nowcast: hazy purple

this is the problem which i might also face in the future. this problem will only arise in middle to low income family, where money is the green light to go or not to go for further study. I guess that's life. We have to make use of what we have in life and work things out. It's gg to be tough, really tough but i know she will make it because of her determination, hopefully things will go smoothly for her. Take a break, sit down and think of the future, think of what we really want in life and how are we going to achieve it. The future lies in our hands.

---

long long week. where there's so much of uncertainties, changes and repeititions. where the only thing to look forward is the time it's over.

tough times like this will reveal the nature of human. selfless or selfish. it's where everyone plays their part to achieve it. 'tough time dont last, tough men do'

make use of every seconds, there will be time for rest .

---

06nov09 fri : windy blue

- K box with sis and bf

- had fav cereal prawn !
do i deserve such good treatment ? i wonder. i really hope the predicted future is untrue. i hope that our siblings bonds will also stay strong and unite.

[dt east][changi]

07nov09 sat : sunny orange

- OW trg . the wave that day was really nice to swim , or issit some sorta psychological effect ?
- didn noe why is there such adrenaline rush throughout the trg ... issit food ? sleep ? people ? weather ? previous day mood ? i wonder ... and for no reason yk is falling in love in doing push ups that day . hmm . strange . - tireness did not appear in my head at all -
- receive 1 x call. quite suprise (big question mark)to hear that he/she is taking off on that day but happy though.
-supper with butt. everyday people die, but how did these people handle death so calmly ? And how did those close ones manage to accept the fact that he/she have to go ? i wonder.

[sentosa][bdk 85]

08nov09 sun : leafy green

- nutrilite jog, stated 4.5k but i feel that it's much lesser. happen to see my sispec buddy there ! yup it's coincidence, kept knocking onto him this week, twice i guess.
- library. books tonnes of books but only restricted to 4 .
- cant resist the temptation of the chicken chop ...

[expo 3] [tamp]

leave leave off off long rest week

31st Oct (Sat)

- dislike the term 'china man', pls don use names like that just because people 'ang mo' is way belows u all.


- i guess that's the problems when people from all walks of life comes together. the tendency to look down or dislike one another. i guess education does plays a part in making friends ?


- rain rain rain
hate it when i have to ride my bike under the rain, esp jus after washing !!

- but no choice, took leave for the RFH runner pack collection

- went through erp gantry without cashcard.

-almost lost in the process but thanks to 'butt's moving gps'.

[regent][sgh]

1st Nov (Sun)

- went to pray

- have a fulfilling lunch with bro at the Tanjong Pagar hawker , nice traditional wanton mee (the tomato sauce type), with soya drink and a plate of cai tou gue wooOOoo that's heaven !

- went for a 30mins jog
it's that cold stingy feeling agn. well i guess it comes once in the blue moon, hopefully it don come during RFH... haiz

[tanjong pagar] [tamp-psr-tamp]

2nd Nov (Mon)

- went swimming with bro
haha he is learning butterfly ! ok la, consider very good since his 2nd time practising =)

- Rotting at home watching (general hospital drama) nice !

- nice chat with vonn, thanks =)

[tamp SC][home]

3rd Nov (Tues)

- went light re workout after hours and hours of self motivation ... haha

- went swimming after butt's first prac then had a rainbow paddlepop which i have been missing for soo long ! =)

- met gwp gang, michael birthday =) LT's treat. realise that i spelled michael name wrongly on the keychain. have great time catching up with them =)

[TNCC gym][bedok][bugis]

- wants to live life to the fullest !
- wants to help needy people but but at the same time dont wanna being take advantages of.

adios

nowcast: dark purple

--"--

Great times with biopharm mates @ JG's 21st =D
[coasta sand PSR F05]

--"--
28oct09

- they heard that i am interested in G, helping me to ask the possibility of getting in. i really appreciate this help. thanks alot.

- now the real problem come. where G vs U.

- my sturbboness and greediness is killing me!

- out with butt.

