19may. Wed. red clouds

gosh. seriously i got no idea how to handle them for being rude, no-manners and now even making decision without asking ? alright i am not refering to all, it's always the same few. alright i suppose i failed to perform my secondary role well ? issit gen gap? (but they are the same age of mine) or issit that things differ as the batches diff ?

I seriously hate the feeling of being stuck in-between. c gives probs, a 'sqeeze' b agn, then b 'suck it up', then 'squeeze' the minimal of c. nv wants to take disciplinary actions on them, or rather believes that things shouldn be working that way. that's life, somehow being 'nice' to others means being 'mean' to urself.

shall figure out some ways to make things better. every problem given is a chance to learn and improve ya ?

and yes, i dislike this organisation by itself, after knowing more things. well guess my mates were right for saying me simple minded, after 'detach' from 'their side' and bother about things on my side.

alright, enough whining. yawns.

whining are good way to de-stress, i suppose.

after u whine, u left ur feelings here and carry on.

alright i just forgot what i was thinking a few moment ago in spilt sec. yawns aging, aging.

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