md: -

Interesting incident that happen on the train. There was this person sitting beside me keep on dozing to my side, my first thought was er... wth... but then later I think about it actually i did the same thing when i am very tired, I will tend to lend toward one side. Perhaps she was very tired at that point of time. then with the jer of the train this person woke up, saying sorry. I repiled 'orh' with a emotionless face.. After which the cycle just carry on and on, 'sit straight, lend toward shoulder, then lend toward forearm, then sit straight again' until the train stop at cck. my reaction was .. haiyo don care la nvm ba.

come think about the reaction, what will be the possible reaction:
- stand up, leave the sit
- tap the person shoulder, tell the person about the situation
+ bo chap, ignore the situation, just let the person be as he/ she might be too tired
- the LOL reaction, 'hey you can have my shoulder...' guy to guy might seem gay, guy to girl might seem wrong haha..

Then i was thinking, I shouldn't blame people for that... this set me ponder a question, 'what will be the best answer to show the person that you have really accepted his/her apology?', to me i think the best answer to it is simply a genuine 'smile' from the bottom of your heart. :)

mind set to training, last competition, all I hope is just to participate for still water relay (fin) and open water surfing. Gonna get serious .. concentration . 100% for each training = more then 100% in competition.

md: -

hmm today ?? Felt relieve.. cos able to complete the task of bringing a kid name zhong ping into water haha, also they were able to perform relatively ok for the task today. taking private classes feel way different as compared to Childcare classes.

Nxt nxt while makaning fried rice at the coffee shop near teddy bear, suddenly i wonder that it will be SoooOOo good if we get to choose the ingredients we want in the fried rice like yong toufu pattern.

MTG, last lesson for Justin and Shuen Wei.. Ok now all the 'problematic' kids have left. They are just like challenges for me to overcome. Behavior, slow learning pace, low attention span... Although J have been a 'disrupt' to the class, I hope that he will continue the program, and see the improvement in him. I do understand that not all teachers/ trainers will want him to continue the program as they see the 'disability,'ADHD' as something uncurable or someone in the 'group' which shouldn't be include in this program, but i strongly think otherwise. Kids in the class might not understand his situation, but we as a trainer should...

Really hope that i can join 50m finning.. concentration, determination..

md: -

Thursday was an hell day after so many years.. whole body aching, head also ache haiz .. thanks tiny for 'nagging' me to take panadols.. it was a long time ago since my last 'heavyhead'. nv want the tupid feeling again. then come into my mind, what could be the root cause to it? think think ..

Finally reaching a almost complete point on the project, although it's not a really 'BIG' project afterall. But there's the sense of satisfaction when things are being done properly and have some praise comes along with it. There will be some carry on stuffs to do, e.g. changing the amount of boxes on card, also purchasing of stock up gift from aunty pauline.

tomorrow ? busy day at north... SLI admiralty till 10am then WL mtg from 1130am to 315pm..

People might ask, why do you work without knowing how much you are being paid? It will just be a word answer 'experiences'.

somethings, sometimes there were other factors to consider rather than just being practical about pay and salaries. Yes, people do work for money. But never be blinded by $$. Cause it might result in losing more precious things in life..

md: -

nothing much today...

- went down to Admiralty cc to discuss about the reward program
- Dry trg with BB team, gary lorz
- leg don't listen, she don't wait
- got a small penknife cut on middle left finger

words out from my mouth is just nonsense, unreliable? other ppl words is always more 'trustable' .... why??

________-_________-__

'yi ming, er yun, san feng shui'

md: :)

simple + happy DAY :)

bom bom bOM

md: L

Bomb + bOmb + boMb = BOMB !

a) very unhappy with the changes over at TNT side, timing shift change from 8pm - 8am then 6pm - 6am NOW 12pm to 8pm... wtf you guys changes like no body business, what can i say ? U guys are just SUCKS at planning and management ! Don recruit people if u guys gg to change things like this bloody hell!

b) becos of SLI trg, took a cab down, earn lesser , pocket burn bIG big hole ... nvm at least learn alot in the trg - case close -

c) receive a call from Te (the **&$%^&) TNT, asking me is it possible to work 6 days a week with the timing of 12pm - 8pm ... If i agree to U , I will have to give up coaching DUMBASS, cant you use your brain to think why people choose night shift job ?! it's either they dont wan to work in the day or they got things occupied in the day la.. please please use more brains la.. KNS..

d) unhappy + tired & unhappy = unable to function properly = more unhappy , guess i am partly to be blame for that .. sorry :(

nevertheless there are also things that have perk me up during some point of the day...
tiny pig msg and surprise :) thankie

md: -

Responsible is the word which have made life so complicated, things would have been much simple if choice were made according to personal benefits. Being responsible is one of the principles that i will stick to for life, cos this is the way i choose to...

so much things cork up, over at TNT side, timing changes and there were lots of other changes. changes come even before i can settle down with the present one.. v soon there will be more decisions ...

