md: drizzy
back to work in GWP this evening, the feelings was kinda.. hmm don noe how to say, but i really miss the people there. but becos of some reason, i jus don wanna go back, as some tupid ppl might think that i need tis so desperately. ok i really hate him alot, he doesn fit to be a manager there ! ok others blackies were better except for him, at the v least they appreciate my presence. that was e past then... sound really childish rite ? haha..
back to work today, in the whole tudor ballroom, only 5 old staffs, the rest = new staffs (most from impact). ok then out of this 5, i think only 2 working. therefore in conclusion, only 4 staffs working in this ballroomm of 21 table, 2 oldies, 2 newbie. it's tat litta secret... I kept thinking of dear, suddenly recalled that the first time i noticed her was a CWD at tudor (not sure issit her first day of work at GWP anot). I just kept thinking of her, thinking and thinking back to the past.
That time we promise to get each other a present at 31st, tat time she added me in friendster, that time we went out together, the time we hold hands together, that time she bake cookies for me, the time i went to her sch jus to pass her something, the time i met her after her sec sch, the first time she hugged me, her's and mine first () at west coast... but thinking backi suddenly felt that i m just not good enuf for her.. WHY in e past i didn treasure her as much as i do now? why in the past i always tot of working, judo, lifesaving, studying and left her alone? things were good after her O levels, things change, she start to prefer living w/o me... at her friend chalet she stated break out, but we did not... the birthday celebration at PRP... she didn brought or do anything for me.. soon after, new year day, her feelings faded, we broke up.. 6 mths later we are back together, finally i knw that she hated the feeling of being neglected.. I have been trying hard, so that she will nv feel alone... but few mths after, things really changed, she broke my heart again and again, she neglect me n my feelings , nto appreciating things i did for her, why? thoughts wondering ... is that a pay back? or she got back to me becos of pity? or is it that i am just to sensitive? past .. present .. what will be the future?
just like i msg her,
fate got us together,
being together with her is a blissing,
as she called me dear i really felt happy,
when she cared for me i felt fortunate...
all these is from the bottom of my heart..
even just a single 4 letters words, i am really satisfied,
a call from her, asking me to care for me is enuff..
nowadays i didn ask for much more le..
I waited for u every night cos tat's the minimum i can do..
i really want to protect u and acc u home...
buy u e things u like...
gg the place u like ...
eating the things u like ..
but i knw i cant .. cos u wldn allow me to .. and i hv to respect ur decision ..
pls respect me too, not taking the minimum i want to do ...
u knw u r tired,
but becos of friends and shows,
u don go to bed,
when it come to me,
u will tell me that: let's talk tmr..
i really hope to share ur happiness, worries and sorrow with u, open up to me ... hao ma?
i really hope that for the sake of me, pls take gd care and protect urself. :'(
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Saturday, September 15, 2007
md: -
went to redhill to service my laptop, the screen got some prob. then to marina sq - croc shop to see shoes, ate BK don hav grilled chicken again gRrr.. saw a sec sch friend, oh someone i din know la, but got see b4 in the past, so smile lorz. back to tamp, while lining up the sam queue, caught a baby girl looking at me ! haha er i act cute lorz, she smiled =D ! swam, at tamp sc. have an sweet dinner with UD and mum, hehe v full, it has been a long time not filling my stomach totally. He's one of the person closest to me, doted me alot, if only he's my dad. ok nth is perfect.. jus that man can nv be contented or satisfied.
our distant is getting apart, she agree too.. :( i really don wan that to happen. i do noe that i still really love u, but i nv know how to do and what to do. freedom or care alot? which to choose? if now i choose freedom, i fear that i will lose her once again, and tis time rd she might nv be back. she's growing up, changing.. don noe why, i always fear tat sometings might happen to her, how i hope that i can stay by her side always and protect her. missing her alot..
went to redhill to service my laptop, the screen got some prob. then to marina sq - croc shop to see shoes, ate BK don hav grilled chicken again gRrr.. saw a sec sch friend, oh someone i din know la, but got see b4 in the past, so smile lorz. back to tamp, while lining up the sam queue, caught a baby girl looking at me ! haha er i act cute lorz, she smiled =D ! swam, at tamp sc. have an sweet dinner with UD and mum, hehe v full, it has been a long time not filling my stomach totally. He's one of the person closest to me, doted me alot, if only he's my dad. ok nth is perfect.. jus that man can nv be contented or satisfied.
our distant is getting apart, she agree too.. :( i really don wan that to happen. i do noe that i still really love u, but i nv know how to do and what to do. freedom or care alot? which to choose? if now i choose freedom, i fear that i will lose her once again, and tis time rd she might nv be back. she's growing up, changing.. don noe why, i always fear tat sometings might happen to her, how i hope that i can stay by her side always and protect her. missing her alot..
Thursday, September 13, 2007
md: -
e 7H chalet
played the positioning game ! lol haha paired up with shaun vs mel and sher. rOar! first to be out was sher then follow by shuan just abit more to own mel ! haha anyway we won! hehe.. nxt nxt i late in the night after BBQ,played indian poker and zhong ji mi ma, where e peach volka was out. sOon, sophia was dwn, thn followed by shuan, then sue, and JG + Fel. mel me and sue bf was er still can make it one, haha but there is one person who was clear in the mind which is sher! anyway through this night there were joys as well as tears.
Almost the whole night we were taking care of those who had bOooM... As most falled aslp, e capriconus n sher went out sitting ard the reception sit, chatting abt some r/s stuffs. out of the sudden, we saw a lady walking by the POOL! er.. sound scary, haha and the person turn out to be OO phia, at 1st sher was saying that it's nt phia... cos her legs not so thin leh! OMG LOL. scare us la tot wat happen to her suddenly out of the rm, wanderin, when she shld be slping.
there was a saying:' always look at the bright side of life', but when things really happen, how sld one really handle it? it's easy to say but it nv easy to face the facts, where the bonds is as thick as blood..
not to live for the past, but for the future.
rem e joys, but not e sorrows.
no one is alone in life, unless u tell urself that. feel... look... everyone ard u.. may it be family or friends or some1. they do care. But in the 1st place hav u gave others a chance to enter ur life ? hav u treasure and care for others ard u? in fact me myself didn does all of tat. haha
In fact some people tend to neglect people who are closer and cared about them as time passes. Some became more materialistic, some became too proud, some care more for other things (friends, work, sports, self, school, blah blah..). everyone is different.
there's alwaz a hidden side which not be seen.
It's morning, most went to swam, leaving some who did not really slept e night b4. afternoon? sort of combined with breakfast. then went to arcade, wooO played e basetball game, everyone was paired up, i was with mel, and here's the final result,hehe.. sort of amazed by that. although it 's the one at the right but not e left de.. haha
then some went cycling, some went majonging. found horses in pasir ris park, wow nv knew that. then to the trapezium. the love birds was in their own world haha.. me and mel was then left talking just like those good old buddy...
dinner, some foodcourt, some kfc and some BK. WOW hhaha after so many rounds losing, finally some win with mel. yeah! cos all e rest majong pro, only me and her majong noob so we tag team lorz.. haha nxt the most impt part ! it's SHUAN birthday! haha looking at him doing those funny moves which requested. wow, cake waR! haha the first who was attacked was JG n fel i think, while sher, sue went hiddin on top, me, mel and phia went hidding outside.. haha argH wasn't got caught at first but was sabo by my own 'teammates' !! haha oO lips was cutted by my own teeths as shuan accidentally knee on me, even now still can feel e pain in the lips while eatin. anyway.. it a fun night! :) ... missing her
didn manage to catch the sunrise in the morning cause too tired..
misses 7H .. u guys rocks .. thanks ! :D
Sunday, September 09, 2007
md: .. ..
sat 8/9
went to NUS mass swim, i think that peg(trg bud), ws and vonn have did really well, esp vonn. This is because they are trying so hard to achieve the 100 laps, although vonn didn make it in time, but i think that she has put in the most effort in this swim. People who can swim well, really well, such 100 or 150 laps is within their reach, it's up to them whether they want to spend the time, but there are also people who have to really put in double or triple efforts to achieve the same task. I admire those people, their mentality, the never give up attitude. When i look at them, i see myself back in the past, at SP charity swim in 2006. Me that time = vonn now. That was the first time i break my own amount of laps in freestyle, the process was indeed very long but after everything like wat trg buddy always say, the sense of satisfaction after... .
Thinking back, I joined LS without knowing freestyle at all, struggling was a certain during the swim, but that time i was realy good in breaststroke, haha thinking back, *laugh*. you will always see me panting the most after freestyle and always i will be the last swimming behind with alvin! haha the 'bumper boat team!'.
To vonn and trg buddy: the process might seem really really slow or long , the feeling of swimming behind others might be really 'SIAN NA', but the goal is achievable, swimming well like every others, that's why we need to train double, to catch up, it's worthwhile:) and most imptly you all are moving towards it, you guys are improving !:D
went to botak jon at clem ! CAJUN CHICKEN, i loves it !
sun 9/9
saded, really saded... pondering after i wakey, in the bus.. what am I doing, talking? still i have let jealousy came into me, and it's so much, why do i care soO much? wat will be the future btw us? fate brought us tgt...
Classes today, hmm all the students seem so bored, i see i sad also larz, what kinda trainer is me man?! I cant control students and my langauge ability is really a huge barrel for me to overcome, english!
ate noodles Oo somehow bored about it, but no choice larz, in the future have to eat more.. cos bo bian..
sat 8/9
went to NUS mass swim, i think that peg(trg bud), ws and vonn have did really well, esp vonn. This is because they are trying so hard to achieve the 100 laps, although vonn didn make it in time, but i think that she has put in the most effort in this swim. People who can swim well, really well, such 100 or 150 laps is within their reach, it's up to them whether they want to spend the time, but there are also people who have to really put in double or triple efforts to achieve the same task. I admire those people, their mentality, the never give up attitude. When i look at them, i see myself back in the past, at SP charity swim in 2006. Me that time = vonn now. That was the first time i break my own amount of laps in freestyle, the process was indeed very long but after everything like wat trg buddy always say, the sense of satisfaction after... .
Thinking back, I joined LS without knowing freestyle at all, struggling was a certain during the swim, but that time i was realy good in breaststroke, haha thinking back, *laugh*. you will always see me panting the most after freestyle and always i will be the last swimming behind with alvin! haha the 'bumper boat team!'.
To vonn and trg buddy: the process might seem really really slow or long , the feeling of swimming behind others might be really 'SIAN NA', but the goal is achievable, swimming well like every others, that's why we need to train double, to catch up, it's worthwhile:) and most imptly you all are moving towards it, you guys are improving !:D
went to botak jon at clem ! CAJUN CHICKEN, i loves it !
sun 9/9
saded, really saded... pondering after i wakey, in the bus.. what am I doing, talking? still i have let jealousy came into me, and it's so much, why do i care soO much? wat will be the future btw us? fate brought us tgt...
Classes today, hmm all the students seem so bored, i see i sad also larz, what kinda trainer is me man?! I cant control students and my langauge ability is really a huge barrel for me to overcome, english!
ate noodles Oo somehow bored about it, but no choice larz, in the future have to eat more.. cos bo bian..
Saturday, September 08, 2007
Friday, September 07, 2007
md: .. ..
Oo met her, walked ard far east with ange, bugis brought one of the shorts she wanted, ate noodles (her fav soya sauce type). Something that has really disappoint me at the point of time when her friend called, she just simple say ok immediately without much thoughts.. am i so unimportant? .. is spending times together such a hard thing? I waited for the once in the week, her friends just a phone call and she will be there.. haiz Tot and tots, when she's with her friends she's happy, why not? DON BE SELFISH YI KAI! dumbass.(maybe she don enjoy e time with u?) ya then he made another dumb choice again! wait for her and send her home,1. he jus want to do his part as a bf (where most of the time he cldn becos of dist and sometimes her?), 2. he don wan her to always go home so late, moreover she got work tmr:( . but she want to spend time with her friends... ya he somehow felt bad about it after that (but he really care for her, worry about her health, her mood everything.. haiz) . sometimes, he really felt like ... but love her.. should guys like him worth to be loved, mayb not? physical appearance = lousy! (skinny, bony, curly hair, small eyes), Mentality in relationship = bad (always thinking too much... ). Another bad thing = low confidence level?
' when promises are broken, it broke too'
relation SHIP, requires 2 to board,
sailing long and far requires commitment, faithfulness and some others qualities,
even when both boarded,
only one is trying to fulfill the qualities,
the ship will still eventually sink...
qualities when both fulfilled,
the ship will sailed through storms and rains,
surfing along the wave towards the everlasting horizon...
