03mar10 . wed . cloudy

so many things is happening and revolving around. Changes after changes, events after events. not feeling anythings around. Separation between people you bonded with is never an easy thing to do. Like a common saying, things changes, people part. Left with 2 more mount and things is going to change, for the better ? or for the worst ? we shall see about it.

sometimes i guess keeping life simple by thinking simple ( thinking of simple things, people ) might be better.

when mind is occupied with a person, time passes faster. somethings are not meant to be shown, not meant to do, not meant to happen . It just meant to keep in thoughts and memory.

02mar10.tue. still air

Numb , physically and mentally. I am stuck in a situation where i am suppose to be very happy (G-Shift) but I am not. Sensitive tooth and lower back is hitting hard on me, trying to rectify the problem. But I guess sooner of later will pay a visit to the doctor and dentist, and very certain that I will not find those who always do a half past six job.

Life's getting complicated. Thinking on both simple and complicated side. Yup, certainly we can be ignorance about others doing and thinking, plots and motives. But which will really benefit us? or which is the right way to go ? Complex thinking include assumptions, speculation and experiences, which sometimes helps in foreseeing the future incoming events/threats however sometimes it also create a wrong impression of others. I suppose complex thinking and handling of situations and people appropriately will be the better policy. No one is happy about what is going to happen in 12 days time. Separations and moving towards the less comfort zone.

28feb. sun. breezy :)

Thanks sue da jie for organising the steamboat gathering ! =)

alright, countinuous activities throughout the weekend.

book out - buy helmet, change sit cover (which made a mistake in choosing the suitable colour =( ) - sat am : beach trg - family lunch - biopharm gathering - sun : movie: dear john . - book in .

alright ever wonder why we are attracted to certain people the first time knowing them, even though they are not that pretty, or rather pretty in ur point of view, even though they didnt fulfill the requirements u set as a 'ideal' lady. But still you are attracted to them.

- pure chemistry. -

lower back down + unknown pain ( toothache ? or ear nerve ? or ear infection ?)

adios .

23feb. tues. breezy

this is a sopiscicated world. anyway human are complex creatures themselve. Yes certainly i know where he is coming from, and i know what to do. hopefully things will change for the better in days to come.

Ytd was the day where alot of significant events and meeting occurs i suppose, at least to us. At the very least i know that you are still there for us. thanks.

sometimes i do see at their point of views, but stubbornly i choosed to only see at my narrow angle.

---. ---

the one and only sensetive tooth is killing me !! in the day and night, eating and drinking !!

back got worse after today's gym session, shall permenently excuse myself from lower back and glut exercises till thing turns better. still cant figure is it muscle or nerves issues. It's only the left side of the lower back but it's spreading to my left butt. I wonder does OMG3 helps in nerves issues? Shall test it out.

rsm called, met wo ravi at some random overhead bridge. meet the WOs day ...

somethings are fated,
some happen coincidentally,
some is just destinate to be,
however future and choices are still up in our own mind and hands.

--- " ---

adios .

17feb10. wed. cloudy.

thanks to him, not enough rest.
thanks to him, my lower back is in pain from then till now.

alright hopefully the pain is just cause by muscle strain. and hopefully things will be better tmr. hopefully he change his mindset. hopefully ...

endless whining ... endless complains. that's one way to make one feels better. at least it work a little for me. when u say it out, u ll forget the unhappiness.
--"--

bro got a bike for himself whooo, get to ride auto scooter next time ! anyway i still prefer my small cbr =)

-- " --

14feb10. sun. wind

it's CNY, same old people, same old place, here is the time where we get to see people who we'll see only once a year. But different feelings. somehow or rather i realise how much distance am i away from my family and relatives in term of bonding. It can be seen from a simple dinner or gathering. They are suppose to be the closest. I don't understand them, and vice versa. I wonder why family politics is also in place. Politics get to place where there are large group of people together ? Or issit that it's the way we were brought up ? Where everythings are usually settled by ourself, where we buy things we like ourself instead of pulling mummy dress and say 'mummy, mummy, can i have this ?'. Or issit that we came from a 'broken' family where there's a absence of care from parents? But one thing for sure, I will make sure this wouldn't happen to my family in the future, may it be the younger generation or older generation.

I don't mind being called 'B', But do take note when it comes to laughing at others weakness. It's not about some unique action. But I guess it's just not right to laugh at a person when he's trying to improve on it, why not correct that person or advise him instead of laughing at he's langage pronounciation. I mean different people are brought up differently in different background, you maybe born in a well educated and good family, but others might not.

Another thing that actually hit me hard is laughing at the physical shortcoming of others. Be glad that you wasn't born like this. Does laughing at other pes status or whatsoever, make you feel that you are actually the most perfect person on earth ?! I didnt speak about anything about ur back or vision disability or physical weakness (did i say anything when you guys can even do a proper push up or wheresoever where i stand a advantages?) Here's this person is trying hard not to let people see his short comings and here you guys are laughing at him spreading around his weakness, is that the right thing to do ? It's hard to trust anybody, or rather it's better not to trust anyone. It's better to isolate in one corner and so nobody will bother you. Slowly bits by bits detach from the shift/place as things remains is only hatred.

blame my mindset, blame me for being sensitive in these area, whatsoever.

I hope to form bonds but things happening around make me think otherwise.

--- " ---

07Feb10. Sun . Breezy

Surf and Sweat is over. completed something she wanted few years back then. It's time to drift away. If there is any 'debt' toward her, it will be clear by now. guilt free . no longer remorseful.

At the start line, A was telling B (which is one of the compeititor in that wave),

A : Must get 1st for this wave uh.

B: But they look strong also.

A: don't worry la, you got the surfing experiences, they don't have, sure win de.

B: *quiet

Lucky A is not one of the participant in this heat ... or else ....

what a cocky attitude, showing disrespect to other compeititors. anyway B came in last in that wave. ' for goodness sake, next time if you want to say such a 'motivation' talk to your friend, kindly motivate behind the back of other compeititors.

- empty feeling, empty heart, empty mind -

CNY's coming, it's just feels like another normal month. Everything became so dead, so meaningless. Even brain is slowing down. Things will only be different after august. that's the only thing i looking forward to. well some might take this 2 yrs or less as a good experiences but i guess to me it's otherwise. It taught me to go againest some principles which i used to have. Guess it's just that i am easily affected by others.

let's think,

if route A negative,

move on to route B,

if route B negative,

move on to route C,

if all route . negative,

find another alternatives . infinate times.

