da ge's back

md: sunny

now shift everything to my brother's return from aust. haha took alot pics :) yup, yi kai is gg to take alot of photos from today onwards, to remember when memories fade :)














>da ge and uncle daddy














> er ge and uncle daddy











>me and mum











> da ge and me











> me and uncle daddy














> ta da ! as slim as the marble statue, or skinny should be the word ? haha













> me and er ge











> me and er jie











> me and er ge ..

tat's all i guess .. that's what happen when yi kai gets bored.. haha .. I don't need a dad, might sound cruel but that's how we get bond together. cos you were always not there for us .. yup i do admire others who have perfect family and resposible dad, but i am satisfy with what i have now :)

nowcast: watery sun

coaching 9am class, ryan, charvi and zeyu. charvi improve alot :)

then took over 10m Alvin class ... then took a cab rush over to mindmax ...

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LAST lessons at mindmax
1130am class,
gordon is back after a long break, keeping calling kavan as karvan, sorry kavan. this boy kavan keep on sticking on me, suddenly out of blue hug my leg, then this then i was like -_-"'. yup although this is only the 2nd lesson i ve taught him but it seem that he is very close to me, always do stupid faces infront of me, hug my hand or leg out of sudden.. the noisy jasmine and angeline wasnt here. Jolie, a student who i have taught from her start till now, yup always a discipline and motivated girl. adios jasmine, angeline, jolie, hugo, kavan, nicole and gordon..

145pm class..
one of the most naughty class i ever taught in mindmax but also the most memorable one..










thanks fen for the pic.

kids intro:
left most, Shuen wei: used to be a very hardworking boy when some of his classmates was still around, but then was influence by jonas. haha always find alll sorts of excuses not to do things, too bad i know ur pattern.. his favourite phase 'aiya teacher, don't do also nvm de la' , where got nvm de?? ur parents dont ask you to come here for nothing.

Jonas: a boy who have behaviour problem, even when the principal of mindmax also agree. Make all teachers in school give up on him, trying to get attention by doing stupid things, flare up very easily. BUT when you talk to him with patience, he will listen and do things you want him to achieve.guess alot of his teachers didn do that to him. once I ask him, 'do you always talk to all your teacher in such a rude manner?' he replied: 'ya i talk to them all like tat de, they don care also'.. he have a mum who work 6 day per week and a taxi driver dad.. guess he just need more care and concern from you parents.. his fav phrase 'aiya chip also not money', haha so young and all he talk is money liao LOL... Although you are the most naughty in class and i am very strict to you, but you are one of the student i care alot.. You really did well today jonas !! i am so proud of ur performance today :) Pls teachers out there, don't ever give up on ur own students. You can choose to made miracle to their life, although it may be tough but i think is worthwhile..

Jonathon: haha is his first day of lesson..

Sinyi : very quiet and independent student in class, haha but sometimes you will see her doing some stupid things together with vanessa and shuen wei.. your hardwork will pay off de :)

Vanessa: v guai girl at first, but soon she also turn to a nonsense kids haha. her favorite phase 'who cares?' which slowly influence the class with her 'who cares' phrase.. sometime v good sometimes v lazy..

fen told them today is my last day, they ask: why the boy come then you go liao?? in my mind i was like thinking: like tat also can ar ? it's 2 totally no link de things children.. will miss you kids :)

teacher will we get the photo? yup will develop it and pass to teacher fen ;)
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radio played a song that i shouldn be listening just when i am stepping out of my house ...

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yi kai's back to kitchen after sooOo long, yup i am lazy, simple fishball cabbage soup, wedges, fries, fish nugget + F1 race on TV.. ahah

great, got my army black spec after nags from my sis..

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down to airport, waiting for the arrival of my big bro..

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tat's all.. adios

nowcast: stoney

- turning around on the bed from 12 to 3 am > slightly overslept
- diarrhea early in the morning when i reach SLI.
- relief Alvin 9 am class
- took shao ming (1:1) last time ? his mum ask when i 'll be back, told her maybe 2 weeks or even 2 months till things in NS are settled down.Then she ask if i am able to 'book' a slot for shao ming, cos he prefer me.. i my mind i was like 'stunt', cos this boy is always soo quiet, i am surpries to hear that but at the same time i am happy also.

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it's a prank by fate, run or face ...

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you ai you hen

nowcast: stoney

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last day of class with little palm, didn told the kids about it. as per usual i will always tell them ' we will do this nxt week ok? whenever they make noise about things they want to do..










--> the class where by you can hear 'yi kai hor hor here and there' every 5 mins. haha cos basically they are full of nonsense. my you ai you hen de class ..
thanks aunt flora for the pic :)

let me intro them:
- boy in yellow, Justin: most talented student in class, you can see him trying his best when practising, sometime will do nonsense things when he's bored haha..

- boy in blue without cap, Wilson: the most naughty student of all, from pushing to scolding his friends. Will always be the loudest of all, whenever he reach you will hear him, where is yi kai kor kor? Always ask why why why, from ABC to life buoy... haha

-only girl in photo, Sin Yi:most quiet de but always do sunts de, when swimming will always say 'can i do it myself ?. haha of cos you can:)

- the tiny little boy in blue, gordon:'baby gordon, if you want to become super gordon you must do this.. ' immediately you will see him with courage to try haha.. the most tiny and also the most timid in class. Always imagine that inside the swimming pool got water spider and insect LOL. then you will see me trying all ways to pian him into the pool. haha

- boy absent, xiao zhu: brave but always try the wrong thing at the wrong time, haha v afraid of being punish, sometimes guai sometime mischieve.. haha

*miss you kids.. hope you all will improve more with the next instructor taking over .. jia you ..

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some misc photos when browsing through hp...











-> chamelon in action













- just plain yellow line











- orion in box











- pyramid with eugene (mindmax)

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- troubled, cos i don know...

