sign of gratitude from the NPCC itself? i have other dreams to fufill, other goals to achieve, but why am i doing all this?
OBS 09 days
: a room of unknown to a group of hi bye friends .. now i got the meaning of hi bye friends. Friendship, which doesn't seem to be exist to some.
day 01
- ice breaking, logistic stuffs, evening PT (2.4)
all unfimilar faces, only know some ppl from the ALC. i change to be selfish ? evening time run 2.4 wow! long time din run .. fun!brought 2 shoes one too small ... instructor: belinder!! and hiap lun
02
- PT, high element, logistic, PT(4.8), tent pitching ...
PT the running of 2.4 with timing taken, i came in the 3rd of all, the timing was very lousy, 13.32, but the ber say tat all timing was slower compare when running in school becos of the terrain, up and down and muddy, the first JW has a timing of 10.3 plus i guess lolz he damn pro chiong all the way, sprint all lehz !! haha then 2nd was N 5 sec before me ... high element, i climb to the greatest !! at a look it seem easy to achieve but after taken the first step the fear came in. achieving the greatest height with my partner YR, thanks for her for not giving up with me !! lol... pulling you up is my responsibility as a team, cos we have to achieve together as a team=) PT running 4.8 Km, running as a whole watch, hmm rather slow for me, end up running behind encouraging others with JW.
03
-PT, mini kayaking expeitition, PT (6)
morning PT, 2.4 personal timing again. no strength to run xia... again came in 3rd, the first was the same but the second was a girl !! hahaz i lose to her but few second, she was great, basketball women, MVP somemore, no wonder, lotsa determination could be seen in her. thanks to her, my timing improve by a few second 10.25 lol! mini kaya xp, my partner was S hmm, quite fun, everything was great, then became the port side of the formation. Evening PT 6 Km run ... lol, doing the same thing again, running behind encouraging others. doesn't felt tired at all..
04
-land xp
land xp around ubin, went to the highest point of ubin and german girl shine. learn about the history of those. helping others but will they know? will they show gratitude to what u have done? NO!!! sianzation, people just take things for granted
05
-solo camp out
all alone in the forest, having the commando mosquitoes as companion and a spooky chair. thinking of the past, those people who have taught me important values.
06,07,08
-sea xp, 9k run
sea xp, the reveal of the bad side of me during the part of towing when channel crossing... i was totally drained out..felt angry about my weakness(body size), felt helpless...some people around does care... portside, in my point of view: to be the first to show the marking, also to be the last to show the marking. choinging up and slowing down with no more momentem ...
9k run, just after the finishing of the sea xp...at first targeted 45 min to complete it. however halfway there, felt the foods i eaten during lunch comig up, feel like vomitting, wearing a shoes that is too small for me, hard to continue manz!! continue till the turining back part, walk all the way back haha ... slack .. only a few people overtake me, lesser then i expected, came in 7th
09
-confidence jumping
everything come to an end. with a final sharing of the highest point and lowest point of the camp also what u have learn. highest point , the achieving of high element? lowest point, sea xp? what i have learn ' be the nobody where everybody thought somebody will do it but nobody did it' ' don thinki things that way, then it is not that way, just do it .. ' and finally a word i have learn, Understanding ...
Life saving
went to lifesaving lesson after the 9 days camp... worn out manz!... but learn alot about life from richard, 'things get complicated as u grow ... not avioding it but learn how to manage it.'
' how i wish life is just as simple as i thought ...'
Sunday, November 13, 2005
sensitive religion
religion matters
w: typical
Wow!! learn alot from mr seong about christianity teaching, as i wonder about evolution theory, how was human first created? by chances of micro organisim ?or simply because god create him? thinking about it, if it is form by the chances of micro organisms, then how did micro organisms first created? then how was earth first created? even till how were the universe created? why did big bang occured? from 1 questions, to 10, till even hundred or million? who was able to answer it? the scientific theory? or just simply one answer, 'god created everything?' hmmm, i find so much similarities to this teacher/officer of mine, he's also a capricon! ahahz means that he's birth date is near to mine? he has a v strong beliefs in doing things, wanting to benefit mankind? ... moving on to the histories of jews, islam and christian, till even protest and catholic the differences and similarities, but was still unable to find the link between buddishism and christian, why i want to find the link about them? cos i find that in both of this religion,people are good. however, i always belives in their teachings but not till the extent of obcess by it, i belive in freeedom and own will, that's me. i belives that religion is something which gives u the power in doing things when u belive in it,they give u confidence, determination. teachers around me, my judo sensei s, npcc officer.. they are successful in life, and they are christian, y ? strong beliefs ? i hope to find the answer one day?
' they exist before, do they exist now?'
w: typical
Wow!! learn alot from mr seong about christianity teaching, as i wonder about evolution theory, how was human first created? by chances of micro organisim ?or simply because god create him? thinking about it, if it is form by the chances of micro organisms, then how did micro organisms first created? then how was earth first created? even till how were the universe created? why did big bang occured? from 1 questions, to 10, till even hundred or million? who was able to answer it? the scientific theory? or just simply one answer, 'god created everything?' hmmm, i find so much similarities to this teacher/officer of mine, he's also a capricon! ahahz means that he's birth date is near to mine? he has a v strong beliefs in doing things, wanting to benefit mankind? ... moving on to the histories of jews, islam and christian, till even protest and catholic the differences and similarities, but was still unable to find the link between buddishism and christian, why i want to find the link about them? cos i find that in both of this religion,people are good. however, i always belives in their teachings but not till the extent of obcess by it, i belive in freeedom and own will, that's me. i belives that religion is something which gives u the power in doing things when u belive in it,they give u confidence, determination. teachers around me, my judo sensei s, npcc officer.. they are successful in life, and they are christian, y ? strong beliefs ? i hope to find the answer one day?
' they exist before, do they exist now?'
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
091105
091105
m:breezy
-a hope that leading me towards my dream
-loss of breathing skill = no stamina
-good lucks for all taking o eng tmr =)
m:breezy
-a hope that leading me towards my dream
-loss of breathing skill = no stamina
-good lucks for all taking o eng tmr =)
Monday, October 31, 2005
bad throat days!!