--- " ---

04feb. thu. wind

getting lazier, less motivated ... rotting becoming the pastime that i actually spent most of my time on when i am out of camp ...

i am so detached to everyone around me. even those who suppose to be the closest to me.

it's good not to fall in love, then no one will be hurt.

---"---

28Jan10. thu. Windy

First time I see someone breakdown mentally as a friend. I guess he was confused or stucked in a situation where feasible solution isn't visible. After keeping and wondering everything by himself to his 'limit capacity', he broke down into tears. Hopefully he learnt something out of the experience. Facing the reality in life and the way to handle unexpected situations.

Sometimes the world is ugly when human are double sided. Well infront, bad at back. hmm.

--- " ---

29&30&31Jan10. fri&sat&sun. still wind

- swim, swimming, swam. 10pm-7am @ NTU sundown swimathlon. bored. tired. hungary. cold.

- Sentosa Beach Trg, great ! fun ! i loves BOARD !

- biopharm gathering, pasta, alcohol ice-cream, ramen, chats ! =)

- gym gym gym ---- new forearm trg ! tired ..

packed weekend . fulfilling times =)

adios

----" ---

21-26 Jan

260110. tues. white breeze

Life's sorta monotonous with a little spices once in a blue moon. book out - exerise, clean bike, sleep, eat, go library, buy stuffs at times, book in - hmmm that's life in this vocation, the good things is you are free when others are not, so don't need to worry about long quenes, squeezing bus, heavy traffic, packed gym or shopping centre , but on another side, unable to meet up with friends except those who came from the same shift.

i am troubled as usual. i start wondering about the future and those thoughts and stands that use to hold firm in me. i am clueless again.

" It's not about the beneficial or losing outcome, it just simply right or wrong."

--- " ---

240110. sun. breeze

As we grow, we experiences, we learn and we change from simplicity to complicity.

simply eating --

A baby only need to open his/her mouth to eat,

A child uses utensils to eat,

A teenage often trouble about getting what to eat,

A adult have concern over the monthly expenses on eating...

As we grow, we take up more responsibilities, worrying more things around us..

why moth is being stated as a spiritual representative ? what was the story behind it ?

there a tiny moth landed on my waist, i placed my hand on my waist, slowly it climbed and stop on my index finger as if it want to tell me something.

I tried to scare it away with another of my palm moving right above it, moving so near that i almost could crush it instantly but it remain there unmove as if it read my mind that i am not killing it.

ye: ' haha your ah gong come visit u liao ar! '

kai: ' if it's really my ah gong then ask him to stop the mosquitoes from biting me!'

kw: 'haha this kind of things better dont anyhow say uh ! must repay de hor'

kai: *stoned , " ps uh just kidding de."

then it flew away.

once in my life i felt relief to be stung and suck by mosquitoes that night ...

--- " ---

220110. Fri . Cloudy

There i saw orion belt and hunter right above me. Here i am getting upset and angry over others busniness. Over people who are irresponsible to a large extend affecting others. Things could been better handle by doing necessary things. People often neglect duties and responsibilities. They thought that things could be settled just by saying 'i don't know' when they know, 'I didnt received it' when they received it, 'it's too late now' when things could be settled earlier. 'it's not my duty or responsibility now. I am seriously blowing my top off. I understand that different way of doing things but in my point of view, it's just not right.

someone who seriously dislike people who are irresponsible for their own actions.

' A nice place to chat and chill with the breezy wind and starry sky. '

---" ---

210110. Thurs. Cloudy

It 's up to individual and there's no right and wrong about it, it's purely up to personal judgement, experience and principles.

You cant fault one for not giving up sit to the needy.

You cant blame one for not being as helpful as you.

No one have the rights to do so.

It might go against what you think,

what you want,

but that's life.

you can blame them because you wasnt in their shoes.

mr high income, might think that donating $900 per month is ok.

But mr low income might think donating $1 once a while will be enough.

mr generous might think giving out 90% of your income is something everyone should do,

But mr more responsibilities might think spending on family comes first.

mr helpful might think that helping others should always come the first piority,

But mr workaholic might think finish urgent tasking should come first.

The question is if you are helping something that can be done much later and neglected the more important and urgent task on hand ?

It's just like a man who left with a 10% oxygen tank pass his 10% to a person who left with 20% oxygen and died, when the rescue boat is coming soon. how necessary is it ?

how kind, how helpful ? depending on individual aspect. one shouldnt expect others to see and do things the same as they thought.

you shouldn't blame him, he's 25 and got his own views, stand, piority and ways. you shouldnt blame your son being different from you.

- should we help those who receive sufficient help from others ?

--- " ---

adios

130110. WED . cloudy purple

-- just another day without sufficient count--


blood flowing irregularly,
coldness felt on cheeks,
numbness around body,
vision slowly merges as one white screen,
it's time to gamble inorder to handle situation differently.


white flag,
squat down,
fall out,
then will be blame by many others,
some out there will look down upon,


don't want to be blame,
don't want to be looked down,
don't want to disappoint,
don't want to spoil,
just try the best to finish till the end.


it might just mean
lost of core temperature,
lost of sight,
lost of motion,
then followed by a K.O status.


speeches goes on,
lost the sense of sight,
left with sense of hearing,
listening, concentrating, struggling
lucky as speech ended before the lost of motion states proceed.

Just ended the fight on the ring.
--- " ---

the occurances of careless mistake keep on increasing from day to day. *sigh

everyones make mistake, but he made stupid mistakes...

--- " ---

150110. FRI. Cloudy Blue

MA : same as usual, nothing positive came out from doct. alright 'll take note 'once you lost it, you will never get it back' but i didnt choose to lost it, never once listen to loud music, never visit noisy places frequently, but sometimes no choice means no choice, just hope that planes can fly softer or lesser for the next 7 mths ya ? just pray it remain and not worst ..

have to tolerate those 'not so positive' remarks for another 7 mths,

dont laugh at others lost, it's 'not so nice' to do that

'are you perfect' ask urself this before pouring out those 'not so nice' statements


cos the world is 'not so fair' ,

i mean 'SO WHAT!', that's me.


i am a freaking stubborn person.

sometimes ' i wanna be a bad guy, debond every bonds, ignoring everything everyone. '

---"---

16&17 Jan. SAT&SUN. Breezy Blue

-spy next door : nice hilarious movie 4.5/5 =)
- light gym at JW
- partyworld w UG.

- not that safe rider sometimes.

-- END --

120110. tues. grey wind

it's a new year also separation for alot of couples out there. I wonder why.