- watched sister's keeper = nice touching show

- 1st time to iluma filmgrade theatre = quite spacious

[bugis]

--- " ---

29oct09

- woke up at 8 then went back zz , too lazy to swim
- too lazy to get out of bed

- meet butt for farm trip, bike lesson application, was way late to the meeting time.
- love the sight of kranji 'bridge' area.
- went to sungei buloh instead, nice nature reserve.
- waited in the theatre for the show, but the show never start or play. Left after 20 mins of waiting.
- saw tons of monitor lizard swimming here and there. realise they cant stay in water for long.
- saw some slimmy creature not sure what is it.
- saw squirrels .
- saw lots of birds but unsure about their species/ breed.
- saw the growing cycle of prawn, looks similar to butterfly's cycle to me.
- saw a bird lover with a huge camera with lens width as huge as my legs circumference.
- saw some secondary school kids and some kindergarden children.
- saw crabs and fishes.
- bitten by lots of mosquitoes, applied the repellent but was too late.
- saw a female dogs with 4 puppies, watch them swam past the muddy swamp while 1 was left behind.
- almost walked onto a monitor lizard who is lazing at the side of the footpath.
- climbed 2 tower there. nothing special.
- wanted to took a shortcut back but saw a 'no way out' signage.
-caught in that heavy rain while moving off to next destination, totally drench except the butt area.

- went to jurong frog farm, saw lots of bull frog, booing here and there. saw how a dead frog look like, bloated stiff body. jus like a drown human ?

- went to bollywood - poison ivy for lunch, nice curry, drumlets and the ALOE VERA lime juice ! interesting doors and nice ambience. saw their boss, was a white indian i guess, telling the workers what to do with that stagnant water, laugh at her jokes/ remarks to her workers. she came over to our table smiling at us, telling us her ways of caring for the worker 'i only allow them to smoke 2 stick per day, strictly no drinking for them, it's for their own good.' so that they will save up more of their hard earned money. well i agree - all smokers pls smoke lesser sticks !!

- went TM to get some stuffs. but decided to get another thing for that present.
- pocket is in burning. but i guess it's worthwhile.
- bike's dirty after the extreme wet ride...
- decided to go into G, take a step at a time, when the situations arises then move to solution.

- casting everythings aside, keeping things simple.

don wish to - . see his mum, bro, sis, relatives, close friends, friends unhappy. trouble/ rely on anybody. get into r/s. get fat. get skinny. get agitated/ fustrated. do things that doesnt obey his principles. overspend. pin high hopes. reveal his physical weakness. don wish to. don wish to.

[kranji][cdc][tamp central]

---" ---

adios

nowcast: -

drink. drank. drunk.

a good feeling which comes with a bad aftermath ?

some felt it earlier some felt it later.
some able to take more while some lesser.

some says it comes with experiences and 'training'

u know it's happening,
but u wldn care,

cos it doesnt matters, as the world is spinning around u.

thoughts of sorrow,

memories of sorries,

you doesnt know why it's that person out of all.

it's so deep in the heart,

in the sea of memories,

it's painful to recall back.

it's the things happened,

the experiences together,

it's so unique that it stay.

hate to relied on others,

but without them,
you'll nv be home.

it's a once in a lifetime experiences ...

you never felt it, you never know it.

that's life ...

[lao pau sa] [ butter fac - cody's BD]

16/10 - 17/10

- caught unprepared

-last min info

- unable to make get some presents done on time.

- task after task, meeting after meeting, gathering after gathering.

[prawning] [OW trg][dragon gate's tim sum buffet] [ amanda's 21st BD @ K box]

' jia jia you ben nan nian de jing ' - it's another crisis ?

nowcast: grey

browses through some blogs
there's a person who recalled the past,

the hurtful feeling,
the broken heart,

there were 3 point of views,
but none were known to each another,

assumptions were made,
conclusion were set,

perhap too friendly in the past,
perhap too helpful,

learn to be more heartless?
learn to be more careful ?

not decisive,
not observance.

if he/she is more decisive, and observant, things might not happen in such a manner.

perhaps this person will not have such a great fall, such a deep wound.

it's a past, a complicated past...

never meant to hurt anyone, never want to see people suffer.

sorry. tried. but nothing can really be done to make things better.

perhaps isolation, ignorance, keeping a great distance would be the solution.

hope he/she will stand up again, be brave and things will be better. i guess .

--- " ---

stupid. dumb / smart. clever

channel 5 . growing up. meaningful show. learn something out of it.

ran with butt, est about 9 - 10 km or lesser ?

that new hairstyle suit her .

- yi kai didnt wash bike again . due to sooOOo many last mins event .

- getting lazy + disorganised = not good. time to get back on track.

--- adios

nowcast: light blue

- nostalgic -

a day of gathering,
a day of coincidence,
it's a day where old friends meet.

stuffed with yummys,
surprises were made,
reminiscence of those good old times we had.

enter army,
back to study,
it's just another stage of life.

somethings changes,
somethings stays,
true friends will always be right there.

e nostalgic feeling, walking the same old path, stepping back into the compound, looking around thinking back.

friends were leaving ... or rather we left ...

once there, but left.