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nowcast: watery stone

- too dreamy cause lack of slp, no mood for anything
- lunch with uncle john, he wanted to treat me as i am gg NS soon. thanks uncle john.
- mayce is hospitalised as there were blood clot in her brain resulting her having frequent magraine.. hope she will recover soon.
- mayce away now office will have a hard time due to manpower shortage, guess i will have to help them more with the admin work.
- rem the wrong timing for my class, auntie flora also rem wrongly then comfirm my timing by mistake, ended up uncle patrick have to take 11 students. Sorry uncle patrick, not even a last chance to coach this babies (kai, rayner, lycia and hong yu) sorry :(
- 4pm class is a bad day for me. no mood anymore
- then admin admin admin .. really no mood to do things..
- walked home after alighting at lib busstop, a route which only took me less than 8min to run have became a route that i took more than 30mins to complete.. walk walk walk .. i cant belive that this is actually happenin to me again after so many years..

-- i need some brain wash--

nowcast: stoney

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rushing day, here and there
- relief elson's class (which used to be my class months ago)
- out for movie :) sory .

shld i , shld i not ?
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nowcast:stoney

6 reasons why i hate to paint:
- need to WAIT!! (for mins to days, therefore cannot finish by 1 day grrr)
- need to be patience (no patience not nice, somemore i got v little patience)
- need to wash brush & palette
- need to get/search materials
- need to estimate the amount of paint needed
- need to clear the mess

3 reason why i paint:
- gives me good feelings
- sense of satisfaction when things turn out nice
- express feelings and thoughts

alrite end of grumbling... hao ren nan zhuo, hai ren nan an ..

nowcast: stoney

Whenever it comes to the last lesson of coaching a particular class, jiu shi you bu she de. really hate to leave those kids that i am coaching currently, no matter they are good or bad. I guess this is the bonds formed with them over time. But still i will have to pass them on to another coach..

fire fire.. there was war in office today... everyone have their strength and weakness, no one is perfect. So do try to understand the situation or why did the person say/ do such a thing before flaring up ya ?

I saw it ,now i do understand more about the bonds between family and friends. Thanks. :)

It's this feeling that i once have 4 years ago .. thoughts and thoughts just wanders ..

md: stoney

- went NUS splashdown
- took over nao evening classes
- first time teaching adult

- stubborn corn + stupid shoulder + terrible headache..

nowcast: windy

went pumping more blood into muscle cells, and sadly to say everyone is feeling so tired and lazy. Mar got his 4th finger swollen and poor him have to take 2 type of anti B.. then went visiting his hse, and waOoo very clean and neat!!

wOo suddenly have the urge to visit lib, and realise there's corner all with the books i like! great, that will be my freq visit corner. I am going to read and read and read ... always seek for continuous improvement.

nowcast: firey

.. misinterpretation of meanings ... don assume.. ask ...

Thanks:
- Justin for the teacher's DAY gift :)
- ms zhuang for her drink.

I dont earn big bucks by doing admin stuffs, but you guys think it's alot, don't get it. i could have played punk but i didn ... I only write hours that i am doing things for u all ...

nowcast: windy

big bro have left to aust for his degree presentation today, and will be back on th 28th.. which means will be rotting alone at home for mon and tues afternoon ...

After sending him off, pass lao sim things and send her home, help mum with some stuffs, supper at circuit road with uncle dad. BLOATED ... burp !! cuse me .. haha

thoughts went through my mind, shld i led a normal ns experience? or an extra ordinary one ?

will be taking classes at mindmax and SLI till 30th of sep, then slack slack for 9 days before going in.. haha even nowadays in my mind is only 'slacking' and not 'working' ..

when i grew up, there are 3 person that i must be fillal to .. mum, uncle dad and lao sim ...

windy/ watery/ firey/stoney

'cracks' memories

nowcast: stone

A song that recall ..
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无印良品:如果你还爱我

我带着一颗疲惫的心走了　我知道自己在你心里已不重要
虽然我们曾经相聚过　也许对於你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆

我带着一颗沉重的心走了　我知道自己没有勇气道别离
虽然我们曾经拥有过　但是对於你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆

难道早以註定　不能真正拥有你
难道我真心付出一切　只为了承受孤单和寂寞
我知道你不敢对我坦白　是不要看到我的伤怀
虽然你没有说要离开我　我已经感到你不再属於我

如果你还爱我　你不会对我如此的冷漠
又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
如果你还爱我　你不会对我如此的冷漠
我只能含着眼泪
默默的离开

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' f- up' stories

nowcast: stone

Finally a full stop for National LS comp. unlucky day ? all of the beach sprint team relay did not get into finals, either DQ or .. Anyway everyone have did their best. Everyone have their 'f-up' stories/ experiences, people who were present ytd till the events end will understand the term?haha

Andy and me only manage to make it to the 9th position for board rescue, good job dude i know that you are swimming ur best alrd. If there's a chance, we'll try again nxt year...

was it luck or training not enough ?

nowcast: disappointed

heart was like beating faster and faster, drew lots, heat one number 6, SLSS surfboard no. 6 missing, leaving me no choice but to use NUS surf board, strong currents/ waves, so high that you have trouble looking for the buoy, unlike SLSS board this board keep taking in water from the front.. really have much trouble propelling it forward, everyones turning at the same point and i got stuck, finally manage to catch up a 5th placing, someone capsized right infront of me, leaving me stucking there ... rotten luck, placing got all the way back. in my mind i was only thinking of giving up, where my body is still trying so hard... pull pull pull and manage to get back to 5th position again... after the last turning point, 6th placing was so close to me, and damn me, off position towards the finishing pole, shift shift shift and there goes my 5th placing ... the hope to final... completed the heat with 6 position, which is just 1 more position inorder to get into final .. lot number 6, with position no. 6, if only i got SLSS number 6 board too ... Was it luck ? or training not enough ? or was it the problem with stress ? something i trained so hard for .. ya you are right, L = Loser (i know u don mean it but ..) ... I cant even do well in my pet event ..

Andy and i manage to get into finals for board rescue, hope that luck will be on our side, hope he dont swim off position again, jiayou.