The Ninth Wave by:Ivan Konstantinovich Aivazovsky (1850)
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
md: .. ..
yawn! sO unmotivated to get off the bed and start the day.. hmm afternoon went trg at the gym with my trg buddy peg, Oo jin was late AND she forgot to bring her shoes, others couldn make it for some reason. felt so weak, lifting weight seem to be an easy task in the past, but not today. went swimming.. dragging my body over the water.. haiz I am getting lazy.. thinking of setting up some BM training for people who have BM to maintain the stamina and techniques, but anyway, I felt that i am drifting further off the IG, esp after the dissapointment from the aquatic carnival, i mean is like we have put in efforts and at the very end OSG! those $%^&*, just said no aquatic IG is just an IG, Let sport club run the show, then why not u tell us in the first place GARY!, why waste our time? As aquatic IG go further, there will be no room for normal swimmers i guess, well it's all for competition, the joy, fun and laughter will be gone..
nxt went to took the wl centre key, but ended up running around causeway and wl c. ... haizZ from 730 to 830.. waiting and running around..
'all i want is not sorry, but promise and action that things will not happen again... ' imagination just run through my mind, flashing again and again, the scene of having fun poking each other... :(' can I give you happiness?..hope u can prioritizes study infront.. I hope to spend time study with u .. I guess I have become a man with v little ego, is it a good or bad thing? 'do couples understand each other more or get closer when they do/ accomplish things together?'
faster get a bike, so dist wldn be a prob anymore, OooOOoo can send her to sch, to work, everythings will just be better OOoooOOOoo dreaming idiot...
upcoming taskSs:save $$ for bike, complete PP poster, FYP 2 report and poster, study harder !
yawn! sO unmotivated to get off the bed and start the day.. hmm afternoon went trg at the gym with my trg buddy peg, Oo jin was late AND she forgot to bring her shoes, others couldn make it for some reason. felt so weak, lifting weight seem to be an easy task in the past, but not today. went swimming.. dragging my body over the water.. haiz I am getting lazy.. thinking of setting up some BM training for people who have BM to maintain the stamina and techniques, but anyway, I felt that i am drifting further off the IG, esp after the dissapointment from the aquatic carnival, i mean is like we have put in efforts and at the very end OSG! those $%^&*, just said no aquatic IG is just an IG, Let sport club run the show, then why not u tell us in the first place GARY!, why waste our time? As aquatic IG go further, there will be no room for normal swimmers i guess, well it's all for competition, the joy, fun and laughter will be gone..
nxt went to took the wl centre key, but ended up running around causeway and wl c. ... haizZ from 730 to 830.. waiting and running around..
'all i want is not sorry, but promise and action that things will not happen again... ' imagination just run through my mind, flashing again and again, the scene of having fun poking each other... :(' can I give you happiness?..hope u can prioritizes study infront.. I hope to spend time study with u .. I guess I have become a man with v little ego, is it a good or bad thing? 'do couples understand each other more or get closer when they do/ accomplish things together?'
faster get a bike, so dist wldn be a prob anymore, OooOOoo can send her to sch, to work, everythings will just be better OOoooOOOoo dreaming idiot...
upcoming taskSs:save $$ for bike, complete PP poster, FYP 2 report and poster, study harder !
Sunday, September 02, 2007
md: nil
Thurs 30th Sep
It's a special day! cos i passed my TP test for bike !hurray! the process of waiting the start of the test, during the test and after the test was scary. it's the waiting part .. wOo but it's over !
but .. happiness gone .. after knowing not being able to celebrate with her :( She's the first i called, right after the result. Anyway it has been a long time ever since i eat alone le :)
Sat 1st Sep
Ah ben PSed me cos his eye pain.. went to suntec IT fair alone, to get stuff.. thanks wallace! for always willing to share the things i wanted to know about IT.
Sun 2nd Sep
She went to work without slping much ytd night.. :( went work.. thinking how to improve my teaching method.. waiting for her call.. worrying :(
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
md: Breezy
sun 26/08
LifeSaving Championship 2007
RP got into 6 finals, men board paddling (Kay Thiam), women board paddling (Pei Lee), men board surfing (me), women relay event, iron woman (jess), beach flag (Pei Lee). Got 1 gold women board paddling and 1 silver in beach flag, all thanks to pei lee! =)
about the event wise, it is totally cork up, the events was badly delayed due to ...
total bruise accumulate that day = 4.
Mon 27/08
great day with her =) Fried things she liked, woah it has been a long long time ever since i touch the frying pan, but not bad haha still as skilled as be4 (rite dear?).
Tues 28/08
PP reporting the whole day.. hope to be mention in ur .... :(
sun 26/08
LifeSaving Championship 2007
RP got into 6 finals, men board paddling (Kay Thiam), women board paddling (Pei Lee), men board surfing (me), women relay event, iron woman (jess), beach flag (Pei Lee). Got 1 gold women board paddling and 1 silver in beach flag, all thanks to pei lee! =)
about the event wise, it is totally cork up, the events was badly delayed due to ...
total bruise accumulate that day = 4.
Mon 27/08
great day with her =) Fried things she liked, woah it has been a long long time ever since i touch the frying pan, but not bad haha still as skilled as be4 (rite dear?).
Tues 28/08
PP reporting the whole day.. hope to be mention in ur .... :(
Saturday, August 25, 2007
md: dwn
'ni hen fan lehz, yi zi shuo yi yang de hua bu sian mehz?' ..
how to care,
how to love,
you..
patience ...
endurance ...
not e happiness,
it's always so hard,
to make ur smiles,
hear ur laughters,
cant be the one ...
out with others,
they are able to..
felt like a burden,
to her happiness,
her future..
Fate? Destiny ?
choose to stay by her..
always hope that things can be back to the very first..
Eng oral, out with ben and CH for BB ...
'ni hen fan lehz, yi zi shuo yi yang de hua bu sian mehz?' ..
how to care,
how to love,
you..
patience ...
endurance ...
not e happiness,
it's always so hard,
to make ur smiles,
hear ur laughters,
cant be the one ...
out with others,
they are able to..
felt like a burden,
to her happiness,
her future..
Fate? Destiny ?
choose to stay by her..
always hope that things can be back to the very first..
Eng oral, out with ben and CH for BB ...
Thursday, August 23, 2007
md: raining
It was raining heavily just now at woodland, it's getting late, her hp is off cos low batt... wonder how is she now...
MTG ...
Took a class of 8 with alysa.. thanks to her, I am not dead handling so many kids (4-6), with 2 very young ones. the rest were fine, they were very motivated in what they need to do. :)
As compared to others trainers i think i am the worse trainer of all ba.. -ve thoughts.. have to think in the direction of how to help the kids improve ! get gg! guess she will have some hard time drying her shoes... hahas pai sei..
that feeling ...
broke it again,
was it,
unknowingly,
purposely,
'cannot be botherly',
or
was it just an misunderstanding?
waiting ...
waiting ...
faster vibrate phone !
Just a few mins of being together,
having lunch,
even just having some snacks,
i am satisfied.
This 'few mins' hope,
has always been hard to fulfill,
was it really so hard,
or was it cant be bother...
care more,
bother more,
will you?
'hope the ray of shine will be back again'
ORAL TMR .. DEAD ! haiz
It was raining heavily just now at woodland, it's getting late, her hp is off cos low batt... wonder how is she now...
MTG ...
Took a class of 8 with alysa.. thanks to her, I am not dead handling so many kids (4-6), with 2 very young ones. the rest were fine, they were very motivated in what they need to do. :)
As compared to others trainers i think i am the worse trainer of all ba.. -ve thoughts.. have to think in the direction of how to help the kids improve ! get gg! guess she will have some hard time drying her shoes... hahas pai sei..
that feeling ...
broke it again,
was it,
unknowingly,
purposely,
'cannot be botherly',
or
was it just an misunderstanding?
waiting ...
waiting ...
faster vibrate phone !
Just a few mins of being together,
having lunch,
even just having some snacks,
i am satisfied.
This 'few mins' hope,
has always been hard to fulfill,
was it really so hard,
or was it cant be bother...
care more,
bother more,
will you?
'hope the ray of shine will be back again'
ORAL TMR .. DEAD ! haiz
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
210807
md: sunny
- collect back my lappiz
- a cute litta girl tapped my knee and smile at me
- trg
- study with her :)
- collect back my lappiz
- a cute litta girl tapped my knee and smile at me
- trg
- study with her :)
17th & 18th aug
md: breezy
Won 2nd for bi-lite ind catergory unexpectedly! Beep! Everyone arnd seem to be swimming so fast,while me, still maintaining the slow pace swim. filp! 1 lap done, there was a guy ran out of energy in the first lap after his start sprint, soon there was another having cramp... 1.. 2.. 3.. .. 6 finally out of the pool, which was at the 3rd last position.. haiz ..Rushed to the transition area, which unluckily, mine was located at the furthest corner. I heard people cheering one of them is jess and the little monster i think, faster ! Down the slope i was pacing glenn then slowly overtook some of them then jereome at the bus stop, no sight of mattew, not even at the far end corner, he was fast. While reaching the finishing line, i heard cheers all around, even from the loudspeaker. Thanks everyone =) people in the team like yk, LF, jin, jess, adriel, ZW (ah pek breakfast! haha), also the hardcore trg team vonn, peg, matt and the rest. many things happen during this event, WS have her 'thing' which resulting to inconvinence but nevertheless she completed her event :) YK too ran after a butt fall and with his muscle ache :) the never die spirit ! hey people! 'I really loves you guys as the team' :)
met her up after the event:) shared with her my joy. To her: I will always want to treat you the best i can, hahas if i treated you badly any point of time mus complain to me kies ? hehe luv u
18/8
Late ! met peg, jess, adriel and jin for the op open water trg. Jess is having some family problem regarding to the commitment to the IG. really hope that her parents will understand her, hope you wldn step down so soon. SLOW reaction time! not SMOOTH enough! not FAR enough! not FAST enough! aWWwww, these were the things for beach trg. went to hawker after trg, talk alot with litta monster. tired.. craving for popcorns .. slurpPp ! currently listening to S.N.E.S album, the musics i love.
' Habits, they make you or break you' - Sean Convey
Won 2nd for bi-lite ind catergory unexpectedly! Beep! Everyone arnd seem to be swimming so fast,while me, still maintaining the slow pace swim. filp! 1 lap done, there was a guy ran out of energy in the first lap after his start sprint, soon there was another having cramp... 1.. 2.. 3.. .. 6 finally out of the pool, which was at the 3rd last position.. haiz ..Rushed to the transition area, which unluckily, mine was located at the furthest corner. I heard people cheering one of them is jess and the little monster i think, faster ! Down the slope i was pacing glenn then slowly overtook some of them then jereome at the bus stop, no sight of mattew, not even at the far end corner, he was fast. While reaching the finishing line, i heard cheers all around, even from the loudspeaker. Thanks everyone =) people in the team like yk, LF, jin, jess, adriel, ZW (ah pek breakfast! haha), also the hardcore trg team vonn, peg, matt and the rest. many things happen during this event, WS have her 'thing' which resulting to inconvinence but nevertheless she completed her event :) YK too ran after a butt fall and with his muscle ache :) the never die spirit ! hey people! 'I really loves you guys as the team' :)
met her up after the event:) shared with her my joy. To her: I will always want to treat you the best i can, hahas if i treated you badly any point of time mus complain to me kies ? hehe luv u
18/8
Late ! met peg, jess, adriel and jin for the op open water trg. Jess is having some family problem regarding to the commitment to the IG. really hope that her parents will understand her, hope you wldn step down so soon. SLOW reaction time! not SMOOTH enough! not FAR enough! not FAST enough! aWWwww, these were the things for beach trg. went to hawker after trg, talk alot with litta monster. tired.. craving for popcorns .. slurpPp ! currently listening to S.N.E.S album, the musics i love.
' Habits, they make you or break you' - Sean Convey
Sunday, August 12, 2007
md: breezy, 12/08/2007
Ytd was a great day with her :) but unable to complete watching the disturbia.
LS Still water
today ?F12A, my code.. Great.. haha after the things end, it seem like a sort of relive, no DQ. phews.. although there's no winning for us at any event this year, i belive that they can do better nxt year! =) go RP lifesaving ! also thanks everyone in the team for the encouragement :) her too(for the nice simple msg) :) nxt RP biathalon on friday... oh ya it's gary birthday ! haha he kanna sabo by his NUS lifeguard team ! LOL.
< the girls
< PYK in action
< cools in shades
< dragonfly in action
Ytd was a great day with her :) but unable to complete watching the disturbia.
LS Still water
today ?F12A, my code.. Great.. haha after the things end, it seem like a sort of relive, no DQ. phews.. although there's no winning for us at any event this year, i belive that they can do better nxt year! =) go RP lifesaving ! also thanks everyone in the team for the encouragement :) her too(for the nice simple msg) :) nxt RP biathalon on friday... oh ya it's gary birthday ! haha he kanna sabo by his NUS lifeguard team ! LOL.