31/10
m: sunnY =)
wah sick!! i cant talk .. don noe what happen to my voice loss in the sudden, now i got problem speak, almost the same as a dumb person.. sianZz i want to talk!!wah cant talk during presentation, cant express myself through words!! damM!! holY coW~~MoooOooo ytd was a great day with zy, this buddy always brighten up my life.. hmm, nvm things will get fine soon. grow up !! wake up!! wah.. must chiong more work , earn more money then mum has less burden, also mus study hard !! and continue my way towards my dreams,tired? rest enough le, the crake? let go liao(thanks to alot people ard me) and once again i am standing firm on my feets.Flung 4 out 5 of my understanding tests, the next coming one mus study hard!!A! there's ppl who look down on me( i will prove to u guys that i am stronger), also people who hav being suppoting my soul lol.. yeah !! tomorrow sch holiday.. GOT LIFE SAVING SESSION tomorrow, i am going to swim more tomorrow and get stronger physically and mentally!!
MY short term goals
- get more As!!
-more understanding about biology
-improve in JUDO tacnic!!
-improve in my swimming skill!!
'beliving in myself, in my own ability, soon i shall prove something to the world with my determination!!' 'saving lifes in the future'
zhang zhi cheng - kuai le (nice song)thanks
m: sunnY =)
wah sick!! i cant talk .. don noe what happen to my voice loss in the sudden, now i got problem speak, almost the same as a dumb person.. sianZz i want to talk!!wah cant talk during presentation, cant express myself through words!! damM!! holY coW~~MoooOooo ytd was a great day with zy, this buddy always brighten up my life.. hmm, nvm things will get fine soon. grow up !! wake up!! wah.. must chiong more work , earn more money then mum has less burden, also mus study hard !! and continue my way towards my dreams,tired? rest enough le, the crake? let go liao(thanks to alot people ard me) and once again i am standing firm on my feets.Flung 4 out 5 of my understanding tests, the next coming one mus study hard!!A! there's ppl who look down on me( i will prove to u guys that i am stronger), also people who hav being suppoting my soul lol.. yeah !! tomorrow sch holiday.. GOT LIFE SAVING SESSION tomorrow, i am going to swim more tomorrow and get stronger physically and mentally!!
MY short term goals
- get more As!!
-more understanding about biology
-improve in JUDO tacnic!!
-improve in my swimming skill!!
'beliving in myself, in my own ability, soon i shall prove something to the world with my determination!!' 'saving lifes in the future'
zhang zhi cheng - kuai le (nice song)thanks
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
25102005
25102005
-think too much abt her
-flung my U test for communication 21/10(pass up a almost blank paper, no mood useless )
-looking into a clearer picture of it (i was wrong)
-everything was not impt, feel like knowing ur feeling about me, for me to choose my path in life...
-saw LScoach after his major operation, i feel sad for him, he undergo what i hav gone through but his is more painful, cos i op when i was young, i rem nth, but him rem the fear...
-'u willing to teach me, i will to learn' ' u willling to coach me, i am willing to train'
-looking forward tomorrow, a better day
-tell myself 'if i live tomorrow, i wan to care for those who care for me, move towards i dreaming for, live with a smiles ard me... cos i am lucky, since i am given this day, i shall not waste it...i nv wan to dream of that my tomorrow might not come.. '
-think too much abt her
-flung my U test for communication 21/10(pass up a almost blank paper, no mood useless )
-looking into a clearer picture of it (i was wrong)
-everything was not impt, feel like knowing ur feeling about me, for me to choose my path in life...
-saw LScoach after his major operation, i feel sad for him, he undergo what i hav gone through but his is more painful, cos i op when i was young, i rem nth, but him rem the fear...
-'u willing to teach me, i will to learn' ' u willling to coach me, i am willing to train'
-looking forward tomorrow, a better day
-tell myself 'if i live tomorrow, i wan to care for those who care for me, move towards i dreaming for, live with a smiles ard me... cos i am lucky, since i am given this day, i shall not waste it...i nv wan to dream of that my tomorrow might not come.. '
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
181005
181005
: dark cloud over the sun
-RP
-Today's A102 was interesting
- lifesaving( loner)
- SAS poster design
- UT prep
today's school, i felt fufillful as i really so into the understanding of the hybridisation!! i finally understand it!! hohoho.. hmm then went to life saving which no one turn out for the extra training, even the one who ask me to go... so disapointed...swim myself lolz.. omg !! guess wat? i met a gay!! shitty ! when i was resting at the pool side he talk to me, what's more was he stalked me even ask me for dinner... HOLY COW~~~ hmm then went onto train, lucky sitting beside me was ger xia .. phew ... linz's moody... why ? i don noe ... wat can i do to make u happy?
: dark cloud over the sun
-RP
-Today's A102 was interesting
- lifesaving( loner)
- SAS poster design
- UT prep
today's school, i felt fufillful as i really so into the understanding of the hybridisation!! i finally understand it!! hohoho.. hmm then went to life saving which no one turn out for the extra training, even the one who ask me to go... so disapointed...swim myself lolz.. omg !! guess wat? i met a gay!! shitty ! when i was resting at the pool side he talk to me, what's more was he stalked me even ask me for dinner... HOLY COW~~~ hmm then went onto train, lucky sitting beside me was ger xia .. phew ... linz's moody... why ? i don noe ... wat can i do to make u happy?
Saturday, October 15, 2005
141005
141005
>dark cloud hanging over the sky
-slack at home
-night cycling with j and tiong
don feel like doing anything, therefore i did nth, think nth, all i did was sleeping, stoning ... no life, cant figure out...
>dark cloud hanging over the sky
-slack at home
-night cycling with j and tiong
don feel like doing anything, therefore i did nth, think nth, all i did was sleeping, stoning ... no life, cant figure out...
