md: -
wow, have been raining the past few days, but is those 'short short' type de...
some people are thought to be evil,
some people are thought to be kind,
can i say that everyone have the kind side of them?
also the evil side of ur's ?
u say that he's good,
she say that he's bad,
so who to belive?
eyes are meant to see,
ears are meant to listen,
'heart' are meant to feel...
judge it urself...
choose the people u wanted to have in your story,
in the story where the important are noted,
be the one that have being written in other's story...
be someone who make others smile...
be one who mould other's into a better person...
=) life isn't that bad
:k6i
Saturday, April 01, 2006
Friday, March 24, 2006
ever question urself why?
md:sunnY ?
ever question about why do you wanted to do something, achieve something? haha, suddenly i asked a question to myself, y do i wanted to save life in the future ? how will that benefit others ? what about those evil people ? those people who don want to live anymore? To live another day is an beautiful, as u might realise or experience things around u, the people, the things, the nature, they are wonderful=) Y save? i think that everyone shld be given another chances to do something they wanted to do, to talk, to care, to touch the lifes ard. of cos nothing is forever, but wouldnt it be great if everyone is able to leave peacefully without regrets ? how do u feel when u wanted to do something but u are unable to?
ytd took cab home with Po tiong, haha discussed about JJ, he have changed alot in his character, too cocky? he changed because of a girl ... is that worth? is it fair to others around u? well that question only he himself can answer that (it's his life). then PT got off, the taxi driver chat with me, saying that nowadays people are turn more and more materialistic, well i do agree about that, look around you, how many people will actually put kindness(ties) or the heart to care in front of $$ ? how many people will actually willing to work as a social worker ? how many will actually accept a lower paid job then a higher paid job ?people that care, people that cant be bother, people that care becos of something , people who don noe how to care, come and go, leaving those who really treasure you ard, they stay with u becos they care about ur existence, becos u r there for them, becos u r that impt to them. but how will u care about people who really important to u in your life? keep it in the dark ? tell them openly ? or show it out ? wonder wonder wonder.... .... ...
unable to project my voice losen my confidence as a CI, i mean, who will really accept someone who unable to show good communication as a leader? who will actually respect someone who always speak so softly and not loudly? i noe the skills but how can i improve others? always not a good teacher... haiz sick and tired for being a CI, back in EV for judo, saw my npcc junior, i really hope to go back and serve that unit(which was the main aim of becoming a CI), but fate play me out ? i was posted to another sch? well it's life... saw jas mei and gang hanging around the canteen after judo... haha their looks changed...
'living life with a purpose, it's life'
md:sunnY ?
ever question about why do you wanted to do something, achieve something? haha, suddenly i asked a question to myself, y do i wanted to save life in the future ? how will that benefit others ? what about those evil people ? those people who don want to live anymore? To live another day is an beautiful, as u might realise or experience things around u, the people, the things, the nature, they are wonderful=) Y save? i think that everyone shld be given another chances to do something they wanted to do, to talk, to care, to touch the lifes ard. of cos nothing is forever, but wouldnt it be great if everyone is able to leave peacefully without regrets ? how do u feel when u wanted to do something but u are unable to?
ytd took cab home with Po tiong, haha discussed about JJ, he have changed alot in his character, too cocky? he changed because of a girl ... is that worth? is it fair to others around u? well that question only he himself can answer that (it's his life). then PT got off, the taxi driver chat with me, saying that nowadays people are turn more and more materialistic, well i do agree about that, look around you, how many people will actually put kindness(ties) or the heart to care in front of $$ ? how many people will actually willing to work as a social worker ? how many will actually accept a lower paid job then a higher paid job ?people that care, people that cant be bother, people that care becos of something , people who don noe how to care, come and go, leaving those who really treasure you ard, they stay with u becos they care about ur existence, becos u r there for them, becos u r that impt to them. but how will u care about people who really important to u in your life? keep it in the dark ? tell them openly ? or show it out ? wonder wonder wonder.... .... ...
unable to project my voice losen my confidence as a CI, i mean, who will really accept someone who unable to show good communication as a leader? who will actually respect someone who always speak so softly and not loudly? i noe the skills but how can i improve others? always not a good teacher... haiz sick and tired for being a CI, back in EV for judo, saw my npcc junior, i really hope to go back and serve that unit(which was the main aim of becoming a CI), but fate play me out ? i was posted to another sch? well it's life... saw jas mei and gang hanging around the canteen after judo... haha their looks changed...
'living life with a purpose, it's life'
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
21st mar'06
21st mar'06
Md: sunnY
today manage to swim better in lifesaving training !! those senior class are going for Bronze medalion nxt week... woah best luck for them=) if passed liao can become a lifeguard... nxt thing nxt of the day: I maintianed my 3.4 GPA:
Basic Sciences II B
Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving II B+
Computing and Mathematical Methods II B+
Contemporary Issues in Culture & Aesthetics B+
Enterprise Skills II B+
Although didn meet 3.6 from what i setted in the start of the sem, but at least did not 'deproved' haha, nxt sem mus pull lotsa petrol to get 3.8 then get into the roll of honour, then can get scholarship = ease finacial burden !! haha
'as time passed, the dark clouds will also be drift away=)' nothing is permement
Md: sunnY
today manage to swim better in lifesaving training !! those senior class are going for Bronze medalion nxt week... woah best luck for them=) if passed liao can become a lifeguard... nxt thing nxt of the day: I maintianed my 3.4 GPA:
Basic Sciences II B
Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving II B+
Computing and Mathematical Methods II B+
Contemporary Issues in Culture & Aesthetics B+
Enterprise Skills II B+
Although didn meet 3.6 from what i setted in the start of the sem, but at least did not 'deproved' haha, nxt sem mus pull lotsa petrol to get 3.8 then get into the roll of honour, then can get scholarship = ease finacial burden !! haha
'as time passed, the dark clouds will also be drift away=)' nothing is permement
Sunday, March 19, 2006
inter tertiary '06
Inter tertiary '06
md: cloudy
Does weight really matter in judo, does strength plays a great part in throwing? morning weighting in, omg i am only 55 kg while my opponent was 72, pack with muscles, compact size, whao ! haiZz chances of winning seem so dim then... he won me with and osoto gari makikomi, hmm, mayb i was too k chong or scare ba, didn noe what to do in such a compeition, i he was really good, i saulate =) well things then were spread ard that some people were not playing the belt catergory they should hav played, 'the self demote declaration form' lol. but who cares? it's the xp that matter most. then while watching other matches, i realise i missed out something in my tatic, 'explosive'. one of the most important component in compeitions for winning in judo. 'timing' another impt component, when u got it, u win, u missed it, u 'll either get a counter, or continue with another attack. jus keep on trying with your brains on.
