08apr. thu. breezy blue

LEAVE. LEAVE. LEAVE.

- 05, 06, RPLS chalet, get to know more about the juniors, some unhappiness happening around, still we are entertaining ourself when everything's over =) v soon in the near future, wldn be able to see them that much often or rather once in a bluemoon ?? with g trg coming up on all sats, i suppose i wldn be gg down for sat beach trg after this sat, till maybe like i ORD ? haha. the miss the sand, board, sun, sea, my teammates my friends.

- ytd was the 2nd time, higher content, higher effect but less destructive aftermath. great day with shuan, SL and sue. nv want to unleash the other side of me again. Anyway, once i see u as my good friend, you will be one alway =)

- forgot about dental appt in the morning ! damn shitty feeling, thanks them for being so forgiving and change it to tmr.

- ring ring ring, beep beep beep, sooo many text and phone calls from work =( haiz, what's this ?? i am on leave ... and still unable to get away from my task and responsiblity temporary. and well more things to face, more situation to handle next week.Why am i the person keep getting blame for other's troubles, decisions, confusion. tired la !! i need a break from all these.

the top just don understand how complicate things work at the bottom, and the bottom just dont know how to appreciated what they have currently but just keep asking for more.

I tried telling myself, just take it as a experiences in handling people from both the higher up and lower end, but still this ideas just died off easily. Ok at least now every bits and pieces of confusion have been cleared with everything settled down.


'just take it as a learning experience for the future.'

getting more distanced from campmates, changing roles, different duties and responsibilities.

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tried looking on the bright side. but things wasnt really gg well on my side ...

all i hope now is to receive a acceptance letter and have my future decide.

I want to go back to the past where by i am able to do things alone without the help of others. all by myself. but that wldn happen i suppose.

can someone tell me my mistakes ? my weakness ? remind me of things I should keep it up ?? haiz

am wasting my time, not spending it effectively but rotting it away.