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somethings that dont happen always,

- having a kid next to you while u are cutting your hair, haha but certainly the interesting part is that he just keep singing and singing while people in the salon/ whatever u call it were laughing .. haha

- while packing/ reorganising my stuffs, while packing through the 'memories' sector, just i recalled back those happy moments with people around me in the past... those gifts, those notes, those photos, those things that bring me back to mystory.

- certainly i suppose last week, was the most happening, happy week after soo long, certainly credits goes to those around me. it's certainly feels great to hang out with u guys/ girls, life would be diff w/o anyone of you guys...


when time passes...

when we were young, we see people older as seniors and teachers, wonder why are they so tall and huge, why do they have different hair colour (white, grey) as us.

when we hit teens, we see all people as friends, not much age group differences, looking and seeking for companionship, wonder about things which happened in daily life and experiences, protecting things precious to us (our homeland, our love ones) deciding the path to take..

when we hit mid, we see family and career as piority, nuturing our kids / younger generations to become what we are or even better, passing down our beliefs, values and ethics ...

when we aged, we see the younger generations as the hope, as the future for the continuation of mankind, 'they are the princes and princess of the country'(they are the most precious and important than anything else).

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good news: got selected for pokka TVC.

bad news:
sigh, last night was terrible, never felt this for such a long time, feeling cold yet hot, wierd dreams all night long ..

damn early slp: 2030
took mr panadol: 0030

i suppose these bugs are 70% cleared from my body. left with < dark reddish yellow phelgm + neck aches + sore throat>.

just then i wonder what could be the cause ?
chinese: prolly due to the exposure of the rain + sun + heaty food (which errr not likely ?)
angmo: due to overwork of the body system which resulted to immune system impaired (which doesnt make sense also?)
supernature?: just recalled this morning that i accidentally kicked an joss stick on the grass area ytd ... (but i suppose there's a reason why people called it a myth?)

saw 3 ambulances with flashing red lights within 5min along road and expressway.. gosh this is scary.


gonnaa bash and clear these 'bugs' out of my body ! grrr damn uncoomfortable and irritating =(

: sunny

alright, another fun filled morning - afternoon with jon, cass, hh and joseph! alight from mrt = RUN ! (well people here will know why and how hilarous it is!), go to hh house watch ppl RUN, then finally our turn to RUN ! RUN RUN RUN! haha [e mrt 'sprints', carrying of e 'whisper', freaking 'legs' & e swings 'commercial'! ]

muscle aches + fatigue + feeling weak + feeling hot (even the breath out through the nostrils is warm!) + sore throat = nana poo mr fever is visiting anytime sooonnn -_-"' sigh ! more rest + fluids is needed, tmr will be another busy day .

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RRRRRUUUUNNNNNN!!!! great jog! but too bad no sprints < =( / =) ?> welll certainly 'me no like sprinting'!! but ohh welll i don have much choices do i ? hahaha ohhh weellllll take it as a chance to train up something that i am always weak at ?

satisfying meal = happy stomach !

rain rain rain, sigh what's with the weather nowadays ?

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finally some muscle aches from trg ! good sign ? cos shows that i am working hard! hahahha anyway prolly is due to sat beach trg, sun gym = latacte accumulation ? anyway good trg !

just as i ponder, in some process of life,now i lost myself agn, not in the sense of direction but me, myself. ohh well sounded sucky , but what to do?

Apply jobs - interviews - results ... wait, waited, waiting ! =( how nice will life be if the WAITing part is removed. but ohh well part and parcel of life, it's always better then having stopped at the first step i suppose ?

你不知道的事 - wang li hong : meaningful lyrics ! well i suppose you xie shi , bu zhi dao is always better　?

that all folks !

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13th Aug

today is friday and is 13th of the month.

Camb Mates gathering, nice catching up with one another. =D

bill / person = $13.50

hahah pure coincidence i suppose.


Hi stranger ...

On my way to ACC, at this far end cabin, this middle seat this particular you caught my attention.

On my way back home from Cambodia mates gathering, at this far end cabin, at that middle seat, i turned my head to the left by chance and i saw you again.

On bus trip home from int to hse, just agn i turned my head to the left looking out the window, and then i saw you again, walking back home i supppose...

...interestingly i saw u 3 x a day, pure coincidence agn i suppose...

