17th & 18th aug

md: breezy

Won 2nd for bi-lite ind catergory unexpectedly! Beep! Everyone arnd seem to be swimming so fast,while me, still maintaining the slow pace swim. filp! 1 lap done, there was a guy ran out of energy in the first lap after his start sprint, soon there was another having cramp... 1.. 2.. 3.. .. 6 finally out of the pool, which was at the 3rd last position.. haiz ..Rushed to the transition area, which unluckily, mine was located at the furthest corner. I heard people cheering one of them is jess and the little monster i think, faster ! Down the slope i was pacing glenn then slowly overtook some of them then jereome at the bus stop, no sight of mattew, not even at the far end corner, he was fast. While reaching the finishing line, i heard cheers all around, even from the loudspeaker. Thanks everyone =) people in the team like yk, LF, jin, jess, adriel, ZW (ah pek breakfast! haha), also the hardcore trg team vonn, peg, matt and the rest. many things happen during this event, WS have her 'thing' which resulting to inconvinence but nevertheless she completed her event :) YK too ran after a butt fall and with his muscle ache :) the never die spirit ! hey people! 'I really loves you guys as the team' :)

met her up after the event:) shared with her my joy. To her: I will always want to treat you the best i can, hahas if i treated you badly any point of time mus complain to me kies ? hehe luv u

18/8
Late ! met peg, jess, adriel and jin for the op open water trg. Jess is having some family problem regarding to the commitment to the IG. really hope that her parents will understand her, hope you wldn step down so soon. SLOW reaction time! not SMOOTH enough! not FAR enough! not FAST enough! aWWwww, these were the things for beach trg. went to hawker after trg, talk alot with litta monster. tired.. craving for popcorns .. slurpPp ! currently listening to S.N.E.S album, the musics i love.

' Habits, they make you or break you' - Sean Convey

md: breezy, 12/08/2007

Ytd was a great day with her :) but unable to complete watching the disturbia.












LS Still water




today ?F12A, my code.. Great.. haha after the things end, it seem like a sort of relive, no DQ. phews.. although there's no winning for us at any event this year, i belive that they can do better nxt year! =) go RP lifesaving ! also thanks everyone in the team for the encouragement :) her too(for the nice simple msg) :) nxt RP biathalon on friday... oh ya it's gary birthday ! haha he kanna sabo by his NUS lifeguard team ! LOL.












< the girls








< PYK in action







< cools in shades









< dragonfly in action

feeling really dwn..

md: storm..

feelings is getting from bad to worse. every pics, every words, why is she treating me like tat ?things are not getting anywhere better.. No respect for my feelings. I have been complaining about these, can she just treat me better? removes those photos, changing the stautes, caring more to me, not treating me below her friends (esp guys friend) i felt that i am less important than any of them. Confuse, shld i jus... am i still ur ? UT later, comp sun..

md: breezy

er.. today ? IT'S NATIONAL DAY! It has been 4 years le. where 4 years ago, i was part of the NPCC contingent in NDP. I will nv forget that =) For my experiences there (the jokes (hardcore pants), foods.. ) , my friends there which endure the hardship together (the hardcore gang). Years passes and ya lotsa things have happened and changed.

Today, hmm went k lunch with ben and ming, Oo then when to watch secret by Jay Zhou. IMPRESSIVE! not only a singer, a composer, a actor he is also a director ! Nice show which required quite some thinking to find the show very interesting. Touching and nice! grading 8 of 10. somehow lost in my own world(treasure the ones), after watching the show. Then went to ah ben house, ben and ming kept talking about their TKD stuffs, which made me think back about JUDO, i really miss JUDO, the training, the feelings. but ... it's not possible anymore.

nxt nxt I will clock my personal best tmr, and beat my PB on sunday comp! I know i cant beat others, but this will be a challenge to myself ! to improve ! I know i have been demoralise cos i cant win others but that's isn't an issue to me anymore, cos i am there to experience and improve, may it be my first and last compeitition. :(

How shld i handle relationship? my morale to this relationship have decrease due to the past few days, few week, the insecurity, the action... hope it will be fine, hope i will not give up.

md: breezy

Oo.. went all the way down to beach road to get a rashguard. $60 bucks =( actually i wanted to tell her not to pon the class today since the more impt things is learning the day problem, not just about presenting what we know during the presentation. A day grade might be affected, but it's understandable, my point is why not stay in class and listen the learning of the day from the class and teacher, i am sure they will explain it. At the very least we can learn more things which can come out for UT, or at least you will understand. Anyway even if i told her all this i believe that she will still follow her friends or friend. When i asked myself why i attend sch, the answer is i want to learn more things, which might be applicable in the future, it's the experience and knowledge that counts.