01Jan2010. Fri . breezy blue

some interestingg+ lammmmmee eventss

1] @ 01jan 0000-0015 of 2010, first time standing at a area where all 3 locations fireworks are visible
2] @ 1jan 0006 of 2010, received first msg of the year .
3] @ 01jan 0030-0100 of 2010, first time opening gate at the middle of the night
4] @ 01jan 1000 of 2010, first hand over @ 010110 1000hrs
5] @ 01jan 1345 of 2010, first medicine of 2010: duro-tuss
6] @ 01jan 1630-1900, first movie of 2010: Avanta 3D
7] @ 01jan 1630-1900, first time having couples kissing right infront @ a movie theatre (it's not that i wanna notice, it's just that they are kissing non - stop -_-"')
8] @ 01jan 1900-2100, first time visting manhattan fish market
9] @ 01jan 2130-2200, first pillion of 2010
10] @ 01jan 2345, first 200th 'photos' on FB.

--- " ---
sometimes it's not emoing, it's just not feeling well dudes !! hahahha

- the flu + tonnnes of phelgms in my throats = breathing sooo difficult + some minor chest pain + headache

- pi pa gao doesnt works much, hope duro-tuss works ...

----" ---
HAPPY 2010 to everyone! =)

adios.

29dec. tues . blue breeze

-left with flu .

- went giant with sis, got quite some stuffs

- cooked cereal prawns, BUT it was totally unsuccessful, although it's still edible. but it's really troublesome ... shall try making it again next time, but i guess it will be cereal chicken !!

- end of looonnnggg holiday .. alright shall spend my new year eve + 1/2 new year in camp.

-- " --

adios

26th Dec. Sat . purple sun

i wanna say a big THANK YOU to everyone. I dont know what to say, perhaps it's due to my limited vocabulary. but from the bottom of my heart i really want thanks everyone, everybody.

---"---
everything was alright today, except having a mercedes benz flashing high beam behind me up and down lots of time, it kinda really pissed me off, alrd riding at 70- 80km/h on normal road alrd, somemore it's NORMAL ROAD mind u not expressway !! kns sooo angry that i show finger first time on the road ! cant stand it. RICH soo wat ! go own ur own road la ! dont drive on public places la ! kns. 100% no road courtesy ! argh !! alright if there's a next time, i will sure play till the end ! see who win grrrr!!
--- " ---

Alright enough of venting my anger on blog. *puff puff ...

Thanks butt for everything today =) alright i actually spent my actual 21st with a special friend over the past 6 years ? I guess this is special enough ba ... thinking back, thanks for everything butt.

friends comes and go. leaving their footprint in ur mind. time to go on in life, time to face the practicality of life. from the 21st steps onwards, things will be different, roles and duties will be different, mindset and action will be different, people perceptions will be different, expectation will be different...

it might be a simple 21 years of life, or it might be a complicated one. sometimes we dont really have a choice, do we ? we learnt to make decision wisely, so as not to regret in the future. we learnt to do things effectively in our own way, as that suit us the most.

i wonder lots of stuffs endlessly. i realised i have many friends around. i realised that i dont belong anywhere. i realised that people do care for me till the extend it can touches me deep inside. i realised that there are so much more in life.

at times i just hope that certain things can be forgotten.

--- "
a flu + feverish 21st BD ...

adios

25th Dec . Fri . greyish breeze

.Random Thoughts.


I wonder why human remember things ? Why do we have notstalgic feelings whenever we pass by places that we used to familiar with ?


I wonder why human forget things ? Why do we forget things at times we need to recall it ? Why do memories fades away as times passes ?


Sometimes in life we might think nothing about something, wheras others might take it otherwise.


People don't want to remember the past because it's a nightmare to them.


People wants to remember the past because it's a fairytale to them.


Some people choose to let go things because it's doesn't matter to them anymore.


Some people choose to cling on it as a learning experiences in life.


I guess that's life. Somethings happen 'knowingly' while some happen 'unconsciously'.


-- " --


" In life black and white are define by a very fine line but also a very thick zone."


"sometimes in life, chances just come in the wrong time"


-- " --


do pardon me for my poor ang mo ... hahaha


merry christmas everyone ! =)


adios =

20dec09. SUN. orange rain

Finally it's over. the actual day is 6 days away.

happiness, disappointment, excitement, confusion and these were the feelings over the days.

this year was special compared to the past not because it's the start of the route towards adulthood but rather, i am celebrating it with u guys, yup it's u guys who actually embarked onto my 'ship' making it more colourful, creating changes, accompany me through certain part of the journey across the 'ocean'.

i know there were some important people who wasn't invited to celebrated this special day, you guys were impt too however, i am unable to cater to so many people. sorry about that.

---"---

thanks for thoughts and efforts guys =)

[PSR Coasta Sand C06]

--- " ---

14dec09. Mon : purple breeze

now i can understand how chris, LF and Ian felt that period after the burn from exhuast pipe ... the feeling is wahh hhh .. and the 'walk' through those terrain actually worsen it. then plus some water = highhhhh..

slowly bits by bits things are falling in place. but things have to change again, due to my mum decision or suggestions . carry out plan B waahhh .. alright anyway. so use to doing everything myself since young, all of the sudden my mum come in and help hmm like not use to it. but anyway she meant well. but but but i seriously don't like that 'i am still a kid' feeling. people need to experiences and learn. Falling down, moving a longer route, sailing over a tougher sea is part and parcel of life.

another round of headache, keep on going on and off past few weeks. keep on dropping things that i am holding, like just suddenly just let go of the items, and my poor handphone and keys are the most on the 'dropping list'.

I admit that i am just plain stubborn .

adios
--- ' ---

.Wed. 09dec09 . hazy purple .

that spell hits again. cant figure out the root of the problem. was it diet? hydration? psychological? lack of conditioning? metabolism rate? insufficient O2 ? lack of RBC? or issit just the body condition ? i got no idea. it always comes and hit without a reason .

didn really have time for myself the past few days or weeks. Today kind of settled lots of personal stuffs on hands. Tmr will be one of a 'big' day for everyone participating i guess. Anyway tmr will be the first time i wear no. 1. another first time in my 'milestone' .

- Friends -

Some friends are just like clouds and wind,
At certain stage of life they were there,
After which they just disappear from your life.

Some friends are just like a road and track,
They share similar mindset and interest,
As time passes people change and they go seperate ways.