Thursday, October 13, 2005
holy cow~~
131005
still air, motionless
-RP
-Rp judo
-mac with choon hong
Sianzation !! hmmm, today, in a team that TBDN ( talk but do nth) ... hmmm, ate nasi bryani before training, shiok manz.. filling up my hungary stomach. Today's judo, uji komi 1 set 20, moving uji komi, moving kata randori, physical games, randori and finally na waza randori.. hmm.. not that siong after all, maybe i was too slack in training ? i want to improve, but it seems that i was stuck at the level, unable to find ways up... sometimes i really felt that we were living in our own world, i don't understand you, neither do u understand me, i hope that i can read your mind but i cant... i wonder... tell me how ? hmm ... linz 'really hope to see you happy again'... i felt tired and useless... ' seeing ur's smiles brights my sky up', ' in this world, when/how many will one find someone that understand him/her? the star that belongs ?'
still air, motionless
-RP
-Rp judo
-mac with choon hong
Sianzation !! hmmm, today, in a team that TBDN ( talk but do nth) ... hmmm, ate nasi bryani before training, shiok manz.. filling up my hungary stomach. Today's judo, uji komi 1 set 20, moving uji komi, moving kata randori, physical games, randori and finally na waza randori.. hmm.. not that siong after all, maybe i was too slack in training ? i want to improve, but it seems that i was stuck at the level, unable to find ways up... sometimes i really felt that we were living in our own world, i don't understand you, neither do u understand me, i hope that i can read your mind but i cant... i wonder... tell me how ? hmm ... linz 'really hope to see you happy again'... i felt tired and useless... ' seeing ur's smiles brights my sky up', ' in this world, when/how many will one find someone that understand him/her? the star that belongs ?'
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
120905
120905
m: bright sun shinning down the clear blue sky
-RP
-Kjudo
-met ZY
hahazZ, started with a sleepy morning, dragging my way to school. Today's team was fun!! hahaz, the more talkative team i ever met so far in my new class... we were crapping !! hohoho.. LOL stupid SH mistook my 'sis' as my gf, lolz as always, she's baka ... jkjk.. next judo training, wah!! siong lehz, so much physical.. hahaz, but i like it... chiong chiong chiong, finally a siong training... hahaz i am going to improve!! cos i have good teachers, and good partners.. ! hmm, met ZY today, pass her the water bag.. hahaz nth changes in her.. hmm linz still worring about her result, what can i do ? if she worry = moody = unhappy = affect ME ... haizZ, hey i having a start in drving towards my dreams!! good results, excel in judo !! " when i belives, i will be there " - k6i
m: bright sun shinning down the clear blue sky
-RP
-Kjudo
-met ZY
hahazZ, started with a sleepy morning, dragging my way to school. Today's team was fun!! hahaz, the more talkative team i ever met so far in my new class... we were crapping !! hohoho.. LOL stupid SH mistook my 'sis' as my gf, lolz as always, she's baka ... jkjk.. next judo training, wah!! siong lehz, so much physical.. hahaz, but i like it... chiong chiong chiong, finally a siong training... hahaz i am going to improve!! cos i have good teachers, and good partners.. ! hmm, met ZY today, pass her the water bag.. hahaz nth changes in her.. hmm linz still worring about her result, what can i do ? if she worry = moody = unhappy = affect ME ... haizZ, hey i having a start in drving towards my dreams!! good results, excel in judo !! " when i belives, i will be there " - k6i
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
111005
111005
back to the past
m: cloudy
-RP
-President at RP
-visiting lifesaving instructor (CGH)
Today, a intresting lesson i had, finally, a facilitator that teaches, she tried to clear my doubts about obital electrons which was something not needed for this lesson, although she was unsuccessful in clearing my doubts, but she earn my respect from my heart. Thanks for not giving up, it's probably that i am too slow in understand things. Then after lesson, follow the lifesaving IG to welcome the president. Then slack in the library till the night as we have to wait for james for his floorball compeition and then we went to CGH to visit richard( our lifesaving coach) as he just has an operation to remove the don noe wat thing in his don noe wat organ. hahaz , cant remember.seeing him like that make me think that i am lucky compared to him, although i has 3 operation in my life, but i don have any memories about it, i cant emember anything about the operation, nothing at all, probably because it was done when i was young. This also reminds me that i am not that healthy compare to others, confidence level drop, the limit i can stretch might not be as far to others physically. hmm, today linz took her maths and sciences paper, she thinks that she did badly for it, but such things as long as u has tried your best can le , the rest i think still have to rely it on fate/luck. Looking back, i gone the hard way through, eversince i posted to eastview, my life seem to be decided. from primary to secondary, then wanting to take bio ended up taking art(i finally manage to pass my english but failed my maths), from then onwards, i understand that as long as u have tried your best, you should be happy over it, everythings i do, i tried my best, yes i failed once, twices, even thrice, or more, yes i failed, but i wldn regret, i understand more about how to achieves it. Even posted to art class, i didn give up(as i think that will be the worse thing can happen in life- giving up in urself) , i was unsatisfied with the posting , why am i posted to the last class? although posted to last class, i always tried to top in the class, keeping myself compeitive with other classes( although i might mean nth to them) but at least i tried, there i go, ended up in republic poly, if i have give up , i sld be in ite by now or even becoming a useless person. ' although might not achieve, at least i tried, leaving no regrets behind' i hope linz could understand this, sometimes, somethings might not just the way u wanted to, there might be more efforts needed, might be more thoughts needed...since we are still breathing, let's continue the journey and not stopping here and ponder over it 'leaving those footsteps behind, and not just the thought of stepping over it' originated by k6i ...