There were alot of people getting into finals, rachel (board race), KT, PYK and PL (board paddling), WS and Peg (board rescue), chris and peg torpedo tude rescue, Jin and Marv (ironman /woman), woman's taplin... good job guys ..

nowcast: fear/ anxious

less than 2 days to open water comp.. 2 Js also in surfing .. hope things will turn out fine, scare like last year, lost in the event that i train hard in .. try my best .. no regrets ..

competitions where there is no timings to gauge.. only you urself knows that have u done your best ... where ur competitors are ur guideline...

nowcast: slight inner drizzle

Choice is made. I guess is for the better.. nv regret for the feelings and things done.. thanks for everything in the past, tiny.. Although there were ups and downs, I have choose to rem the ups and forget the downs.. when u are down do rem 2 look for me, ll be there always.. tata ..

Meet Kelvin Tan today on MRT while i was on my way to BL, hahaa all fate, if i didn't giv up my sit he wldn saw me .. he is my microB faci when i was in year2, a great faci who guide us correctly and tried to grade according to fairness. But i guess to alot people there were dislikes toward him. He spend 3 yrs in SP, 4 yrs in NUS studying science but afterall now he ended up in a 'insurance/ finacial advisor' kum part time RP faci. Wonder wonder.. If i keep on persuing my dream career/ ambition, it will certainly be a very long journey.. and thinking of 'finicial returns' for the career , i am stuck and lost ... will pharma industry boom in the future, other alternatives to benefit the society?

nowcast: stone

tick tock tick tock .. counting down towards 9 Oct where another 'restart button' will be press in life.. Cant wait to go into tekong, not because the army life inside, rather it just the thoughts that i 'faster go in faster come out'. Times now are like 'meaningless' to me, although carefree but there's no duties, no goals, no directions..

Sometimes when we take a step back and ask ourselve questions on why are we doing certain things, we cant find any answer to it. Sometimes when we ask, we might find that these actions are unnecessary/ meaningless, we'll stop. Sometimes when we didn bother to think about it, we'll just continue doing it... If there is a practical person, he/she will keep questionings/ thinking about things they should do/not. If there is a emotional person, he/she will just do things based on his/her intuition. If there is a simple person, he/ she will just do things without much thoughts, no matter is it a right or wrong thing. When facing works, studies, practicality/ feelings. When facing relationships with people, feelings over practicality. But what if things were another way round ?

Everyones have their childhood dreams, but as we grow older, some dreams will just get drifted further and further away.. for some alternative routes were taken.. soon people realise what they really want in life ...

Soon compeititions will be over, no more team trainings.. no more routine or responsibility to attend trainings regularly.. Guess after 6 & 7 of Sep, most likely will not see you guys again, will really miss the times with you guys..my memories written 'IN RP LIFESAVING TEAM' ..

nowcast: nothing ..

I felt stone stone de .. i know i know .. but still .. i ask myself ..

Trainings is still not enough for me ... i need more trainings to boost .. sian .. last beach trg tmr .. damn !

weather: dwn

it's really scary... But i guess there's nothing more i can do... I feel hopeless. Not knowing what happened, what are the problems, what are the solutions to it...All I hope for is just to create more simple happy memories for the rest of the 1 and the 1/2 mth ... I dont mind the bites, the smacks, the piggy backs ... all i hope is ...

Feeling dwn... just simply didn want to concentrate on other things .. obstacle swim timing back to square one .. no improvement but 'deprovement' ... comp ? forget about it ...

complains comes again, don't understand that why she keep having prejudice against her own daughter. Why did you cover your mind with her 'bads' but not her 'goods' ?? if this carry on, with such a mindset, you will only make the fortune telling come true, so will you really be happy with that? ....

weather: worries

things ok ? accident? something happen? emo? avoidance? what is it?? unease ... I cant say too much cos there's no one right for me to turn to ..

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how i hope i can take part for this year taplin relay.. Reason is because there's a chance of getting into final .. it's only when the players of team B are being tap into their area of strength .. luck ..

Focus .. get it done for once ..

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md: -

what is love to you? issit something which can only be experience with the very special person or issit something that can be experience with anybody out there? Do love experience exist ? having more relationship more different people will gain more experience? So it means that flirting will be the better choice instead of being faithful to one...

But to me there will always be a different between someone special and someone not, there will always be a line to differentiate that... I believes that special love cannot be share around, to anybody.. I learn to speak my mind cos i don't wan to hide here and there where masks is all over, speaking out the truth is important, at the very least there will be more understanding towards one another.

I guess, i feel , like right from the start, there will always be the person who will weighs more than me... no matter what i did.. how i try ..

things will still end like the past .. it's just like a cycle round and round .. dont understand, tell me why ..

wonders wonder ... what's split personality?

last day coaching little max .. ok there was sort of sad feelings.. although is just a few days of coaching ...

unhappiness, selfish thoughts ... growing up, knowing more things ... don ask me what's wrong, tell me .. i also don know .. deep in thoughts.. figuring out ..

md: -

Looking at parents around, looking at so many others around... They are really fortunate to have such a wonderful parents. Parents who will always be there for them, taking care of them.. I guess i would have grow up with a different personality with different mindset if I have such a wonderful parents...

guess tmr will be a tiring day, from 8 am- 1130am (coaching), then from 130pm-515pm (mindmax) ... nvm always live life to the fullness .. waste no time..

'pray that ur leg will recover soon' ...

md: -

thanks for the 'amour' :)

Days are boring spending times alone, when there's no one to talk to, no one to share ur success, happiness with, no one to 'pour' grumble to... sore throat, gum abrasion(don noe issit what people called wisdom tooth problem anot' ...

'nothing is constant because time is constantly ticking..'

ytd shld be a special day, today is olympic opening, tomorrow is NDP'08 ... but still i have to report to swimming pool for work for these 3 days.. no double pay also haiz .. just grumbling over here, back to work, guess having me taking the 7 days 1:1 intensive lessons for that little boy is somehow or rather 'fate' ba :).

no trg no trg no trg , haiyo!! sian..

'tick tok ... tick tok ... forgotten memories ...' do you still remember ??

md: -

'cherish and appreciate', I guess these are the two very important words that should be exist in everyone, esp to your close ones.