Some friends are just like leaf and branch,
chemistry and experiences make them clique,
some stick around, while some falls leaving a deep footprint in your heart.

the path of fate ?
at every intersection we meet different people.
some stays while some leave.

fated to be friends? fated to be foes? or is it the decision make by one ?

a non sense thoughts and post.

adios

--" --

25nov09 wed : hazy red

' to achieve perfect fairness in the world is 99% impossible, cause the earth is not evenly round'

some people are just that stubborn, refuse to accept others suggestions.

fairness, complications, responsibility, selfishness, autocratic ....

you wldn understand the feelings of it unless u are the one going through it.

mum's back from india

wants to go oversea !!! omg , alright it's not the time yet

--- " ---

26nov2009 thurs : rainy purple

First time I experience a child crying infront of me after coaching so long. guess i sld have put to a stop and not trying to get him over his comfort zone at that point of time haiz somemore he's just a 2 years old kid. it's a thin line between comfort zone and learning new things. have to take things more slowly next time. Seriously i need more experience and explorations in handling kids ... *sigh

sometimes taking public transport is good. can rest, can observe things around .

loves OREO CHEESE CAKE !! thanks sis for that .

oreo + cheese = happy

--- " ---

adios

nowcast: hazy purple

how i hope people around me didn treat me that well.

sometimes i wonder do i deserve such kind treatment from u all ? i feel bad about it. Something i realised, there are times where i didn know how to repay the kindness that you all have given me. But there's somethings i hope to remember 10yrs, 50yrs down the road, that when i was young till now u all are always with me, supporting me therefore i must not forget to repay these kindness. do forgive my selfishness and stubborness at times. thanks uncle dad, lao sim and mum.

if every kind deed is calculate as +1 then i think i wouldn be able to repay all these kindess this life time.

I guess i have sort of forgive and forget what he had done and the damages he cause to us. things went wrong, and he made the wrong choice. He choose to be irresponsible and neglect this family of his. But it isnt his fault entirely, it's because all of us resent him, isolate him, didn give him a chance to chance. I felt sorry for him, although he did not play his part as father, but still i will play my part as a son.

--'--
people wonder why things have to be calculative. why cant things just go in a simpler way ?

however if things wasnt calculative, the world will be in havoc condition. Everything will just be anything and anyhow. Calculation is also a part of order, and fairness. but to what extend, you decide yourself.

any simple sport match can reveal the reality of the world, the practicality of human. it's ugly somehow.

sometime if life doesnt have any feelings or emotions to consider, things will be so much simpler. but think about it again, will you want to leave in a world without care and concern ?

-- " --

Went to Run for Hope '09 , 10km jog with butt. I ask myself what's the reason i am doing it for, for the organisation that organize? for cancer research? for friend ? - i dont know, remain in a blur zone. anyway i guess it doesnt matter.

Just when i am getting numb to the world, someone did something that remind me to be helpful. helpful means helping others we are in need of help, by helping these people their task will be easier and faster, by helping these people they are able to do certain things that are not possible to be done alone. To what extend or under which circumstances should we help, i guess it's up to individual.

bad headache hit again. i cant find out the reason for it this time.

--- " ---

i need a personality change. a change for the better.

nowcast: hazy purple

this is the problem which i might also face in the future. this problem will only arise in middle to low income family, where money is the green light to go or not to go for further study. I guess that's life. We have to make use of what we have in life and work things out. It's gg to be tough, really tough but i know she will make it because of her determination, hopefully things will go smoothly for her. Take a break, sit down and think of the future, think of what we really want in life and how are we going to achieve it. The future lies in our hands.

---

long long week. where there's so much of uncertainties, changes and repeititions. where the only thing to look forward is the time it's over.

tough times like this will reveal the nature of human. selfless or selfish. it's where everyone plays their part to achieve it. 'tough time dont last, tough men do'

make use of every seconds, there will be time for rest .

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06nov09 fri : windy blue

- K box with sis and bf

- had fav cereal prawn !
do i deserve such good treatment ? i wonder. i really hope the predicted future is untrue. i hope that our siblings bonds will also stay strong and unite.

[dt east][changi]

07nov09 sat : sunny orange

- OW trg . the wave that day was really nice to swim , or issit some sorta psychological effect ?
- didn noe why is there such adrenaline rush throughout the trg ... issit food ? sleep ? people ? weather ? previous day mood ? i wonder ... and for no reason yk is falling in love in doing push ups that day . hmm . strange . - tireness did not appear in my head at all -
- receive 1 x call. quite suprise (big question mark)to hear that he/she is taking off on that day but happy though.
-supper with butt. everyday people die, but how did these people handle death so calmly ? And how did those close ones manage to accept the fact that he/she have to go ? i wonder.

[sentosa][bdk 85]

08nov09 sun : leafy green

- nutrilite jog, stated 4.5k but i feel that it's much lesser. happen to see my sispec buddy there ! yup it's coincidence, kept knocking onto him this week, twice i guess.
- library. books tonnes of books but only restricted to 4 .
- cant resist the temptation of the chicken chop ...

[expo 3] [tamp]

leave leave off off long rest week

31st Oct (Sat)

- dislike the term 'china man', pls don use names like that just because people 'ang mo' is way belows u all.


- i guess that's the problems when people from all walks of life comes together. the tendency to look down or dislike one another. i guess education does plays a part in making friends ?


- rain rain rain
hate it when i have to ride my bike under the rain, esp jus after washing !!

- but no choice, took leave for the RFH runner pack collection

- went through erp gantry without cashcard.

-almost lost in the process but thanks to 'butt's moving gps'.

[regent][sgh]

1st Nov (Sun)

- went to pray

- have a fulfilling lunch with bro at the Tanjong Pagar hawker , nice traditional wanton mee (the tomato sauce type), with soya drink and a plate of cai tou gue wooOOoo that's heaven !

- went for a 30mins jog
it's that cold stingy feeling agn. well i guess it comes once in the blue moon, hopefully it don come during RFH... haiz

[tanjong pagar] [tamp-psr-tamp]

2nd Nov (Mon)

- went swimming with bro
haha he is learning butterfly ! ok la, consider very good since his 2nd time practising =)

- Rotting at home watching (general hospital drama) nice !

- nice chat with vonn, thanks =)

[tamp SC][home]

3rd Nov (Tues)

- went light re workout after hours and hours of self motivation ... haha

- went swimming after butt's first prac then had a rainbow paddlepop which i have been missing for soo long ! =)

- met gwp gang, michael birthday =) LT's treat. realise that i spelled michael name wrongly on the keychain. have great time catching up with them =)

[TNCC gym][bedok][bugis]

- wants to live life to the fullest !
- wants to help needy people but but at the same time dont wanna being take advantages of.

adios

nowcast: dark purple

--"--

Great times with biopharm mates @ JG's 21st =D
[coasta sand PSR F05]

--"--
28oct09

- they heard that i am interested in G, helping me to ask the possibility of getting in. i really appreciate this help. thanks alot.

