nowcast:stoney

6 reasons why i hate to paint:
- need to WAIT!! (for mins to days, therefore cannot finish by 1 day grrr)
- need to be patience (no patience not nice, somemore i got v little patience)
- need to wash brush & palette
- need to get/search materials
- need to estimate the amount of paint needed
- need to clear the mess

3 reason why i paint:
- gives me good feelings
- sense of satisfaction when things turn out nice
- express feelings and thoughts

alrite end of grumbling... hao ren nan zhuo, hai ren nan an ..

nowcast: stoney

Whenever it comes to the last lesson of coaching a particular class, jiu shi you bu she de. really hate to leave those kids that i am coaching currently, no matter they are good or bad. I guess this is the bonds formed with them over time. But still i will have to pass them on to another coach..

fire fire.. there was war in office today... everyone have their strength and weakness, no one is perfect. So do try to understand the situation or why did the person say/ do such a thing before flaring up ya ?

I saw it ,now i do understand more about the bonds between family and friends. Thanks. :)

It's this feeling that i once have 4 years ago .. thoughts and thoughts just wanders ..

md: stoney

- went NUS splashdown
- took over nao evening classes
- first time teaching adult

- stubborn corn + stupid shoulder + terrible headache..

nowcast: windy

went pumping more blood into muscle cells, and sadly to say everyone is feeling so tired and lazy. Mar got his 4th finger swollen and poor him have to take 2 type of anti B.. then went visiting his hse, and waOoo very clean and neat!!

wOo suddenly have the urge to visit lib, and realise there's corner all with the books i like! great, that will be my freq visit corner. I am going to read and read and read ... always seek for continuous improvement.

nowcast: firey

.. misinterpretation of meanings ... don assume.. ask ...

Thanks:
- Justin for the teacher's DAY gift :)
- ms zhuang for her drink.

I dont earn big bucks by doing admin stuffs, but you guys think it's alot, don't get it. i could have played punk but i didn ... I only write hours that i am doing things for u all ...

nowcast: windy

big bro have left to aust for his degree presentation today, and will be back on th 28th.. which means will be rotting alone at home for mon and tues afternoon ...

After sending him off, pass lao sim things and send her home, help mum with some stuffs, supper at circuit road with uncle dad. BLOATED ... burp !! cuse me .. haha

thoughts went through my mind, shld i led a normal ns experience? or an extra ordinary one ?

will be taking classes at mindmax and SLI till 30th of sep, then slack slack for 9 days before going in.. haha even nowadays in my mind is only 'slacking' and not 'working' ..

when i grew up, there are 3 person that i must be fillal to .. mum, uncle dad and lao sim ...

windy/ watery/ firey/stoney

'cracks' memories

nowcast: stone

A song that recall ..
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无印良品:如果你还爱我

我带着一颗疲惫的心走了　我知道自己在你心里已不重要
虽然我们曾经相聚过　也许对於你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆

我带着一颗沉重的心走了　我知道自己没有勇气道别离
虽然我们曾经拥有过　但是对於你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆

难道早以註定　不能真正拥有你
难道我真心付出一切　只为了承受孤单和寂寞
我知道你不敢对我坦白　是不要看到我的伤怀
虽然你没有说要离开我　我已经感到你不再属於我

如果你还爱我　你不会对我如此的冷漠
又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
如果你还爱我　你不会对我如此的冷漠
我只能含着眼泪
默默的离开

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' f- up' stories

nowcast: stone

Finally a full stop for National LS comp. unlucky day ? all of the beach sprint team relay did not get into finals, either DQ or .. Anyway everyone have did their best. Everyone have their 'f-up' stories/ experiences, people who were present ytd till the events end will understand the term?haha

Andy and me only manage to make it to the 9th position for board rescue, good job dude i know that you are swimming ur best alrd. If there's a chance, we'll try again nxt year...

was it luck or training not enough ?

nowcast: disappointed

heart was like beating faster and faster, drew lots, heat one number 6, SLSS surfboard no. 6 missing, leaving me no choice but to use NUS surf board, strong currents/ waves, so high that you have trouble looking for the buoy, unlike SLSS board this board keep taking in water from the front.. really have much trouble propelling it forward, everyones turning at the same point and i got stuck, finally manage to catch up a 5th placing, someone capsized right infront of me, leaving me stucking there ... rotten luck, placing got all the way back. in my mind i was only thinking of giving up, where my body is still trying so hard... pull pull pull and manage to get back to 5th position again... after the last turning point, 6th placing was so close to me, and damn me, off position towards the finishing pole, shift shift shift and there goes my 5th placing ... the hope to final... completed the heat with 6 position, which is just 1 more position inorder to get into final .. lot number 6, with position no. 6, if only i got SLSS number 6 board too ... Was it luck ? or training not enough ? or was it the problem with stress ? something i trained so hard for .. ya you are right, L = Loser (i know u don mean it but ..) ... I cant even do well in my pet event ..