back to the past
m: cloudy
-RP
-President at RP
-visiting lifesaving instructor (CGH)
Today, a intresting lesson i had, finally, a facilitator that teaches, she tried to clear my doubts about obital electrons which was something not needed for this lesson, although she was unsuccessful in clearing my doubts, but she earn my respect from my heart. Thanks for not giving up, it's probably that i am too slow in understand things. Then after lesson, follow the lifesaving IG to welcome the president. Then slack in the library till the night as we have to wait for james for his floorball compeition and then we went to CGH to visit richard( our lifesaving coach) as he just has an operation to remove the don noe wat thing in his don noe wat organ. hahaz , cant remember.seeing him like that make me think that i am lucky compared to him, although i has 3 operation in my life, but i don have any memories about it, i cant emember anything about the operation, nothing at all, probably because it was done when i was young. This also reminds me that i am not that healthy compare to others, confidence level drop, the limit i can stretch might not be as far to others physically. hmm, today linz took her maths and sciences paper, she thinks that she did badly for it, but such things as long as u has tried your best can le , the rest i think still have to rely it on fate/luck. Looking back, i gone the hard way through, eversince i posted to eastview, my life seem to be decided. from primary to secondary, then wanting to take bio ended up taking art(i finally manage to pass my english but failed my maths), from then onwards, i understand that as long as u have tried your best, you should be happy over it, everythings i do, i tried my best, yes i failed once, twices, even thrice, or more, yes i failed, but i wldn regret, i understand more about how to achieves it. Even posted to art class, i didn give up(as i think that will be the worse thing can happen in life- giving up in urself) , i was unsatisfied with the posting , why am i posted to the last class? although posted to last class, i always tried to top in the class, keeping myself compeitive with other classes( although i might mean nth to them) but at least i tried, there i go, ended up in republic poly, if i have give up , i sld be in ite by now or even becoming a useless person. ' although might not achieve, at least i tried, leaving no regrets behind' i hope linz could understand this, sometimes, somethings might not just the way u wanted to, there might be more efforts needed, might be more thoughts needed...since we are still breathing, let's continue the journey and not stopping here and ponder over it 'leaving those footsteps behind, and not just the thought of stepping over it' originated by k6i ...
Monday, October 10, 2005
091005
091005
m:breezy
-slack home
-work shilin
Today? slack the half day home, ytd night used the whole night to do the camp proposer, sianz... NO LIFE.. haha.. hmm last day at shilin.. BYE guys, take care!! home- dark sauce egg fry rice by ME.. not bad after all.. wow, my brother brought protein power, amazing, but it taste suckY .. dad give me $50 for allowance, suprised, cos he don does that in the past.. hmm hope to see linz on wed...'life have to goes on as things gonna changes' - k6i
m:breezy
-slack home
-work shilin
Today? slack the half day home, ytd night used the whole night to do the camp proposer, sianz... NO LIFE.. haha.. hmm last day at shilin.. BYE guys, take care!! home- dark sauce egg fry rice by ME.. not bad after all.. wow, my brother brought protein power, amazing, but it taste suckY .. dad give me $50 for allowance, suprised, cos he don does that in the past.. hmm hope to see linz on wed...'life have to goes on as things gonna changes' - k6i
Saturday, October 08, 2005
071005
071005
m:v cloudy
-RP
-discussion abt camp
-meet JJ
Today's team, is good, better then the past few days, everyone doing something. nth much to say. tired. met cin for discussion abt dec nco camp, broke her thumbdrive, brought a new one. sianz, unexpected expenses. I don like things that is complicated, just like nowadays with the new wci just joined, hmmm things seem to get complicated.haiz my 1st week grade seem to be dissapointing , suffering from depression LOL. no la .. now i just want my life with Judo and study, and work. I guess i will stop going to NP after the campcraft compeition. v tired so many things to do. 'i hope to accompany u till the day we walk till the edge of the earth' linz
i feel like killing !! don noe why v sian, cos of npcc, make me so sian. 'things are complicated until u understand it, they become simple'
m:v cloudy
-RP
-discussion abt camp
-meet JJ
Today's team, is good, better then the past few days, everyone doing something. nth much to say. tired. met cin for discussion abt dec nco camp, broke her thumbdrive, brought a new one. sianz, unexpected expenses. I don like things that is complicated, just like nowadays with the new wci just joined, hmmm things seem to get complicated.haiz my 1st week grade seem to be dissapointing , suffering from depression LOL. no la .. now i just want my life with Judo and study, and work. I guess i will stop going to NP after the campcraft compeition. v tired so many things to do. 'i hope to accompany u till the day we walk till the edge of the earth' linz
i feel like killing !! don noe why v sian, cos of npcc, make me so sian. 'things are complicated until u understand it, they become simple'
Friday, October 07, 2005
061005
061005
-RP
-RP Judo
Fun day!! hahaz CH came for judo training !! muhaha , didnt go for astro... guess i quitting soon ? hmm haven made up my mind. what tactic shld i focus in judo ? anyway guess what i saw my future!! hahah An 5 years degree from NTU, biological science , combination of the studies of chinese and western medicne !! so motivated to study 'At the end of the 5 years, successful students will receive two degrees, a B.Sc. (Hons.) in Biomedical Sciences and a B.Med. in Chinese Medicine.' Wa!! cOol!! biomedical sci NTU... haha, save save ... lol.. they also accept my dipolma !! i have a chance.. ' saw it!! path it- reach it'
-RP
-RP Judo
Fun day!! hahaz CH came for judo training !! muhaha , didnt go for astro... guess i quitting soon ? hmm haven made up my mind. what tactic shld i focus in judo ? anyway guess what i saw my future!! hahah An 5 years degree from NTU, biological science , combination of the studies of chinese and western medicne !! so motivated to study 'At the end of the 5 years, successful students will receive two degrees, a B.Sc. (Hons.) in Biomedical Sciences and a B.Med. in Chinese Medicine.' Wa!! cOol!! biomedical sci NTU... haha, save save ... lol.. they also accept my dipolma !! i have a chance.. ' saw it!! path it- reach it'
Saturday, October 01, 2005
011005
011005
fridaY
m:breezy
-WGP
-edit edit edit psn
Lame and tiring day ...
RESULTS AND CLASS IS OUT!!
result, 4B+ and 1B(satisfy, hehe, reaching for higher!! I AM GREEDY) , sem 2 target = 5B+
class, PS0105 (yeaH!! no more mountain climbing early in the morning !!)
current schdule
mon-RP, WSL
Tues-RP, RPLifeSaving
Wed- RP, KJudo
Thurs- RP, RPJudo, RPAstro
Fri- RP, (WGP)
Sat- NPCC,(WGP or KJudo)
Sun- WSL
=sianz, some life
stress lehz, almost suffocated... should i quit my work in shilin ?I WANT TO QUIT MANz!! thinking thinking thinking
Reduce commitment ... damn it
Didn bother goin to the bbq, tired ...
happy birthday to HL ...
hope linz will see a doctor, and be happy...
fridaY
m:breezy
-WGP
-edit edit edit psn
Lame and tiring day ...