But sometimes people just tend to forget these 2 very simple yet important principles in life. from simple task like giving up sits on public transport for others to mum preparing dinner, did we notice that as times goes by some of us tend to take things for granted? Forget to say 2 simple words 'thank you' to the one giving up sit, forget to show that you appreciate what your mum have done for u.

Sometimes people tend to be so business minded, sometimes too 'hobbies' minded, sometimes too 'results' minded, sometimes getting too in depth into their own world sometimes, or sometimes just caring too much for themselves.. And sometimes all these different 'too much' minded result one getting more drifted away from their close ones... neglecting that times need to be spend together, care need to be given to one another, concerns need to be ask...

just as times passes, have you neglected the 2 basic yet important 'ingredients' in life? I guess i did ... never underestimate a simple smile to your friend, a simple 'thank you' to a stranger, a simple actions of appreciation to your love ones.

Nxt talking about inconsideration and irresponsible, which happen from taking public transport to simple chores at home. cant people just take up their own initiative to do things when things need to be done?

forgive and forget ... not lazy and forget ...

don't forget becos of laziness ...

md: breezy

first, AHCC classes, 3 of the student's parents inform me that they might want to stop coming after 2 more lesson, reason 'the facilities is not up to standard'. yes i do strongly agree with this and the management team of AHCC is still not doing anything about it. They ask me do i teach outside, all i said is i don't teach outside... haiz wasted.. anyway i only left with 8 more weeks to teach them which is like 8 more lesson ...

trg trg, not much of stamina trg on surfing, but much of a sprint trg by myself, i recall how i capsize during the final last year 'all becos of the slow start off'. this time round i will be more prepare, will do my v best, not just on the day itself, but on every trg also. hopefully... hard + smart work does pay off ..

md: -

Today? i guess was a bad day for me, scolding and cursing those people who are inconsiderate ... why cant this people just spare a thought for others ? well anyway, all of the unhappiness was just simply replace by her 'craziness', thanks baby PIG! :D for being there to tolerate my nonsenses and brightening my dull times up. :)

md: :)

Although Daytime was coaching and admin, but what actually happen later in the evening actually brighten up my mood. just simple fries + smile + little 'nonsense' = brighter :)

trg, finally i hit 39 in 50m, yeah ! tiny also hit her PB of 2m in her pet event :) great great :D

md: :)

my new hair style.
every first sight of it on my head will be a 'WAH, what happen to ur hair??!'

Some say nice, some say weird, some say doesn't suit me...
well something new i would say, but seriously i also don like the back part of the hairstyle, anyway just live with it lar, just for a few weeks. Hairs grow, hairs drop ...

50m Sprint, did break my PB ytd, although not as good as others but it's a shave of 3 sec of my previous PB.

50m fin, sad to say, did not even got near the PB hit during NUS comp..

dim integers as letters
u.5mi13s+'cr4zin355' = m3. h4pp7
u.3m0/qui3t= m3.54d

5h4r3

m3.10v3.Pi9

3nd.

md: cloudy

unhappy times...

- bad flu + cough + cannot speak properly
- went for a SL interview but cant speak properly due to the phlegm stuck in my throat
- worries over a no batt phone
- home early no dinner, eat together, go alone...
- uncontactable
- when things are not open to each other..
- when TV or other things is more important, just when a listening ears is needed..

bad mood days .. come to an end ...

md: -

Coaching Coaching ... then Admin Admin.. okok Nxt was the round de campus relay: Was very dissapointed with those LifeSavers who have sign up but didn turn up, which shows their sense of 'responsibility', haiz. Then was a very relax run, was panting a little and little struggle at first but after those it became a relax run i would say, not slow but there's a momentum there. whoPpeEe manage to hit my PB of 6m 07sec! great gonna aim for 5min alrd =) gonna train hard for national!

md: momo

Last day teaching those kids from PCS BB.. Gonna transfer back to Admiral as NTUC classes are resuming back to normal. This was the first class I officially took, from their first lesson to now(from the day they didn't know anything to now able to do F.kick and BF.kick) and now I have to really say good bye to all of them.. Really hate to leave them... Guess this was the result of bonding ba, not convalent bond la .. miss u kids lotsa..

nxt nxt, it was kind of disappointed to see the number of turn out for land training. This actually reflect on the team itself, where people are not really interested in training together as a team.

ok all the way back to NUS invitational last saturday, did not break my PB for 200m ob swim but did way better as compared to last year national, feel that i could have done better (train to hit 3m for this year national). Rope throw, miss on the first try, manage to get it on the 2nd try. 4x50m medley relay(fin), hit PB of 27sec, hope to hit 25sec for national.

md: -

whoO nothing much to mention, just realise that there are so many foods i want to eat at my house opp coffee shop, the $2 wanton mee, chicken noodle, chicken rice. the $2.5 fishball noodle, handmade noodle. then the western food also! goreng pisang ! It has been a very long time since i last ate them.

there was something that has really pissed me of over at boon lay int, while waiting for the bus to arena CC, and this minor incident made me think about why local detest certain group of the foreigners.

They does inconsiderate things like:
a) resting their leg on the sitting bar infront of them (for goodness sake will you want to sit on something that someone have step before, moreover you never know what they have step on beforehand.).
b) talking loudly when the person is just next to them
c) spitting on road and pavement (wth if you are spitting on the grass or drain then it might be ok) BUT you are spitting your mucus + saliva on areas that people walk on !!
d) Throwing litters everywhere (hope that you guys will kanna CWO!)
e) Not giving way to alighting passagers (next time you block my way while i am alighting don't blame me for my action)

Of cause this inconsiderate things are not just done by them, there were some local do it themselves... SO Singaporeans please be more considerate and set a good example to the foreigners in Singapore.

Next next.. met dennis at koufu today! he ran towards the drink counter and paid for my order, and that shock me.. :)

'Once my teacher, always my teacher' no matter what you have taught me, as long as you are the one that I have once acknowledge as a good teacher, you will always be .

md: -

The first LifeSaving Camp was finally held. After so much 'call off' of camps in the previous years, due to reasons... Ok the year 1 this year was 'eye' opener to me, there were people with very different culture, character, attitude.