CBR 150 vs Pulsar 180
which one will be a better choice ??
hmm
fuel saving: P
design: same same but CBR don look good with a box attached to it
power: C
spare part avaliable: think C
machine price: C will be cheaper...

HMMmmMmmm ....

md: -

wah wah wah !! think my lungs will turn black as time passes over there :( keeping taking in 2nd hand smoke.. haiz .. muscle slacking also , keep giving myself excuses not to train in the morning, 'aiyo do it tmr la, today tired' haha tml tml and tml haven come, mus be more discipline !buck buck UP! thanks tiny for the snacks in the lunch box!:D

don think i coach well, sort of demoralised, guess need use my brain juice to think how to make things better. Hope to earn enough to get a bike for myself, more convenient and save transportation fees.

okok that's for past few days,

today, learn alot of things from nataniel, the training is fulfilling, although i was quite reluctant to get into the water with the sch trunk.. I am consider unlucky not able to have a swim coach when i was young, somehow or rather, i am consider lucky being able to swim now and getting BM. how i wish there were people out there teaching me the proper swimming techniques.

thanks tiny pig for the lunch at Eunos :)

tmr will be starting work earlier at 12pm, hope that there will not be much changes.

md:

TNT HR <-> job agency .. cork up! ...

now there are so many problems.. haiz .. working days, pay system ... haiyo wth lah ...

....

md:

- bad working experience, with those Mals.

- received enlistment letter, gg in on 09 Oct, 1030.

md: high .. lo

yes! i have finally found a job which fitted in perfectly into my time slot. which means it wouldn't affect my coaching much at all, as the job

location: Loyang
night shift time slot: 8pm to 8am. (4days/ week)

this job was found through Mansfield agency, which i think is far more professional as compare to recruit express just by looking at the way they handle things.

BUT certainly there will be some sacrifices in the future, might not be able to attend trainings, might not be able to acc her, might not .... might not ... :(

'life's just like a chess game, every step u take will affect the way you are gg to continue , there's no turning back'

md: - wed: oreo cheese cake was great! :D












--.. changing changing, playing different role in life might not be easy, but it is also not as difficult as you think. me? my role, as a trainer, as a coach, as a student, as a friend ... ... Different role require different shift in 'faces'. sound complicated.. trying my best to put these thoughts out into word. 'how well can you play these different role in life?', they requires different qualities, different purpose.. 'know my role and play it well'

..--..
Went cycling with butt zy, awWWww it's all the way to NYP, 'to there trip' : from bedok south - old tamp road - hg - amk - yck - NYP | 'come back trip': NYP - yck - amk - serangoon - paya lebar - kebangan - bedok south| which trip is longer and more hedious? haha it's the to there part which took us 2 hours and 23km. coming back only took 1hr and 15 mins with a distance of 16 or 17 km.. forgotten. went exploring NYP CCAs, canteen ... CCAs there were similar to those we have in RP.

food we had last week at bedok market .











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md: shower

don wan to put those things into memories corner . . .

' superficial' + internal froze , i cant change it ...

can i say something ??

md: SunShine

whOOo whole morning + afternoon at home ... not rotting at home, but doing some minor housework + resume. something that i am proud of today : I HAVE FINALLY COMPLETE WRITING MY RESUME after soOoooooOOoo long.

TINY's happy today toO! cos she manage to hit on the dot for her problem statement + compliments from her faci ! great job :)!

There were so much changes, misses the school days where things are so 'schduled' or routine i would say.. currently working as freelance at MTG and SLI, hmm things are so unpredictable, changes every weeks ... Looking for part time jobs in healthcare industry, hope to gain more experience, pay doesn matter ... If manage to find one more stable part time, will consider sending in 'resign letter' in MTG side.