Andy and i manage to get into finals for board rescue, hope that luck will be on our side, hope he dont swim off position again, jiayou.

There were alot of people getting into finals, rachel (board race), KT, PYK and PL (board paddling), WS and Peg (board rescue), chris and peg torpedo tude rescue, Jin and Marv (ironman /woman), woman's taplin... good job guys ..

nowcast: fear/ anxious

less than 2 days to open water comp.. 2 Js also in surfing .. hope things will turn out fine, scare like last year, lost in the event that i train hard in .. try my best .. no regrets ..

competitions where there is no timings to gauge.. only you urself knows that have u done your best ... where ur competitors are ur guideline...

nowcast: slight inner drizzle

Choice is made. I guess is for the better.. nv regret for the feelings and things done.. thanks for everything in the past, tiny.. Although there were ups and downs, I have choose to rem the ups and forget the downs.. when u are down do rem 2 look for me, ll be there always.. tata ..

Meet Kelvin Tan today on MRT while i was on my way to BL, hahaa all fate, if i didn't giv up my sit he wldn saw me .. he is my microB faci when i was in year2, a great faci who guide us correctly and tried to grade according to fairness. But i guess to alot people there were dislikes toward him. He spend 3 yrs in SP, 4 yrs in NUS studying science but afterall now he ended up in a 'insurance/ finacial advisor' kum part time RP faci. Wonder wonder.. If i keep on persuing my dream career/ ambition, it will certainly be a very long journey.. and thinking of 'finicial returns' for the career , i am stuck and lost ... will pharma industry boom in the future, other alternatives to benefit the society?

nowcast: stone

tick tock tick tock .. counting down towards 9 Oct where another 'restart button' will be press in life.. Cant wait to go into tekong, not because the army life inside, rather it just the thoughts that i 'faster go in faster come out'. Times now are like 'meaningless' to me, although carefree but there's no duties, no goals, no directions..

Sometimes when we take a step back and ask ourselve questions on why are we doing certain things, we cant find any answer to it. Sometimes when we ask, we might find that these actions are unnecessary/ meaningless, we'll stop. Sometimes when we didn bother to think about it, we'll just continue doing it... If there is a practical person, he/she will keep questionings/ thinking about things they should do/not. If there is a emotional person, he/she will just do things based on his/her intuition. If there is a simple person, he/ she will just do things without much thoughts, no matter is it a right or wrong thing. When facing works, studies, practicality/ feelings. When facing relationships with people, feelings over practicality. But what if things were another way round ?

Everyones have their childhood dreams, but as we grow older, some dreams will just get drifted further and further away.. for some alternative routes were taken.. soon people realise what they really want in life ...

Soon compeititions will be over, no more team trainings.. no more routine or responsibility to attend trainings regularly.. Guess after 6 & 7 of Sep, most likely will not see you guys again, will really miss the times with you guys..my memories written 'IN RP LIFESAVING TEAM' ..

nowcast: nothing ..

I felt stone stone de .. i know i know .. but still .. i ask myself ..

Trainings is still not enough for me ... i need more trainings to boost .. sian .. last beach trg tmr .. damn !

weather: dwn

it's really scary... But i guess there's nothing more i can do... I feel hopeless. Not knowing what happened, what are the problems, what are the solutions to it...All I hope for is just to create more simple happy memories for the rest of the 1 and the 1/2 mth ... I dont mind the bites, the smacks, the piggy backs ... all i hope is ...

Feeling dwn... just simply didn want to concentrate on other things .. obstacle swim timing back to square one .. no improvement but 'deprovement' ... comp ? forget about it ...

complains comes again, don't understand that why she keep having prejudice against her own daughter. Why did you cover your mind with her 'bads' but not her 'goods' ?? if this carry on, with such a mindset, you will only make the fortune telling come true, so will you really be happy with that? ....

weather: worries

things ok ? accident? something happen? emo? avoidance? what is it?? unease ... I cant say too much cos there's no one right for me to turn to ..