[JW. Jap Village] [ RP ] [CWP]



- adios

nowcast: grey

disconnect . refresh

isolate . reflect

rest . recharge

. . . .

Goodies Bags Week

nowcast: light blue .

Goodies BAG WEEK!

- visited chervon for AGM
- NUS SplashDown

= 2 x goodies bag.
-- " --

YK declared broke this mth =( soOOo much temptation from John Little sales + Comex Fair .

-- " --

what can be done ?

i wonder.

- when we undergo somethings unfavourable, just close ur eyes and tell urself, 'it will be over one day', may it be getting experience or follow through motions ...

- adios

nowcast: purple blue

Going Home (A short film on Dementia)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9iXPHhfk_7E&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.vin4.blogspot.com%2F&feature=player_embedded

--nice local film -- =)

nowcast: dark purple

- scratches on bike =( .

lesson learnt, 'nv let other to ride ur bike no matter how confident they are, how long they hold their license' ... cos ur bike is not a trg sch bike, which equipped with metal rack beside ... haiz

---" ---

- it's time to get back stamina ...

- it's time to get back some weight ..

- it's time to wake up ...

- it's time to spend time more meaningfully ...

- it's time to think about how to handle people around.

- it's time to think about more solutions to overcome/ coverup personal weakness.

- it's time to plan some contingency plan for studies and financial.

- it's time ....

' i will do things i believes that's right, till the day i fall'

--- " ---

soon.. i am unable to differentiate the different types of people around me, those who are true and those who are not.

but is tat really impt ?

--- " ---

nowcast: Dark Purple

-- cant be bother --

he's aged,
he's sick,
there he is on his wheel chair rolling up and down.

there were people ard,
all were healthy and fit,
but none of them are willing to give the helping hand.

there he is struggling,
there he is asking for help,
but all ignore his request for that simple task.

saw the selfish side,
saw the disgusting side,
it's all about man and their 'bo chap' attitude.

perhaps it's karma,
maybe it's fate,
but still we should help people who are in needs.

pushed him up,
called a cab,
hope that 10 bucks will help u in someway.

when my closes one need help,
when my friends need help,
i hope someone will be there when i am not around.

--- " ---

-- SH 21st bd --

there were old,
there were young,
all the three generations were gather here for once.

small party,
close families,
where people chats and mingles around.

catching here,
chasing there,
laughters were heard, smiles were seen.

not that rich,
not that well off,
but still you can feel the warm in the family bonds within them.

'si gua tian bu tian' by the adults,
'tian' by the children,
where nice photos were taken with that BIG BIG SMILE =D

---" ---

HAPPY 21st uh UG! =)

--- " ---

adios

nowcast: cool blue

--- the way it is ---

the step to move forward,
the step to reverse backward,
things were still staying at the same point.

it's confuse,
it's undecisive,
things were left hanging there.

left unsay,
left untouch,
things are staying put as the way it is.

for the better,
for the worst,
reactive might be the best solutions sometimes.

---" ---

nowcast: reddish black

--- it's his fault ---

such a dissapointment,
such a anger,
that's what happen when communication breaks down.

people assume,
and concluded,
not trying to understand the other side of story.

using formal tone,
using authority,
this is what they call friendly talk.

A don't listen to B,
B don't bother with A,
that's where miscommunication comes in.

you think you are experienced,
i think i am right,
judgements fails on both side.

Perhaps it's the langauges used,
maybe it's the tone used,
there's fault at both sides.

if u arent in the situations,
then explaining will be useless,
please stay out of the picture as u have made things worse.

like the whites side the white,
and the black side the black,
that's where unfairness and biasness comes in.

A's view to B changes,
B's view to A changes,
that's where working r/s turn sour.

it's the emotions at fault,
it's the communication at fault,
but people didnt question themselve are they at fault at the point of time.

my body isn't yours,
your mind isn't mine,
that's why people have to step into others shoes.

in a splits of thoughts,
in hours of talks,
things will never get back like the past.

--- "

it's not his fault that he cant hear properly,
it's not his fault that he cant speak clearly,
it's not his fault that he cant perform ideally.

it's not he doesn't want to, but that's he's limitation.

he tried covering up the weakness,
he tried to do his best,
but things still happen.

he's more tired, more exhausted, there's only more disspointment when more explaination is given.

people need time to change,
people need experiences to advance,
people need suggestions to improve,

but some people just cant be bother.

superior is superior,
inferior is inferior,
politics is politics,

lines have to be drawn clearly btw u and him.