RESULTS AND CLASS IS OUT!!
result, 4B+ and 1B(satisfy, hehe, reaching for higher!! I AM GREEDY) , sem 2 target = 5B+
class, PS0105 (yeaH!! no more mountain climbing early in the morning !!)
current schdule
mon-RP, WSL
Tues-RP, RPLifeSaving
Wed- RP, KJudo
Thurs- RP, RPJudo, RPAstro
Fri- RP, (WGP)
Sat- NPCC,(WGP or KJudo)
Sun- WSL
=sianz, some life
stress lehz, almost suffocated... should i quit my work in shilin ?I WANT TO QUIT MANz!! thinking thinking thinking
Reduce commitment ... damn it
Didn bother goin to the bbq, tired ...
happy birthday to HL ...
hope linz will see a doctor, and be happy...
Thursday, September 29, 2005
290905
290905
m: cloudy
-RPJ
Had a terrible dream last night, dreamt of someone impt to me left me in the sudden.. the dream make me thought of it the whole day round. wakeY late, late for judo training.. my throws sucks!! i cant excute properly.. kata randori partner with raft, cant throw him properly becos of my stupid leg.. then follow by demo, learn kata guruma but still unable to excute it properly.. then tamoe naga.. Then when to collect shirt.. took 33 from queenway to bedok, didn bother to change to mrt, 1.5 hrs trip, lotsa thoughts went through my mind...a thoughts of k6i.. 'i exist here because of fate'.... finally finishing the disc ...
m: cloudy
-RPJ
Had a terrible dream last night, dreamt of someone impt to me left me in the sudden.. the dream make me thought of it the whole day round. wakeY late, late for judo training.. my throws sucks!! i cant excute properly.. kata randori partner with raft, cant throw him properly becos of my stupid leg.. then follow by demo, learn kata guruma but still unable to excute it properly.. then tamoe naga.. Then when to collect shirt.. took 33 from queenway to bedok, didn bother to change to mrt, 1.5 hrs trip, lotsa thoughts went through my mind...a thoughts of k6i.. 'i exist here because of fate'.... finally finishing the disc ...
280905
280905
w:breezy
m: cloudy
- katong judo
linz is unhappy today, so as i... hmm guess she's stress about exams, going into the bioclass, and over the stuffs happening in her family ? I cant guess what's on her mind ... gers thought are so deep... today's judo lesson was interesting!! combination tatics !! from , ko ouchi gari to osoto gari, osoto gari to uchi mata then the breaking of stiff hold- main the pull and the push in wrist follow by any tatics, still trying out the comb of ko ouchi gari to uchi mata.. 'got confidence for ivp ??' my answer to her no ... i havent reach the standard... 'find and play your style of judo!' - sensei ...
w:breezy
m: cloudy
- katong judo
linz is unhappy today, so as i... hmm guess she's stress about exams, going into the bioclass, and over the stuffs happening in her family ? I cant guess what's on her mind ... gers thought are so deep... today's judo lesson was interesting!! combination tatics !! from , ko ouchi gari to osoto gari, osoto gari to uchi mata then the breaking of stiff hold- main the pull and the push in wrist follow by any tatics, still trying out the comb of ko ouchi gari to uchi mata.. 'got confidence for ivp ??' my answer to her no ... i havent reach the standard... 'find and play your style of judo!' - sensei ...
Sunday, September 25, 2005
k6i 2409
another typical daY of k6i
W:biG biG suN hanging in the skY
M:aku tatawu
NPCC meeting: with 2 wcis of GV (for dec camp)
Katong Judo
Work (GWPH)
today ??? ANOTHER BORING DAY!!! yeaH!! saw linz , but she look so 'not okie' , hmm injured so long le, but still didn bother to see a doc...haiZzzzzZZzz feel like dragging her to doc manZz.. tired today... 'tomorrow mayb my last day of work in shilin', ' quit ? still thinking' heY guess wat? today's funtion was a 50th wedding anniversery of a couple !! wow, 50 years lehz.. every time i see people marry, i felt happiness for them, hmmm so when will it be my turn??
W:biG biG suN hanging in the skY
M:aku tatawu
NPCC meeting: with 2 wcis of GV (for dec camp)
Katong Judo
Work (GWPH)
today ??? ANOTHER BORING DAY!!! yeaH!! saw linz , but she look so 'not okie' , hmm injured so long le, but still didn bother to see a doc...haiZzzzzZZzz feel like dragging her to doc manZz.. tired today... 'tomorrow mayb my last day of work in shilin', ' quit ? still thinking' heY guess wat? today's funtion was a 50th wedding anniversery of a couple !! wow, 50 years lehz.. every time i see people marry, i felt happiness for them, hmmm so when will it be my turn??
Friday, September 16, 2005
1609
mY 1st Judo compeitition
m:=(
w:sunnY
Today, i am having the first judo compeitition in my judo life( old boys vs present), saw lotsa sch mates. Today competition's results turn out unexpectedly, heavy vs light, light win, don noe wat's HB doin ... not attacking at all, playing defensive... hmm, JT play real well in winning HB... linz won her match=) before that she was still worring that she cant win... I was always look down by others as usual... hahaz... my first judo match, i was defeated by JT within 10sec ... by low seoi toshi...which i tot was a wazari, refree gave a ippon... i was a step slower in grapperling , i failed to take control in the first place... 'there's always next time, the harder u fall the firmer u'll stand...' i belive in that... i LOSE as expected...luckily the team event overall win(thanks to vincent)... one of my friend told me that actually i could win, but it seem that i has fear in me... that's true ba, after she said that i realise it myself ... went out with linz, didn tok much.. sorry linz.. then linz told me about maybe her father knowing our relationship, as her sis saw her holding onto my bag outside sch... don noe wat will happen later, hope nth serious will happen..let nature take it's course 'my love for her has got stronger ... i don noe why ...the room of heart is getting smalller ..that's nature i guess?''i love her the way she is ' ... I must get serious now, 'try the keys i found in judo, mayb they might just works' ...feel like quiting as a CI, i feel tired every now and then... unlocking the myth... 'CONTROL, FOLLOW,EXCUTE' .. everyone out there, i gonna train hard cos i will win my next judo compeitition,'that's a promise to myself' !!