then team event, losed to another heavy weight guy through ground work, but thanks to him, i found my own judo,compeition not that scary play your own style enjoy it.
weight doesn't matter at all!! but strenght does play a big part in breaking balances.
-more weight training
- tai otoshi, ouchi gari, osoto gari, hari goshi, tani otoshi
-EAT EAT EAT !!
- jus on judo ? no more npcc?
- train be dare to strike (explosive)
-create the ku jushi and not wait for it
haha not forgetting to congrats ning ning, gab and raft in winning 2 3rd runner up and 1 2nd runner up in white to yellow open cat, white to yellow under 75 and above 75 =) cheers first medels for RP's first match =) u rocks guy... for others, we did done well but others were stronger, so we'll have to train harder ! yeah ... haha
md: cloudy
Does weight really matter in judo, does strength plays a great part in throwing? morning weighting in, omg i am only 55 kg while my opponent was 72, pack with muscles, compact size, whao ! haiZz chances of winning seem so dim then... he won me with and osoto gari makikomi, hmm, mayb i was too k chong or scare ba, didn noe what to do in such a compeition, i he was really good, i saulate =) well things then were spread ard that some people were not playing the belt catergory they should hav played, 'the self demote declaration form' lol. but who cares? it's the xp that matter most. then while watching other matches, i realise i missed out something in my tatic, 'explosive'. one of the most important component in compeitions for winning in judo. 'timing' another impt component, when u got it, u win, u missed it, u 'll either get a counter, or continue with another attack. jus keep on trying with your brains on.
then team event, losed to another heavy weight guy through ground work, but thanks to him, i found my own judo,compeition not that scary play your own style enjoy it.
weight doesn't matter at all!! but strenght does play a big part in breaking balances.
-more weight training
- tai otoshi, ouchi gari, osoto gari, hari goshi, tani otoshi
-EAT EAT EAT !!
- jus on judo ? no more npcc?
- train be dare to strike (explosive)
-create the ku jushi and not wait for it
haha not forgetting to congrats ning ning, gab and raft in winning 2 3rd runner up and 1 2nd runner up in white to yellow open cat, white to yellow under 75 and above 75 =) cheers first medels for RP's first match =) u rocks guy... for others, we did done well but others were stronger, so we'll have to train harder ! yeah ... haha
Monday, March 13, 2006
1303'06
md:hmmm ....
today, working all the while wah!! first time becoming bar man so shiok =)know more things from velu, learn alot of things, thanks Jessica(my captain) for teaching me and giving me the chance... it's fun to learn and experience new things... 'man with great ego?' mayb ... guess i need to learn how to do things slowly (calmly)... time to sleep working tomorrow morning at 8 left 3 hrs of slp ... wah!!
today, working all the while wah!! first time becoming bar man so shiok =)know more things from velu, learn alot of things, thanks Jessica(my captain) for teaching me and giving me the chance... it's fun to learn and experience new things... 'man with great ego?' mayb ... guess i need to learn how to do things slowly (calmly)... time to sleep working tomorrow morning at 8 left 3 hrs of slp ... wah!!
Friday, March 10, 2006
an end to sem 2 Y1
28/2 - 10/3 '06
Md: -
Sem 2 come to an end, missing some of my friends in the class, those who i usually hang out with in sch(eat together, outing, taking photos, crapping and achieving better grades), thanks for bringing joys to me in this sem, or else life in sch might be jus too boring=) thanks for everythings... haha now what ? it's HOLIDAY till mid april !! muhahahha, packed for working, judo, lifesaving, my dearY and some findings in my curiousity hehehe ... oh ya mayb also preparation for G902 PPM(so can take up more electives learn more things, hope so). loves my mum, my siblings, my dearY, buttY, my buddys, my friends, my teachers ... life will not be the same without them=) hmm, judo inter tertiary coming up nxt on 19th march, wow !! so near, somemore i am far from good, sure died, haizZ, nvm la just treat it as a experiences, winning is not the most important ma, compeitions is to display and sharing of skills between others? needa hav more weight training and swim more or else life gonna be difficult LOL..
'the sky is always the limit'
Md: -
Sem 2 come to an end, missing some of my friends in the class, those who i usually hang out with in sch(eat together, outing, taking photos, crapping and achieving better grades), thanks for bringing joys to me in this sem, or else life in sch might be jus too boring=) thanks for everythings... haha now what ? it's HOLIDAY till mid april !! muhahahha, packed for working, judo, lifesaving, my dearY and some findings in my curiousity hehehe ... oh ya mayb also preparation for G902 PPM(so can take up more electives learn more things, hope so). loves my mum, my siblings, my dearY, buttY, my buddys, my friends, my teachers ... life will not be the same without them=) hmm, judo inter tertiary coming up nxt on 19th march, wow !! so near, somemore i am far from good, sure died, haizZ, nvm la just treat it as a experiences, winning is not the most important ma, compeitions is to display and sharing of skills between others? needa hav more weight training and swim more or else life gonna be difficult LOL..