I guess my task of 'passing down' skills of open water have been done. I see the willingness to try more, the crave to know more in most of them.

This camp wouldn be such a success without zhuang, the energizer of the team. Also the people working behind the stage, like yk, lf, adriel.

Thanks tiny pig alot for staying by my side when i having really bad fever after the return from arena ;)

another very important thing is the 'finally' change of attitude in gary after 2 year, it's a good thing i would say. Finally he understand that a IG dont survive by having good players to win compeitition, rather it survive by a group of commited people who have bonded and love the IG and willing to 'train' to improve. TEAM . teammates + commitment = existance of IG, champion - team commitment = existance of IG superficially...

'shi shi wu chang' = nothing is permenent ...

'mind over body' challenge ...

md: -

- support, complement weakness...

- not to blame but find solutions...

md: -

Interesting incident that happen on the train. There was this person sitting beside me keep on dozing to my side, my first thought was er... wth... but then later I think about it actually i did the same thing when i am very tired, I will tend to lend toward one side. Perhaps she was very tired at that point of time. then with the jer of the train this person woke up, saying sorry. I repiled 'orh' with a emotionless face.. After which the cycle just carry on and on, 'sit straight, lend toward shoulder, then lend toward forearm, then sit straight again' until the train stop at cck. my reaction was .. haiyo don care la nvm ba.

come think about the reaction, what will be the possible reaction:
- stand up, leave the sit
- tap the person shoulder, tell the person about the situation
+ bo chap, ignore the situation, just let the person be as he/ she might be too tired
- the LOL reaction, 'hey you can have my shoulder...' guy to guy might seem gay, guy to girl might seem wrong haha..

Then i was thinking, I shouldn't blame people for that... this set me ponder a question, 'what will be the best answer to show the person that you have really accepted his/her apology?', to me i think the best answer to it is simply a genuine 'smile' from the bottom of your heart. :)

mind set to training, last competition, all I hope is just to participate for still water relay (fin) and open water surfing. Gonna get serious .. concentration . 100% for each training = more then 100% in competition.

md: -

hmm today ?? Felt relieve.. cos able to complete the task of bringing a kid name zhong ping into water haha, also they were able to perform relatively ok for the task today. taking private classes feel way different as compared to Childcare classes.

Nxt nxt while makaning fried rice at the coffee shop near teddy bear, suddenly i wonder that it will be SoooOOo good if we get to choose the ingredients we want in the fried rice like yong toufu pattern.

MTG, last lesson for Justin and Shuen Wei.. Ok now all the 'problematic' kids have left. They are just like challenges for me to overcome. Behavior, slow learning pace, low attention span... Although J have been a 'disrupt' to the class, I hope that he will continue the program, and see the improvement in him. I do understand that not all teachers/ trainers will want him to continue the program as they see the 'disability,'ADHD' as something uncurable or someone in the 'group' which shouldn't be include in this program, but i strongly think otherwise. Kids in the class might not understand his situation, but we as a trainer should...

Really hope that i can join 50m finning.. concentration, determination..

md: -

Thursday was an hell day after so many years.. whole body aching, head also ache haiz .. thanks tiny for 'nagging' me to take panadols.. it was a long time ago since my last 'heavyhead'. nv want the tupid feeling again. then come into my mind, what could be the root cause to it? think think ..

Finally reaching a almost complete point on the project, although it's not a really 'BIG' project afterall. But there's the sense of satisfaction when things are being done properly and have some praise comes along with it. There will be some carry on stuffs to do, e.g. changing the amount of boxes on card, also purchasing of stock up gift from aunty pauline.

tomorrow ? busy day at north... SLI admiralty till 10am then WL mtg from 1130am to 315pm..

People might ask, why do you work without knowing how much you are being paid? It will just be a word answer 'experiences'.

somethings, sometimes there were other factors to consider rather than just being practical about pay and salaries. Yes, people do work for money. But never be blinded by $$. Cause it might result in losing more precious things in life..

md: -

nothing much today...

- went down to Admiralty cc to discuss about the reward program
- Dry trg with BB team, gary lorz
- leg don't listen, she don't wait
- got a small penknife cut on middle left finger

words out from my mouth is just nonsense, unreliable? other ppl words is always more 'trustable' .... why??

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'yi ming, er yun, san feng shui'

md: :)

simple + happy DAY :)

bom bom bOM

md: L

Bomb + bOmb + boMb = BOMB !

a) very unhappy with the changes over at TNT side, timing shift change from 8pm - 8am then 6pm - 6am NOW 12pm to 8pm... wtf you guys changes like no body business, what can i say ? U guys are just SUCKS at planning and management ! Don recruit people if u guys gg to change things like this bloody hell!

b) becos of SLI trg, took a cab down, earn lesser , pocket burn bIG big hole ... nvm at least learn alot in the trg - case close -

c) receive a call from Te (the **&$%^&) TNT, asking me is it possible to work 6 days a week with the timing of 12pm - 8pm ... If i agree to U , I will have to give up coaching DUMBASS, cant you use your brain to think why people choose night shift job ?! it's either they dont wan to work in the day or they got things occupied in the day la.. please please use more brains la.. KNS..

d) unhappy + tired & unhappy = unable to function properly = more unhappy , guess i am partly to be blame for that .. sorry :(

nevertheless there are also things that have perk me up during some point of the day...
tiny pig msg and surprise :) thankie

md: -

Responsible is the word which have made life so complicated, things would have been much simple if choice were made according to personal benefits. Being responsible is one of the principles that i will stick to for life, cos this is the way i choose to...

so much things cork up, over at TNT side, timing changes and there were lots of other changes. changes come even before i can settle down with the present one.. v soon there will be more decisions ...

CBR 150 vs Pulsar 180
which one will be a better choice ??
hmm
fuel saving: P
design: same same but CBR don look good with a box attached to it
power: C
spare part avaliable: think C
machine price: C will be cheaper...