< the girls
< PYK in action
< cools in shades
< dragonfly in action
Friday, August 10, 2007
feeling really dwn..
md: storm..
feelings is getting from bad to worse. every pics, every words, why is she treating me like tat ?things are not getting anywhere better.. No respect for my feelings. I have been complaining about these, can she just treat me better? removes those photos, changing the stautes, caring more to me, not treating me below her friends (esp guys friend) i felt that i am less important than any of them. Confuse, shld i jus... am i still ur ? UT later, comp sun..
feelings is getting from bad to worse. every pics, every words, why is she treating me like tat ?things are not getting anywhere better.. No respect for my feelings. I have been complaining about these, can she just treat me better? removes those photos, changing the stautes, caring more to me, not treating me below her friends (esp guys friend) i felt that i am less important than any of them. Confuse, shld i jus... am i still ur ? UT later, comp sun..
Thursday, August 09, 2007
md: breezy
er.. today ? IT'S NATIONAL DAY! It has been 4 years le. where 4 years ago, i was part of the NPCC contingent in NDP. I will nv forget that =) For my experiences there (the jokes (hardcore pants), foods.. ) , my friends there which endure the hardship together (the hardcore gang). Years passes and ya lotsa things have happened and changed.
Today, hmm went k lunch with ben and ming, Oo then when to watch secret by Jay Zhou. IMPRESSIVE! not only a singer, a composer, a actor he is also a director ! Nice show which required quite some thinking to find the show very interesting. Touching and nice! grading 8 of 10. somehow lost in my own world(treasure the ones), after watching the show. Then went to ah ben house, ben and ming kept talking about their TKD stuffs, which made me think back about JUDO, i really miss JUDO, the training, the feelings. but ... it's not possible anymore.
nxt nxt I will clock my personal best tmr, and beat my PB on sunday comp! I know i cant beat others, but this will be a challenge to myself ! to improve ! I know i have been demoralise cos i cant win others but that's isn't an issue to me anymore, cos i am there to experience and improve, may it be my first and last compeitition. :(
How shld i handle relationship? my morale to this relationship have decrease due to the past few days, few week, the insecurity, the action... hope it will be fine, hope i will not give up.
er.. today ? IT'S NATIONAL DAY! It has been 4 years le. where 4 years ago, i was part of the NPCC contingent in NDP. I will nv forget that =) For my experiences there (the jokes (hardcore pants), foods.. ) , my friends there which endure the hardship together (the hardcore gang). Years passes and ya lotsa things have happened and changed.
Today, hmm went k lunch with ben and ming, Oo then when to watch secret by Jay Zhou. IMPRESSIVE! not only a singer, a composer, a actor he is also a director ! Nice show which required quite some thinking to find the show very interesting. Touching and nice! grading 8 of 10. somehow lost in my own world(treasure the ones), after watching the show. Then went to ah ben house, ben and ming kept talking about their TKD stuffs, which made me think back about JUDO, i really miss JUDO, the training, the feelings. but ... it's not possible anymore.
nxt nxt I will clock my personal best tmr, and beat my PB on sunday comp! I know i cant beat others, but this will be a challenge to myself ! to improve ! I know i have been demoralise cos i cant win others but that's isn't an issue to me anymore, cos i am there to experience and improve, may it be my first and last compeitition. :(
How shld i handle relationship? my morale to this relationship have decrease due to the past few days, few week, the insecurity, the action... hope it will be fine, hope i will not give up.
md: breezy
Oo.. went all the way down to beach road to get a rashguard. $60 bucks =( actually i wanted to tell her not to pon the class today since the more impt things is learning the day problem, not just about presenting what we know during the presentation. A day grade might be affected, but it's understandable, my point is why not stay in class and listen the learning of the day from the class and teacher, i am sure they will explain it. At the very least we can learn more things which can come out for UT, or at least you will understand. Anyway even if i told her all this i believe that she will still follow her friends or friend. When i asked myself why i attend sch, the answer is i want to learn more things, which might be applicable in the future, it's the experience and knowledge that counts.
Nxt nxt there seem to be some problem with the aquatic carnival, OSG! i really hate them. what's their problem, if you have better plans why not suggest it out? Today swam very relax, haiz, how to swim faster? left with only less then 3 days to compeitition. I felt neglected by her for the past few weeks, was i thinking too much? or was it that the history is gg to repeat itself? Really hope that things will turn out to be fine. Recalling what she told me in the past about the feeling she hate most was being neglected, since then after knowing, i have been trying v hard to acc her be with her , remove any possibility of feeling neglected. But ... hmm I guess i am still sucks at it ba.. giving in, caring someone? do people care? do people appreciate? why is it still domestic partnership ? ... saded..
Oo.. went all the way down to beach road to get a rashguard. $60 bucks =( actually i wanted to tell her not to pon the class today since the more impt things is learning the day problem, not just about presenting what we know during the presentation. A day grade might be affected, but it's understandable, my point is why not stay in class and listen the learning of the day from the class and teacher, i am sure they will explain it. At the very least we can learn more things which can come out for UT, or at least you will understand. Anyway even if i told her all this i believe that she will still follow her friends or friend. When i asked myself why i attend sch, the answer is i want to learn more things, which might be applicable in the future, it's the experience and knowledge that counts.
Nxt nxt there seem to be some problem with the aquatic carnival, OSG! i really hate them. what's their problem, if you have better plans why not suggest it out? Today swam very relax, haiz, how to swim faster? left with only less then 3 days to compeitition. I felt neglected by her for the past few weeks, was i thinking too much? or was it that the history is gg to repeat itself? Really hope that things will turn out to be fine. Recalling what she told me in the past about the feeling she hate most was being neglected, since then after knowing, i have been trying v hard to acc her be with her , remove any possibility of feeling neglected. But ... hmm I guess i am still sucks at it ba.. giving in, caring someone? do people care? do people appreciate? why is it still domestic partnership ? ... saded..
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
md: breezy
MAC in the morning ! but didn manage to get to eat my hotcake with sausage while it's hot. Today ? slacking day, i guess. met her for lunch :) When swimming, body still not listening ! damn ! haiz... how? but i really want to thanks long fei and vonn haha for their accompanied ! :) Oo sh** left my charger wire in class haiz limited power today, have to do this fast liao manz..
MAC in the morning ! but didn manage to get to eat my hotcake with sausage while it's hot. Today ? slacking day, i guess. met her for lunch :) When swimming, body still not listening ! damn ! haiz... how? but i really want to thanks long fei and vonn haha for their accompanied ! :) Oo sh** left my charger wire in class haiz limited power today, have to do this fast liao manz..
Monday, August 06, 2007
disappointment
md: D
Class as usual.. during the first breakout, instead of searching for resources, my whole team when searching for my blog... er all thanks to JG uh! haha... anyway this blog is somehow boring. Cos my life is ... ya you know. er okok.. what's nxt was trg that i want to talk about.. nv meet the timing, always end up swimming the last today.. kinda disappointed. i wanted to swim faster but i was really demoralise (cos i know that i wouldn be able to do well in the event) and my body just simply don't listen to me. Then the worst came during rescue medley.. i can even plunge in well! goggles drop out and swimming like an idiot. what the hell am i doing? where's the concentration ? where's the determination? sOo low, but no ones knows, i really need someone to tell me what to do.. haiz.. someone to talk to me.. but no one is there..
Class as usual.. during the first breakout, instead of searching for resources, my whole team when searching for my blog... er all thanks to JG uh! haha... anyway this blog is somehow boring. Cos my life is ... ya you know. er okok.. what's nxt was trg that i want to talk about.. nv meet the timing, always end up swimming the last today.. kinda disappointed. i wanted to swim faster but i was really demoralise (cos i know that i wouldn be able to do well in the event) and my body just simply don't listen to me. Then the worst came during rescue medley.. i can even plunge in well! goggles drop out and swimming like an idiot. what the hell am i doing? where's the concentration ? where's the determination? sOo low, but no ones knows, i really need someone to tell me what to do.. haiz.. someone to talk to me.. but no one is there..
Saturday, August 04, 2007
upcoming challenges
Md: Sunny
Sentosa trg today was er somehow not 'up to performance', might it be beach flag, sprint and surf boarding, it was sort of demoralising. Reason might due to the injures last week trg, ytd dry trg which have cause soreness in my thigh muscle(same suffering as peg lol, hard to climb stairs). But they are still reasons, which shouldn become excuse for not performing during trg. 'micro muscle tears and lactic acid accumulation'. Also learn lotsa things from the NUS manager, which is gary senior, forgot his name. but nice guy. Then went ard vivo crapping and walking around.
<- the POWER of ache! haha = cant walk properly!
<- e girls
nxt nxt..
guess over the past few day she have being unhappy over my selfish act and thinking. I realised it after calming down. sorry ger.
over the nxt few weeks and days in the month of aug(impt events)
- National Day! (9th)
-LS National Still Water Championship (12th)
-RP Biathlon (17th)
-O level oral (24th)
-LS National Open Water Championship (26th)
-TP test (30th)
- Submit PP (30th)
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
md: stormy
why it's no but not yes? y wasn't a chance given? everything just made me felt so disappointed and sad. While sitting in the interchange, hope that she will appear from my back but she didn't. Wasn't mention much in her story, she mention every litta things but not me(even when buying waffle for her friend?), statues remain unchanged in her profile, all these things just made me felt unsecured, 'do she tell her friends that i am her bf?'. 'Can we meet?', 'I find you after that...', 'i want to see you', these were the sentences that have never been told.will we meet tmr morning ? Life is meant to be treasured every min, every sec. I guess i am not good enough ... troubles, who is there for me ? no one...
why it's no but not yes? y wasn't a chance given? everything just made me felt so disappointed and sad. While sitting in the interchange, hope that she will appear from my back but she didn't. Wasn't mention much in her story, she mention every litta things but not me(even when buying waffle for her friend?), statues remain unchanged in her profile, all these things just made me felt unsecured, 'do she tell her friends that i am her bf?'. 'Can we meet?', 'I find you after that...', 'i want to see you', these were the sentences that have never been told.will we meet tmr morning ? Life is meant to be treasured every min, every sec. I guess i am not good enough ... troubles, who is there for me ? no one...
Sunday, July 22, 2007
md: ups and downs
This week has been a busy week for me, events after events, submissions after submission, FYP, BM test, Bike prac 8, round de campus run, bRag (swim), Aquatic Carnival proposal. Finally there's an stop for breathing... after 2 unlucky meetup which make me unable to pass my prac 8 for such long time, finally i have passed it. Aquatic Carnival: done proposal, the next thing is to run the show. BM test: got SLSS most nasty but responsible examiner philip sng, all of us mange to scrap through, also special thank to Jeremy who have been a responsible instructor =).FYP presentation have ended today, hope the grades will be well. bRag (swim): SAS won 2nd, all thanks to clarence! round de campus: although we are still not up to the standard in competing with other polys and ite on land, but think everyone in the team have done well, haha at least we are not the last! hoho. After FYP went for the Charity Swim at SICC, reach there at about 330, where the swim event is ending at 4! 30mins how to swim 100 laps ? Argh! manage to swim 42 laps, haiz... after that went amk with lifesaving family to mac, and then celebrate big Jenny bd with a small slice of oreo cheese cake. Oh there was something that almost shock me to death when LF mention to me the bd of ws, luckily is not the date, no superstitious, but i guess is fate. went to meet her after that, it's has been a long long time, as she is busy with her dance performance. hehe she showed me everything that happen over the past few days, well done ger, 3 days of practice and you have perform well =). Oo but somehow disapointed that i wasn't mention in the craving lists, more time for friends ? hmm guess ...
This week has been a busy week for me, events after events, submissions after submission, FYP, BM test, Bike prac 8, round de campus run, bRag (swim), Aquatic Carnival proposal. Finally there's an stop for breathing... after 2 unlucky meetup which make me unable to pass my prac 8 for such long time, finally i have passed it. Aquatic Carnival: done proposal, the next thing is to run the show. BM test: got SLSS most nasty but responsible examiner philip sng, all of us mange to scrap through, also special thank to Jeremy who have been a responsible instructor =).FYP presentation have ended today, hope the grades will be well. bRag (swim): SAS won 2nd, all thanks to clarence! round de campus: although we are still not up to the standard in competing with other polys and ite on land, but think everyone in the team have done well, haha at least we are not the last! hoho. After FYP went for the Charity Swim at SICC, reach there at about 330, where the swim event is ending at 4! 30mins how to swim 100 laps ? Argh! manage to swim 42 laps, haiz... after that went amk with lifesaving family to mac, and then celebrate big Jenny bd with a small slice of oreo cheese cake. Oh there was something that almost shock me to death when LF mention to me the bd of ws, luckily is not the date, no superstitious, but i guess is fate. went to meet her after that, it's has been a long long time, as she is busy with her dance performance. hehe she showed me everything that happen over the past few days, well done ger, 3 days of practice and you have perform well =). Oo but somehow disapointed that i wasn't mention in the craving lists, more time for friends ? hmm guess ...