'the sky is always the limit'
Monday, February 27, 2006
Fated?
Cant it just be a little bit better?
Md: cloudY
whY? everytime the tuition fees from RP comes always gives me BIG worries... Y ? simply becos i have an irresponsible father who didn take up the responsibility in taking care of our life, our neccessity, my mother who's CPF have been used up as to pay for my elder brothers poly and have been working so hard to support us... i feel useless when i have to rely on my mum to pay for my school fees, why am i unable to support myself ? sometimes wondering, am i spending time wisely ? i am not a rich man son, neither a person who have resposible father. was the birth of my a fault? was my existence unecssary? sometimes just wondering who am i and what am i doing ... too tired ...
i feel sad... for not doing things better, for not achieving better grades myself... it's time to give up somethings in life.. .
Md: cloudY
whY? everytime the tuition fees from RP comes always gives me BIG worries... Y ? simply becos i have an irresponsible father who didn take up the responsibility in taking care of our life, our neccessity, my mother who's CPF have been used up as to pay for my elder brothers poly and have been working so hard to support us... i feel useless when i have to rely on my mum to pay for my school fees, why am i unable to support myself ? sometimes wondering, am i spending time wisely ? i am not a rich man son, neither a person who have resposible father. was the birth of my a fault? was my existence unecssary? sometimes just wondering who am i and what am i doing ... too tired ...
i feel sad... for not doing things better, for not achieving better grades myself... it's time to give up somethings in life.. .
Sunday, February 26, 2006
road to life again?
2602'06
some days before, i asked myself what have i been doing all this while,what i want to achieves, what can i do to benefit the society in the future, what should i do to provide a better future for my loves ones. am i thinking too much ? mayBe after watch the story of a unfortunate ger, who is good at everything and one day because of her sickness, she have to give up alot of things, to dream ... time is precious ... to live is fortunate, to have the ability is fortunate, having what you have now is lucky... cos there are always ppl who live in the darkness, heading no where to the future ... is the heaven unfair? is there something controlling what we are now? what we have now?because of that fate existed...
people regrets, always hoping for a time machines that can bring them back to the past... one day anyone will died, peacefully or otherwise...
For the future to saves live, i want to become a med tech...
To protect, i learn judo, lifesaving
working for a better life ? to achieve more ?
can the world have more time? can time machines existed, so that people know how to make the best uses ofthe time ?
NO... the world have 365 days/ year, 24 hrs per days .... ...
' am i heading towards where i want to ?'
some days before, i asked myself what have i been doing all this while,what i want to achieves, what can i do to benefit the society in the future, what should i do to provide a better future for my loves ones. am i thinking too much ? mayBe after watch the story of a unfortunate ger, who is good at everything and one day because of her sickness, she have to give up alot of things, to dream ... time is precious ... to live is fortunate, to have the ability is fortunate, having what you have now is lucky... cos there are always ppl who live in the darkness, heading no where to the future ... is the heaven unfair? is there something controlling what we are now? what we have now?because of that fate existed...
people regrets, always hoping for a time machines that can bring them back to the past... one day anyone will died, peacefully or otherwise...
For the future to saves live, i want to become a med tech...
To protect, i learn judo, lifesaving
working for a better life ? to achieve more ?
can the world have more time? can time machines existed, so that people know how to make the best uses ofthe time ?
NO... the world have 365 days/ year, 24 hrs per days .... ...
' am i heading towards where i want to ?'
Friday, February 17, 2006
it's the new phone !!
md: =o
today left hse at 6am for sch, as i didn study for the UT, so went to sch earlier to study, woah things were different when i taking the train, the people, the sky, the feeling. The science UT today was basically testing our sec sch learnings, but it's very time consuming, only 1 ques was related to what we studied. After 1st meetin, i left sch, for npcc, at least see them for the last campcraft compeition training, be there for them ?saw improvement, i felt happy internally, thanks mr seong alot for providing them with the mantality and constant reminder to them, if there's only my myself, i guess we are still halfway there. hmm, therefore sarcrificed my daily grade for today but think it will be okay, as for G102 i got A and B for daily so there's no need to cover up for Cs and Ds, hope P15 and P16 will get A.
I find my mentality during dropped week by week, focus wasn't there. So for the next few weeks i will stop NPCC for judo, FOCUS JUDO !! hope can improve and be the best for the opponents, hope to win something, so that the chances of getting proper tatami mats will be higher in school.
Something to learn in life: things gets more complicated when growing up, the outside world wasn't that simple as u see, u only see one side of it how about many others? i use to only belive in my own view, what i see, how ppl treat me, but things seem complicated when u know ppl's view towards certain things, u choose not to belive it but that seem like sticking in u unconscieniously.
Brought a new phone, K700i, wantedto buy 750i but too ex, only can afford 700i, thanks both of my brothers taking out their time in accompanying my to get the phone.
' so many things to be done, yet i keep forgetting them ... '
Sunday, February 12, 2006
it's a sunday
md: sunny
-out with GWP jies
- saw buttY @ orchard =)
-thanks dearY for the cookies =)
'life, a road that full of unexpected...'
1202'06 2323
-out with GWP jies
- saw buttY @ orchard =)
-thanks dearY for the cookies =)
'life, a road that full of unexpected...'
1202'06 2323
Thursday, February 09, 2006
gain and loss?
md: cloudy ...
- wat's my life about? wat do i really want? i dn hav enuff time to commit to so many activities, i felt tired ...
-i have nv understand somthing which is call 'gain and losses', to gain weight? too much training? weight or training ? balancing ? haizZz ...