HMMmmMmmm ....

md: -

wah wah wah !! think my lungs will turn black as time passes over there :( keeping taking in 2nd hand smoke.. haiz .. muscle slacking also , keep giving myself excuses not to train in the morning, 'aiyo do it tmr la, today tired' haha tml tml and tml haven come, mus be more discipline !buck buck UP! thanks tiny for the snacks in the lunch box!:D

don think i coach well, sort of demoralised, guess need use my brain juice to think how to make things better. Hope to earn enough to get a bike for myself, more convenient and save transportation fees.

okok that's for past few days,

today, learn alot of things from nataniel, the training is fulfilling, although i was quite reluctant to get into the water with the sch trunk.. I am consider unlucky not able to have a swim coach when i was young, somehow or rather, i am consider lucky being able to swim now and getting BM. how i wish there were people out there teaching me the proper swimming techniques.

thanks tiny pig for the lunch at Eunos :)

tmr will be starting work earlier at 12pm, hope that there will not be much changes.

md:

TNT HR <-> job agency .. cork up! ...

now there are so many problems.. haiz .. working days, pay system ... haiyo wth lah ...

....

md:

- bad working experience, with those Mals.

- received enlistment letter, gg in on 09 Oct, 1030.

md: high .. lo

yes! i have finally found a job which fitted in perfectly into my time slot. which means it wouldn't affect my coaching much at all, as the job

location: Loyang
night shift time slot: 8pm to 8am. (4days/ week)

this job was found through Mansfield agency, which i think is far more professional as compare to recruit express just by looking at the way they handle things.

BUT certainly there will be some sacrifices in the future, might not be able to attend trainings, might not be able to acc her, might not .... might not ... :(

'life's just like a chess game, every step u take will affect the way you are gg to continue , there's no turning back'

md: - wed: oreo cheese cake was great! :D












--.. changing changing, playing different role in life might not be easy, but it is also not as difficult as you think. me? my role, as a trainer, as a coach, as a student, as a friend ... ... Different role require different shift in 'faces'. sound complicated.. trying my best to put these thoughts out into word. 'how well can you play these different role in life?', they requires different qualities, different purpose.. 'know my role and play it well'

..--..
Went cycling with butt zy, awWWww it's all the way to NYP, 'to there trip' : from bedok south - old tamp road - hg - amk - yck - NYP | 'come back trip': NYP - yck - amk - serangoon - paya lebar - kebangan - bedok south| which trip is longer and more hedious? haha it's the to there part which took us 2 hours and 23km. coming back only took 1hr and 15 mins with a distance of 16 or 17 km.. forgotten. went exploring NYP CCAs, canteen ... CCAs there were similar to those we have in RP.

food we had last week at bedok market .











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md: shower

don wan to put those things into memories corner . . .

' superficial' + internal froze , i cant change it ...

can i say something ??

md: SunShine

whOOo whole morning + afternoon at home ... not rotting at home, but doing some minor housework + resume. something that i am proud of today : I HAVE FINALLY COMPLETE WRITING MY RESUME after soOoooooOOoo long.

TINY's happy today toO! cos she manage to hit on the dot for her problem statement + compliments from her faci ! great job :)!

There were so much changes, misses the school days where things are so 'schduled' or routine i would say.. currently working as freelance at MTG and SLI, hmm things are so unpredictable, changes every weeks ... Looking for part time jobs in healthcare industry, hope to gain more experience, pay doesn matter ... If manage to find one more stable part time, will consider sending in 'resign letter' in MTG side.

Reason for quiting at MTG side: after the 'reshuffle' button being press, lots of things changes, classes change, lesser classes as most goes to the new full timer. feel like not needed there.. So why not press the 'go' button ourself before them? haha JG should understand this para the most la uh ..

md: nil

Collected private O cert at MOE ... then went around searching for nice egg tarts with CH ( cos he wanna buy ....... ). It seem that most of us have realize the importance of saving now.At the time we reach upper secondary, we have being given the privilege to control 'our own financial' independently, whereas most of us have made a very big mistake by spending extravagantly.. from there we learn from our mistakes as we grow ... part and parcel of life ...

Bus home, I would say there are so much coincidence on the trip back home, saw MF on bus 12 and then HL when alighting bus 12 to change for bus 28 ...

hope to be enlisted as soon as possible ...

- END -

md: -

Trg @ SLI, gaining more knowledge about coaching babies in pool.
Some phrase: 5 sense sitmulation, short simple words, gaining independent in water.
So what do Singapore's parents hope to see or achieve when sending their baby for swimming lesson? wonder wonder .. thinking at different perspective .. parents with swimming experience, parents without swimming knowledge? If ... what will i want to see ?

last day taking my monday class @ mindmax, cos they just employed a new full timer at WL, so she will be taking over my mon class ... hmm yup will miss them, those kids...

uploaded selected photos for Cambodia trip @ http://wavekai.spaces.live.com/photos/cns!A51C9A78E2AEE06!676/
:D

md: cloudy

- ups and downs just like roller coaster...

- A feeling that sensed like the past, as if history gg to happen again ...

- life's a mess now ... time management gone haywire ...

- gonna uploads photos soon when have time...

md: :)



first time having rash at Cambodia which have spread or 'transfer' to other part of the body...
itch itch + swollen little red bums ...

palm skins peeling off

doc say allergy reaction ...

PANCAKES!! =D














mickey --> many mickeys --> teddy on bed

trg as usual .. felt that i am not moving in water ... aWww hate this feeling...

met one of the student's parent, she want to change his class as he is having alot of activities on mon but he want to stay in my class ...

md:

it has been almost 1 week...

Coming back, it's a mixed feelings, happy + sad, looking forward to + hoping time to freeze ...

Gg there surely need some times to adapt to it, away from family, tiny, friends, students in sg ++++ ALSO THE SWIMMING POOL, sort of missing it too. Beside building eco garden for CCAMH (centre for children and adolescent mental health), there was also the exploration of the culture over there and 'shopping' + bargaining skill.

my duty, beside building eco garden was to stop bleeding for people. Guess i am one of those who have created 'bio hazard' waste haha...

experiences there was fruitful:
- building the eco garden was not an easy task at all, the land, the people, the plan.
- everyday there will always be at least one problem arises.

our planning was too superficial. On another hand, the Dr Samba (the person incharge) was someone who look into details, every minor detail. guess we take things too lightly as we are not gg to be the one maintaining the garden and looking at it in the future, just there to built and go. this was the wrong mentality to started off with, where many people in the team were pissed off with the Dr comments and requests, (rework, redo, undo). some were on the edge of giving up when facing the 'fussy client'.