Monday, July 09, 2007
md: yawn.. unlucky day
Just as he looking out of the window of the bus, everything out there was simply the trees without it's colour with a reddish sky as background. This senario appear to be a lifeless earth, feeling like as if he is on the only bus that is left travelling. Thinking back to the past and the future. Wondering what will he do if he is only allow to do one thing before everythings comes to an end? some might just sit and admire everything, some might just want to spend time with their loves one, some might want to savage the situation, some might ... He persued but it seem that his effort come to an waste at the end of the day. Not having his labtop beside him was trouble enough. Early in the morning, he woke up late, cabed to 168 busstop, then meet with traffic jam on the expressway, almost unable to loan a labtop for today's lesson, and UT. Labcoat! the will be lab! wasn't informed, laptop went service there was no access to leo! and no one actually bother to tell him, seem like everyone at his stage are moving more towards 'mind your own busniness' attitude. 'what will be the last thing ?'
Just as he looking out of the window of the bus, everything out there was simply the trees without it's colour with a reddish sky as background. This senario appear to be a lifeless earth, feeling like as if he is on the only bus that is left travelling. Thinking back to the past and the future. Wondering what will he do if he is only allow to do one thing before everythings comes to an end? some might just sit and admire everything, some might just want to spend time with their loves one, some might want to savage the situation, some might ... He persued but it seem that his effort come to an waste at the end of the day. Not having his labtop beside him was trouble enough. Early in the morning, he woke up late, cabed to 168 busstop, then meet with traffic jam on the expressway, almost unable to loan a labtop for today's lesson, and UT. Labcoat! the will be lab! wasn't informed, laptop went service there was no access to leo! and no one actually bother to tell him, seem like everyone at his stage are moving more towards 'mind your own busniness' attitude. 'what will be the last thing ?'
Saturday, July 07, 2007
md: Cloudy !
Went to Mindmax training today about the new intermediate program which is gg to start soon, whao the new activities.. seem tougher than the previous one. Kkz then took a cab down to vivo.. 18 bucks my pocket is being burn! Looking forward to sentosa training today becos of 2 reasons: cos i want to master the correct and faster techniques for surfboarding, another is her (might have a slight change to acc her home). Well but things did not turn out to be expected, i didn manage to find out the correct technique for turning, we didn end up meeting together. tmr? not meeting her i guess, i wanted to spend more time with her, but is she thinking the same way? or issit that everything is just as the past? was i expecting too much?
One person did things that have pissed me off indirectly, COCKY and proud ! so what if you win polo game in IVP so can RP win without those national players who didnt train in school? What most is that you are only compeiting againest 4 school so what if RP win the second? can you kindly stop bragging about that?! AND KINDLY show some respect to others! if you don't, don't expect others to even give a shit about you! and please shut you big braggy mounth UP! 'what the proud meet it's fall'
Went to Mindmax training today about the new intermediate program which is gg to start soon, whao the new activities.. seem tougher than the previous one. Kkz then took a cab down to vivo.. 18 bucks my pocket is being burn! Looking forward to sentosa training today becos of 2 reasons: cos i want to master the correct and faster techniques for surfboarding, another is her (might have a slight change to acc her home). Well but things did not turn out to be expected, i didn manage to find out the correct technique for turning, we didn end up meeting together. tmr? not meeting her i guess, i wanted to spend more time with her, but is she thinking the same way? or issit that everything is just as the past? was i expecting too much?
One person did things that have pissed me off indirectly, COCKY and proud ! so what if you win polo game in IVP so can RP win without those national players who didnt train in school? What most is that you are only compeiting againest 4 school so what if RP win the second? can you kindly stop bragging about that?! AND KINDLY show some respect to others! if you don't, don't expect others to even give a shit about you! and please shut you big braggy mounth UP! 'what the proud meet it's fall'
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
md: cloudy...
Bad bad day where no one will understand ? Rushing my FYP report from ytd night till today morning, what worse was that I didn manage to complete it in the morning ! after that went for bike lesson, haiz CMI.. when returning home i really fall into deep sleep on the bus.. aHh what am i doing man?! haiz didnt went for LS training today felt so bad over it ... then finally manage to finish the report! hope it's will be a good one. coming up next is POSTER! OH NO! then soon later is FYP poster Presentation... why am i such a er failure ? ... or ... Anyway i really hope that FYP 2 will be something i can start afresh with.. I promise this time round for FYP2 I will do a better job! hmm .. sometimes was wondering what you really want? friendster status remain changed .. did i expect too much ??
Bad bad day where no one will understand ? Rushing my FYP report from ytd night till today morning, what worse was that I didn manage to complete it in the morning ! after that went for bike lesson, haiz CMI.. when returning home i really fall into deep sleep on the bus.. aHh what am i doing man?! haiz didnt went for LS training today felt so bad over it ... then finally manage to finish the report! hope it's will be a good one. coming up next is POSTER! OH NO! then soon later is FYP poster Presentation... why am i such a er failure ? ... or ... Anyway i really hope that FYP 2 will be something i can start afresh with.. I promise this time round for FYP2 I will do a better job! hmm .. sometimes was wondering what you really want? friendster status remain changed .. did i expect too much ??
Sunday, July 01, 2007
md:
last Friday, disappointing yet fortunate day. disappointed as i am unable to swim due to the weather where lightning could seen and thunder was heard. Sitting just right infront of the pool you will be able to see the 'shiny crakes among the dark clouds'. Then next was meeting her up in teaching her excel, at first i should be attending training for mindmax, however after much thoughts i decided to skip the training to meet her up, as it really hard for us to meet up ? Cos usually she will be working. moreover her UT is coming in less than a week time. All i want to is to be with her whenever she need me, or my help. Just simply having her by my side will be enough le. That day was the day that i felt happiness in her! the smile the laughter, everything of her . I guess I really love her alot..
today, NUS invitational LifeSaving Compeitition, as usually we left empty handed, but is a good experiences for the compeititors i guess. I cant participate as the same old reason.. I haven got my BM yet ! waited for so long.. I will have to set my mind back to training mood ! focus ! pass BM, participate in national lifesaving competition! i really hope that i will be able to go full force in the training! hope i can fully master the surf board then can win something during the national.. although chances might be slim but i do hope with my efforts, miricles will happen once again! After trg when to steamboat at marina..
last Friday, disappointing yet fortunate day. disappointed as i am unable to swim due to the weather where lightning could seen and thunder was heard. Sitting just right infront of the pool you will be able to see the 'shiny crakes among the dark clouds'. Then next was meeting her up in teaching her excel, at first i should be attending training for mindmax, however after much thoughts i decided to skip the training to meet her up, as it really hard for us to meet up ? Cos usually she will be working. moreover her UT is coming in less than a week time. All i want to is to be with her whenever she need me, or my help. Just simply having her by my side will be enough le. That day was the day that i felt happiness in her! the smile the laughter, everything of her . I guess I really love her alot..
today, NUS invitational LifeSaving Compeitition, as usually we left empty handed, but is a good experiences for the compeititors i guess. I cant participate as the same old reason.. I haven got my BM yet ! waited for so long.. I will have to set my mind back to training mood ! focus ! pass BM, participate in national lifesaving competition! i really hope that i will be able to go full force in the training! hope i can fully master the surf board then can win something during the national.. although chances might be slim but i do hope with my efforts, miricles will happen once again! After trg when to steamboat at marina..
Thursday, June 28, 2007
the miricle 'book'!
md: ?
she reminded me to blog !:) haha.. so here i go.. today? another day which i almost late for school! argH! jus don noe y, i have been reaching school much later than usual.. buckup! where's my attitude towards learning?! haiz but i really admit defeated with the upcoming FYP report and poster.. didn't meet the standard.. I have not been performing well in my lifesaving.. my timing .. haizZ.. UT? flung.. oh forget about these past manz.. hope this kind of period will not come again.. so to prevent myself to caught in such a stress situation, is to learn from others and don't wait for last min or overconfidence. back to today.. well a day where relevnt resources are hard to find. haiz my analogy when out of point, sorry team.. but what the amazing part was the borrowing of food biotechnology book, went to search for the book with mel and ange, and luckily i found one and only.. phewW.. and this book simply covered all the past problems that we have gone through!=) next next durng lunch time, joined the aquatic team for lunch, then sabo to join the run for no reason er.. cant i still run ? guess i will need some training then. Jess brought up the inter school swimming relay.. represent SAS ? er ... but i am not fast enough.. what to do ? TRAIN HARD LA ! after school meet her wanted to go west coast to checkup whether the renovation of the beach have ended, but time past too fast, we ended up walking around causeway.. haha although it's jus walking around, it's something special! :) time time ... not enough lehz .. 'change for the better, not for the worse' 'a good bf wouldn let his ger shed tears for him..' sorry..
she reminded me to blog !:) haha.. so here i go.. today? another day which i almost late for school! argH! jus don noe y, i have been reaching school much later than usual.. buckup! where's my attitude towards learning?! haiz but i really admit defeated with the upcoming FYP report and poster.. didn't meet the standard.. I have not been performing well in my lifesaving.. my timing .. haizZ.. UT? flung.. oh forget about these past manz.. hope this kind of period will not come again.. so to prevent myself to caught in such a stress situation, is to learn from others and don't wait for last min or overconfidence. back to today.. well a day where relevnt resources are hard to find. haiz my analogy when out of point, sorry team.. but what the amazing part was the borrowing of food biotechnology book, went to search for the book with mel and ange, and luckily i found one and only.. phewW.. and this book simply covered all the past problems that we have gone through!=) next next durng lunch time, joined the aquatic team for lunch, then sabo to join the run for no reason er.. cant i still run ? guess i will need some training then. Jess brought up the inter school swimming relay.. represent SAS ? er ... but i am not fast enough.. what to do ? TRAIN HARD LA ! after school meet her wanted to go west coast to checkup whether the renovation of the beach have ended, but time past too fast, we ended up walking around causeway.. haha although it's jus walking around, it's something special! :) time time ... not enough lehz .. 'change for the better, not for the worse' 'a good bf wouldn let his ger shed tears for him..' sorry..
Thursday, May 17, 2007
from dying to living !lols
md: cloudy(m), sunny (e)
Sickening ! feel so weak in the morning even until reaching school, feel like vomitting, having sore throat and headache=( took panadols slept in class until lesson start then felt better... sorry guys if u all find me so moody in the morning... anyway, in the evening i receive a new water bottle from ger =) hope i can fully recover from the sore throat which have been pestering me for about 2 weeks ? haizz
Sickening ! feel so weak in the morning even until reaching school, feel like vomitting, having sore throat and headache=( took panadols slept in class until lesson start then felt better... sorry guys if u all find me so moody in the morning... anyway, in the evening i receive a new water bottle from ger =) hope i can fully recover from the sore throat which have been pestering me for about 2 weeks ? haizz
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
an ideal girl ?
md: cloudy?
An ideal girl? One who will not hesitate in loving and caring for him? Doing things together (cooking, sports)? putting in efforts in understand him and support him at the back? love him the way he is?
a guy with nothing.. jus plain simple but no one understand..
An ideal girl? One who will not hesitate in loving and caring for him? Doing things together (cooking, sports)? putting in efforts in understand him and support him at the back? love him the way he is?
a guy with nothing.. jus plain simple but no one understand..
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
wat a day...
md: rainy
what a day ?! yawn, wanted to go swim in the morning but I woke up late, then rush to school hope able to make it in time to have lunch with her. then a long afternoon busy doing aquatic IG stuffs, sending out emails. Didn't get to swim today, cos the weather didnt allow us to, what to do? eat fries lorz. next thing have to do is to do proposer for morning trainings wah then aquatic trial, then AGM, OMG!! so many stuffs. some days back, jin have made me reflected on somethings, as a captain, as a person. sometimes people are not appreciative, may it be doing things for the IG, for the ger. I guess they simply don care as they might just think that it is none of their busniess. Guess now in relationship, i am in the middle of no where. when your friend sick, you worry about them, do you worry about me when i am sick ?In the past, do u love me for who i am or what i am? If you don't hhave feelings for me can you just tell me that and be cruel to me for once(at least i cn try to forget you by all means) ? can you just explain to me? or rather giving me some assurance ?Now in me, i know i still love you but I don't know wat to do. we are like serparated but together... i noe it might be a no, but i hope the answer is yes, what you always say is i don noe...
what a day ?! yawn, wanted to go swim in the morning but I woke up late, then rush to school hope able to make it in time to have lunch with her. then a long afternoon busy doing aquatic IG stuffs, sending out emails. Didn't get to swim today, cos the weather didnt allow us to, what to do? eat fries lorz. next thing have to do is to do proposer for morning trainings wah then aquatic trial, then AGM, OMG!! so many stuffs. some days back, jin have made me reflected on somethings, as a captain, as a person. sometimes people are not appreciative, may it be doing things for the IG, for the ger. I guess they simply don care as they might just think that it is none of their busniess. Guess now in relationship, i am in the middle of no where. when your friend sick, you worry about them, do you worry about me when i am sick ?In the past, do u love me for who i am or what i am? If you don't hhave feelings for me can you just tell me that and be cruel to me for once(at least i cn try to forget you by all means) ? can you just explain to me? or rather giving me some assurance ?Now in me, i know i still love you but I don't know wat to do. we are like serparated but together... i noe it might be a no, but i hope the answer is yes, what you always say is i don noe...