-sometimes i was thinking... shld i giv up on npcc? i really don like to be a 'leader' i simply hate ordering others ard, as i was unable to prove something in life, 'the different view ard'
- this week was a really bad bad week for me, i was unable to give my fullness in my trainings
- i am really looking down on myself?
- valentine day is getting nearer... somethings special for the special her =)
: 2336 0902'06
- wat's my life about? wat do i really want? i dn hav enuff time to commit to so many activities, i felt tired ...
-i have nv understand somthing which is call 'gain and losses', to gain weight? too much training? weight or training ? balancing ? haizZz ...
-sometimes i was thinking... shld i giv up on npcc? i really don like to be a 'leader' i simply hate ordering others ard, as i was unable to prove something in life, 'the different view ard'
- this week was a really bad bad week for me, i was unable to give my fullness in my trainings
- i am really looking down on myself?
- valentine day is getting nearer... somethings special for the special her =)
: 2336 0902'06
Sunday, January 01, 2006
A brand new year in Goodwood Park
A brand new year in Goodwood Park
m: sunny
Wow.. spended my new year celebration working in goodwood park serving people who has paid five hundred bucks per person to come for the counting down new year celebration @ good wood park hotel new windson ballroom ... hmmm serve a hyflux vice president.. seem to know alot about appreciating wine ..haha offended him while serving a bun .. but before he went off he actually shaked hands with me!! oOoo unbelivable... someone who is so high up there... jus like idols and fans ... thanks twins for my birthday shirt present =) ' according to history... everyman have chances to success.. so which way did u went to ?;
m: sunny
Wow.. spended my new year celebration working in goodwood park serving people who has paid five hundred bucks per person to come for the counting down new year celebration @ good wood park hotel new windson ballroom ... hmmm serve a hyflux vice president.. seem to know alot about appreciating wine ..haha offended him while serving a bun .. but before he went off he actually shaked hands with me!! oOoo unbelivable... someone who is so high up there... jus like idols and fans ... thanks twins for my birthday shirt present =) ' according to history... everyman have chances to success.. so which way did u went to ?;
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Digital camera!!
digital camera
m: multiple changes ...
wow brought a digital cam at PS today with my sis and her bf haha!! hmm... 350 xia!! my sis paid 50 ... i pay the remainding haha.. but nvm, tmr my bros paying some of the share LOL... gdgd, not that xiong afterall ... hmm then to judo at katong.. hmm some things that i supect actually turn to a fact-_-" hmm i thought those suspect was that i think too much but it wasn't so... things actually happen where i nv expect it to be truth... friendship ... relationship ... they are fragile...
So far i hav met/saw 5 kinda relationship ba, the possive, lonely,compeitive, freedom, consideration type hmm might be too harsh but i don noe how to put it in other words... think there's somemore ba... possive type was those who are selfish and always thinking that she/he only belong to he/her self ... not to others , if the partner give in... lotsa unnessary sacrifices will be make..family, friendship might be wreck .. next the l type .. hmm... they get into relationship for the sake of it, just asking for companion, having assurance by having the name 'steady' there, sometimes willing to give in everything just to keep a broken ship going... competitive type, those who want to go steady with someone for the sake that she/he is pretty and handsome, being court by many, having the mind set that winning her/him is proving that he/she is more capable then others, this kind is usually short lasting... as there's always someone appear more prettier/handsome ...hmm freedom ? people who usual belive in fate of love, chemistry between two, it might be short but also long lasting, this depend on how both work it out, letting nature take it course, beliving that things change as time passes.. consideration type, opposite of possive they alway think about her/him if making a move(going out...), they are good but just that they think too much, they tend to belive what they foresee is true, what they think is true, therefore hesitate, which resulted to he/her think that they guy/ger doesn't seem to care anymore having the facts that they do ... beliving in giving freedom, alway think about the consequense... things didn work out ... still ended with misunderstanding...things needa change... me too ..
back to training... losing lotsa morale today... i think too much about my weight.. losing much of my strength too... i doesn't seem as active as the past ... seem like the lose in vitality ... no life again ? omG!! haiz ... having the mindset of will i able to made it for ivp? sensei koseiki told me how to gain weight ... drinking protein in the morning, don eat sweet stuffs, more chicken ... lolz thanks .=). took pic with LH, sensei koseiki and vincent ... lol with my new cam .. muhahha !! cooking pasta late at night, craving for it... super late dinner ...
not forgetting a big THANK YOU to zY the butt of mine for ya spiderman !! =) thanks i like this present =)
m: multiple changes ...
wow brought a digital cam at PS today with my sis and her bf haha!! hmm... 350 xia!! my sis paid 50 ... i pay the remainding haha.. but nvm, tmr my bros paying some of the share LOL... gdgd, not that xiong afterall ... hmm then to judo at katong.. hmm some things that i supect actually turn to a fact-_-" hmm i thought those suspect was that i think too much but it wasn't so... things actually happen where i nv expect it to be truth... friendship ... relationship ... they are fragile...