Nxt nxt there seem to be some problem with the aquatic carnival, OSG! i really hate them. what's their problem, if you have better plans why not suggest it out? Today swam very relax, haiz, how to swim faster? left with only less then 3 days to compeitition. I felt neglected by her for the past few weeks, was i thinking too much? or was it that the history is gg to repeat itself? Really hope that things will turn out to be fine. Recalling what she told me in the past about the feeling she hate most was being neglected, since then after knowing, i have been trying v hard to acc her be with her , remove any possibility of feeling neglected. But ... hmm I guess i am still sucks at it ba.. giving in, caring someone? do people care? do people appreciate? why is it still domestic partnership ? ... saded..

md: breezy

MAC in the morning ! but didn manage to get to eat my hotcake with sausage while it's hot. Today ? slacking day, i guess. met her for lunch :) When swimming, body still not listening ! damn ! haiz... how? but i really want to thanks long fei and vonn haha for their accompanied ! :) Oo sh** left my charger wire in class haiz limited power today, have to do this fast liao manz..

disappointment

md: D

Class as usual.. during the first breakout, instead of searching for resources, my whole team when searching for my blog... er all thanks to JG uh! haha... anyway this blog is somehow boring. Cos my life is ... ya you know. er okok.. what's nxt was trg that i want to talk about.. nv meet the timing, always end up swimming the last today.. kinda disappointed. i wanted to swim faster but i was really demoralise (cos i know that i wouldn be able to do well in the event) and my body just simply don't listen to me. Then the worst came during rescue medley.. i can even plunge in well! goggles drop out and swimming like an idiot. what the hell am i doing? where's the concentration ? where's the determination? sOo low, but no ones knows, i really need someone to tell me what to do.. haiz.. someone to talk to me.. but no one is there..

upcoming challenges

Md: Sunny

Sentosa trg today was er somehow not 'up to performance', might it be beach flag, sprint and surf boarding, it was sort of demoralising. Reason might due to the injures last week trg, ytd dry trg which have cause soreness in my thigh muscle(same suffering as peg lol, hard to climb stairs). But they are still reasons, which shouldn become excuse for not performing during trg. 'micro muscle tears and lactic acid accumulation'. Also learn lotsa things from the NUS manager, which is gary senior, forgot his name. but nice guy. Then went ard vivo crapping and walking around.









<- the POWER of ache! haha = cant walk properly!








<- e girls


nxt nxt..
guess over the past few day she have being unhappy over my selfish act and thinking. I realised it after calming down. sorry ger.

over the nxt few weeks and days in the month of aug(impt events)
- National Day! (9th)
-LS National Still Water Championship (12th)
-RP Biathlon (17th)
-O level oral (24th)
-LS National Open Water Championship (26th)
-TP test (30th)
- Submit PP (30th)

md: stormy

why it's no but not yes? y wasn't a chance given? everything just made me felt so disappointed and sad. While sitting in the interchange, hope that she will appear from my back but she didn't. Wasn't mention much in her story, she mention every litta things but not me(even when buying waffle for her friend?), statues remain unchanged in her profile, all these things just made me felt unsecured, 'do she tell her friends that i am her bf?'. 'Can we meet?', 'I find you after that...', 'i want to see you', these were the sentences that have never been told.will we meet tmr morning ? Life is meant to be treasured every min, every sec. I guess i am not good enough ... troubles, who is there for me ? no one...

md: ups and downs

This week has been a busy week for me, events after events, submissions after submission, FYP, BM test, Bike prac 8, round de campus run, bRag (swim), Aquatic Carnival proposal. Finally there's an stop for breathing... after 2 unlucky meetup which make me unable to pass my prac 8 for such long time, finally i have passed it. Aquatic Carnival: done proposal, the next thing is to run the show. BM test: got SLSS most nasty but responsible examiner philip sng, all of us mange to scrap through, also special thank to Jeremy who have been a responsible instructor =).FYP presentation have ended today, hope the grades will be well. bRag (swim): SAS won 2nd, all thanks to clarence! round de campus: although we are still not up to the standard in competing with other polys and ite on land, but think everyone in the team have done well, haha at least we are not the last! hoho. After FYP went for the Charity Swim at SICC, reach there at about 330, where the swim event is ending at 4! 30mins how to swim 100 laps ? Argh! manage to swim 42 laps, haiz... after that went amk with lifesaving family to mac, and then celebrate big Jenny bd with a small slice of oreo cheese cake. Oh there was something that almost shock me to death when LF mention to me the bd of ws, luckily is not the date, no superstitious, but i guess is fate. went to meet her after that, it's has been a long long time, as she is busy with her dance performance. hehe she showed me everything that happen over the past few days, well done ger, 3 days of practice and you have perform well =). Oo but somehow disapointed that i wasn't mention in the craving lists, more time for friends ? hmm guess ...