Saturday, April 14, 2007
once in a blue moon week!
md: sunny with rain
Everythings come to an end at AVA as 13th of april comes by. I guess i will be missing everyone there, mr tan HL, mr leong, tutu village head, mr ong, all the aunties and uncles up there, justine, both clements and christina, thanks ms poh for all her teaching too. back to blue moon week, hahaz finally complete the sowing device, although much improvement still needed to be made, but at least i complete it in time. Next cooking, after so long not touching the knife and wok, finally i am back to the kitchen to cook and they taste not bad too :) a bayam potatoes soup with 2 dishes (fried bayam with ikan and dark sauce miced pork with egg tofu), loving the dark sauce miced pork tofu the most. didn know until that day that the vege i loves most was bayam. Folding and packing my clothes was also one of the things i seldom do, that's the reason why i am always wearing back the same similar crumped clothings. Growing chili plants at home, gonna get some soil and fertilizer (NPK) some days, don be amazed to see vegetables growing at my hse corridor. Ate pizza with AVA NP friends, thanks guys. went to TYR warehse, hmm things there wasn't really cheap but with the 30% discount, it's consider cheap ba, brought a jammer, a goggle for me and another for ger. waoh, had a great dinner today, cos ytd was my elderest bro bd ! 2 weeks didn get to see her, missin her..
Everythings come to an end at AVA as 13th of april comes by. I guess i will be missing everyone there, mr tan HL, mr leong, tutu village head, mr ong, all the aunties and uncles up there, justine, both clements and christina, thanks ms poh for all her teaching too. back to blue moon week, hahaz finally complete the sowing device, although much improvement still needed to be made, but at least i complete it in time. Next cooking, after so long not touching the knife and wok, finally i am back to the kitchen to cook and they taste not bad too :) a bayam potatoes soup with 2 dishes (fried bayam with ikan and dark sauce miced pork with egg tofu), loving the dark sauce miced pork tofu the most. didn know until that day that the vege i loves most was bayam. Folding and packing my clothes was also one of the things i seldom do, that's the reason why i am always wearing back the same similar crumped clothings. Growing chili plants at home, gonna get some soil and fertilizer (NPK) some days, don be amazed to see vegetables growing at my hse corridor. Ate pizza with AVA NP friends, thanks guys. went to TYR warehse, hmm things there wasn't really cheap but with the 30% discount, it's consider cheap ba, brought a jammer, a goggle for me and another for ger. waoh, had a great dinner today, cos ytd was my elderest bro bd ! 2 weeks didn get to see her, missin her..
Friday, March 16, 2007
LS BBQ gathering
md: breezy
whoa.. what a busy day at AVA today, whole morning taking photos for AL then whole afternoon data observation, 150 pots ... think of it, sianz. then cab down to east coast for the preparation for the life saving BBQ gathering, waH pocket burned a big big hole for this gathering manz, sian i organize de ma, so have to pay for everything first lorz, see whether others will pay back anot, hope they will ba.. well money aside, felt really happy to see everyone making their efforts coming down to this gathering, rather touched, where everyone sit and chat, take photos, play around.. thanks guys, esp long fei, jenny(young) and jin. should i train for compeititive swimming? commitment and determination.. unhappy with my dad again, sorry cant control my temper, if only you can be more responsible in the past, guess things wouldn ended up like tat but i do ask myself, why am i angry with you over such small matters? a tiger that nv know how to care for his cubs..
whoa.. what a busy day at AVA today, whole morning taking photos for AL then whole afternoon data observation, 150 pots ... think of it, sianz. then cab down to east coast for the preparation for the life saving BBQ gathering, waH pocket burned a big big hole for this gathering manz, sian i organize de ma, so have to pay for everything first lorz, see whether others will pay back anot, hope they will ba.. well money aside, felt really happy to see everyone making their efforts coming down to this gathering, rather touched, where everyone sit and chat, take photos, play around.. thanks guys, esp long fei, jenny(young) and jin. should i train for compeititive swimming? commitment and determination.. unhappy with my dad again, sorry cant control my temper, if only you can be more responsible in the past, guess things wouldn ended up like tat but i do ask myself, why am i angry with you over such small matters? a tiger that nv know how to care for his cubs..
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
wwat to do?
md: breezY
damn buzy today with picking up calls and calling people, all for the BBQ coming this thursday.. yawnz .. don't nod wat the hell am i doing nowadays.. lost again liao ba.. lost of focus.. wat to do? get them back lorz.. how to get? think think think lorz.. 60 lapz + obstacles 2morrow.. last time sure can do it la... but now ar? my stroke like got problem like tat.. brought a new bike helmet today ! so happy, wanted to tell sy about that but ... haiz
rather be a naive, stupid person than moving into the complicated and corrupted world of fame and greed .. one of my principle.. don't do anythings that will harm anyone.
damn buzy today with picking up calls and calling people, all for the BBQ coming this thursday.. yawnz .. don't nod wat the hell am i doing nowadays.. lost again liao ba.. lost of focus.. wat to do? get them back lorz.. how to get? think think think lorz.. 60 lapz + obstacles 2morrow.. last time sure can do it la... but now ar? my stroke like got problem like tat.. brought a new bike helmet today ! so happy, wanted to tell sy about that but ... haiz
rather be a naive, stupid person than moving into the complicated and corrupted world of fame and greed .. one of my principle.. don't do anythings that will harm anyone.
Friday, March 09, 2007
0903' 06
breezY
painting, painting... no place to do my stuffs, went all the way up to the out field shelter, wanting to finish my draft for the sowing device. Forgot the measurement, unable to draw liao, then mr lee was there again to share his theory and knowledge of the seedling trays, yawns gg to bore to tears. Then when to find suhaimi at the store for the arcylic, then ended up there helping them, talking, looking through those unwanted stuffs, playing with spider. First time went out for lunch with those NP friends, 'thanks guys!' for taking me as ur friend. emo, cold, hard to get with was the first impression i gave to most people, cos i don't know how to... express myself hmm? sometimes kept saying wrong things, oh ya i guess i own Jus a sorry man, becos of the overboard joke on wed. A dumb lizard got stuck on the wet painted window grill ! lol. guess what? while waiting for my chocolate milk shake, there was a little girl filled a full cup of pearls then say give me! lol whooa, if i really take those pearls i guess my stomach will be bloated with pearls. Went to swim, sianz so many people! felt my strokes was improving! but.. my body felt so reluctant to swim, was it the chocolate milk shake reaction? or was it my mentality?
tmr gg for 2BL4 and Riding theory test, i will pass them! then will be working again at GWP.. till 1am...
painting, painting... no place to do my stuffs, went all the way up to the out field shelter, wanting to finish my draft for the sowing device. Forgot the measurement, unable to draw liao, then mr lee was there again to share his theory and knowledge of the seedling trays, yawns gg to bore to tears. Then when to find suhaimi at the store for the arcylic, then ended up there helping them, talking, looking through those unwanted stuffs, playing with spider. First time went out for lunch with those NP friends, 'thanks guys!' for taking me as ur friend. emo, cold, hard to get with was the first impression i gave to most people, cos i don't know how to... express myself hmm? sometimes kept saying wrong things, oh ya i guess i own Jus a sorry man, becos of the overboard joke on wed. A dumb lizard got stuck on the wet painted window grill ! lol. guess what? while waiting for my chocolate milk shake, there was a little girl filled a full cup of pearls then say give me! lol whooa, if i really take those pearls i guess my stomach will be bloated with pearls. Went to swim, sianz so many people! felt my strokes was improving! but.. my body felt so reluctant to swim, was it the chocolate milk shake reaction? or was it my mentality?
tmr gg for 2BL4 and Riding theory test, i will pass them! then will be working again at GWP.. till 1am...
Thursday, November 23, 2006
all the way down
md: cloudy
everyone need to be love, want someone to care, hope somebody will understand them.
ytd headache, didn perform well in class, kanna scold for nth from the security guard, demanding guest, serving like hell, WTF!#$%^&! then today?
life just too sucky this semester... don nod why. may it be results, friends, work, everything seem so dull... life's a mess...
everyone need to be love, want someone to care, hope somebody will understand them.
ytd headache, didn perform well in class, kanna scold for nth from the security guard, demanding guest, serving like hell, WTF!#$%^&! then today?
life just too sucky this semester... don nod why. may it be results, friends, work, everything seem so dull... life's a mess...
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Monday, October 09, 2006
jess last day
md: -
-last day working under jess at GWP le =( missing her
- customer = er somehow irritating ... but nvm
- fun day @ the end, having durian mooncake, shandy 'celebrating' for jess last day at work
- there goes another person who somehow dote me ... nvm still can visit her during others occasion de
- guess GWP will have large reduce in number of part timer haha including ME ...
- working for money liao not for relation lol
oh ya lost previous post due to dc...
to the one i love
'treasure her, find all ways to love her, getting rid her feeling of being neglected'
O 'level' coming liao
jia you wor dearY, no worries i will still miss you and love you de =)
haha
nxt
jess is somehow like my godmum, have being taking good care of me since my first day of work .. 1 year le .. now she's leaving GWP liao... she taught me something, the words 'fairness' and 'understanding' through her action.
'life is about reaching a destination and leaving for another'
-last day working under jess at GWP le =( missing her
- customer = er somehow irritating ... but nvm
- fun day @ the end, having durian mooncake, shandy 'celebrating' for jess last day at work
- there goes another person who somehow dote me ... nvm still can visit her during others occasion de
- guess GWP will have large reduce in number of part timer haha including ME ...
- working for money liao not for relation lol
oh ya lost previous post due to dc...
to the one i love
'treasure her, find all ways to love her, getting rid her feeling of being neglected'
O 'level' coming liao
jia you wor dearY, no worries i will still miss you and love you de =)
haha
nxt
jess is somehow like my godmum, have being taking good care of me since my first day of work .. 1 year le .. now she's leaving GWP liao... she taught me something, the words 'fairness' and 'understanding' through her action.
'life is about reaching a destination and leaving for another'
Monday, September 25, 2006
unfair yet fair
md: breezY
working ytd and today, both is CWD, both is 1 to 1 but today i feel as if i am doing 2 to 1 ... we were given 3 to 3 table, but one of my partner was a new bird so BB lo ... hmmm but nvm la ... guess what today winsor ballroom change name to tudor ballroom 2 lol, jus becos of some typo error they printed, then have to guide those guest (anyway din really did any thing much) what most coincidence was tat both groom have the same surname, both brides have the same christian name lol *confusion*. anyway i like the guest for ytd and today, know why ? not they give me tips but just simple a word 'appreciative' they appreciate things i have done for them, there was one lady who keep saying thank you from the first drink i serve her to the last desert i served her, also a little ger from another table smiles at me whenever i clear plate, serve drinks etc. Also not forgeting jessica (my 'godmum') at work, thanks her for being so understanding towards me, a great captain who i will be willing to work for, cos she cares for her part timer, she went through those hardship and she understand us =) smile my sis's bf jus brought my favourite bing pe moon cake for me !! =D wahahaha ... tmr another schday, really stress over having majority biomed students as classmate, they are compeitive, unlike us most biotech student, mayb will affect my daily grade =( have to self motivate lol ... pumpping 75% lol... dearY having prelim now *pray for her to score well*=) jia you ger...
working ytd and today, both is CWD, both is 1 to 1 but today i feel as if i am doing 2 to 1 ... we were given 3 to 3 table, but one of my partner was a new bird so BB lo ... hmmm but nvm la ... guess what today winsor ballroom change name to tudor ballroom 2 lol, jus becos of some typo error they printed, then have to guide those guest (anyway din really did any thing much) what most coincidence was tat both groom have the same surname, both brides have the same christian name lol *confusion*. anyway i like the guest for ytd and today, know why ? not they give me tips but just simple a word 'appreciative' they appreciate things i have done for them, there was one lady who keep saying thank you from the first drink i serve her to the last desert i served her, also a little ger from another table smiles at me whenever i clear plate, serve drinks etc. Also not forgeting jessica (my 'godmum') at work, thanks her for being so understanding towards me, a great captain who i will be willing to work for, cos she cares for her part timer, she went through those hardship and she understand us =) smile my sis's bf jus brought my favourite bing pe moon cake for me !! =D wahahaha ... tmr another schday, really stress over having majority biomed students as classmate, they are compeitive, unlike us most biotech student, mayb will affect my daily grade =( have to self motivate lol ... pumpping 75% lol... dearY having prelim now *pray for her to score well*=) jia you ger...
Sunday, September 17, 2006
tat's life
md: cloudy
- was getting sore throat, cough and flu ... woaHhh
- nxt thursday school reopen
- nxt wed last day of attachment at AVA
- things to complete = PP, 20 pages attachment report, presentation to DBIO, soil analysis... yawnZz
- life's unfair yet fair?
- no one is resistant to change ?
- ever wonder how many people know how to treasure time, people and things around them?
- i wan to be contented, but ppl ard me shows me that i shouldnt be... am i too compeitive ?