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how i hope i can take part for this year taplin relay.. Reason is because there's a chance of getting into final .. it's only when the players of team B are being tap into their area of strength .. luck ..

Focus .. get it done for once ..

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md: -

what is love to you? issit something which can only be experience with the very special person or issit something that can be experience with anybody out there? Do love experience exist ? having more relationship more different people will gain more experience? So it means that flirting will be the better choice instead of being faithful to one...

But to me there will always be a different between someone special and someone not, there will always be a line to differentiate that... I believes that special love cannot be share around, to anybody.. I learn to speak my mind cos i don't wan to hide here and there where masks is all over, speaking out the truth is important, at the very least there will be more understanding towards one another.

I guess, i feel , like right from the start, there will always be the person who will weighs more than me... no matter what i did.. how i try ..

things will still end like the past .. it's just like a cycle round and round .. dont understand, tell me why ..

wonders wonder ... what's split personality?

last day coaching little max .. ok there was sort of sad feelings.. although is just a few days of coaching ...

unhappiness, selfish thoughts ... growing up, knowing more things ... don ask me what's wrong, tell me .. i also don know .. deep in thoughts.. figuring out ..

md: -

Looking at parents around, looking at so many others around... They are really fortunate to have such a wonderful parents. Parents who will always be there for them, taking care of them.. I guess i would have grow up with a different personality with different mindset if I have such a wonderful parents...

guess tmr will be a tiring day, from 8 am- 1130am (coaching), then from 130pm-515pm (mindmax) ... nvm always live life to the fullness .. waste no time..

'pray that ur leg will recover soon' ...

md: -

thanks for the 'amour' :)

Days are boring spending times alone, when there's no one to talk to, no one to share ur success, happiness with, no one to 'pour' grumble to... sore throat, gum abrasion(don noe issit what people called wisdom tooth problem anot' ...

'nothing is constant because time is constantly ticking..'

ytd shld be a special day, today is olympic opening, tomorrow is NDP'08 ... but still i have to report to swimming pool for work for these 3 days.. no double pay also haiz .. just grumbling over here, back to work, guess having me taking the 7 days 1:1 intensive lessons for that little boy is somehow or rather 'fate' ba :).

no trg no trg no trg , haiyo!! sian..

'tick tok ... tick tok ... forgotten memories ...' do you still remember ??

md: -

'cherish and appreciate', I guess these are the two very important words that should be exist in everyone, esp to your close ones.

But sometimes people just tend to forget these 2 very simple yet important principles in life. from simple task like giving up sits on public transport for others to mum preparing dinner, did we notice that as times goes by some of us tend to take things for granted? Forget to say 2 simple words 'thank you' to the one giving up sit, forget to show that you appreciate what your mum have done for u.

Sometimes people tend to be so business minded, sometimes too 'hobbies' minded, sometimes too 'results' minded, sometimes getting too in depth into their own world sometimes, or sometimes just caring too much for themselves.. And sometimes all these different 'too much' minded result one getting more drifted away from their close ones... neglecting that times need to be spend together, care need to be given to one another, concerns need to be ask...

just as times passes, have you neglected the 2 basic yet important 'ingredients' in life? I guess i did ... never underestimate a simple smile to your friend, a simple 'thank you' to a stranger, a simple actions of appreciation to your love ones.

Nxt talking about inconsideration and irresponsible, which happen from taking public transport to simple chores at home. cant people just take up their own initiative to do things when things need to be done?

forgive and forget ... not lazy and forget ...

don't forget becos of laziness ...

md: breezy

first, AHCC classes, 3 of the student's parents inform me that they might want to stop coming after 2 more lesson, reason 'the facilities is not up to standard'. yes i do strongly agree with this and the management team of AHCC is still not doing anything about it. They ask me do i teach outside, all i said is i don't teach outside... haiz wasted.. anyway i only left with 8 more weeks to teach them which is like 8 more lesson ...

trg trg, not much of stamina trg on surfing, but much of a sprint trg by myself, i recall how i capsize during the final last year 'all becos of the slow start off'. this time round i will be more prepare, will do my v best, not just on the day itself, but on every trg also. hopefully... hard + smart work does pay off ..