Some said they should appreciate us for helping them to build, still ask for so much more... some think that they just want the hospital to look good, since we are given a opportunity to do it, we have to do it well. we are actually the ones who will benefit more, the learning , the experiences. People there are able to build much better then we students from sg.

thanks for the help they provided, if not we will not be able to complete the project. reason being, none of us have knowledge or experience about building. removing dead trees, grass, leveling of land, marking of layout, changing of plans, digging holes, putting bricks, putting tiles, cementing, planting.... finally we completed something that most of us are proud of ! :)

misses the kids there, donald duck, mickey mouse, peeing king, piong piong, benja, ueni...



<- benja :)








in this trip, i would say that there are more happy memories then unhappy ones.
the life there was slow and simple...

Back to singapore, back to those rushing and complicated life... so much things(problems, unhappiness) have happened back here in the 2 weeks while i was away.

times files... today, another student finished his 25th lesson... very soon, there will be 3 more student completing... enjoy teaching them, even though some were rather mischievous. the best thing was hearing improvement in the students, esp justin who have improved in his daily life as stated from his father. hope one day this boy will really understand the efforts his parents put in for him in order to make him a 'normal' boy...

hope that i will be able to be enrol into local Uni...

hope everything is just simple and real ....

nothing is constant except changes...

sometimes i am really too sensitive .. sorry:(

another trough

md:

he thought it was perfect,
she's just too perfect to him...
just like a gift from heaven..

things changes,
distance drift further,
whenever she's left alone,
negative thoughts wander around.

isn't things good now ?

tried.. but ..
still ... not good enough ...

hope that those smiles was real ..
hope those things said was true ..
hope there wasnt any mask on..
he was nothing more, nothing less than a routine to her..

To him, she's someone he want to care and protect..
someone to share and see he's ups and downs, strength and weakness..
someone to do things together.
someone who cant just simply replace by anyone

hope she will look on the brighter side.. instead of darker side.

can someone just tell me what's happening? what should i do ?

hope this 'trough' will bounce up ...

md: -

- burnt, dried skin :( (effect of chlorine + sun)

- some ppl says it's stupid to work/ study according to your passion, what matter more is the income u will be earning in the future. high living, realistic, ppl just cant simply work for passion. agree ?

But i think what matters more should be the work impact towards others, towards the society. Also how much far are you willing to go into. All types of jobs and occupation do contribute to the society. But one should nv do things that is not 'morally correct' in order to earn more.

Taxis ard SG, peak hours, off peak hours, CBD sub charge, booking sub charges +++ most taxi drivers are also v practical about things. once i heard from a uncle saying, nv stand just right after the ERP (outside the CBD area), u will nv get a cab. some taxi drivers even just wait around the CBD area for calls (taxi booking) in order to earn a $3.5 more. imagine u need a cab in the peak hour(35% extra) + in the CBD area ($3) + $2.80 + maybe booking fees ($3.5), just before u start to travel, u will need to pay at least almost $10! living cost is rising in SG.....

md: -

Ubin was fun, staying over a house at ubin, cooking macoroni, first aiding senario ...

not perfect, i do have flaws, in fact there were alot it...

md:

Last Day:
Last day of school was great, no ppt + minimum research = slacking day.. haha thankie to tiny baby for the hot dog bun and the effort to deliver it :)

somethings in life have come to an end:
- those presentations and lesson
- classmates
- library (books)

but somethings will continues:
- tiny
- friendships
- trainings
- learning

Avontuur Race:
great RACE !! great experiences ! =D
thanks yk for forming YK2 =)

Start off with good lead with yk's good knowledge of the woodland location and jogging around,
yk's got serious cramp
lost our lead at the rock climbing station (arrhHh we drop our map on the grass which lack behind 15 - 20 mins)
teams wander around at the cross junction for 10mins (NO DIRECTION GIVEN!!)
overtake some teams at bearing stations
lesser walking distance, same destination (thanks to yk's shortcut)
climbing up to mos code station was a torture, it's soOOoo HIGH!!
lots of ppl cramps, they carry on with determination after some rest
abseiling: climb high, fall high (aWwW)
snorkeling: big fat goggle + tube was a great burden
calf cramps at TRCC
finish @ 5th
people that we got to know there:
- meiqi
- the organizer (don noe what's her name uh)

Thanks yk , perform with his condition of having fever, flu + sore throat.

Graduation High tea:

- photos taking
- memories video @ tanglin to woodland
farewell - RP -
bye to all fellow SAS batch '05 and faci s

some great faci to mentions:
Dennis, Benny Koh, Kelvin Tan (although he is thought to be 'evil' but he's good as a faci), serene choo, chong yun, siew pei, jillynn, hui cheng, xiao wei, yong yong, sin nee, yean yean.

this week, another busy, tiring but fulfilling week

md: :)

Fri - Sat

- Night Cycling
- sentosa trg
- k boxing

Trg was sort off slack, so sleepy everywhere i go.. k box, vonn sings well.

sometimes staying by the side and caring might be a difficult task to accomplish due to circumstances, but will try my best :) mission for everyday: tiny 's smile!! =Pp

doc says, nv nv find someone who have the similar med condition, if not the future generation will suffer. where minor + minor = 75% chance of major. which will be a big problem then.

vonn's alright from the med checkup :)

LAST week in RP:

some of the photos taken:

w35p (AY 06/07)









GMP I & II ( the only class of biopharm track in the biotechnology course)

no sense post

md: lo

this is a no sense post, so don't bother to read it, write it down for the purpose of venting out my anger and disappointment. nth else

it need to be done,
everyone knows it,
but no one take up the job,
delay.. delay..
someone know that this cant be delay,
he got it done.