- was getting sore throat, cough and flu ... woaHhh
- nxt thursday school reopen
- nxt wed last day of attachment at AVA
- things to complete = PP, 20 pages attachment report, presentation to DBIO, soil analysis... yawnZz
- life's unfair yet fair?
- no one is resistant to change ?
- ever wonder how many people know how to treasure time, people and things around them?
- i wan to be contented, but ppl ard me shows me that i shouldnt be... am i too compeitive ?
Sunday, August 27, 2006
let it go
md: nil
- let go
- understand
'how ppl piorities things, shows that how important are things meant to them'
- AVA attachment turn out to be sort of dissapointment (things was not plan for what we going to do there)
- treasure ppl ard, and their existance
- life turning back to those solo days...
- once he care for everyone but himself, then he care for himself more then anyone, after that he treat ppl the way they treat him... now or the future ?? who should he care?
- let go
- understand
'how ppl piorities things, shows that how important are things meant to them'
- AVA attachment turn out to be sort of dissapointment (things was not plan for what we going to do there)
- treasure ppl ard, and their existance
- life turning back to those solo days...
- once he care for everyone but himself, then he care for himself more then anyone, after that he treat ppl the way they treat him... now or the future ?? who should he care?
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
mHNS
md: showering ...
miss her no use
in his mind:
he put her before any other things
but
she put him after everything
... he seem to be upset about it
but there's nothing he can do ...
cos he belives in freedom in relationship...
that's his life... his fate
life filled with misses ...
unhappy ... back to no life like the past ...
he jus wan to know how much does she care...
miss her no use
in his mind:
he put her before any other things
but
she put him after everything
... he seem to be upset about it
but there's nothing he can do ...
cos he belives in freedom in relationship...
that's his life... his fate
life filled with misses ...
unhappy ... back to no life like the past ...
he jus wan to know how much does she care...
Monday, August 14, 2006
thing happen with signal ?
md: nil
when i was young i wonder... does thing happen with characteristic before hand?
saw a email receive from my bro about a ger who met with an accident due to a drunk driver, she was not dead but was ard 80% burn .
this morning took bus to sch on 969 saw a person knock down by a bus, guess it dead, it was cover with white canvas, with one of the leg sticking out(appear to be white), and blood appear at the head part. with the forensic number plate on the bus screen.
life is full of coincidence...
when i was young i wonder... does thing happen with characteristic before hand?
saw a email receive from my bro about a ger who met with an accident due to a drunk driver, she was not dead but was ard 80% burn .
this morning took bus to sch on 969 saw a person knock down by a bus, guess it dead, it was cover with white canvas, with one of the leg sticking out(appear to be white), and blood appear at the head part. with the forensic number plate on the bus screen.
life is full of coincidence...
Friday, August 11, 2006
once a life
md: :(
- sometimes, someone will just get together for somethings which might happen once in life. things might happen always, but time and people might not...
- needa redo the whole lit review, forgot to transfer to D while reformating
- lappiz very lag as running on 1 ram instad of usual 2
- getting new ram -> getting broke
- no life...
- cut down extra activities (judo...) can save money ... may be jus on swimming lifesaving ?
- hope she will recover from her blisters and sore eyes soon ...
- sometimes, someone will just get together for somethings which might happen once in life. things might happen always, but time and people might not...
- needa redo the whole lit review, forgot to transfer to D while reformating
- lappiz very lag as running on 1 ram instad of usual 2
- getting new ram -> getting broke
- no life...
- cut down extra activities (judo...) can save money ... may be jus on swimming lifesaving ?
- hope she will recover from her blisters and sore eyes soon ...
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
complain!
md: thunder storm
i am not happY
- laptop gg crazy, blackout out anytime
- got my 3rd UT for Bio Chem E....
- C for app chem daily grade ...
- swim so slow.. .
Everythings jus too sucks...
LIFE is unfair !
- i went to acer to repair, that guy told me that nth is wrong jus some software error, after reformating things will be fine... BUT i reformated yet things still goes wrong!! is this what you call professionalism?! haiz with my warranty over ... if service who knows?
-i went studying so hard for that UT, yet those hard work didn paid off, and i got my 2nd E in UT ... argh ! daMN... i will work harder ...
- excuse me miss soh... do you noe how to grade fairly?! do you think getting goods results in UT shows everything about the daily grade? why does a person did no contribution (with good UT grade) and a person did contribution (with average UT grade) gets the same daily grade? jus like DEATH SENTENCE !!
- i swim too slow, not improving ... gonna train harder and win !
mummy gg oversea tmr... hope she will have a safe trip
ahHhh hHHHh!!!! life getting crazY . . . dreams so far away . . . future are so dim . . .
life will get better ...
i am not happY
- laptop gg crazy, blackout out anytime
- got my 3rd UT for Bio Chem E....
- C for app chem daily grade ...
- swim so slow.. .
Everythings jus too sucks...
LIFE is unfair !
- i went to acer to repair, that guy told me that nth is wrong jus some software error, after reformating things will be fine... BUT i reformated yet things still goes wrong!! is this what you call professionalism?! haiz with my warranty over ... if service who knows?
-i went studying so hard for that UT, yet those hard work didn paid off, and i got my 2nd E in UT ... argh ! daMN... i will work harder ...
- excuse me miss soh... do you noe how to grade fairly?! do you think getting goods results in UT shows everything about the daily grade? why does a person did no contribution (with good UT grade) and a person did contribution (with average UT grade) gets the same daily grade? jus like DEATH SENTENCE !!
- i swim too slow, not improving ... gonna train harder and win !
mummy gg oversea tmr... hope she will have a safe trip
ahHhh hHHHh!!!! life getting crazY . . . dreams so far away . . . future are so dim . . .
life will get better ...
Sunday, July 23, 2006
100th post
md: breezY
the 100th post
- POP (out of GV), miss u guys =)
- received a watch from the teacher officiers esp Mr Seong
- thanks Mr Seong TY for everythings =)
- Went for charity swim, make a mark @ 100 lapS!! =D
- the process was rather blurR, with 30 breast and 70 free!! haha so amazed by myself LOL!! tot i will swim more breast then free..
- just keep swimming and i will reach there soon
- dryer rougher hair ...
- got a E for genetic UT2 =(
'life's like a roller coaster, fulls of ups and down' 23rd' 07' o6
the 100th post
- POP (out of GV), miss u guys =)
- received a watch from the teacher officiers esp Mr Seong
- thanks Mr Seong TY for everythings =)
- Went for charity swim, make a mark @ 100 lapS!! =D
- the process was rather blurR, with 30 breast and 70 free!! haha so amazed by myself LOL!! tot i will swim more breast then free..
- just keep swimming and i will reach there soon
- dryer rougher hair ...
- got a E for genetic UT2 =(
'life's like a roller coaster, fulls of ups and down' 23rd' 07' o6
Thursday, July 20, 2006
md: nil
as dust blew past and settles...
- got the attachment to Agri-Food & Veterinary Authority (AVA) =) out of so many and only 2 from RP got the chance( won by 1 vote), however feeling sad about it as i won shawn by 1 vote, whereby he's my good friend and better than me in almost everyway =(
- not going for K. Judo training for 3 weeks as UTs coming up on the following fridays =( feeling bad about it... but have to score for the those UTs if not GPA will be affected, at the v least giving my best for it.
- Going for charity swim on next sat 29th july, swimming to donate , aimming for 50- 60 laps but die die will swim 20laps
- change in attitude ? felt it ...
thinG tO kEep in minD:
'never take things for granted'
'keep the positive attitude going'
as dust blew past and settles...
- got the attachment to Agri-Food & Veterinary Authority (AVA) =) out of so many and only 2 from RP got the chance( won by 1 vote), however feeling sad about it as i won shawn by 1 vote, whereby he's my good friend and better than me in almost everyway =(
- not going for K. Judo training for 3 weeks as UTs coming up on the following fridays =( feeling bad about it... but have to score for the those UTs if not GPA will be affected, at the v least giving my best for it.
- Going for charity swim on next sat 29th july, swimming to donate , aimming for 50- 60 laps but die die will swim 20laps
- change in attitude ? felt it ...
thinG tO kEep in minD:
'never take things for granted'
'keep the positive attitude going'
Monday, June 12, 2006
a bad day at work
md: =(
- went carry box of wines... slippery floor + hole = fell down ... to prevent the wine from breaking : hold it tight and tried my best to reduce impact = injured feet and scratches on hand ...
- feet: still ok at work, after work return home... guess it getting abit swollen ...
- they will be fine after a few days ...
- went carry box of wines... slippery floor + hole = fell down ... to prevent the wine from breaking : hold it tight and tried my best to reduce impact = injured feet and scratches on hand ...
- feet: still ok at work, after work return home... guess it getting abit swollen ...
- they will be fine after a few days ...
Thursday, June 08, 2006
5th mth
md:=)
- messed up the present for her =(
- out with her =)
-happy 5th mth to dearY
-happY birthday to eugene
- he's still like the past nv change(life jus about fighting?), hope he will find his way for the future
'life's not just about, admiring and saying, but it's also about dreaming and achieving '
- messed up the present for her =(
- out with her =)
-happy 5th mth to dearY
-happY birthday to eugene
- he's still like the past nv change(life jus about fighting?), hope he will find his way for the future
'life's not just about, admiring and saying, but it's also about dreaming and achieving '
Sunday, June 04, 2006
born fortunate =)
md: -
everyone fated to meet.
when i was born:
although not in a wealthy family,
not having a responsible father,
but i have a mother, 2 brothers and sis,
who cares and dotes me.
when i face different life stages:
feeling stressed up,
feeling down,
feeling helpless,
feeling useless,
there will always be someone there for me:
everytime in my life:
having brothers and sisters around, providing me their's ears for listening and their's hand in holding me.
now:
having a wonderful ger in my life, who have been providing me the moral support and loving me.
In GWP
having the GWP gang
having the 'godmum' who somehow dote on me
serving as a CI (in greenview)
not having the tradition of senior guiding junior in EV,
A CI in the name, a NCO in the role ?
having mr seong around, guiding me and teaching me, he taught me life
having cindy and HO around, things were make posiible
in those NDP days
having a butTy in my life, who have influence me and gave me the energy in going on.
to care and love
having hardcore who make life there more enjoyable
Judo days
might not be as well as expected,
but they were there to guide me along through the learning of spirit, techniques,
Back to EV
Respect of honour:
Mr Don Yeo
Mrs Tan SF
Mrs Ng PY
Mr Yeo LS
CI lum ZY
Tan JX
the power of perseverances and determination
when you loves someone, make sure that they are happy?
having buddies who share woes and sweats together,
playing together
study together
copying homework early in the morning
being punish together
achieving something together
tat's when i: understand the meaning of caring someone
in those primary sch days
playing catching
playing soccer
picking rubbish with mr tay (the great chinese teacher of mine), make me care about the enviroment
i might not remember everything, but i noe if they wasn't there in my past, things will be differents.
ever wonder if they wasn't there, how different will things be?
Many people, many things ...
if u wasn't there, my life will be different
if i don exist, others life will also be different
nv take things for granted
everyone is fortunate in some ways=)
be happy and think of it, treasure it...
everyone fated to meet.
when i was born:
although not in a wealthy family,
not having a responsible father,
but i have a mother, 2 brothers and sis,
who cares and dotes me.
when i face different life stages:
feeling stressed up,
feeling down,
feeling helpless,
feeling useless,
there will always be someone there for me:
everytime in my life:
having brothers and sisters around, providing me their's ears for listening and their's hand in holding me.
now:
having a wonderful ger in my life, who have been providing me the moral support and loving me.
In GWP
having the GWP gang
having the 'godmum' who somehow dote on me
serving as a CI (in greenview)
not having the tradition of senior guiding junior in EV,
A CI in the name, a NCO in the role ?
having mr seong around, guiding me and teaching me, he taught me life
having cindy and HO around, things were make posiible
in those NDP days
having a butTy in my life, who have influence me and gave me the energy in going on.
to care and love
having hardcore who make life there more enjoyable
Judo days
might not be as well as expected,
but they were there to guide me along through the learning of spirit, techniques,
Back to EV
Respect of honour:
Mr Don Yeo
Mrs Tan SF
Mrs Ng PY
Mr Yeo LS
CI lum ZY
Tan JX
the power of perseverances and determination
when you loves someone, make sure that they are happy?
having buddies who share woes and sweats together,
playing together
study together
copying homework early in the morning
being punish together
achieving something together
tat's when i: understand the meaning of caring someone
in those primary sch days
playing catching
playing soccer
picking rubbish with mr tay (the great chinese teacher of mine), make me care about the enviroment
i might not remember everything, but i noe if they wasn't there in my past, things will be differents.
ever wonder if they wasn't there, how different will things be?