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12th Aug

Nice G- Shift gathering =) fun and crazy, hopefully there will still be chances for us to meet up again.

that steamboat mini bus, that steamboat shop and that pub without people =x

=D

tired.

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: com on let's go ! high ! =D

NDP 2010! is approaching ! Finally the long awaiting moment =) row 1 column 7 if u have a hard time spoting me =)

alright guys =) G shift final showdown!

Alot out there, people around me wondering why did i choose this path in my ns life, they question me is those sacrifics necessary (those hurdles that present, those extra responsibilities, sats burned, extension of 2 days of service, standing under sun and rain ... blah blah blah). i think if it's something i want to do, and it's possible, i will go ahead with my decision.

some might find me stupid or dumb, well i would say it's just that we see things in different perspective. reasons behind,
1) it's a pride for my country
2) it's something that add on more sparks in my ns 'story'
3) it's something i always wanted to do ever since ndp03( the feelings of standing on the parade ground)
4) it's something that i am confident i will do well in it (performing drills), prolly this will mark an end.

certainly there were alot of problems arise from the start, and i am glad that they were solved along the way. I am glad most of u guys understand the situations and stand with me during problematic times, and i know whenever helps is needed i know u guys will always be around to render that helping hands to me. very much appreciated, as tomorrow mark the end of 'tour' of me with u guys, i want to say, thanks alot for everything (helping, giving me chances to learn as a leader, giving me suggestions, and care as a friend) certainly this phase of life have been written down deeply in my memories, the people, the friends, the buddies, the experiences, the lessons, th knowledge, the teachers.... =)

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Just i realised how stubborn i am when it comes down to job, either lifescience or health science, nothing else. I suppose this is a good thing?

Just 1 interview with that manager make me question myself, Is that the destiny i want ? I know is yes, but how much sacrific will it cost for me to reach there and achieving the bigger picture? and will i give up in the process?

2nd interview with cordlife, quite interesting, lasted for about 30-40mins? however on the long bus ride back the 'what if what if' questions flooded my head. and i wonder . pros and cons of shift work vs pros and cons of office working hrs.

time to run and train ! no time to slack anymore, this year LS NOWC compeititors are really strong, and i mean ya even i am shaken so much in my confident level.

only when i train, i will

be able to give my utmost best to the compeititors,
so it will be a better game for u and me.

be able to produce the best result for the team,
even though the best might not be the best.

be able to play my part well for the team,
so as not to let anyone in the team down.

be able to do those who wasnt given a chance to take part proud,
so as to set a model for them to reach out in the future.

i told myself, therefore i will train hard for myself, and for everyone else.

rock and roll !! trg mode ON!! ;)

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PREVIEW 's DOWN ! though right arm and legs were aching like O.O!!! thanks peck for reminder (how much i wanted to enter the cont) !

NICE fireworks saw from marina baysand ! bad things is we were standing there like stone not allow to move, else can turn and shift to see the different angle !

7th day before ORD, RP07M on the 7th lane agn, pure coincidence ? anw guys and girls did a really (Y) job ! =) though there were some 'cock-up' and unfairness... what matter more is doing your best at that point of time. that remind me of something one guy told me: 'giving your best also means a form of respect to your compeititors in the game' haha sigh gonna train for Open Water, trg mode , gg to ON soon ! though much much reminders and efforts needed ...

busy packed schdule throughout since last week, and it gonna drag till i ORD, sooo practically my life is currently revolving around interviews, finds jobs, driving lessons, LS trg, admins + some sai gangs left b4 ORD. not forgeting that this week is surely a stressful week, settling unforeseen situations blaah blah..