So far i hav met/saw 5 kinda relationship ba, the possive, lonely,compeitive, freedom, consideration type hmm might be too harsh but i don noe how to put it in other words... think there's somemore ba... possive type was those who are selfish and always thinking that she/he only belong to he/her self ... not to others , if the partner give in... lotsa unnessary sacrifices will be make..family, friendship might be wreck .. next the l type .. hmm... they get into relationship for the sake of it, just asking for companion, having assurance by having the name 'steady' there, sometimes willing to give in everything just to keep a broken ship going... competitive type, those who want to go steady with someone for the sake that she/he is pretty and handsome, being court by many, having the mind set that winning her/him is proving that he/she is more capable then others, this kind is usually short lasting... as there's always someone appear more prettier/handsome ...hmm freedom ? people who usual belive in fate of love, chemistry between two, it might be short but also long lasting, this depend on how both work it out, letting nature take it course, beliving that things change as time passes.. consideration type, opposite of possive they alway think about her/him if making a move(going out...), they are good but just that they think too much, they tend to belive what they foresee is true, what they think is true, therefore hesitate, which resulted to he/her think that they guy/ger doesn't seem to care anymore having the facts that they do ... beliving in giving freedom, alway think about the consequense... things didn work out ... still ended with misunderstanding...things needa change... me too ..
back to training... losing lotsa morale today... i think too much about my weight.. losing much of my strength too... i doesn't seem as active as the past ... seem like the lose in vitality ... no life again ? omG!! haiz ... having the mindset of will i able to made it for ivp? sensei koseiki told me how to gain weight ... drinking protein in the morning, don eat sweet stuffs, more chicken ... lolz thanks .=). took pic with LH, sensei koseiki and vincent ... lol with my new cam .. muhahha !! cooking pasta late at night, craving for it... super late dinner ...
not forgetting a big THANK YOU to zY the butt of mine for ya spiderman !! =) thanks i like this present =)
Monday, December 26, 2005
it's a SPECIAL day 2 me!!
a special day of mine!!
m: sunshine
although early in the morning went to work(saw pris on the MRT!!=) ) , facing a attitude but funny customer.. then hav extended working hours from 1800 till 1900 ... ate the remainder of the buffet left by the guests.. yummY !! but then stomachache sometime later ... haha... have a simple celebration for me by my da ger and da jies from GWP hotel !! M, X hui, LT ... first time spending birthday with friends... went eating pasta mania and then singing!! first time singing in karaoke =) heeZz thanks for everythings guySs =) haha.. also saw jas mei at cine there, haha she shout happy birthday to me haha lol... thanks=) oh YA not forgetting a special twin of mine !! having the same birthday as me ... hahaz exactly 1 year younger then me wor!! we were like asking for each other prezzie from one another.. haha don worry on the 31st u will get ur's ... LOL... 1st to greet me this year was my buddies from WGP!! also the 'twin' of mine lol... then from cindy, ug, gabe, micheal, mayfen, stella lao ma, lenna, JY and hider.... more to go !! NOT forgetting the special butt of mine ZY!!! =) it's the thoughts that u guys rem and take the effort to wish me=) and some which celebrate with me!! touched ... haha receive presents from RP judo, sis heeZz an special year of mine ... i hav grown ... felt the diff in life , in the world experience a bad side of mine myself... the days, experiences ....
'with them ard ... i will be able to stand firmly on the ground'
'admire someone, wanting to be with them.... but it's diff from being with them... it might not be that perfect as u thought he or she is, he/she/i might not be able to provide the needs from he/she/me... reality is diff from what u thought...not really.. it takes time to stand up from a fall, it takes time to heal... IT TAKE TIME TO LEARN... and it take time to be ready... i am not ready for those relationship thingy i guess... i have too much commitment in other things... if i have one i will have the one who understand me, my thoughts, the inner of me but in this world i doubt so.. only few.. but things just turn out to be too late... cos the past is the story, might be his, her or my ... the present is doesn't allow things to turn back ... only allowing things to happen ...
stars = those who mean alot to me, special to me ....
tmr... having lunch with my lao jiao ci cindy and HO garfield lol and dinner with uncle dad, family ... my dad? he doesn't seem to care... not even a word... back to the past where my dad don exist in my life ? a dad = no father ?
m: sunshine
although early in the morning went to work(saw pris on the MRT!!=) ) , facing a attitude but funny customer.. then hav extended working hours from 1800 till 1900 ... ate the remainder of the buffet left by the guests.. yummY !! but then stomachache sometime later ... haha... have a simple celebration for me by my da ger and da jies from GWP hotel !! M, X hui, LT ... first time spending birthday with friends... went eating pasta mania and then singing!! first time singing in karaoke =) heeZz thanks for everythings guySs =) haha.. also saw jas mei at cine there, haha she shout happy birthday to me haha lol... thanks=) oh YA not forgetting a special twin of mine !! having the same birthday as me ... hahaz exactly 1 year younger then me wor!! we were like asking for each other prezzie from one another.. haha don worry on the 31st u will get ur's ... LOL... 1st to greet me this year was my buddies from WGP!! also the 'twin' of mine lol... then from cindy, ug, gabe, micheal, mayfen, stella lao ma, lenna, JY and hider.... more to go !! NOT forgetting the special butt of mine ZY!!! =) it's the thoughts that u guys rem and take the effort to wish me=) and some which celebrate with me!! touched ... haha receive presents from RP judo, sis heeZz an special year of mine ... i hav grown ... felt the diff in life , in the world experience a bad side of mine myself... the days, experiences ....
'with them ard ... i will be able to stand firmly on the ground'
'admire someone, wanting to be with them.... but it's diff from being with them... it might not be that perfect as u thought he or she is, he/she/i might not be able to provide the needs from he/she/me... reality is diff from what u thought...not really.. it takes time to stand up from a fall, it takes time to heal... IT TAKE TIME TO LEARN... and it take time to be ready... i am not ready for those relationship thingy i guess... i have too much commitment in other things... if i have one i will have the one who understand me, my thoughts, the inner of me but in this world i doubt so.. only few.. but things just turn out to be too late... cos the past is the story, might be his, her or my ... the present is doesn't allow things to turn back ... only allowing things to happen ...
stars = those who mean alot to me, special to me ....
tmr... having lunch with my lao jiao ci cindy and HO garfield lol and dinner with uncle dad, family ... my dad? he doesn't seem to care... not even a word... back to the past where my dad don exist in my life ? a dad = no father ?
Thursday, December 22, 2005
a major turning in life
a major turning in my life
22/12/2005
the one who lead
the one who teach
buddism, christianity
plz plz i am confuse ...