Many people, many things ...
if u wasn't there, my life will be different
if i don exist, others life will also be different
nv take things for granted
everyone is fortunate in some ways=)
be happy and think of it, treasure it...
md: breezy
Complains or compliment?
whoa, guess what today?1 to 1 table, then first time experiencing the real kan chong feeling of being a bar man, although it was only for the start of the wedding dinner. hmm, back to serving my own table, hair were found in the food! follow up next was fly found in the coke, which was too dark to be notice by me! however the guest, go straight to telling the black jacket(ace), not to me(maybe they know that i was a part timer?). Actually i enjoy serving them, their appreciation towards the service, although we were paid to serve, they did not too us for granted like others(those act like tai tai, da shao ye). What stunted me most was the guy who suddenly dragged me to a corner and gave me 5 bucks and just walk away, i was like(there wasn't such a need, as it was my duty to provide service, i was paid to do that.)
Complains or compliment?
whoa, guess what today?1 to 1 table, then first time experiencing the real kan chong feeling of being a bar man, although it was only for the start of the wedding dinner. hmm, back to serving my own table, hair were found in the food! follow up next was fly found in the coke, which was too dark to be notice by me! however the guest, go straight to telling the black jacket(ace), not to me(maybe they know that i was a part timer?). Actually i enjoy serving them, their appreciation towards the service, although we were paid to serve, they did not too us for granted like others(those act like tai tai, da shao ye). What stunted me most was the guy who suddenly dragged me to a corner and gave me 5 bucks and just walk away, i was like(there wasn't such a need, as it was my duty to provide service, i was paid to do that.)
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
16th May '06
md: cloudy
- did not learn the main objective for today's lesson, due to work the night b4
- did not perform up to expectation for UT
- went out with GWP family, for dinner and K box
- did not able to hand up the student evaluation, quiz and RJ (today's daily grade gone, needa work extra harder for the rest)
md: cloudy
- did not learn the main objective for today's lesson, due to work the night b4
- did not perform up to expectation for UT
- went out with GWP family, for dinner and K box
- did not able to hand up the student evaluation, quiz and RJ (today's daily grade gone, needa work extra harder for the rest)
Monday, May 08, 2006
nth
md:-
- really sorry for not going out with the GWP familY pai sei pai sei...
- ytd was the most cork up funtion, some accidentally pour wine on the biggest guest, some kanna complain, me accidentally spill champange container on grass ... haiz .. (why was it my fault? i am only a part timer, i collect it under order, it not according to my will... jus don get it... y didn u talk to the black jacket ? wth... 4 ppl collecting them, am i kanna those shit... to collect(order from manager) or not to collect(order from swiss ambassor's wife) ? i noe it's rude to collect while the guest is sitting... but was i given a choice?
- 4th mth (want her to be the most xin fu ger in the world hehe)
- really sorry for not going out with the GWP familY pai sei pai sei...
- ytd was the most cork up funtion, some accidentally pour wine on the biggest guest, some kanna complain, me accidentally spill champange container on grass ... haiz .. (why was it my fault? i am only a part timer, i collect it under order, it not according to my will... jus don get it... y didn u talk to the black jacket ? wth... 4 ppl collecting them, am i kanna those shit... to collect(order from manager) or not to collect(order from swiss ambassor's wife) ? i noe it's rude to collect while the guest is sitting... but was i given a choice?
- 4th mth (want her to be the most xin fu ger in the world hehe)
Friday, April 28, 2006
judo 27/04
judo 27/04
Md: =)
Respect them in Judo
:sensei steven chee
:sensei kong
:sensei koseiki
:sensei Faizal
-Learn 5 sarcrificial throws
-injured little toe and knee
- INTEResting judo
Md: =)
Respect them in Judo
:sensei steven chee
:sensei kong
:sensei koseiki
:sensei Faizal
-Learn 5 sarcrificial throws
-injured little toe and knee
- INTEResting judo
Saturday, April 08, 2006
tired ? or fun ?
tired ?or fun ?
md:breezY
wow, today outside catering @ Swiss embassy residential, with jess and ramlan, then heard alot about the upper management, 'makan' money ... act hardworking... taking over the PIC's job etc... then returning back, we even act like some of those upper level, the way they talk, the things behind they do, the way they work , i noe it's kinda evil but it's fun ! in summarY it's kinda of integrity and politics stuffs.
After work went eating with par cun and ramlan, then went 'amazing race' - the search for an unknown bus stop LOL... from far east to bukit timah int then ard the town center which is JIN bukit MERAH then walking ard till somewhere near henderson and lower delta !! to search for the bus stop which has 852 not knowing that it's located @ UPPER bukit timah OMG ! haha, then think of solution, take to the YS int and change ? nah, try luck walk ard again, then found 855 which have a similar destination as 852!! SO LUCKy but then reached too early, somemore there's nth ard there, then take further down saw mac sit down and reach and wait for time to pass, haixz unlucky things haven end yet, while taking back to the bus stop, i miss IT!! argh somemore miss till i blur cos night .. wah BTH!~~~ grwwW lucky when taking back, manage to reach b4 ger... pheW ... hope she will like the prizzies =) happy 3rd mth
I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!
: haha ... first thing first RP judo: someone rised that for year 1 joining in members hav to pay $10 per mth, 5 for club and 5 to jun yi(the 'coach'). i was wondering, do u think u are u enuff for others to hired u as a coach ? the way u does things? i find alot others out there doing alot better then u, if u are here to learn, fine we give u a chance to teach, but things wasnt gg the way( the way u think) AND who will wanna join ? if u were to pay 10 bucks every month ? i wln for a training and training ground like that, everything wasnt setted up properly, no proper katas, no proper set of things to learn, everything u teach just for IVP ?compeitions ? have u forgotten the meaning of judo? it's okie to modify for better uses, but DO U THINK OUR BASIC IS THERE ???!! no basic and u are talking about flying... there's no proper exposure to traditional judo techniques(throws) how u expect us to think, to choose a techniques that best suit us ? what about those who wanted to learn about the art of judo ? this 10 bucks things will make this IG a money minded IG ? i mean IG purpose is to gather, to have fun, to learn, to interact, AND NOT FOR$$$!!and
second: recruiting target setted by JY 100 -_-", 100 ? enuff space anot!? plz be more pratical ! don keep thinking about $$, even 20 we might not hav space!!
third NPCC, since mr seong stepped down, things seem to becoming inactive, we(siew ern and me) wasnt inform abt anything(any parade, etc), everything we have to get to know through the cadets... haizZz really hoping to make a POP for this SY '05/'06 NCOs, also a handing over ceremony, which might motivate those little ones in doing things =)
what have been happening ? haizZ ... am i wrong ? nah , this is ME !
md:breezY
wow, today outside catering @ Swiss embassy residential, with jess and ramlan, then heard alot about the upper management, 'makan' money ... act hardworking... taking over the PIC's job etc... then returning back, we even act like some of those upper level, the way they talk, the things behind they do, the way they work , i noe it's kinda evil but it's fun ! in summarY it's kinda of integrity and politics stuffs.
After work went eating with par cun and ramlan, then went 'amazing race' - the search for an unknown bus stop LOL... from far east to bukit timah int then ard the town center which is JIN bukit MERAH then walking ard till somewhere near henderson and lower delta !! to search for the bus stop which has 852 not knowing that it's located @ UPPER bukit timah OMG ! haha, then think of solution, take to the YS int and change ? nah, try luck walk ard again, then found 855 which have a similar destination as 852!! SO LUCKy but then reached too early, somemore there's nth ard there, then take further down saw mac sit down and reach and wait for time to pass, haixz unlucky things haven end yet, while taking back to the bus stop, i miss IT!! argh somemore miss till i blur cos night .. wah BTH!~~~ grwwW lucky when taking back, manage to reach b4 ger... pheW ... hope she will like the prizzies =) happy 3rd mth
I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!
: haha ... first thing first RP judo: someone rised that for year 1 joining in members hav to pay $10 per mth, 5 for club and 5 to jun yi(the 'coach'). i was wondering, do u think u are u enuff for others to hired u as a coach ? the way u does things? i find alot others out there doing alot better then u, if u are here to learn, fine we give u a chance to teach, but things wasnt gg the way( the way u think) AND who will wanna join ? if u were to pay 10 bucks every month ? i wln for a training and training ground like that, everything wasnt setted up properly, no proper katas, no proper set of things to learn, everything u teach just for IVP ?compeitions ? have u forgotten the meaning of judo? it's okie to modify for better uses, but DO U THINK OUR BASIC IS THERE ???!! no basic and u are talking about flying... there's no proper exposure to traditional judo techniques(throws) how u expect us to think, to choose a techniques that best suit us ? what about those who wanted to learn about the art of judo ? this 10 bucks things will make this IG a money minded IG ? i mean IG purpose is to gather, to have fun, to learn, to interact, AND NOT FOR$$$!!and
second: recruiting target setted by JY 100 -_-", 100 ? enuff space anot!? plz be more pratical ! don keep thinking about $$, even 20 we might not hav space!!
third NPCC, since mr seong stepped down, things seem to becoming inactive, we(siew ern and me) wasnt inform abt anything(any parade, etc), everything we have to get to know through the cadets... haizZz really hoping to make a POP for this SY '05/'06 NCOs, also a handing over ceremony, which might motivate those little ones in doing things =)
what have been happening ? haizZ ... am i wrong ? nah , this is ME !
Thursday, April 06, 2006
04-05 mar'06 md: sunnY
juS change the paper of mine and also edit some boxY in the blog wah spend hours to do those stuffs, well jus not born to be good at those=P hmm... as time passes things changes, more things comes into our's storY, memories faded, jus like pictures getting smaller, leaving behind the impt memo in ur life, everythings end with a full stop, jus like life too ...
woaH! canT helP falliNg in love in SWIMMING!! enjoy tues's LS training, learn alot=D
'there's always alternatives towards a problem just like different ways towards curing illness' =)
happy birthday to KL & joey(PL0103) on 4/4'06 & 5/4'06
soon to come birthdays
stella mama 14/04
BIG bro 13/04
butTy gg overseas soon in few hrs , b3st wishes =)
juS change the paper of mine and also edit some boxY in the blog wah spend hours to do those stuffs, well jus not born to be good at those=P hmm... as time passes things changes, more things comes into our's storY, memories faded, jus like pictures getting smaller, leaving behind the impt memo in ur life, everythings end with a full stop, jus like life too ...
woaH! canT helP falliNg in love in SWIMMING!! enjoy tues's LS training, learn alot=D
'there's always alternatives towards a problem just like different ways towards curing illness' =)
happy birthday to KL & joey(PL0103) on 4/4'06 & 5/4'06
soon to come birthdays
stella mama 14/04
BIG bro 13/04
butTy gg overseas soon in few hrs , b3st wishes =)
Saturday, April 01, 2006
md: -
wow, have been raining the past few days, but is those 'short short' type de...
some people are thought to be evil,
some people are thought to be kind,
can i say that everyone have the kind side of them?
also the evil side of ur's ?
u say that he's good,
she say that he's bad,
so who to belive?
eyes are meant to see,
ears are meant to listen,
'heart' are meant to feel...
judge it urself...
choose the people u wanted to have in your story,
in the story where the important are noted,
be the one that have being written in other's story...
be someone who make others smile...
be one who mould other's into a better person...
=) life isn't that bad
:k6i
wow, have been raining the past few days, but is those 'short short' type de...
some people are thought to be evil,
some people are thought to be kind,
can i say that everyone have the kind side of them?
also the evil side of ur's ?
u say that he's good,
she say that he's bad,
so who to belive?
eyes are meant to see,
ears are meant to listen,
'heart' are meant to feel...
judge it urself...
choose the people u wanted to have in your story,
in the story where the important are noted,
be the one that have being written in other's story...
be someone who make others smile...
be one who mould other's into a better person...
=) life isn't that bad
:k6i
Friday, March 24, 2006
ever question urself why?
md:sunnY ?
ever question about why do you wanted to do something, achieve something? haha, suddenly i asked a question to myself, y do i wanted to save life in the future ? how will that benefit others ? what about those evil people ? those people who don want to live anymore? To live another day is an beautiful, as u might realise or experience things around u, the people, the things, the nature, they are wonderful=) Y save? i think that everyone shld be given another chances to do something they wanted to do, to talk, to care, to touch the lifes ard. of cos nothing is forever, but wouldnt it be great if everyone is able to leave peacefully without regrets ? how do u feel when u wanted to do something but u are unable to?
ytd took cab home with Po tiong, haha discussed about JJ, he have changed alot in his character, too cocky? he changed because of a girl ... is that worth? is it fair to others around u? well that question only he himself can answer that (it's his life). then PT got off, the taxi driver chat with me, saying that nowadays people are turn more and more materialistic, well i do agree about that, look around you, how many people will actually put kindness(ties) or the heart to care in front of $$ ? how many people will actually willing to work as a social worker ? how many will actually accept a lower paid job then a higher paid job ?people that care, people that cant be bother, people that care becos of something , people who don noe how to care, come and go, leaving those who really treasure you ard, they stay with u becos they care about ur existence, becos u r there for them, becos u r that impt to them. but how will u care about people who really important to u in your life? keep it in the dark ? tell them openly ? or show it out ? wonder wonder wonder.... .... ...
unable to project my voice losen my confidence as a CI, i mean, who will really accept someone who unable to show good communication as a leader? who will actually respect someone who always speak so softly and not loudly? i noe the skills but how can i improve others? always not a good teacher... haiz sick and tired for being a CI, back in EV for judo, saw my npcc junior, i really hope to go back and serve that unit(which was the main aim of becoming a CI), but fate play me out ? i was posted to another sch? well it's life... saw jas mei and gang hanging around the canteen after judo... haha their looks changed...