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first job interview at sgh.

alright was quite pissed when some last min thing clashes with my job interview tmr + on leave, called up the company, and there goes my chance. #$%^&*! so if it's something that 'not that impt' i will get really pissed off. >:(

alright, anger aside.

i wonder what's missing in me that make me a better person? Certainly beside confidence and decisiveness there's something missing.

whenever i tell others about the path i am going in the future they will be like ' :O , REALLY ?!' !! well judging by the cover people thought that i am someone who will have career in sport industry.. -_-"'' !

nxt some old thoughts...

seem that life in r/s isnt easy when things turn rough (not physical rough in that sense)hahhah ??

well we called it immature, overly-possessive, keep wanting to cling onto other party, revenge, unable to let go .. whatever it is, i suppose it's a poison which harm you, yourself and other party.

issit love the cause ? or issit just pure selfishness ? or issit 不服气 ? or issit just habits that need time to kick off ?

certainlty i suppose inter-related to one another ? People always have the wrong concept of 'fairness' hmmm example, when u give $1 you must get back 1 pear ? well for another cases i suppose would be persistance in the wrong way ? you thought by doing this or that, she/he will be back? but very often forgotten that this isnt what she/he wants? ur perfect 'love story' doesnt match with his or hers. sigh.. feelings, chemistry, a mystery... when there's only one hand trying to clap, it's a sign to ____, because they cant clap the same tune anymore.

There was a song lyric,
感情的付出, 不是真心就会有结果
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没有一个人, 非要另一个人, 才能过一生
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爱若变成了刺
思念也成了痴
也许心碎是爱情最美的样子

- 我知道你很难过 by Jolin Tsai


get some life guys ! it's time to wake up ...
when it's time to let go... let go ...
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it just take a simple coffee shop and 3 persons to enjoy a feastful dim sum :)

all the best to u guys who are gg into army ! =)

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alright, today mistakes after mistake, even i myself dont know what i am doing, no 'feelings' eh, i mean the drill feelings. everythings is like so not there, sigh where have it gone to ?

alright, even my encik says: 'yikai you ok anot ? u look xin shi chong chong...' -_-"' but oh well i am ok. really ok but its just that i dont feel like talking much today ? perhaps due to yytd 'mistakes'?, today's humidity?, or prolly due to some unbalance hormones issues ?, or due to some complicated stuffs going through my mind which i dk know how to put it into words? well well hahaha

you need to be more confident, just that confident will have that great differences in you. well this isnt the first person, hopefully it will be the last person telling me that. ohhh welll can someone tell me where to buy confident? sigh if only it can be buy...

unhappy issues aside, on my ride home frm camp, just as i stop beside bus ( full of kids, and all are from my primary sch) oh well then this 2 kids wave and salute at me, i was like -_-"'. oh well after all those 'demoralise stuffs' happened, this actually sorta cheered me up.

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this is insane ! i just spent sooooo muchhhh without much thought(within 1 day)! sigh ! *knock knock* what am i doing ?! and now i am falling back to my 'last line of defense' -_-"' sounds like war time uh? everytime i buy somethings which require huge $$ (laptop, bike ... ) i will always make sure i have sufficient buffer before proceeding, but not this time round. Lesson learnt, don do stupid things agn ..

when it's fast, it just took less than 20 mins to reach home =x

r/s? i suppose is one of the root to problems and unhappiness to some. at some point of time, couples do question themselve over certain things.some manage to take a step back and look at the wider view at how things is happening, which should be the best solution and manage to carry on to another stage of r/s with stronger bonds(though some might end up otherwise)...while some are still caught in a dilemma. also there might be some who are persistent to look at the their own narrow point of view. sigh i suppose that's life ya ? deep inside *heart beat- bom po bom po *, is the place where people find their answers.

alright ! well I suppose if it's the right one we will know it ourselves, pro about being single = one can spread his/her 'loves' around to everyone around him/her !! hahahah

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sigh ! mistake after mistake ... 'com on buck up buck up !' my performance have been a disappointment to myself and sometimes the trainers expectations.

tmr will be a buzy day ..

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dilemma !!!

sigh, things always happpened when i least expect it to ... calls are finally coming in .. but but but none are interview yet, is like telling you (general selection stage 'passed', kindly wait for semi final (interview))-_-"'

personal gain, career progress in the future, work system, personal interest (big picture).

easy way: lean back, fall back to plans offered , plan later , sounds good ? but still there's certain limitations and considerations.

hard way: enter healthcare working enviroment for experiences, then get a healthscience degree, is like taking one big round and start again (but oh well time to spend some thot reality or passion), but certainly, i stand a greater advantages over biopharm ind than healthsci

so it will be lab jobs vs ind jobs vs hosp jobs
let's see if only considering this 3 kind of job avaliable and other factors (beside the stated ones) are not taken into consideration.

xxxxxx $$ xxx interest xxx location xxx career prog (in future) xxx schdule preferance xxx

lab research: mid xxx low xxx mid xxx low xxx highxxx
biopharm ind: highxxx mid xxx low xxx highxxx mid xxx
health care : low xxx highxxx highxxx mid xxx low xxx

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that's why when you get this, you wldn get that...

simply say you cant have the best of both world.

play a first come first serve game ? more $$ more talk game ? passion game ? leave it to fate game ?

phone ? change it/ save it ?

spec ? change it/ save it ?

shall straighten out this entangled ropes real soon.

