: red clouds

first job interview at sgh.

alright was quite pissed when some last min thing clashes with my job interview tmr + on leave, called up the company, and there goes my chance. #$%^&*! so if it's something that 'not that impt' i will get really pissed off. >:(

alright, anger aside.

i wonder what's missing in me that make me a better person? Certainly beside confidence and decisiveness there's something missing.

whenever i tell others about the path i am going in the future they will be like ' :O , REALLY ?!' !! well judging by the cover people thought that i am someone who will have career in sport industry.. -_-"'' !

nxt some old thoughts...

seem that life in r/s isnt easy when things turn rough (not physical rough in that sense)hahhah ??

well we called it immature, overly-possessive, keep wanting to cling onto other party, revenge, unable to let go .. whatever it is, i suppose it's a poison which harm you, yourself and other party.

issit love the cause ? or issit just pure selfishness ? or issit 不服气 ? or issit just habits that need time to kick off ?

certainlty i suppose inter-related to one another ? People always have the wrong concept of 'fairness' hmmm example, when u give $1 you must get back 1 pear ? well for another cases i suppose would be persistance in the wrong way ? you thought by doing this or that, she/he will be back? but very often forgotten that this isnt what she/he wants? ur perfect 'love story' doesnt match with his or hers. sigh.. feelings, chemistry, a mystery... when there's only one hand trying to clap, it's a sign to ____, because they cant clap the same tune anymore.

There was a song lyric,
感情的付出, 不是真心就会有结果
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没有一个人, 非要另一个人, 才能过一生
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爱若变成了刺
思念也成了痴
也许心碎是爱情最美的样子

- 我知道你很难过 by Jolin Tsai


get some life guys ! it's time to wake up ...
when it's time to let go... let go ...
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