Over the years in my life, i have been learning and following the teaching of buddism...all in the sudden with a rise of hand and i became a christian? my sub conscious did that... the within me... which made me blur too...renewal centre ... Is that the religion that suit me the most ? for what i am? just like mr seong did(finding the suitable religion?),like having the a strong sense of belonging to the earth ? the mother nature?
I always belive that buddha, gods, juesus are heros, they did incredible things to mankind, savlage, teaching ... now above everything there's god, one who created mankind? beliving in these solves lots of questions i alway ponder ever since the past, how was the earth form, how was the very first human form?beliving in the existence wanting to know more ..
can i be a free thinker who belives in all religion ?
for whatever ... whoever...
just be who i am... my ideal character of me myself !! yeah!!
-determination
-responsible
-selfless
- free from greed, anger and ignorance
THE wise man ... LOLZ jkjk
reminder to myself...!!
goals to achieves ..
in life ...
-save lifes
short term
-win judo IVP!!
-3.6 GPA for sem 2 !
-becoming a life guard
22/12/2005
the one who lead
the one who teach
buddism, christianity
plz plz i am confuse ...
Over the years in my life, i have been learning and following the teaching of buddism...all in the sudden with a rise of hand and i became a christian? my sub conscious did that... the within me... which made me blur too...renewal centre ... Is that the religion that suit me the most ? for what i am? just like mr seong did(finding the suitable religion?),like having the a strong sense of belonging to the earth ? the mother nature?
I always belive that buddha, gods, juesus are heros, they did incredible things to mankind, savlage, teaching ... now above everything there's god, one who created mankind? beliving in these solves lots of questions i alway ponder ever since the past, how was the earth form, how was the very first human form?beliving in the existence wanting to know more ..
can i be a free thinker who belives in all religion ?
for whatever ... whoever...
just be who i am... my ideal character of me myself !! yeah!!
-determination
-responsible
-selfless
- free from greed, anger and ignorance
THE wise man ... LOLZ jkjk
reminder to myself...!!
goals to achieves ..
in life ...
-save lifes
short term
-win judo IVP!!
-3.6 GPA for sem 2 !
-becoming a life guard
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
another stage of life
another stage of life
:unknown
3rd - 14th dec
Sch holiday
: NPCC (NCO training camp)
: OBS 9'days
: life saving training
NPCC camp 02 days
: late in the morning due to sleeping too late the night before , busy preparing the presentation for those lecture. A good teacher? i guess i am not. for 2 days giving lecture continuously. it's hard, unable to keep my spirit up.sometimes just felt that i am not doing a good job as a CI, have those knowledge passed down to those cadets? how am i going to enforce it? how to become a good teacher? how to become a good leader? how to become a good CI ? tired. sometimes just thinking that why am i still serving in NPCC, moreover it's not my own sec sch but other. Y? thinking back, i become a CI to repay what my sec sch have given me, a sign of gratitude from my CIs that have mould me, making the unit grow. but now serving other unit. a sign of gratitude from the NPCC itself? i have other dreams to fufill, other goals to achieve, but why am i doing all this?
OBS 09 days
: a room of unknown to a group of hi bye friends .. now i got the meaning of hi bye friends. Friendship, which doesn't seem to be exist to some.
day 01
- ice breaking, logistic stuffs, evening PT (2.4)
all unfimilar faces, only know some ppl from the ALC. i change to be selfish ? evening time run 2.4 wow! long time din run .. fun!brought 2 shoes one too small ... instructor: belinder!! and hiap lun
02
- PT, high element, logistic, PT(4.8), tent pitching ...
PT the running of 2.4 with timing taken, i came in the 3rd of all, the timing was very lousy, 13.32, but the ber say tat all timing was slower compare when running in school becos of the terrain, up and down and muddy, the first JW has a timing of 10.3 plus i guess lolz he damn pro chiong all the way, sprint all lehz !! haha then 2nd was N 5 sec before me ... high element, i climb to the greatest !! at a look it seem easy to achieve but after taken the first step the fear came in. achieving the greatest height with my partner YR, thanks for her for not giving up with me !! lol... pulling you up is my responsibility as a team, cos we have to achieve together as a team=) PT running 4.8 Km, running as a whole watch, hmm rather slow for me, end up running behind encouraging others with JW.
03
-PT, mini kayaking expeitition, PT (6)
morning PT, 2.4 personal timing again. no strength to run xia... again came in 3rd, the first was the same but the second was a girl !! hahaz i lose to her but few second, she was great, basketball women, MVP somemore, no wonder, lotsa determination could be seen in her. thanks to her, my timing improve by a few second 10.25 lol! mini kaya xp, my partner was S hmm, quite fun, everything was great, then became the port side of the formation. Evening PT 6 Km run ... lol, doing the same thing again, running behind encouraging others. doesn't felt tired at all..
04
-land xp
land xp around ubin, went to the highest point of ubin and german girl shine. learn about the history of those. helping others but will they know? will they show gratitude to what u have done? NO!!! sianzation, people just take things for granted
05
-solo camp out
all alone in the forest, having the commando mosquitoes as companion and a spooky chair. thinking of the past, those people who have taught me important values.
06,07,08
-sea xp, 9k run
sea xp, the reveal of the bad side of me during the part of towing when channel crossing... i was totally drained out..felt angry about my weakness(body size), felt helpless...some people around does care... portside, in my point of view: to be the first to show the marking, also to be the last to show the marking. choinging up and slowing down with no more momentem ...