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wah lao eh! 真的是自找麻烦...

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movie early in the morning! thanks to PEG!!!!! ohhhhh goshhh ! alright it's worth to watch, Toy Story 3.

gym, accidently pull rear deltoid muscle. not really severe , just some ache which using that particular part.

for 2 meals i had pasta !=) loves pasta, though it burn quite a big hole there =( ohhh welll once a blue moon. and 1 x big tub ice creams for her bd =)

thanks PYK for driving us around !! =)

i suppose i made the right choice by returning the sglet back to u :), after u returned it to me. Well i suppose u like the design very much, for you to wear it at ur bd celebration night (though i am quite surprise to see tat).

last task completed, final stop to e story. all the best ya? :)

nxt worry is jobs, which one ?

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alright, dozing off while standing. gosh!! this is sooo bad ! bad habit of mine... sigh.

ne2. what to say? i am somehow or rather disappoint with my own performance, 1 x anticiapation mistake during rehers, 1 x mag negligence b4 trg.

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idk shld i be happy or worry.

another job offer from my previous faci, but as a research assistant and period of 9 mths. sigh, i would very like to take up this offer. but on another hand i want to go and see the outside world.

hao fan hao fan...

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RAIN RAIN RAIN !
ohhhh goshhhh
i dislike riding in the rain ...
it just sooo troublesome ..

gosh, another job offer, this time is by gary asking me to consider of becoming a OSG staff. sorry to disappoint u, i suppose my answer is more prolly no ba, unless certain things change my mindset.

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just when i thought the pain is gone. certain thing happened, adding on and reminds me, what's pain.

when things are given out, it mean that the one receiving it is the owner, there's no need to return back.

there's a different between lending and giving.

just like when feelings are given out, return is not needed back.

not being couple anymore doesnt mean things need to be return back to one another ,if you are not using it anymore then keep it for memory sake instead :) *laugh* if certain things reminds you 'nightmare' then by all means discard it ba . haha

i suppose it's better to keep certain things in the dark. because, by knowing more, it will only give you more unecessary thoughts, which i wldn want that to happen.

Enjoy ur bd celebration ya ?! =) Happy Birthday!

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: sigh

so where am i suppose to start ?

alright job applications..

shall look and send 2nd wave applications tmr. hahha kiasu eh (well i just dont wanna waste time rotting around after ord)? hopefully can hear some news from them soon.

went back AHCC to relieve classes, ohh welll even uncle patrick was telling me to become a full timer there. gosh, if i am schooling then should be ok, but well i need the experiences in the relevant field so that i can progress further in what i want to achieve in the future. sorry about that this isnt what i want to achieve in life, though small part of it can be fulfill there :( thanks ava and sli for not forgetting me like after 1yrs gg to 2yrs(for sli) and 3 yrs (for ava)? =)


BOOOKED MY TP ALDY ! 21st SEP , 915am =) com mon ! bring it on ! hahahha

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warning: what's gg to be written down next might cause uneasy feelings to some, for those who are allergic to emo, kindly refrain urself for reading it. -

Life's unfair,
life's always tough for some, whereas for some it's always smooth.

I really hope that this good friend of mine will be alright, and life for her will be better in the future(hopefully from tmr onwards!). 'Dont let those setbacks in life break you down! instead you break them down ya?' When i look at her situations, i saw the reflection of me, family, finacially, studies, work attitude... life is just so sucky and unfair. i mean why?

alright look on the other side, things arent that bad afterall.

i suppose it's like, you have this, but you wouldnt have that kinda rule/balance equation.

Sigh, war at home agn -_-"' so sick and tired of it.

if only all of us have a choice right from birth .. .. if only all of us have pior knowledge of our own future .. but then again who would .....

that's life. :(

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