md: yawn.. unlucky day

Just as he looking out of the window of the bus, everything out there was simply the trees without it's colour with a reddish sky as background. This senario appear to be a lifeless earth, feeling like as if he is on the only bus that is left travelling. Thinking back to the past and the future. Wondering what will he do if he is only allow to do one thing before everythings comes to an end? some might just sit and admire everything, some might just want to spend time with their loves one, some might want to savage the situation, some might ... He persued but it seem that his effort come to an waste at the end of the day. Not having his labtop beside him was trouble enough. Early in the morning, he woke up late, cabed to 168 busstop, then meet with traffic jam on the expressway, almost unable to loan a labtop for today's lesson, and UT. Labcoat! the will be lab! wasn't informed, laptop went service there was no access to leo! and no one actually bother to tell him, seem like everyone at his stage are moving more towards 'mind your own busniness' attitude. 'what will be the last thing ?'

md: Cloudy !

Went to Mindmax training today about the new intermediate program which is gg to start soon, whao the new activities.. seem tougher than the previous one. Kkz then took a cab down to vivo.. 18 bucks my pocket is being burn! Looking forward to sentosa training today becos of 2 reasons: cos i want to master the correct and faster techniques for surfboarding, another is her (might have a slight change to acc her home). Well but things did not turn out to be expected, i didn manage to find out the correct technique for turning, we didn end up meeting together. tmr? not meeting her i guess, i wanted to spend more time with her, but is she thinking the same way? or issit that everything is just as the past? was i expecting too much?
One person did things that have pissed me off indirectly, COCKY and proud ! so what if you win polo game in IVP so can RP win without those national players who didnt train in school? What most is that you are only compeiting againest 4 school so what if RP win the second? can you kindly stop bragging about that?! AND KINDLY show some respect to others! if you don't, don't expect others to even give a shit about you! and please shut you big braggy mounth UP! 'what the proud meet it's fall'

md: cloudy...

Bad bad day where no one will understand ? Rushing my FYP report from ytd night till today morning, what worse was that I didn manage to complete it in the morning ! after that went for bike lesson, haiz CMI.. when returning home i really fall into deep sleep on the bus.. aHh what am i doing man?! haiz didnt went for LS training today felt so bad over it ... then finally manage to finish the report! hope it's will be a good one. coming up next is POSTER! OH NO! then soon later is FYP poster Presentation... why am i such a er failure ? ... or ... Anyway i really hope that FYP 2 will be something i can start afresh with.. I promise this time round for FYP2 I will do a better job! hmm .. sometimes was wondering what you really want? friendster status remain changed .. did i expect too much ??

md:

last Friday, disappointing yet fortunate day. disappointed as i am unable to swim due to the weather where lightning could seen and thunder was heard. Sitting just right infront of the pool you will be able to see the 'shiny crakes among the dark clouds'. Then next was meeting her up in teaching her excel, at first i should be attending training for mindmax, however after much thoughts i decided to skip the training to meet her up, as it really hard for us to meet up ? Cos usually she will be working. moreover her UT is coming in less than a week time. All i want to is to be with her whenever she need me, or my help. Just simply having her by my side will be enough le. That day was the day that i felt happiness in her! the smile the laughter, everything of her . I guess I really love her alot..

today, NUS invitational LifeSaving Compeitition, as usually we left empty handed, but is a good experiences for the compeititors i guess. I cant participate as the same old reason.. I haven got my BM yet ! waited for so long.. I will have to set my mind back to training mood ! focus ! pass BM, participate in national lifesaving competition! i really hope that i will be able to go full force in the training! hope i can fully master the surf board then can win something during the national.. although chances might be slim but i do hope with my efforts, miricles will happen once again! After trg when to steamboat at marina..

the miricle 'book'!

md: ?