9k run, just after the finishing of the sea xp...at first targeted 45 min to complete it. however halfway there, felt the foods i eaten during lunch comig up, feel like vomitting, wearing a shoes that is too small for me, hard to continue manz!! continue till the turining back part, walk all the way back haha ... slack .. only a few people overtake me, lesser then i expected, came in 7th
09
-confidence jumping
everything come to an end. with a final sharing of the highest point and lowest point of the camp also what u have learn. highest point , the achieving of high element? lowest point, sea xp? what i have learn ' be the nobody where everybody thought somebody will do it but nobody did it' ' don thinki things that way, then it is not that way, just do it .. ' and finally a word i have learn, Understanding ...
Life saving
went to lifesaving lesson after the 9 days camp... worn out manz!... but learn alot about life from richard, 'things get complicated as u grow ... not avioding it but learn how to manage it.'
' how i wish life is just as simple as i thought ...'
:unknown
3rd - 14th dec
Sch holiday
: NPCC (NCO training camp)
: OBS 9'days
: life saving training
NPCC camp 02 days
: late in the morning due to sleeping too late the night before , busy preparing the presentation for those lecture. A good teacher? i guess i am not. for 2 days giving lecture continuously. it's hard, unable to keep my spirit up.sometimes just felt that i am not doing a good job as a CI, have those knowledge passed down to those cadets? how am i going to enforce it? how to become a good teacher? how to become a good leader? how to become a good CI ? tired. sometimes just thinking that why am i still serving in NPCC, moreover it's not my own sec sch but other. Y? thinking back, i become a CI to repay what my sec sch have given me, a sign of gratitude from my CIs that have mould me, making the unit grow. but now serving other unit. a sign of gratitude from the NPCC itself? i have other dreams to fufill, other goals to achieve, but why am i doing all this?
OBS 09 days
: a room of unknown to a group of hi bye friends .. now i got the meaning of hi bye friends. Friendship, which doesn't seem to be exist to some.
day 01
- ice breaking, logistic stuffs, evening PT (2.4)
all unfimilar faces, only know some ppl from the ALC. i change to be selfish ? evening time run 2.4 wow! long time din run .. fun!brought 2 shoes one too small ... instructor: belinder!! and hiap lun
02
- PT, high element, logistic, PT(4.8), tent pitching ...
PT the running of 2.4 with timing taken, i came in the 3rd of all, the timing was very lousy, 13.32, but the ber say tat all timing was slower compare when running in school becos of the terrain, up and down and muddy, the first JW has a timing of 10.3 plus i guess lolz he damn pro chiong all the way, sprint all lehz !! haha then 2nd was N 5 sec before me ... high element, i climb to the greatest !! at a look it seem easy to achieve but after taken the first step the fear came in. achieving the greatest height with my partner YR, thanks for her for not giving up with me !! lol... pulling you up is my responsibility as a team, cos we have to achieve together as a team=) PT running 4.8 Km, running as a whole watch, hmm rather slow for me, end up running behind encouraging others with JW.
03
-PT, mini kayaking expeitition, PT (6)
morning PT, 2.4 personal timing again. no strength to run xia... again came in 3rd, the first was the same but the second was a girl !! hahaz i lose to her but few second, she was great, basketball women, MVP somemore, no wonder, lotsa determination could be seen in her. thanks to her, my timing improve by a few second 10.25 lol! mini kaya xp, my partner was S hmm, quite fun, everything was great, then became the port side of the formation. Evening PT 6 Km run ... lol, doing the same thing again, running behind encouraging others. doesn't felt tired at all..
04
-land xp
land xp around ubin, went to the highest point of ubin and german girl shine. learn about the history of those. helping others but will they know? will they show gratitude to what u have done? NO!!! sianzation, people just take things for granted
05
-solo camp out
all alone in the forest, having the commando mosquitoes as companion and a spooky chair. thinking of the past, those people who have taught me important values.
06,07,08
-sea xp, 9k run
sea xp, the reveal of the bad side of me during the part of towing when channel crossing... i was totally drained out..felt angry about my weakness(body size), felt helpless...some people around does care... portside, in my point of view: to be the first to show the marking, also to be the last to show the marking. choinging up and slowing down with no more momentem ...
9k run, just after the finishing of the sea xp...at first targeted 45 min to complete it. however halfway there, felt the foods i eaten during lunch comig up, feel like vomitting, wearing a shoes that is too small for me, hard to continue manz!! continue till the turining back part, walk all the way back haha ... slack .. only a few people overtake me, lesser then i expected, came in 7th
09
-confidence jumping
everything come to an end. with a final sharing of the highest point and lowest point of the camp also what u have learn. highest point , the achieving of high element? lowest point, sea xp? what i have learn ' be the nobody where everybody thought somebody will do it but nobody did it' ' don thinki things that way, then it is not that way, just do it .. ' and finally a word i have learn, Understanding ...
Life saving
went to lifesaving lesson after the 9 days camp... worn out manz!... but learn alot about life from richard, 'things get complicated as u grow ... not avioding it but learn how to manage it.'
' how i wish life is just as simple as i thought ...'
Sunday, November 13, 2005
sensitive religion
religion matters
w: typical
Wow!! learn alot from mr seong about christianity teaching, as i wonder about evolution theory, how was human first created? by chances of micro organisim ?or simply because god create him? thinking about it, if it is form by the chances of micro organisms, then how did micro organisms first created? then how was earth first created? even till how were the universe created? why did big bang occured? from 1 questions, to 10, till even hundred or million? who was able to answer it? the scientific theory? or just simply one answer, 'god created everything?' hmmm, i find so much similarities to this teacher/officer of mine, he's also a capricon! ahahz means that he's birth date is near to mine? he has a v strong beliefs in doing things, wanting to benefit mankind? ... moving on to the histories of jews, islam and christian, till even protest and catholic the differences and similarities, but was still unable to find the link between buddishism and christian, why i want to find the link about them? cos i find that in both of this religion,people are good. however, i always belives in their teachings but not till the extent of obcess by it, i belive in freeedom and own will, that's me. i belives that religion is something which gives u the power in doing things when u belive in it,they give u confidence, determination. teachers around me, my judo sensei s, npcc officer.. they are successful in life, and they are christian, y ? strong beliefs ? i hope to find the answer one day?