- now the real problem come. where G vs U.

- my sturbboness and greediness is killing me!

- out with butt.

- watched sister's keeper = nice touching show

- 1st time to iluma filmgrade theatre = quite spacious

[bugis]

--- " ---

29oct09

- woke up at 8 then went back zz , too lazy to swim
- too lazy to get out of bed

- meet butt for farm trip, bike lesson application, was way late to the meeting time.
- love the sight of kranji 'bridge' area.
- went to sungei buloh instead, nice nature reserve.
- waited in the theatre for the show, but the show never start or play. Left after 20 mins of waiting.
- saw tons of monitor lizard swimming here and there. realise they cant stay in water for long.
- saw some slimmy creature not sure what is it.
- saw squirrels .
- saw lots of birds but unsure about their species/ breed.
- saw the growing cycle of prawn, looks similar to butterfly's cycle to me.
- saw a bird lover with a huge camera with lens width as huge as my legs circumference.
- saw some secondary school kids and some kindergarden children.
- saw crabs and fishes.
- bitten by lots of mosquitoes, applied the repellent but was too late.
- saw a female dogs with 4 puppies, watch them swam past the muddy swamp while 1 was left behind.
- almost walked onto a monitor lizard who is lazing at the side of the footpath.
- climbed 2 tower there. nothing special.
- wanted to took a shortcut back but saw a 'no way out' signage.
-caught in that heavy rain while moving off to next destination, totally drench except the butt area.

- went to jurong frog farm, saw lots of bull frog, booing here and there. saw how a dead frog look like, bloated stiff body. jus like a drown human ?

- went to bollywood - poison ivy for lunch, nice curry, drumlets and the ALOE VERA lime juice ! interesting doors and nice ambience. saw their boss, was a white indian i guess, telling the workers what to do with that stagnant water, laugh at her jokes/ remarks to her workers. she came over to our table smiling at us, telling us her ways of caring for the worker 'i only allow them to smoke 2 stick per day, strictly no drinking for them, it's for their own good.' so that they will save up more of their hard earned money. well i agree - all smokers pls smoke lesser sticks !!

- went TM to get some stuffs. but decided to get another thing for that present.
- pocket is in burning. but i guess it's worthwhile.
- bike's dirty after the extreme wet ride...
- decided to go into G, take a step at a time, when the situations arises then move to solution.

- casting everythings aside, keeping things simple.

don wish to - . see his mum, bro, sis, relatives, close friends, friends unhappy. trouble/ rely on anybody. get into r/s. get fat. get skinny. get agitated/ fustrated. do things that doesnt obey his principles. overspend. pin high hopes. reveal his physical weakness. don wish to. don wish to.

[kranji][cdc][tamp central]

---" ---

adios

nowcast: -

drink. drank. drunk.

a good feeling which comes with a bad aftermath ?

some felt it earlier some felt it later.
some able to take more while some lesser.

some says it comes with experiences and 'training'

u know it's happening,
but u wldn care,

cos it doesnt matters, as the world is spinning around u.

thoughts of sorrow,

memories of sorries,

you doesnt know why it's that person out of all.

it's so deep in the heart,

in the sea of memories,

it's painful to recall back.

it's the things happened,

the experiences together,

it's so unique that it stay.

hate to relied on others,

but without them,
you'll nv be home.

it's a once in a lifetime experiences ...

you never felt it, you never know it.

that's life ...

[lao pau sa] [ butter fac - cody's BD]

16/10 - 17/10

- caught unprepared

-last min info

- unable to make get some presents done on time.

- task after task, meeting after meeting, gathering after gathering.

[prawning] [OW trg][dragon gate's tim sum buffet] [ amanda's 21st BD @ K box]

' jia jia you ben nan nian de jing ' - it's another crisis ?

nowcast: grey

browses through some blogs
there's a person who recalled the past,

the hurtful feeling,
the broken heart,

there were 3 point of views,
but none were known to each another,

assumptions were made,
conclusion were set,

perhap too friendly in the past,
perhap too helpful,

learn to be more heartless?
learn to be more careful ?

not decisive,
not observance.

if he/she is more decisive, and observant, things might not happen in such a manner.

perhaps this person will not have such a great fall, such a deep wound.

it's a past, a complicated past...

never meant to hurt anyone, never want to see people suffer.

sorry. tried. but nothing can really be done to make things better.

perhaps isolation, ignorance, keeping a great distance would be the solution.

hope he/she will stand up again, be brave and things will be better. i guess .

--- " ---

stupid. dumb / smart. clever

channel 5 . growing up. meaningful show. learn something out of it.

ran with butt, est about 9 - 10 km or lesser ?

that new hairstyle suit her .

- yi kai didnt wash bike again . due to sooOOo many last mins event .

- getting lazy + disorganised = not good. time to get back on track.

--- adios

nowcast: light blue

- nostalgic -

a day of gathering,
a day of coincidence,
it's a day where old friends meet.

stuffed with yummys,
surprises were made,
reminiscence of those good old times we had.

enter army,
back to study,
it's just another stage of life.

somethings changes,
somethings stays,
true friends will always be right there.

e nostalgic feeling, walking the same old path, stepping back into the compound, looking around thinking back.

friends were leaving ... or rather we left ...

once there, but left.

[JW. Jap Village] [ RP ] [CWP]



- adios

nowcast: grey

disconnect . refresh

isolate . reflect

rest . recharge

. . . .

Goodies Bags Week

nowcast: light blue .

Goodies BAG WEEK!

- visited chervon for AGM
- NUS SplashDown

= 2 x goodies bag.
-- " --

YK declared broke this mth =( soOOo much temptation from John Little sales + Comex Fair .

-- " --

what can be done ?

i wonder.

- when we undergo somethings unfavourable, just close ur eyes and tell urself, 'it will be over one day', may it be getting experience or follow through motions ...

- adios

nowcast: purple blue

Going Home (A short film on Dementia)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9iXPHhfk_7E&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.vin4.blogspot.com%2F&feature=player_embedded

--nice local film -- =)

nowcast: dark purple

- scratches on bike =( .

lesson learnt, 'nv let other to ride ur bike no matter how confident they are, how long they hold their license' ... cos ur bike is not a trg sch bike, which equipped with metal rack beside ... haiz

---" ---

- it's time to get back stamina ...

- it's time to get back some weight ..

- it's time to wake up ...

- it's time to spend time more meaningfully ...

- it's time to think about how to handle people around.

- it's time to think about more solutions to overcome/ coverup personal weakness.

- it's time to plan some contingency plan for studies and financial.

- it's time ....

