nowcast: fear/ anxious

less than 2 days to open water comp.. 2 Js also in surfing .. hope things will turn out fine, scare like last year, lost in the event that i train hard in .. try my best .. no regrets ..

competitions where there is no timings to gauge.. only you urself knows that have u done your best ... where ur competitors are ur guideline...

nowcast: slight inner drizzle

Choice is made. I guess is for the better.. nv regret for the feelings and things done.. thanks for everything in the past, tiny.. Although there were ups and downs, I have choose to rem the ups and forget the downs.. when u are down do rem 2 look for me, ll be there always.. tata ..

Meet Kelvin Tan today on MRT while i was on my way to BL, hahaa all fate, if i didn't giv up my sit he wldn saw me .. he is my microB faci when i was in year2, a great faci who guide us correctly and tried to grade according to fairness. But i guess to alot people there were dislikes toward him. He spend 3 yrs in SP, 4 yrs in NUS studying science but afterall now he ended up in a 'insurance/ finacial advisor' kum part time RP faci. Wonder wonder.. If i keep on persuing my dream career/ ambition, it will certainly be a very long journey.. and thinking of 'finicial returns' for the career , i am stuck and lost ... will pharma industry boom in the future, other alternatives to benefit the society?

nowcast: stone

tick tock tick tock .. counting down towards 9 Oct where another 'restart button' will be press in life.. Cant wait to go into tekong, not because the army life inside, rather it just the thoughts that i 'faster go in faster come out'. Times now are like 'meaningless' to me, although carefree but there's no duties, no goals, no directions..

Sometimes when we take a step back and ask ourselve questions on why are we doing certain things, we cant find any answer to it. Sometimes when we ask, we might find that these actions are unnecessary/ meaningless, we'll stop. Sometimes when we didn bother to think about it, we'll just continue doing it... If there is a practical person, he/she will keep questionings/ thinking about things they should do/not. If there is a emotional person, he/she will just do things based on his/her intuition. If there is a simple person, he/ she will just do things without much thoughts, no matter is it a right or wrong thing. When facing works, studies, practicality/ feelings. When facing relationships with people, feelings over practicality. But what if things were another way round ?

Everyones have their childhood dreams, but as we grow older, some dreams will just get drifted further and further away.. for some alternative routes were taken.. soon people realise what they really want in life ...

Soon compeititions will be over, no more team trainings.. no more routine or responsibility to attend trainings regularly.. Guess after 6 & 7 of Sep, most likely will not see you guys again, will really miss the times with you guys..my memories written 'IN RP LIFESAVING TEAM' ..

nowcast: nothing ..

I felt stone stone de .. i know i know .. but still .. i ask myself ..

Trainings is still not enough for me ... i need more trainings to boost .. sian .. last beach trg tmr .. damn !

weather: dwn

it's really scary... But i guess there's nothing more i can do... I feel hopeless. Not knowing what happened, what are the problems, what are the solutions to it...All I hope for is just to create more simple happy memories for the rest of the 1 and the 1/2 mth ... I dont mind the bites, the smacks, the piggy backs ... all i hope is ...

Feeling dwn... just simply didn want to concentrate on other things .. obstacle swim timing back to square one .. no improvement but 'deprovement' ... comp ? forget about it ...

complains comes again, don't understand that why she keep having prejudice against her own daughter. Why did you cover your mind with her 'bads' but not her 'goods' ?? if this carry on, with such a mindset, you will only make the fortune telling come true, so will you really be happy with that? ....

weather: worries

things ok ? accident? something happen? emo? avoidance? what is it?? unease ... I cant say too much cos there's no one right for me to turn to ..

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how i hope i can take part for this year taplin relay.. Reason is because there's a chance of getting into final .. it's only when the players of team B are being tap into their area of strength .. luck ..

Focus .. get it done for once ..

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md: -

what is love to you? issit something which can only be experience with the very special person or issit something that can be experience with anybody out there? Do love experience exist ? having more relationship more different people will gain more experience? So it means that flirting will be the better choice instead of being faithful to one...

But to me there will always be a different between someone special and someone not, there will always be a line to differentiate that... I believes that special love cannot be share around, to anybody.. I learn to speak my mind cos i don't wan to hide here and there where masks is all over, speaking out the truth is important, at the very least there will be more understanding towards one another.