--- " ---

nowcast: grey

- shake head - jus not good enuff 2day, need more improvement...

- i guess the most scary things on earth is when people put trust in a r/s yet being betrayed on another side. looking at people around me, things seem sweet when they are together, yet on another unknown side, he/she is being betray? oOoooo scary ...


-- mum --

she who sacrific without complains,
suffers in slient.

she who shield the womb,
protect it with all cost.

she who feed the child,
provide the best she can.

she who educate the child,
tell he/she the rights and wrongs.

but as time passes,
memories fades.

he/she might not remember the greatness of her.

people grew up and carry on with their life. . . very often she has been forgotten ...

adios-

it's sun or nv

nowcast: purple red

it's sun or nv,
people often says, the higher the hope, the harder the fall.
well that's something i agree.

for the past years, i blame it on the boards and unlucky events that occurs during the compeition, but i guess the final conclusion is just tat i am not good enough.

this year, am i up for it ? equipped with new/ diff sprinting and turning techniques, and different training programs compared to the past, will i make it? tell me i wouldnt .. i rather everyone have no hopes or expectations on me than self suffocation due to others expections.

pls pls pls pls to whatever, let me at least have a better luck on that day.

---"---

this week luck ? i guess no gd no gd, i have been injuring people around me accidentlly (physically), 2 surfboard accident + 3 exhaust burn ... and everyones just says wah lao yi kai!well but no ones really appreciate the effort to fetch... haiz i didn mean it, it was really pure pure accident. but still i am sorry guys, for all the knocks and burns. wat the hell is happening, past 2 mths of riding, no pillon injured. but just this week 3 accident ( i mean those burns while boarding the bike).
hmm hmm hmm guess nxt time will put my right hand at the stand while others board, at least if kanna burn, the first will be my hand.

first time i experience a almost skid turning, just right after i change my balancer, guess it's too light, aww wasted 12 bucks for it, now have to change another one 16 bucks a heavier one. a heavier balancer for a more stable turn. well for safety it's worthwhile.

---"---

sunday is the day, just like the colour now, kan chong ...

---"---

after all the trgs and efforts ... i hope ...

nowcast: grey

- lost -

lost of direction,
lost of motivation,

where to move, how to go ...

lost of determination,
lost of strength,

where to find, how to control ...

lost of myself,
lost of feelings,

where to keep, how to hide ...


tell me that it's wrong, tell me to move on ...

tell me that it's right, tell me to stay there ...


---" ---

times flies,
faces are still familar ....

--- " ---

nowcast: grey

bike no batt,
bike cant start,
thanks to SX and YK,
For coming dwn...

Stop by TP,
jus a random check.

IU spoiled,
problems getting through those gantry.

my pocket is burned agn =(

nowcast: grey



- gym wit ah ben

- out riding with 2nd bro to changi V for lunch =)



saw a monkey wandering around the roof railing of the food center .



like butt says, my poor wheeler is rotting at home, shall bring it out for a ride + some cleaning when i am free =)



bad headaches days ...

nowcast: windy stone

a Fulfilling loOOooOoooNnnnggGg wkend =D

thanks to the runway off, able to enjoy such a long wkend.

THURS:
- visit mum at her office (thanks mum for her guidance to the bike shop when i am lost =x) haha lao ma wan shui !
- buy bike accessories
- wash bike

(lost my way agn during my way to bike shop, holy coW ! more xperiences needed )



FRI:
- RT
- K box with LIMs sq =)
- haircut
- dinner with Uncle Daddy

- order diao yu (fishing in chinese) at the drink stall and u will get chinese tea
- nice food at aljunied cresent ! (the hawkers there not bad, i think so, gonna try it some day, any kaki ?) haha
- circuit rd food center is close (under renovation)

SAT:
- Beach Trg (more trgs needed, haiz )
- Dim Sum Buffet and Harbourfront
- Ice Age 3

5th pillion onboard, hope ur 'bike fear' have diminished. =)

now i understands why drivers and riders on the road hated taxi drivers so much (i mean those f***ing inconsiderate ones), thanks to the sudden brake infront uh 'mr taxi driver'. grr

safety doesnt depend on the rider/driver alone, it's also depend on those driving and riding around him/her.

--- " ---

Back to those boring days ...

I hope to compete in nationals LifeSaving Comp, I hope to win something. train hard, work hard, perform hard.

hopes in:
Taplin Relay
2 men Surf with yk
-"-

shou ni ye yi yang ai wo (zhang dong liang) - nice song

drinking xpired milk, taste alrite to me ..