Reason for quiting at MTG side: after the 'reshuffle' button being press, lots of things changes, classes change, lesser classes as most goes to the new full timer. feel like not needed there.. So why not press the 'go' button ourself before them? haha JG should understand this para the most la uh ..

md: nil

Collected private O cert at MOE ... then went around searching for nice egg tarts with CH ( cos he wanna buy ....... ). It seem that most of us have realize the importance of saving now.At the time we reach upper secondary, we have being given the privilege to control 'our own financial' independently, whereas most of us have made a very big mistake by spending extravagantly.. from there we learn from our mistakes as we grow ... part and parcel of life ...

Bus home, I would say there are so much coincidence on the trip back home, saw MF on bus 12 and then HL when alighting bus 12 to change for bus 28 ...

hope to be enlisted as soon as possible ...

- END -

md: -

Trg @ SLI, gaining more knowledge about coaching babies in pool.
Some phrase: 5 sense sitmulation, short simple words, gaining independent in water.
So what do Singapore's parents hope to see or achieve when sending their baby for swimming lesson? wonder wonder .. thinking at different perspective .. parents with swimming experience, parents without swimming knowledge? If ... what will i want to see ?

last day taking my monday class @ mindmax, cos they just employed a new full timer at WL, so she will be taking over my mon class ... hmm yup will miss them, those kids...

uploaded selected photos for Cambodia trip @ http://wavekai.spaces.live.com/photos/cns!A51C9A78E2AEE06!676/
:D

md: cloudy

- ups and downs just like roller coaster...

- A feeling that sensed like the past, as if history gg to happen again ...

- life's a mess now ... time management gone haywire ...

- gonna uploads photos soon when have time...

md: :)



first time having rash at Cambodia which have spread or 'transfer' to other part of the body...
itch itch + swollen little red bums ...

palm skins peeling off

doc say allergy reaction ...

PANCAKES!! =D














mickey --> many mickeys --> teddy on bed

trg as usual .. felt that i am not moving in water ... aWww hate this feeling...

met one of the student's parent, she want to change his class as he is having alot of activities on mon but he want to stay in my class ...

md:

it has been almost 1 week...

Coming back, it's a mixed feelings, happy + sad, looking forward to + hoping time to freeze ...

Gg there surely need some times to adapt to it, away from family, tiny, friends, students in sg ++++ ALSO THE SWIMMING POOL, sort of missing it too. Beside building eco garden for CCAMH (centre for children and adolescent mental health), there was also the exploration of the culture over there and 'shopping' + bargaining skill.

my duty, beside building eco garden was to stop bleeding for people. Guess i am one of those who have created 'bio hazard' waste haha...

experiences there was fruitful:
- building the eco garden was not an easy task at all, the land, the people, the plan.
- everyday there will always be at least one problem arises.

our planning was too superficial. On another hand, the Dr Samba (the person incharge) was someone who look into details, every minor detail. guess we take things too lightly as we are not gg to be the one maintaining the garden and looking at it in the future, just there to built and go. this was the wrong mentality to started off with, where many people in the team were pissed off with the Dr comments and requests, (rework, redo, undo). some were on the edge of giving up when facing the 'fussy client'.

Some said they should appreciate us for helping them to build, still ask for so much more... some think that they just want the hospital to look good, since we are given a opportunity to do it, we have to do it well. we are actually the ones who will benefit more, the learning , the experiences. People there are able to build much better then we students from sg.

thanks for the help they provided, if not we will not be able to complete the project. reason being, none of us have knowledge or experience about building. removing dead trees, grass, leveling of land, marking of layout, changing of plans, digging holes, putting bricks, putting tiles, cementing, planting.... finally we completed something that most of us are proud of ! :)

misses the kids there, donald duck, mickey mouse, peeing king, piong piong, benja, ueni...



<- benja :)








in this trip, i would say that there are more happy memories then unhappy ones.
the life there was slow and simple...

Back to singapore, back to those rushing and complicated life... so much things(problems, unhappiness) have happened back here in the 2 weeks while i was away.

times files... today, another student finished his 25th lesson... very soon, there will be 3 more student completing... enjoy teaching them, even though some were rather mischievous. the best thing was hearing improvement in the students, esp justin who have improved in his daily life as stated from his father. hope one day this boy will really understand the efforts his parents put in for him in order to make him a 'normal' boy...

hope that i will be able to be enrol into local Uni...

hope everything is just simple and real ....

nothing is constant except changes...

sometimes i am really too sensitive .. sorry:(