m:=(
w:sunnY
Today, i am having the first judo compeitition in my judo life( old boys vs present), saw lotsa sch mates. Today competition's results turn out unexpectedly, heavy vs light, light win, don noe wat's HB doin ... not attacking at all, playing defensive... hmm, JT play real well in winning HB... linz won her match=) before that she was still worring that she cant win... I was always look down by others as usual... hahaz... my first judo match, i was defeated by JT within 10sec ... by low seoi toshi...which i tot was a wazari, refree gave a ippon... i was a step slower in grapperling , i failed to take control in the first place... 'there's always next time, the harder u fall the firmer u'll stand...' i belive in that... i LOSE as expected...luckily the team event overall win(thanks to vincent)... one of my friend told me that actually i could win, but it seem that i has fear in me... that's true ba, after she said that i realise it myself ... went out with linz, didn tok much.. sorry linz.. then linz told me about maybe her father knowing our relationship, as her sis saw her holding onto my bag outside sch... don noe wat will happen later, hope nth serious will happen..let nature take it's course 'my love for her has got stronger ... i don noe why ...the room of heart is getting smalller ..that's nature i guess?''i love her the way she is ' ... I must get serious now, 'try the keys i found in judo, mayb they might just works' ...feel like quiting as a CI, i feel tired every now and then... unlocking the myth... 'CONTROL, FOLLOW,EXCUTE' .. everyone out there, i gonna train hard cos i will win my next judo compeitition,'that's a promise to myself' !!
Thursday, September 15, 2005
ready for it?
1509
w:sunnY
m:low
Today, meet linz, mark and malaysia for katong training, when for a haircut, look more fresh now ... wanting to buy gi from sensei but he doesn't have size 4 gi then have to rush home to getmy drying gi. Today, low morale but learn alot from song lin today about randori =) thanks alot bro!! 'u let me gain some morale' what's more today ?? hmm, i felt fortunate in my life, regardless of family, friends, my linz ,i got everythings the best ? yes!! to me it is!! I have got everthing best in the world, my experiences is what others cant get=) I felt support from my friends, felt some care from my family, concern from linz and that's enough for me le, i am happy about it , no more no life!! muhahahaz... but maybe one day, everythings will be gone... cos nothing last forever... just like PL0103, everything have to serparate, one day everyone will go seperate ways, ' u go ur heaven way, i go my wood bridge way' , not becos we wanted to seprate but it's fate , it's fate that bring we together as a class... so we should treasure every moment together, be it with yr family, friends or loves one =) muhahaz 'everything can be taken away expect those memories, the things written in mystory... they live in my mind... ' OPOP , out of point... back to topic, hmmm, judo competition - old boys vs present boys , training for it but was unable to excecute my tatics correctly during randori , hmmm must think how it's work !! think think think, fight(randori) for the sake of learning not winning ... why ppl pin hopes on me ? encouraging me ? but ... i still think that i am still inexperience... nvm la ... just do it!! nothing to lose, be it win or lose, experience of it is wat matter most, ppl out there listen up!! i will try my best !! that's a promise to u guys , linz and me, myself .. i may not win but i will become stronger !! muhahahz cos i am tian cai okiee dokie ? (linz injure again, KL oso injure her shoulder , hmm hope they'll heal soon =))
w:sunnY
m:low
Today, meet linz, mark and malaysia for katong training, when for a haircut, look more fresh now ... wanting to buy gi from sensei but he doesn't have size 4 gi then have to rush home to getmy drying gi. Today, low morale but learn alot from song lin today about randori =) thanks alot bro!! 'u let me gain some morale' what's more today ?? hmm, i felt fortunate in my life, regardless of family, friends, my linz ,i got everythings the best ? yes!! to me it is!! I have got everthing best in the world, my experiences is what others cant get=) I felt support from my friends, felt some care from my family, concern from linz and that's enough for me le, i am happy about it , no more no life!! muhahahaz... but maybe one day, everythings will be gone... cos nothing last forever... just like PL0103, everything have to serparate, one day everyone will go seperate ways, ' u go ur heaven way, i go my wood bridge way' , not becos we wanted to seprate but it's fate , it's fate that bring we together as a class... so we should treasure every moment together, be it with yr family, friends or loves one =) muhahaz 'everything can be taken away expect those memories, the things written in mystory... they live in my mind... ' OPOP , out of point... back to topic, hmmm, judo competition - old boys vs present boys , training for it but was unable to excecute my tatics correctly during randori , hmmm must think how it's work !! think think think, fight(randori) for the sake of learning not winning ... why ppl pin hopes on me ? encouraging me ? but ... i still think that i am still inexperience... nvm la ... just do it!! nothing to lose, be it win or lose, experience of it is wat matter most, ppl out there listen up!! i will try my best !! that's a promise to u guys , linz and me, myself .. i may not win but i will become stronger !! muhahahz cos i am tian cai okiee dokie ? (linz injure again, KL oso injure her shoulder , hmm hope they'll heal soon =))
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
1309
1309
w:rainYzz
m: from enthu to no life
when to judo training @ RP, everything were fine till the final randori session, which made me wore out totally, continously fought s faizal, then s junyi , gabby, big ball, raft, micheal, then s faizal again,they are fresh while my energy level kept depleting continously... i = totally hopeless for friday i guess... unable to concentrate, kept using the same technic, brain jus stop working... didn went to lifesaving training, too tired, both physically and mentally... lost my permenent contact ytd , brought daily contact today, cos having some constraint to buy a monthly or yearly, needa buy gi, stuffs for ophir... going dry... no life la... ' win or lose? i will still try my best for it!! '
w:rainYzz
m: from enthu to no life
when to judo training @ RP, everything were fine till the final randori session, which made me wore out totally, continously fought s faizal, then s junyi , gabby, big ball, raft, micheal, then s faizal again,they are fresh while my energy level kept depleting continously... i = totally hopeless for friday i guess... unable to concentrate, kept using the same technic, brain jus stop working... didn went to lifesaving training, too tired, both physically and mentally... lost my permenent contact ytd , brought daily contact today, cos having some constraint to buy a monthly or yearly, needa buy gi, stuffs for ophir... going dry... no life la... ' win or lose? i will still try my best for it!! '
1209
1209