' they exist before, do they exist now?'
w: typical
Wow!! learn alot from mr seong about christianity teaching, as i wonder about evolution theory, how was human first created? by chances of micro organisim ?or simply because god create him? thinking about it, if it is form by the chances of micro organisms, then how did micro organisms first created? then how was earth first created? even till how were the universe created? why did big bang occured? from 1 questions, to 10, till even hundred or million? who was able to answer it? the scientific theory? or just simply one answer, 'god created everything?' hmmm, i find so much similarities to this teacher/officer of mine, he's also a capricon! ahahz means that he's birth date is near to mine? he has a v strong beliefs in doing things, wanting to benefit mankind? ... moving on to the histories of jews, islam and christian, till even protest and catholic the differences and similarities, but was still unable to find the link between buddishism and christian, why i want to find the link about them? cos i find that in both of this religion,people are good. however, i always belives in their teachings but not till the extent of obcess by it, i belive in freeedom and own will, that's me. i belives that religion is something which gives u the power in doing things when u belive in it,they give u confidence, determination. teachers around me, my judo sensei s, npcc officer.. they are successful in life, and they are christian, y ? strong beliefs ? i hope to find the answer one day?
' they exist before, do they exist now?'
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
091105
091105
m:breezy
-a hope that leading me towards my dream
-loss of breathing skill = no stamina
-good lucks for all taking o eng tmr =)
m:breezy
-a hope that leading me towards my dream
-loss of breathing skill = no stamina
-good lucks for all taking o eng tmr =)
Monday, October 31, 2005
bad throat days!!
31/10
m: sunnY =)
wah sick!! i cant talk .. don noe what happen to my voice loss in the sudden, now i got problem speak, almost the same as a dumb person.. sianZz i want to talk!!wah cant talk during presentation, cant express myself through words!! damM!! holY coW~~MoooOooo ytd was a great day with zy, this buddy always brighten up my life.. hmm, nvm things will get fine soon. grow up !! wake up!! wah.. must chiong more work , earn more money then mum has less burden, also mus study hard !! and continue my way towards my dreams,tired? rest enough le, the crake? let go liao(thanks to alot people ard me) and once again i am standing firm on my feets.Flung 4 out 5 of my understanding tests, the next coming one mus study hard!!A! there's ppl who look down on me( i will prove to u guys that i am stronger), also people who hav being suppoting my soul lol.. yeah !! tomorrow sch holiday.. GOT LIFE SAVING SESSION tomorrow, i am going to swim more tomorrow and get stronger physically and mentally!!
MY short term goals
- get more As!!
-more understanding about biology
-improve in JUDO tacnic!!
-improve in my swimming skill!!
'beliving in myself, in my own ability, soon i shall prove something to the world with my determination!!' 'saving lifes in the future'
zhang zhi cheng - kuai le (nice song)thanks
m: sunnY =)
wah sick!! i cant talk .. don noe what happen to my voice loss in the sudden, now i got problem speak, almost the same as a dumb person.. sianZz i want to talk!!wah cant talk during presentation, cant express myself through words!! damM!! holY coW~~MoooOooo ytd was a great day with zy, this buddy always brighten up my life.. hmm, nvm things will get fine soon. grow up !! wake up!! wah.. must chiong more work , earn more money then mum has less burden, also mus study hard !! and continue my way towards my dreams,tired? rest enough le, the crake? let go liao(thanks to alot people ard me) and once again i am standing firm on my feets.Flung 4 out 5 of my understanding tests, the next coming one mus study hard!!A! there's ppl who look down on me( i will prove to u guys that i am stronger), also people who hav being suppoting my soul lol.. yeah !! tomorrow sch holiday.. GOT LIFE SAVING SESSION tomorrow, i am going to swim more tomorrow and get stronger physically and mentally!!
MY short term goals
- get more As!!
-more understanding about biology
-improve in JUDO tacnic!!
-improve in my swimming skill!!
'beliving in myself, in my own ability, soon i shall prove something to the world with my determination!!' 'saving lifes in the future'
zhang zhi cheng - kuai le (nice song)thanks
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
25102005
25102005
-think too much abt her
-flung my U test for communication 21/10(pass up a almost blank paper, no mood useless )
-looking into a clearer picture of it (i was wrong)
-everything was not impt, feel like knowing ur feeling about me, for me to choose my path in life...
-saw LScoach after his major operation, i feel sad for him, he undergo what i hav gone through but his is more painful, cos i op when i was young, i rem nth, but him rem the fear...
-'u willing to teach me, i will to learn' ' u willling to coach me, i am willing to train'
-looking forward tomorrow, a better day
-tell myself 'if i live tomorrow, i wan to care for those who care for me, move towards i dreaming for, live with a smiles ard me... cos i am lucky, since i am given this day, i shall not waste it...i nv wan to dream of that my tomorrow might not come.. '
-think too much abt her
-flung my U test for communication 21/10(pass up a almost blank paper, no mood useless )
-looking into a clearer picture of it (i was wrong)
-everything was not impt, feel like knowing ur feeling about me, for me to choose my path in life...
-saw LScoach after his major operation, i feel sad for him, he undergo what i hav gone through but his is more painful, cos i op when i was young, i rem nth, but him rem the fear...
-'u willing to teach me, i will to learn' ' u willling to coach me, i am willing to train'
-looking forward tomorrow, a better day
-tell myself 'if i live tomorrow, i wan to care for those who care for me, move towards i dreaming for, live with a smiles ard me... cos i am lucky, since i am given this day, i shall not waste it...i nv wan to dream of that my tomorrow might not come.. '
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