I guess, i feel , like right from the start, there will always be the person who will weighs more than me... no matter what i did.. how i try ..

things will still end like the past .. it's just like a cycle round and round .. dont understand, tell me why ..

wonders wonder ... what's split personality?

last day coaching little max .. ok there was sort of sad feelings.. although is just a few days of coaching ...

unhappiness, selfish thoughts ... growing up, knowing more things ... don ask me what's wrong, tell me .. i also don know .. deep in thoughts.. figuring out ..

md: -

Looking at parents around, looking at so many others around... They are really fortunate to have such a wonderful parents. Parents who will always be there for them, taking care of them.. I guess i would have grow up with a different personality with different mindset if I have such a wonderful parents...

guess tmr will be a tiring day, from 8 am- 1130am (coaching), then from 130pm-515pm (mindmax) ... nvm always live life to the fullness .. waste no time..

'pray that ur leg will recover soon' ...

md: -

thanks for the 'amour' :)

Days are boring spending times alone, when there's no one to talk to, no one to share ur success, happiness with, no one to 'pour' grumble to... sore throat, gum abrasion(don noe issit what people called wisdom tooth problem anot' ...

'nothing is constant because time is constantly ticking..'

ytd shld be a special day, today is olympic opening, tomorrow is NDP'08 ... but still i have to report to swimming pool for work for these 3 days.. no double pay also haiz .. just grumbling over here, back to work, guess having me taking the 7 days 1:1 intensive lessons for that little boy is somehow or rather 'fate' ba :).

no trg no trg no trg , haiyo!! sian..

'tick tok ... tick tok ... forgotten memories ...' do you still remember ??

md: -

'cherish and appreciate', I guess these are the two very important words that should be exist in everyone, esp to your close ones.

But sometimes people just tend to forget these 2 very simple yet important principles in life. from simple task like giving up sits on public transport for others to mum preparing dinner, did we notice that as times goes by some of us tend to take things for granted? Forget to say 2 simple words 'thank you' to the one giving up sit, forget to show that you appreciate what your mum have done for u.

Sometimes people tend to be so business minded, sometimes too 'hobbies' minded, sometimes too 'results' minded, sometimes getting too in depth into their own world sometimes, or sometimes just caring too much for themselves.. And sometimes all these different 'too much' minded result one getting more drifted away from their close ones... neglecting that times need to be spend together, care need to be given to one another, concerns need to be ask...

just as times passes, have you neglected the 2 basic yet important 'ingredients' in life? I guess i did ... never underestimate a simple smile to your friend, a simple 'thank you' to a stranger, a simple actions of appreciation to your love ones.

Nxt talking about inconsideration and irresponsible, which happen from taking public transport to simple chores at home. cant people just take up their own initiative to do things when things need to be done?

forgive and forget ... not lazy and forget ...

don't forget becos of laziness ...

md: breezy

first, AHCC classes, 3 of the student's parents inform me that they might want to stop coming after 2 more lesson, reason 'the facilities is not up to standard'. yes i do strongly agree with this and the management team of AHCC is still not doing anything about it. They ask me do i teach outside, all i said is i don't teach outside... haiz wasted.. anyway i only left with 8 more weeks to teach them which is like 8 more lesson ...

trg trg, not much of stamina trg on surfing, but much of a sprint trg by myself, i recall how i capsize during the final last year 'all becos of the slow start off'. this time round i will be more prepare, will do my v best, not just on the day itself, but on every trg also. hopefully... hard + smart work does pay off ..

md: -

Today? i guess was a bad day for me, scolding and cursing those people who are inconsiderate ... why cant this people just spare a thought for others ? well anyway, all of the unhappiness was just simply replace by her 'craziness', thanks baby PIG! :D for being there to tolerate my nonsenses and brightening my dull times up. :)

md: :)

Although Daytime was coaching and admin, but what actually happen later in the evening actually brighten up my mood. just simple fries + smile + little 'nonsense' = brighter :)

trg, finally i hit 39 in 50m, yeah ! tiny also hit her PB of 2m in her pet event :) great great :D

md: :)

my new hair style.
every first sight of it on my head will be a 'WAH, what happen to ur hair??!'

Some say nice, some say weird, some say doesn't suit me...
well something new i would say, but seriously i also don like the back part of the hairstyle, anyway just live with it lar, just for a few weeks. Hairs grow, hairs drop ...