W: rainY
M: no life
hmm, what's life of mine about ? so tired to think about it, have been working for 4 days consectively some more got so many events, activties going on... Back to today, went for ophir training in sch, so tiring don feel like doing it, but i done it. then went to ev judo training(saw lotsa my goodie friends, sharil, mf, jas mei ...), looking at myself = low morale for friday's comp... then went working after sending linz hm... that's all about today.. Friday playing east view's old boys vs present boys, my first judo competion in my judo life, lose how? 'no confidence= half battle lose, jj told me that b4'need some morale booster(only my own action can boost it, nth else)!! lol hahaZz hope wldn let linz down...'win with beautiful and correct tactic' Past, i live my life for others, present, living for self, FOR the future i will live my life for both others and self !! gonna get a new gi this wed, else no time to wash gi . 'if there's one day this happen, don worry, i will understand it'
W: rainY
M: no life
hmm, what's life of mine about ? so tired to think about it, have been working for 4 days consectively some more got so many events, activties going on... Back to today, went for ophir training in sch, so tiring don feel like doing it, but i done it. then went to ev judo training(saw lotsa my goodie friends, sharil, mf, jas mei ...), looking at myself = low morale for friday's comp... then went working after sending linz hm... that's all about today.. Friday playing east view's old boys vs present boys, my first judo competion in my judo life, lose how? 'no confidence= half battle lose, jj told me that b4'need some morale booster(only my own action can boost it, nth else)!! lol hahaZz hope wldn let linz down...'win with beautiful and correct tactic' Past, i live my life for others, present, living for self, FOR the future i will live my life for both others and self !! gonna get a new gi this wed, else no time to wash gi . 'if there's one day this happen, don worry, i will understand it'
Saturday, September 10, 2005
lifeless
10092005
0107 hrs
w: breezy
NOT ENOUGH SLEEP,
work from 1000 -2300
felt tired..
lose concentration ..
pour a glass of water accidentally on a guest..
linz is feeling better =)
new CI posted to GVSS, from siglap..
tomorrow, npcc drill compeition, 0800 at hai sing
work 1300 - 0000
'what will happen if tomorrow never come ?'
wore out totally...
0107 hrs
w: breezy
NOT ENOUGH SLEEP,
work from 1000 -2300
felt tired..
lose concentration ..
pour a glass of water accidentally on a guest..
linz is feeling better =)
new CI posted to GVSS, from siglap..
tomorrow, npcc drill compeition, 0800 at hai sing
work 1300 - 0000
'what will happen if tomorrow never come ?'
wore out totally...
Friday, September 09, 2005
09092005
09092005
W:sunnY/ slightly drizziling
T: 0402
Today, went to the NEW water plant in bedok(a ce activity by RP), then follow by life saving till 2plus , hmm, finally some time to rest, went straight home boom !! onto the bed. skip astronomy session. Went cycling with, SL, JJ, V, ZJ and GJ,unlucky day ?? hmm, guess so.. we went to ECP then went all the way to town/city area.Took photos with stamford raffles, PS, NAC... On the way there, SL buang, rolling breakfall off the bike, no serious injuries to him, while the bike brake spoil, but then later repaired with the help of an unknown biker, thanks anyway. On the way back to tamp, we fly all the ways, vroom...!! then way back, SL tire , burst, then JJ and SL take turns to carry the bike while i lobang GJ.Finally home!! Tomorrow still got work from 1000 - 0100, 15hrs tomorrow.. another tiring day ? nono sld put it in ' another fulfilling day !! 'haiz, linz injured her chest while having kata randori with ben, hmm, y did he play so rough on girls too ? he's a bully ? well, i must beat him totally in judo !! Hope linz will recover soon=) hmm, also thanks KL's for the disc given on tues =) like those songs v much. Focus- study, Judo.. OA- work, npcc .. the rest don care, cos too tired, sori abt the JP, guess i will be quiting astronomy soon, as i find the IG was abit too complicated( in politics?) , i don noe... All i want is a simple life, with my dreams .. and fulfilling them. 'Think think think, that's what keep a person improving'
W:sunnY/ slightly drizziling
T: 0402
Today, went to the NEW water plant in bedok(a ce activity by RP), then follow by life saving till 2plus , hmm, finally some time to rest, went straight home boom !! onto the bed. skip astronomy session. Went cycling with, SL, JJ, V, ZJ and GJ,unlucky day ?? hmm, guess so.. we went to ECP then went all the way to town/city area.Took photos with stamford raffles, PS, NAC... On the way there, SL buang, rolling breakfall off the bike, no serious injuries to him, while the bike brake spoil, but then later repaired with the help of an unknown biker, thanks anyway. On the way back to tamp, we fly all the ways, vroom...!! then way back, SL tire , burst, then JJ and SL take turns to carry the bike while i lobang GJ.Finally home!! Tomorrow still got work from 1000 - 0100, 15hrs tomorrow.. another tiring day ? nono sld put it in ' another fulfilling day !! 'haiz, linz injured her chest while having kata randori with ben, hmm, y did he play so rough on girls too ? he's a bully ? well, i must beat him totally in judo !! Hope linz will recover soon=) hmm, also thanks KL's for the disc given on tues =) like those songs v much. Focus- study, Judo.. OA- work, npcc .. the rest don care, cos too tired, sori abt the JP, guess i will be quiting astronomy soon, as i find the IG was abit too complicated( in politics?) , i don noe... All i want is a simple life, with my dreams .. and fulfilling them. 'Think think think, that's what keep a person improving'
Monday, September 05, 2005
strange things
today, a boring and weird day? okie... wakey then have a 'slibing gathering' hahaz, have a talk with my bros and sis during the lunch, topic was about my mum as she was strange after that incident, well my dad have become responsible le, but my mum ? i not sure ? things seem to be flip around... i am v tired !! then went to work, from 1500 - 2200, slacking ? hahaz today i drop chicken, foods and money abnormal ... then sam told me the stupid story of shaggy , lol then ended up i keep tinking of the name shaggy then got 2 customers order and asked my age, then i blur blur told them, somemore this customers were at the age of 13 or 14 nia .. wth blur until like that...NO LIFE LA, hahaz today got to know kl experiences in life lolz, intersting and similar to mine, after so long i met another person which share the similar interest with mine lolz, hard to find ppl who listen to songs which touch feeling de. tomorrow is another day... going east view judo, cos requested by linz, lolz seeing ya !! :' being a gf of mine must be a v tough things i guess...' cos i am guy who has lotsa commitments and unable to spend time for the special ones, sorry... ' guess i needa give up on some of my interest le, but judo and npcc will still remains. 'my passion is burning' , saturday is npcc drill compeition le, hope gv can make, ' winning is not everything, the process is what matter most..'