' i will do things i believes that's right, till the day i fall'

--- " ---

soon.. i am unable to differentiate the different types of people around me, those who are true and those who are not.

but is tat really impt ?

--- " ---

nowcast: Dark Purple

-- cant be bother --

he's aged,
he's sick,
there he is on his wheel chair rolling up and down.

there were people ard,
all were healthy and fit,
but none of them are willing to give the helping hand.

there he is struggling,
there he is asking for help,
but all ignore his request for that simple task.

saw the selfish side,
saw the disgusting side,
it's all about man and their 'bo chap' attitude.

perhaps it's karma,
maybe it's fate,
but still we should help people who are in needs.

pushed him up,
called a cab,
hope that 10 bucks will help u in someway.

when my closes one need help,
when my friends need help,
i hope someone will be there when i am not around.

--- " ---

-- SH 21st bd --

there were old,
there were young,
all the three generations were gather here for once.

small party,
close families,
where people chats and mingles around.

catching here,
chasing there,
laughters were heard, smiles were seen.

not that rich,
not that well off,
but still you can feel the warm in the family bonds within them.

'si gua tian bu tian' by the adults,
'tian' by the children,
where nice photos were taken with that BIG BIG SMILE =D

---" ---

HAPPY 21st uh UG! =)

--- " ---

adios

nowcast: cool blue

--- the way it is ---

the step to move forward,
the step to reverse backward,
things were still staying at the same point.

it's confuse,
it's undecisive,
things were left hanging there.

left unsay,
left untouch,
things are staying put as the way it is.

for the better,
for the worst,
reactive might be the best solutions sometimes.

---" ---

nowcast: reddish black

--- it's his fault ---

such a dissapointment,
such a anger,
that's what happen when communication breaks down.

people assume,
and concluded,
not trying to understand the other side of story.

using formal tone,
using authority,
this is what they call friendly talk.

A don't listen to B,
B don't bother with A,
that's where miscommunication comes in.

you think you are experienced,
i think i am right,
judgements fails on both side.

Perhaps it's the langauges used,
maybe it's the tone used,
there's fault at both sides.

if u arent in the situations,
then explaining will be useless,
please stay out of the picture as u have made things worse.

like the whites side the white,
and the black side the black,
that's where unfairness and biasness comes in.

A's view to B changes,
B's view to A changes,
that's where working r/s turn sour.

it's the emotions at fault,
it's the communication at fault,
but people didnt question themselve are they at fault at the point of time.

my body isn't yours,
your mind isn't mine,
that's why people have to step into others shoes.

in a splits of thoughts,
in hours of talks,
things will never get back like the past.

--- "

it's not his fault that he cant hear properly,
it's not his fault that he cant speak clearly,
it's not his fault that he cant perform ideally.

it's not he doesn't want to, but that's he's limitation.

he tried covering up the weakness,
he tried to do his best,
but things still happen.

he's more tired, more exhausted, there's only more disspointment when more explaination is given.

people need time to change,
people need experiences to advance,
people need suggestions to improve,

but some people just cant be bother.

superior is superior,
inferior is inferior,
politics is politics,

lines have to be drawn clearly btw u and him.

--- " ---

nowcast: grey

- shake head - jus not good enuff 2day, need more improvement...

- i guess the most scary things on earth is when people put trust in a r/s yet being betrayed on another side. looking at people around me, things seem sweet when they are together, yet on another unknown side, he/she is being betray? oOoooo scary ...


-- mum --

she who sacrific without complains,
suffers in slient.

she who shield the womb,
protect it with all cost.

she who feed the child,
provide the best she can.

she who educate the child,
tell he/she the rights and wrongs.

but as time passes,
memories fades.

he/she might not remember the greatness of her.

people grew up and carry on with their life. . . very often she has been forgotten ...

adios-

it's sun or nv

nowcast: purple red

it's sun or nv,
people often says, the higher the hope, the harder the fall.
well that's something i agree.

for the past years, i blame it on the boards and unlucky events that occurs during the compeition, but i guess the final conclusion is just tat i am not good enough.

this year, am i up for it ? equipped with new/ diff sprinting and turning techniques, and different training programs compared to the past, will i make it? tell me i wouldnt .. i rather everyone have no hopes or expectations on me than self suffocation due to others expections.

pls pls pls pls to whatever, let me at least have a better luck on that day.

---"---

this week luck ? i guess no gd no gd, i have been injuring people around me accidentlly (physically), 2 surfboard accident + 3 exhaust burn ... and everyones just says wah lao yi kai!well but no ones really appreciate the effort to fetch... haiz i didn mean it, it was really pure pure accident. but still i am sorry guys, for all the knocks and burns. wat the hell is happening, past 2 mths of riding, no pillon injured. but just this week 3 accident ( i mean those burns while boarding the bike).
hmm hmm hmm guess nxt time will put my right hand at the stand while others board, at least if kanna burn, the first will be my hand.

first time i experience a almost skid turning, just right after i change my balancer, guess it's too light, aww wasted 12 bucks for it, now have to change another one 16 bucks a heavier one. a heavier balancer for a more stable turn. well for safety it's worthwhile.

---"---

sunday is the day, just like the colour now, kan chong ...

---"---

after all the trgs and efforts ... i hope ...

nowcast: grey

- lost -

lost of direction,
lost of motivation,

where to move, how to go ...

lost of determination,
lost of strength,

where to find, how to control ...

lost of myself,
lost of feelings,

where to keep, how to hide ...


tell me that it's wrong, tell me to move on ...

tell me that it's right, tell me to stay there ...


---" ---

times flies,
faces are still familar ....

--- " ---

nowcast: grey

bike no batt,
bike cant start,
thanks to SX and YK,
For coming dwn...

Stop by TP,
jus a random check.

IU spoiled,
problems getting through those gantry.

my pocket is burned agn =(

nowcast: grey



- gym wit ah ben

- out riding with 2nd bro to changi V for lunch =)



saw a monkey wandering around the roof railing of the food center .



like butt says, my poor wheeler is rotting at home, shall bring it out for a ride + some cleaning when i am free =)



bad headaches days ...

nowcast: windy stone

a Fulfilling loOOooOoooNnnnggGg wkend =D

thanks to the runway off, able to enjoy such a long wkend.