she reminded me to blog !:) haha.. so here i go.. today? another day which i almost late for school! argH! jus don noe y, i have been reaching school much later than usual.. buckup! where's my attitude towards learning?! haiz but i really admit defeated with the upcoming FYP report and poster.. didn't meet the standard.. I have not been performing well in my lifesaving.. my timing .. haizZ.. UT? flung.. oh forget about these past manz.. hope this kind of period will not come again.. so to prevent myself to caught in such a stress situation, is to learn from others and don't wait for last min or overconfidence. back to today.. well a day where relevnt resources are hard to find. haiz my analogy when out of point, sorry team.. but what the amazing part was the borrowing of food biotechnology book, went to search for the book with mel and ange, and luckily i found one and only.. phewW.. and this book simply covered all the past problems that we have gone through!=) next next durng lunch time, joined the aquatic team for lunch, then sabo to join the run for no reason er.. cant i still run ? guess i will need some training then. Jess brought up the inter school swimming relay.. represent SAS ? er ... but i am not fast enough.. what to do ? TRAIN HARD LA ! after school meet her wanted to go west coast to checkup whether the renovation of the beach have ended, but time past too fast, we ended up walking around causeway.. haha although it's jus walking around, it's something special! :) time time ... not enough lehz .. 'change for the better, not for the worse' 'a good bf wouldn let his ger shed tears for him..' sorry..

from dying to living !lols

md: cloudy(m), sunny (e)

Sickening ! feel so weak in the morning even until reaching school, feel like vomitting, having sore throat and headache=( took panadols slept in class until lesson start then felt better... sorry guys if u all find me so moody in the morning... anyway, in the evening i receive a new water bottle from ger =) hope i can fully recover from the sore throat which have been pestering me for about 2 weeks ? haizz

an ideal girl ?

md: cloudy?

An ideal girl? One who will not hesitate in loving and caring for him? Doing things together (cooking, sports)? putting in efforts in understand him and support him at the back? love him the way he is?

a guy with nothing.. jus plain simple but no one understand..

wat a day...

md: rainy

what a day ?! yawn, wanted to go swim in the morning but I woke up late, then rush to school hope able to make it in time to have lunch with her. then a long afternoon busy doing aquatic IG stuffs, sending out emails. Didn't get to swim today, cos the weather didnt allow us to, what to do? eat fries lorz. next thing have to do is to do proposer for morning trainings wah then aquatic trial, then AGM, OMG!! so many stuffs. some days back, jin have made me reflected on somethings, as a captain, as a person. sometimes people are not appreciative, may it be doing things for the IG, for the ger. I guess they simply don care as they might just think that it is none of their busniess. Guess now in relationship, i am in the middle of no where. when your friend sick, you worry about them, do you worry about me when i am sick ?In the past, do u love me for who i am or what i am? If you don't hhave feelings for me can you just tell me that and be cruel to me for once(at least i cn try to forget you by all means) ? can you just explain to me? or rather giving me some assurance ?Now in me, i know i still love you but I don't know wat to do. we are like serparated but together... i noe it might be a no, but i hope the answer is yes, what you always say is i don noe...

once in a blue moon week!

md: sunny with rain

Everythings come to an end at AVA as 13th of april comes by. I guess i will be missing everyone there, mr tan HL, mr leong, tutu village head, mr ong, all the aunties and uncles up there, justine, both clements and christina, thanks ms poh for all her teaching too. back to blue moon week, hahaz finally complete the sowing device, although much improvement still needed to be made, but at least i complete it in time. Next cooking, after so long not touching the knife and wok, finally i am back to the kitchen to cook and they taste not bad too :) a bayam potatoes soup with 2 dishes (fried bayam with ikan and dark sauce miced pork with egg tofu), loving the dark sauce miced pork tofu the most. didn know until that day that the vege i loves most was bayam. Folding and packing my clothes was also one of the things i seldom do, that's the reason why i am always wearing back the same similar crumped clothings. Growing chili plants at home, gonna get some soil and fertilizer (NPK) some days, don be amazed to see vegetables growing at my hse corridor. Ate pizza with AVA NP friends, thanks guys. went to TYR warehse, hmm things there wasn't really cheap but with the 30% discount, it's consider cheap ba, brought a jammer, a goggle for me and another for ger. waoh, had a great dinner today, cos ytd was my elderest bro bd ! 2 weeks didn get to see her, missin her..

LS BBQ gathering

md: breezy

whoa.. what a busy day at AVA today, whole morning taking photos for AL then whole afternoon data observation, 150 pots ... think of it, sianz. then cab down to east coast for the preparation for the life saving BBQ gathering, waH pocket burned a big big hole for this gathering manz, sian i organize de ma, so have to pay for everything first lorz, see whether others will pay back anot, hope they will ba.. well money aside, felt really happy to see everyone making their efforts coming down to this gathering, rather touched, where everyone sit and chat, take photos, play around.. thanks guys, esp long fei, jenny(young) and jin. should i train for compeititive swimming? commitment and determination.. unhappy with my dad again, sorry cant control my temper, if only you can be more responsible in the past, guess things wouldn ended up like tat but i do ask myself, why am i angry with you over such small matters? a tiger that nv know how to care for his cubs..