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Gone
My heart has been moved, through external factors. what's that feeling about? it's like so strong without my control. love but how to express it ? LOL no life ... the grades in sch has disappointed me recently, just like a huge fall after climbing up. everything = restart... now must think how to handle things properly. Really tired, of the current lifestyle, my mind and body were so reluctant to think and do things, guess sooner or later, will not be attending some CCAs. hmm, found a new part time(waiter) in a hotel near the far east plaza. Getting more and more busy, needa have a better time management. ' comparing... i felt inferior'
Saturday, July 30, 2005
NDP preview
NDP preview
Early in the moring went for NPCC at Green View, hmm, everything was corked up as the sec 1 are not prepare with the uniform then everything was delayed. Another thing was that i was unable to cooperate well with one of the instrutor as different thinking in teaching approaches, whereby i think her's approaches is not applicable to the situation. Then taught some of the NCOs campcraft, however did not complete teaching as there was a shortage in time. Took cab to RP, wah so ex, sianz must cut down some expenses liao.Somemore wait for the bus in rp for 1hrs plus 2 , wah waste time only. Then hopped onto the bus and proceeded to marina south for the SDA handsigning, rained the whole afternoon, sat on the wet benches.. no life, worst of all is that i couldn not sign well and kanna the first row of the bench.Saw one of the GV cadet participating in the same event with me LOL , hahaz.The preview supporting cont songs was the same as NDP03 de!! wah hahaz. ' looking at the parade, thinking of the past, those memories...u, who was once most impt to me, a motivator to me...nv regret having knowing u in my life, u change my thinkings and let me grew stronger' - life ,' if only i am more sensible in the past'
Early in the moring went for NPCC at Green View, hmm, everything was corked up as the sec 1 are not prepare with the uniform then everything was delayed. Another thing was that i was unable to cooperate well with one of the instrutor as different thinking in teaching approaches, whereby i think her's approaches is not applicable to the situation. Then taught some of the NCOs campcraft, however did not complete teaching as there was a shortage in time. Took cab to RP, wah so ex, sianz must cut down some expenses liao.Somemore wait for the bus in rp for 1hrs plus 2 , wah waste time only. Then hopped onto the bus and proceeded to marina south for the SDA handsigning, rained the whole afternoon, sat on the wet benches.. no life, worst of all is that i couldn not sign well and kanna the first row of the bench.Saw one of the GV cadet participating in the same event with me LOL , hahaz.The preview supporting cont songs was the same as NDP03 de!! wah hahaz. ' looking at the parade, thinking of the past, those memories...u, who was once most impt to me, a motivator to me...nv regret having knowing u in my life, u change my thinkings and let me grew stronger' - life ,' if only i am more sensible in the past'
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
mY fearSs
I felt fear when i climbed too high,
the higher i climb,
i might lose alot of things,
as there is change in character, mentality
what i wanna be?
what character do i want to mold on myself?
CONFUSION
One day, my time will be up in this world
so when will it come?
how long i left?
to completed my dreams,
fulfill my goals..
why is there fear in my broken heart?
why am i unable to overcome it?
why ???...
when will be the day where i will be able to love all over?
the higher i climb,
i might lose alot of things,
as there is change in character, mentality
what i wanna be?
what character do i want to mold on myself?
CONFUSION
One day, my time will be up in this world
so when will it come?
how long i left?
to completed my dreams,
fulfill my goals..
why is there fear in my broken heart?
why am i unable to overcome it?
why ???...
when will be the day where i will be able to love all over?
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
1207
movinG towardS a devil's character
Today, skip lesson just to watch the final, as i told L that i will be attending the next match she's playing. [On the way there, i was pissed off by the msg from M, msg me just to told me off for not washing the cloths the night before, even threaten to fire me..Come'on , bring it on , if u wan to fires me just because of a small mistake, go ahead. Don try me !! stop finding excuses!!don know what's happening and want to f** me off!! I will leave, for the sake of my pride, even if this job meant alot to me. So next time if u try me again, DON BLAME ME FOR TURNING SOUR!!]Went to saw the match btw NYG and EVSS, EV lose, got 2nd in national, considered v good in the past few years, CHEERS!! then saw, the finals btw HC and RI for B division boys, amazing match, Both were strong, RI manage to break HC records for being the champion 14 years consectively, and this year CH got 1st runner up, RI got champ.then follow by the A division finals , CJC vs HCJC , HCJC won, those were exciting matches, and their standard were way above me, guess i have to train more if i want to go for IVP. Wrote a very lousy RJ, guess today's grade will get 'F'.
Today, skip lesson just to watch the final, as i told L that i will be attending the next match she's playing. [On the way there, i was pissed off by the msg from M, msg me just to told me off for not washing the cloths the night before, even threaten to fire me..Come'on , bring it on , if u wan to fires me just because of a small mistake, go ahead. Don try me !! stop finding excuses!!don know what's happening and want to f** me off!! I will leave, for the sake of my pride, even if this job meant alot to me. So next time if u try me again, DON BLAME ME FOR TURNING SOUR!!]Went to saw the match btw NYG and EVSS, EV lose, got 2nd in national, considered v good in the past few years, CHEERS!! then saw, the finals btw HC and RI for B division boys, amazing match, Both were strong, RI manage to break HC records for being the champion 14 years consectively, and this year CH got 1st runner up, RI got champ.then follow by the A division finals , CJC vs HCJC , HCJC won, those were exciting matches, and their standard were way above me, guess i have to train more if i want to go for IVP. Wrote a very lousy RJ, guess today's grade will get 'F'.
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