THURS:
- visit mum at her office (thanks mum for her guidance to the bike shop when i am lost =x) haha lao ma wan shui !
- buy bike accessories
- wash bike

(lost my way agn during my way to bike shop, holy coW ! more xperiences needed )



FRI:
- RT
- K box with LIMs sq =)
- haircut
- dinner with Uncle Daddy

- order diao yu (fishing in chinese) at the drink stall and u will get chinese tea
- nice food at aljunied cresent ! (the hawkers there not bad, i think so, gonna try it some day, any kaki ?) haha
- circuit rd food center is close (under renovation)

SAT:
- Beach Trg (more trgs needed, haiz )
- Dim Sum Buffet and Harbourfront
- Ice Age 3

5th pillion onboard, hope ur 'bike fear' have diminished. =)

now i understands why drivers and riders on the road hated taxi drivers so much (i mean those f***ing inconsiderate ones), thanks to the sudden brake infront uh 'mr taxi driver'. grr

safety doesnt depend on the rider/driver alone, it's also depend on those driving and riding around him/her.

--- " ---

Back to those boring days ...

I hope to compete in nationals LifeSaving Comp, I hope to win something. train hard, work hard, perform hard.

hopes in:
Taplin Relay
2 men Surf with yk
-"-

shou ni ye yi yang ai wo (zhang dong liang) - nice song

drinking xpired milk, taste alrite to me ..

nowcast: windy

JB roads are scary cos we are unfamilar there ... but it's a good place to explore.

by chance i found nice western food store !

! YUMMY !

Marsiling Rise, Blk 131,
ami.... ... cant rem the name (nice western food over there!)

my rating (bad 1 to 4 good)
Taste: 4
Portion: 3 (fair enuff for girls, think guys need a little more)
Worth for value: 3
Looks: 4

TRY IT OUT! haha

Gonna look for more NICE food out there !

nowcast: fire stone

---" ---

. that's life .

time passes,
my perceptions towards certain people also changes,
some turn better,
while some got worst.

things changes,
my experience towards dealing situations also changes,
some got better,
while some turn worst.

look forward, walk forward, sometimes things are just mend to be.
experiences make a person more experienced .

---"---
.never ever.

the world is nv fair,
cos earth is unevenly round.

the things is nv same,
cos situations keep changing.

the people is nv ideal,
cos human are mend to have strength and weakness.

---"---

i tried to make a situation fair, but to be fair we will have to be calculative. Just like making things equal, we will have to be calculative.

So sometimes it's ok not to be fair i guess. that's life.

--- --- ---

nowcast: stone

--politics--
people mumble,
people whisper,
people gossiping about the bad of others.

like a chess,
like a game,
people plan to take advantage of others.

some cliques here,
some groups there,
people mend to disagree with others.

there is right,
there is wrong,
there isnt fairness among all.


-- evil sides --

sometimes i ask, "am i poking in too much for others ?"
there are so many others out there trying to take advantages of others, y are these guys so selfish?

They yearn for fruits without labour,
They hope to receive without work,

People always want things to be one their side,
People made things their way using unorthordox methods,

where good deeds and personal rights are just separated by a thin line..

---- ----

it's not ok to think about feelings, cos it's scary i guess..

---"---

nowcast: windy stone

'bad luck' will be the description for ytd.

wrong turn,
wrong side,
wrong way,
ended taking longer route to a destination

more knowledge,
more experiences,
more educated,
guess i just need an 'idiot guide to travel ard SG'

--- " ---

1st time kanna horned, but know la it's my fault haha, hope there wldn be nxt time
LScamp @ RP + trg at sentosa, woOo thanks to YK i am not lost on my way there to sentosa frm RP =x
hmm, it's really hard to understand another person, and the way they think.
well i guess i need to travel more around places to farmiliarise with SG .
gonna get a small travel map . haha

some hilarious stuff i met while on my way home from buying stuffs, there was a boy, which i dont know why is he doing that, he walked exactly beside me on the pavement, then as i increase my stride, he increase, i slow down, he slow down, but but but as i saw the green man blinking, i start running, he too start running, but too bad he didn manage to cross the road, cos by the time he reaches the traffic light, it's red man alrd .. haha

---" ---

Happy Bd to JY, hope u will have nice slp n swt drm always =)

---"---

only 1 wkend for this mth... haiz ...

---"---

nowcast: stone

Jus brought a bike from kw, don noe issit a good thing or bad thing.
didn have the urge to buy it, but i guess i just buy it.
now saving have to start from scratch, awww..

but i guess i just need experience on the road ...

nowcast: water

-negative emotion- 280509

another stage end,
for the better or the worst,
on the move to a whole new stage,
he got no idea what will happen next.

in the period of this stage,
he filled the world with sadness,
in the period of that time,
he filled the world with hatred.

sometime things happened,
and it stack up problems after problems,
somewhere things happened,
and it accumulate blows after blows.

that's life when things turn nasty,
everythings look different,
that's life where lucks turn bad,
everythings feels different.

look on the positive side,
it's negative,
look on the bright side,
it's dull.

hopes things change for the better ...
adapt to changes, make the differences ...

---"---

journey 2 e west

nowcast: windy

happy birthday to mr Y K PANG!

- journey 2 e west with butt :)
start: bedok - MP - mountbatten - nicoll HY - CBD - harbourfront(vivo) - pasir panjang - west coast park - pasir panjang - labardor park -vivo - CBD - nicoll HY(lightnings) - mountbatten - bedok(rain) : end

- legs are in pain ... not aching but the stinging pain ard the thigh and knees area .. guess this is wat they call 'feng shi'... getting old i guess ...

awww i am dying becos of the stinging pain ....

nowcast: firey water

bad day, bad luck, bad mood.

its has been a long time ever since my last 'eruption' ....
'thanks' to e :
- last min info
- last min posting
- last day over there
- un 'ideal' posting
- the packet of fish soup which burst and spill for no reason ...

jus luck and fate i guess ...

right chest ache,
bad luck days,
times passes,
everything will be fine .. i hope ..
jus like rainbow appears after rain ...

elmo emo nemo

bye guys, thanks for everything over at cab :)
--- " ---

nowcast: windy fire



--- moving on ---


when times comes,
it marks an end,
which signify e start to nxt stage.

everyone around,
waving hi and bye,
wishing and thanks.


no ones knows what will happen,
yet everyones hope it happen ,
where we got the choice we want.

there were memories,
some were pretty,
while some were ugly.

it's the people,
it's the place,
it's the things we do.

---"---

--- the best ---

people want him to be the best,

but he's not.

people thinks that he's the best,

but he's not.

people sees him as the best,

but he's not.

he's just another person,

who give his best,

hope for the best for others,

but believe that he's not the best.

he's just another average....

---"---

---my numbers---

my favourite number. 6

my fated number. 7

soon i mix them up 67,

or maybe 76?

i hoped for 6,

but heaven gave me 7,

issit a good thing?

or bad thing?