A rude/ 'non- professional'/ no respect reply in return,
there was a feeling of replying back with #$$%#,
forget it,
small matters,
just swallow it will do,
don let the small little matter spoil the whole purpose...

After which came in the term 'hero',
why bother?
because it's our IG,
for things to move on and higher,
but all people see is 'stupidity'...

People only want to do BIG things and tend to neglected the small little task...

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'all human is sinful' a term heard which i strongly disagree...

some were blessed, some were not,
some were intelligent, some were not,
some were talented, some were not,
some were handsome, some were not,
some were pretty, some were not,
some were rich, some were not,
some were lucky, some were not,
some were ... , some were not...

there wasn't a ALL being used... how can you judge ALL just by one?

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it was designed similar,
meant to be a set,
but now it just meant nothing more than a training gear,
for he's will just turn into 'antique' which will be kept ...
expected too much ...

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see no strength, but only weakness
see no good, but only bads
hear no praise, but only criticisms

helping others and get into troubles
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Just a negative post.. sorry if i do offend anyone out there..

md: nil

At the age of 10
teacher ask: 'so what you want to become in the future?'
boy answer: 'i want to become a policeman when i grow up!'
: ' why ?'
: ' because i believe in the fairness and people should be punish for their wrong doings'

as the boy grew up, he realized that there were things more important, the word 'fairness' actually doesn't 'exist' in this world. people often said that 'when you lose something, you gain something' so it's fair, but there were others who said 'if the world is fair then everyone should be equal, born with equal statues, having equal opportunity and luck'. So what is really fair? and what is not? 2 thief steal, one steal as it was an easy way out, but another steal as he is in real desperate situation (to save his family, etc). Both were caught and jailed, it's justice. but if thief B were given a better situation(born with silver spoon), will him become a thief (he could have simple use his own money to solve the problem) ?

Some people said everyone will experience the same things, but it's just happen at the different point of time in life. there was a chinese saying 'shuan, tian, ku, lia', sour, sweet, bitter, spicy is part of life. One who never experiences sour, bitter will not appreciate the sweetness in life.

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a old friend who will nv think of the consequence when doing things ... was it the environment that have made him the way it is ? or was the environment meant to be a test (he could have choose another decision which will then change his life) ?

'ming yun shi zhan wo zai wo men zhi ji de shou zhong'

md: --

- aquatic chalet (nice choco cake =D)

Monday (first day of sch) unable to attend lesson due to the stupid SAF med checkup again, which have cause my grades for AI seriously suffer..

next next IVP .. my 400m event didn came in last !! phewWw .. so stress over it .. didn beat my PB, but it's alright, improvement requires more training !! :)

8

md: low

it's really demoralizing, i am alr slow and today is slower, which going to make me the slowest among the slow , the BIG 8! I cant find any reasons for such disappointing performance... the goal have just drifted further away..

guess things have changed alot since 23rd... don noe what is happening, it's just felt like as if the past is going to repeat itself again, fated..

everythings just drift further .. and soon to be unreachable ..

simple day, memorable gifts

md: nil

Thanks for remembering my 19th birthday ! =D
- tiny
- zy butt
- vonn
- si jie
- sin yee
- xiao hui jie
- sherilyn
- jason
- jun ming
- wei si
- justine bud
- yong kai
- christina
- thomas
- ah ben
- jessamine
- micheal da ge
- jasmine
- eneida
- ai ling bud
- stella lao ma
- UG
- uncle daddy
- er yi mum & dad + krystal
- jie ying
- joyce
- ci liang

Happy Birthday to :

uncle daddy (26th dec)
mum (27th dec)

sin yee (26th dec)
jasmine (24th dec)
ci liang (31st dec)

Thanks tiny, butt, vonn for the gifts =D and those ang bao from my mum, bro, uncle daddy, er yi mum=D.

it's a birthday where 3 impt people are not in SG (mum, big bro & tiny), hmm anyway let's start from the morning, someone visited! it's lao sim (my grandaunt, who is closer to me as compared to my grandmas, and i missed her), she's here to feed the rabbits . chatted with her :D nxt nxt, went to school for lunch, then went to the lappiz outside OSG to play game and check mail, er ended up doing a simple budget for open water training.

ANYWAY GOODIE NEWS!!( to all LS ppl ! esp to tiny!), as planned open water training will commence starting on the week of sch reopen saturday! timing will most probably be 12pm to 2pm as i set. LET"S TRAIN HARD AND BRING GLORY TO OUR SCH! =D

Back to the day, present from vonn, small pie from eneida, thanks. Training followed by rotting in the pool. dinner at coffee shop thanks that witch again haha jkjk. back home, nuggets, fries and lian ou soup waiting for me =) with 2 cakes ! ( one from uncle dad, another from sis). Fats and cholestrol forecast: will increase in the nxt few days :x thanks for the efforts put in for my present. it was the most simple birthday of all my 19 birthday, but i have received 2 most memorable gifts in my life...

mood

Mood for the day... good start, bad ending...

goes downs and up with the weather and situations..

a) bad planning for the day... or rather didn expect the unexpected

b) raining

c) work issues

d) bad location, wrong buses

e) t mood

f) milo spill

arghH daMn it ! today suppose to be a happy day but things changes just like the weather.. a day that i have been hoping for after ....

culprit for blame = mE , haiz

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fortunate to have her in my life :) dream -> reality thankie for everything tiny :D

mum, bro gg malaysia back 1 week later
impt person flying off soon, another 7 days

md: :(

- problematic sunday... with the lessons ...

- hope she's enjoying her trip there now :) hope the foods there suit her..

md: sunny










e boxY project... :D

md: sunny

Guess GMP is the only fun and memorable module this semester, the people.. my friends .. UT for CChem = die , although it's easy but but but it's just too easy that 1 grade different might just be 1 marks different after moderating... yaWns..

Swim, with tiny and then went to paint our 'BOX' project =D really happy tiny thanks u.. for making my life more meaningful and fulfilling=) heez when childish + childish = ? :x muhahhaha

back home, i guess some problem arised again :( if only ...