50m Sprint, did break my PB ytd, although not as good as others but it's a shave of 3 sec of my previous PB.

50m fin, sad to say, did not even got near the PB hit during NUS comp..

dim integers as letters
u.5mi13s+'cr4zin355' = m3. h4pp7
u.3m0/qui3t= m3.54d

5h4r3

m3.10v3.Pi9

3nd.

md: cloudy

unhappy times...

- bad flu + cough + cannot speak properly
- went for a SL interview but cant speak properly due to the phlegm stuck in my throat
- worries over a no batt phone
- home early no dinner, eat together, go alone...
- uncontactable
- when things are not open to each other..
- when TV or other things is more important, just when a listening ears is needed..

bad mood days .. come to an end ...

md: -

Coaching Coaching ... then Admin Admin.. okok Nxt was the round de campus relay: Was very dissapointed with those LifeSavers who have sign up but didn turn up, which shows their sense of 'responsibility', haiz. Then was a very relax run, was panting a little and little struggle at first but after those it became a relax run i would say, not slow but there's a momentum there. whoPpeEe manage to hit my PB of 6m 07sec! great gonna aim for 5min alrd =) gonna train hard for national!

md: momo

Last day teaching those kids from PCS BB.. Gonna transfer back to Admiral as NTUC classes are resuming back to normal. This was the first class I officially took, from their first lesson to now(from the day they didn't know anything to now able to do F.kick and BF.kick) and now I have to really say good bye to all of them.. Really hate to leave them... Guess this was the result of bonding ba, not convalent bond la .. miss u kids lotsa..

nxt nxt, it was kind of disappointed to see the number of turn out for land training. This actually reflect on the team itself, where people are not really interested in training together as a team.

ok all the way back to NUS invitational last saturday, did not break my PB for 200m ob swim but did way better as compared to last year national, feel that i could have done better (train to hit 3m for this year national). Rope throw, miss on the first try, manage to get it on the 2nd try. 4x50m medley relay(fin), hit PB of 27sec, hope to hit 25sec for national.

md: -

whoO nothing much to mention, just realise that there are so many foods i want to eat at my house opp coffee shop, the $2 wanton mee, chicken noodle, chicken rice. the $2.5 fishball noodle, handmade noodle. then the western food also! goreng pisang ! It has been a very long time since i last ate them.

there was something that has really pissed me of over at boon lay int, while waiting for the bus to arena CC, and this minor incident made me think about why local detest certain group of the foreigners.

They does inconsiderate things like:
a) resting their leg on the sitting bar infront of them (for goodness sake will you want to sit on something that someone have step before, moreover you never know what they have step on beforehand.).
b) talking loudly when the person is just next to them
c) spitting on road and pavement (wth if you are spitting on the grass or drain then it might be ok) BUT you are spitting your mucus + saliva on areas that people walk on !!
d) Throwing litters everywhere (hope that you guys will kanna CWO!)
e) Not giving way to alighting passagers (next time you block my way while i am alighting don't blame me for my action)

Of cause this inconsiderate things are not just done by them, there were some local do it themselves... SO Singaporeans please be more considerate and set a good example to the foreigners in Singapore.

Next next.. met dennis at koufu today! he ran towards the drink counter and paid for my order, and that shock me.. :)

'Once my teacher, always my teacher' no matter what you have taught me, as long as you are the one that I have once acknowledge as a good teacher, you will always be .

md: -

The first LifeSaving Camp was finally held. After so much 'call off' of camps in the previous years, due to reasons... Ok the year 1 this year was 'eye' opener to me, there were people with very different culture, character, attitude.

I guess my task of 'passing down' skills of open water have been done. I see the willingness to try more, the crave to know more in most of them.

This camp wouldn be such a success without zhuang, the energizer of the team. Also the people working behind the stage, like yk, lf, adriel.

Thanks tiny pig alot for staying by my side when i having really bad fever after the return from arena ;)

another very important thing is the 'finally' change of attitude in gary after 2 year, it's a good thing i would say. Finally he understand that a IG dont survive by having good players to win compeitition, rather it survive by a group of commited people who have bonded and love the IG and willing to 'train' to improve. TEAM . teammates + commitment = existance of IG, champion - team commitment = existance of IG superficially...

'shi shi wu chang' = nothing is permenent ...

'mind over body' challenge ...

md: -

- support, complement weakness...

- not to blame but find solutions...