'living life with a purpose, it's life'
md:sunnY ?
ever question about why do you wanted to do something, achieve something? haha, suddenly i asked a question to myself, y do i wanted to save life in the future ? how will that benefit others ? what about those evil people ? those people who don want to live anymore? To live another day is an beautiful, as u might realise or experience things around u, the people, the things, the nature, they are wonderful=) Y save? i think that everyone shld be given another chances to do something they wanted to do, to talk, to care, to touch the lifes ard. of cos nothing is forever, but wouldnt it be great if everyone is able to leave peacefully without regrets ? how do u feel when u wanted to do something but u are unable to?
ytd took cab home with Po tiong, haha discussed about JJ, he have changed alot in his character, too cocky? he changed because of a girl ... is that worth? is it fair to others around u? well that question only he himself can answer that (it's his life). then PT got off, the taxi driver chat with me, saying that nowadays people are turn more and more materialistic, well i do agree about that, look around you, how many people will actually put kindness(ties) or the heart to care in front of $$ ? how many people will actually willing to work as a social worker ? how many will actually accept a lower paid job then a higher paid job ?people that care, people that cant be bother, people that care becos of something , people who don noe how to care, come and go, leaving those who really treasure you ard, they stay with u becos they care about ur existence, becos u r there for them, becos u r that impt to them. but how will u care about people who really important to u in your life? keep it in the dark ? tell them openly ? or show it out ? wonder wonder wonder.... .... ...
unable to project my voice losen my confidence as a CI, i mean, who will really accept someone who unable to show good communication as a leader? who will actually respect someone who always speak so softly and not loudly? i noe the skills but how can i improve others? always not a good teacher... haiz sick and tired for being a CI, back in EV for judo, saw my npcc junior, i really hope to go back and serve that unit(which was the main aim of becoming a CI), but fate play me out ? i was posted to another sch? well it's life... saw jas mei and gang hanging around the canteen after judo... haha their looks changed...
'living life with a purpose, it's life'
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
21st mar'06
21st mar'06
Md: sunnY
today manage to swim better in lifesaving training !! those senior class are going for Bronze medalion nxt week... woah best luck for them=) if passed liao can become a lifeguard... nxt thing nxt of the day: I maintianed my 3.4 GPA:
Basic Sciences II B
Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving II B+
Computing and Mathematical Methods II B+
Contemporary Issues in Culture & Aesthetics B+
Enterprise Skills II B+
Although didn meet 3.6 from what i setted in the start of the sem, but at least did not 'deproved' haha, nxt sem mus pull lotsa petrol to get 3.8 then get into the roll of honour, then can get scholarship = ease finacial burden !! haha
'as time passed, the dark clouds will also be drift away=)' nothing is permement
Md: sunnY
today manage to swim better in lifesaving training !! those senior class are going for Bronze medalion nxt week... woah best luck for them=) if passed liao can become a lifeguard... nxt thing nxt of the day: I maintianed my 3.4 GPA:
Basic Sciences II B
Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving II B+
Computing and Mathematical Methods II B+
Contemporary Issues in Culture & Aesthetics B+
Enterprise Skills II B+
Although didn meet 3.6 from what i setted in the start of the sem, but at least did not 'deproved' haha, nxt sem mus pull lotsa petrol to get 3.8 then get into the roll of honour, then can get scholarship = ease finacial burden !! haha
'as time passed, the dark clouds will also be drift away=)' nothing is permement
Sunday, March 19, 2006
inter tertiary '06
Inter tertiary '06
md: cloudy
Does weight really matter in judo, does strength plays a great part in throwing? morning weighting in, omg i am only 55 kg while my opponent was 72, pack with muscles, compact size, whao ! haiZz chances of winning seem so dim then... he won me with and osoto gari makikomi, hmm, mayb i was too k chong or scare ba, didn noe what to do in such a compeition, i he was really good, i saulate =) well things then were spread ard that some people were not playing the belt catergory they should hav played, 'the self demote declaration form' lol. but who cares? it's the xp that matter most. then while watching other matches, i realise i missed out something in my tatic, 'explosive'. one of the most important component in compeitions for winning in judo. 'timing' another impt component, when u got it, u win, u missed it, u 'll either get a counter, or continue with another attack. jus keep on trying with your brains on.
then team event, losed to another heavy weight guy through ground work, but thanks to him, i found my own judo,compeition not that scary play your own style enjoy it.
weight doesn't matter at all!! but strenght does play a big part in breaking balances.
-more weight training
- tai otoshi, ouchi gari, osoto gari, hari goshi, tani otoshi
-EAT EAT EAT !!
- jus on judo ? no more npcc?
- train be dare to strike (explosive)
-create the ku jushi and not wait for it
haha not forgetting to congrats ning ning, gab and raft in winning 2 3rd runner up and 1 2nd runner up in white to yellow open cat, white to yellow under 75 and above 75 =) cheers first medels for RP's first match =) u rocks guy... for others, we did done well but others were stronger, so we'll have to train harder ! yeah ... haha
md: cloudy
Does weight really matter in judo, does strength plays a great part in throwing? morning weighting in, omg i am only 55 kg while my opponent was 72, pack with muscles, compact size, whao ! haiZz chances of winning seem so dim then... he won me with and osoto gari makikomi, hmm, mayb i was too k chong or scare ba, didn noe what to do in such a compeition, i he was really good, i saulate =) well things then were spread ard that some people were not playing the belt catergory they should hav played, 'the self demote declaration form' lol. but who cares? it's the xp that matter most. then while watching other matches, i realise i missed out something in my tatic, 'explosive'. one of the most important component in compeitions for winning in judo. 'timing' another impt component, when u got it, u win, u missed it, u 'll either get a counter, or continue with another attack. jus keep on trying with your brains on.
then team event, losed to another heavy weight guy through ground work, but thanks to him, i found my own judo,compeition not that scary play your own style enjoy it.
weight doesn't matter at all!! but strenght does play a big part in breaking balances.
-more weight training
- tai otoshi, ouchi gari, osoto gari, hari goshi, tani otoshi
-EAT EAT EAT !!
- jus on judo ? no more npcc?
- train be dare to strike (explosive)
-create the ku jushi and not wait for it
haha not forgetting to congrats ning ning, gab and raft in winning 2 3rd runner up and 1 2nd runner up in white to yellow open cat, white to yellow under 75 and above 75 =) cheers first medels for RP's first match =) u rocks guy... for others, we did done well but others were stronger, so we'll have to train harder ! yeah ... haha
Monday, March 13, 2006
1303'06
md:hmmm ....
today, working all the while wah!! first time becoming bar man so shiok =)know more things from velu, learn alot of things, thanks Jessica(my captain) for teaching me and giving me the chance... it's fun to learn and experience new things... 'man with great ego?' mayb ... guess i need to learn how to do things slowly (calmly)... time to sleep working tomorrow morning at 8 left 3 hrs of slp ... wah!!
today, working all the while wah!! first time becoming bar man so shiok =)know more things from velu, learn alot of things, thanks Jessica(my captain) for teaching me and giving me the chance... it's fun to learn and experience new things... 'man with great ego?' mayb ... guess i need to learn how to do things slowly (calmly)... time to sleep working tomorrow morning at 8 left 3 hrs of slp ... wah!!
Friday, March 10, 2006
an end to sem 2 Y1
28/2 - 10/3 '06
Md: -
Sem 2 come to an end, missing some of my friends in the class, those who i usually hang out with in sch(eat together, outing, taking photos, crapping and achieving better grades), thanks for bringing joys to me in this sem, or else life in sch might be jus too boring=) thanks for everythings... haha now what ? it's HOLIDAY till mid april !! muhahahha, packed for working, judo, lifesaving, my dearY and some findings in my curiousity hehehe ... oh ya mayb also preparation for G902 PPM(so can take up more electives learn more things, hope so). loves my mum, my siblings, my dearY, buttY, my buddys, my friends, my teachers ... life will not be the same without them=) hmm, judo inter tertiary coming up nxt on 19th march, wow !! so near, somemore i am far from good, sure died, haizZ, nvm la just treat it as a experiences, winning is not the most important ma, compeitions is to display and sharing of skills between others? needa hav more weight training and swim more or else life gonna be difficult LOL..
'the sky is always the limit'
Md: -
Sem 2 come to an end, missing some of my friends in the class, those who i usually hang out with in sch(eat together, outing, taking photos, crapping and achieving better grades), thanks for bringing joys to me in this sem, or else life in sch might be jus too boring=) thanks for everythings... haha now what ? it's HOLIDAY till mid april !! muhahahha, packed for working, judo, lifesaving, my dearY and some findings in my curiousity hehehe ... oh ya mayb also preparation for G902 PPM(so can take up more electives learn more things, hope so). loves my mum, my siblings, my dearY, buttY, my buddys, my friends, my teachers ... life will not be the same without them=) hmm, judo inter tertiary coming up nxt on 19th march, wow !! so near, somemore i am far from good, sure died, haizZ, nvm la just treat it as a experiences, winning is not the most important ma, compeitions is to display and sharing of skills between others? needa hav more weight training and swim more or else life gonna be difficult LOL..
'the sky is always the limit'
Monday, February 27, 2006
Fated?
Cant it just be a little bit better?
Md: cloudY
whY? everytime the tuition fees from RP comes always gives me BIG worries... Y ? simply becos i have an irresponsible father who didn take up the responsibility in taking care of our life, our neccessity, my mother who's CPF have been used up as to pay for my elder brothers poly and have been working so hard to support us... i feel useless when i have to rely on my mum to pay for my school fees, why am i unable to support myself ? sometimes wondering, am i spending time wisely ? i am not a rich man son, neither a person who have resposible father. was the birth of my a fault? was my existence unecssary? sometimes just wondering who am i and what am i doing ... too tired ...
i feel sad... for not doing things better, for not achieving better grades myself... it's time to give up somethings in life.. .
Md: cloudY
whY? everytime the tuition fees from RP comes always gives me BIG worries... Y ? simply becos i have an irresponsible father who didn take up the responsibility in taking care of our life, our neccessity, my mother who's CPF have been used up as to pay for my elder brothers poly and have been working so hard to support us... i feel useless when i have to rely on my mum to pay for my school fees, why am i unable to support myself ? sometimes wondering, am i spending time wisely ? i am not a rich man son, neither a person who have resposible father. was the birth of my a fault? was my existence unecssary? sometimes just wondering who am i and what am i doing ... too tired ...
i feel sad... for not doing things better, for not achieving better grades myself... it's time to give up somethings in life.. .
Sunday, February 26, 2006
road to life again?
2602'06
some days before, i asked myself what have i been doing all this while,what i want to achieves, what can i do to benefit the society in the future, what should i do to provide a better future for my loves ones. am i thinking too much ? mayBe after watch the story of a unfortunate ger, who is good at everything and one day because of her sickness, she have to give up alot of things, to dream ... time is precious ... to live is fortunate, to have the ability is fortunate, having what you have now is lucky... cos there are always ppl who live in the darkness, heading no where to the future ... is the heaven unfair? is there something controlling what we are now? what we have now?because of that fate existed...
people regrets, always hoping for a time machines that can bring them back to the past... one day anyone will died, peacefully or otherwise...
For the future to saves live, i want to become a med tech...
To protect, i learn judo, lifesaving
working for a better life ? to achieve more ?
can the world have more time? can time machines existed, so that people know how to make the best uses ofthe time ?
NO... the world have 365 days/ year, 24 hrs per days .... ...
' am i heading towards where i want to ?'
some days before, i asked myself what have i been doing all this while,what i want to achieves, what can i do to benefit the society in the future, what should i do to provide a better future for my loves ones. am i thinking too much ? mayBe after watch the story of a unfortunate ger, who is good at everything and one day because of her sickness, she have to give up alot of things, to dream ... time is precious ... to live is fortunate, to have the ability is fortunate, having what you have now is lucky... cos there are always ppl who live in the darkness, heading no where to the future ... is the heaven unfair? is there something controlling what we are now? what we have now?because of that fate existed...
people regrets, always hoping for a time machines that can bring them back to the past... one day anyone will died, peacefully or otherwise...
For the future to saves live, i want to become a med tech...
To protect, i learn judo, lifesaving
working for a better life ? to achieve more ?
can the world have more time? can time machines existed, so that people know how to make the best uses ofthe time ?
NO... the world have 365 days/ year, 24 hrs per days .... ...
' am i heading towards where i want to ?'
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