I dreamt of 6,

but 7 appears,

sld i dream,

or see ?

where i hope dream exist in reality ....

---"---

. adios .

SNSS

nowcast: windy

went volunteering at SNSS, the 4th SNSS championship

e water ‘ballet’ (synchronize swim)25/4/09

It was elegant,
It was graceful,
It’s my first time seeing this.

They were ‘stretchy’,
They were tough,
Dancing with splits when they want.

Dance with tempo,
Dance with speed,
Dance in water as they like.

Some made more,
While some made less,
It’s the errors that make it counts.

‘Practises make perfect’

---"---
at e bubble tea shop.

it's all started becos of a monotonous 'pearl'
no doubt she look like another white version of this person, esp the eyes and nose ...

another suay day to order bubble tea..

after a good laugh at ws monotonus 'pearl'

It’s retribution time... -_-"'

k: can i have oreo coffee?
g: no more oreo ..
k: erm then can i have coffee milktea ?
g: no more milktea ...
k: silent (thinking: 'waTtt ! Oo then what shld i order ?? wahHH')
g: how about ice blend ?
k: orh then give me honey iceblend ( thinking: 'for goodness sake, this is my first time drinking ice blend')

lesson learnt: nv laugh at others .. haha

---“---

nowcast: windy

. stranger .
while slping on the train,
comes a lady,
wearing a blue stripes blouse,
with a purple sweater on.

not that pretty,
not that perfect,
just that average,
sitting beside him.

looks like a dream,
but it is reality,
when the stop reached,
both walk apart.

he remembered,
but forgot,
only left with a blur impression,
of that stranger...

--- " ---
.dream of interest.

no ones believes,
no ones knows,
why he choose that,
why he did that.

stepped into the room,
they questioned,
they wondered,
how is that possible?

they ponder why,
with that achievement,
with that appearance,
choose this field of study.

interests cant be tell by looks,
neither just by that few words,
looks can be deceving,
but those feelings stays.

that's a path,
where practicality exchanged with interests,
where satisfaction ranked before money,
that's a choice with no regrets.

---"---

if given a choice, will u choose a millions $$ or save a million lives ??

luck ?

nowcast: firey sunny

an unlucky yet lucky day ...

unlucky events
- rushed my breakfast for nothing
- waited for mr sim, tot he's not coming
- took the wrong direction bus
- LG : warrenty not vaild
- the shop where my laptop was brought: cannot be found
- so emo = decided to brought a new laptop immediately to 'vent my anger'
- started to rain heavily just when i want to step out of funan
- the bus i wanted to take drove past right in front of my face
- ordered chocolate milkshake but ended up getting chocolate cookie

'lucky' events
- saw amodel/ babe at palawan
- mr sim turn out when we started our trg, manage to use surf board
- decided to drop by bras basah complex while on the way to funan and manage to found the zhan qi that i am loOking for !!
- will drawing $$ from atm realised that bank not close yet manage to sign up for capita card
- manage to eat filet O fish after months due to the heavy rain
- chocolate cookie was NICE!
- received letter from NUS, was short listed for nursing

new 'discovery', lesson learnt
- read the direction at the bus stop, dont assume
- ensure that 2nd and 3rd year warrenty card is given
- laptop harddisk actually can also be use like portable hd ( marv)
- buy what is necessary, dont be greedy and buy things that contain quantity and not quality
- DDR2 ram is facing out that's why shops are promoting/ discounting lappiz with DDR2 ram ( think they want to clear as much stock on hand as possible)
- buy things with shops that are more reliable
- 1st time i spend so much $$ in such a short period of time with such a short decision .. OMG is tat good or bad ??
- nxt coming few mths have to save save save like beggar
- try out new stuffs, u nv know u will like it, 'TRY OUT OF THE BOX' !!

wonder was it fate or just luck ?

so do u call this lucky or unlucky ??

is year 2009 an unlucky year to me ? why unhappy events happened one by one ...

shall check out what's e lucky colour for me tis yrs .. hmm

nowcast: water

a msg frm 2nd bro and all of the sudden i lost my feelings at that point of time, i don knw how to react, what to react. if only i insist harder on that decision of bringing her to vet.

stopped at the corridor, mum haven remove her biscuits and water.
stepping in, hoping to catch her sleeping/lazing somewhere but only realised that her cat litter have been removed.
it was days later then sis and mum brought her to vet.
low RBC/ high WBC . she left.
i guess it's just too late.

getting home makes feelings heavier and unbearable.
'where rains covers tears.'

. i miss u. orion .
. i miss u. stuart .

---"---

' let the past begone, life have to go on'

---"---

came across this web | http://www.asdsingapore.com/ | for dogs lovers, dogs are up for adoption, something like SPCA

---"---

24 mar 09

nowcast: stone

i guess this person is the reason for me to run, for me to train to become better.

uncle dad, lao sim, mum, er yi mum and dad...
these are the people i hope to see and provide when i become successful in life and all the major events in my life, i hope they will be there.. although life's always unpredictable ..

nowcast: stoney water

- i hope uncle dad will get better.

- sometimes it's just happen that there's nothing much we can do knowing that the people around us is suffering, but nevertheless we must always think of what we can do even it's just that little bits indirectly.

--- " ---

nowcast: stone

'BOb! ... hey bOb!' - alright this was suppose to be e english name they decide for me , but rather i think it's more like a nickname. which part of me look like a BOB! omg... for goodness sake, can u guys choose a better name? and v soon bad things like this spread so fast and now everyone is call me that name instead of my norm one .. wtf yawnz ...

there was a supersitious saying that 'it's unlucky to have ur bed facing in front of the door', and unlucky enuff mine was the only bed in that position... and more unlucky enuff i failed tests which i studied for it ... i wonder how unlucky can things become ??? i rather choose not to believe it ...

life's nv fair cos the earth is unevenly round ...

stress wk

nowcast: stone

last week was the most stress week... aWww, it's just another learning process of life.

' learn through the process, make changes that will benefit others as well as the processes'

' those faces, comments and critics are just so irritating'

'when the greed hates the greed, the ignorance dislikes the ignorance' - people tend to see their reflections in others

'to lead by example, care for others'

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in Surf n Sweat insitutional manage to get into top 10 by pure luck haha , see la mr LF !told u i will get into top 10 de!! wahahhaha hohoho

if there's another chance nxt yr, hope to compete in mix event with butt.


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nowcast: stone

' it's always better to give than to receive... '

'songs makes one recall people and things'


pondered questions ..

'what is the special 'thing' in u?' to me, i have yet to found any of it yet, guess it might be also a good thing to be common/ average in almost everything.

'Can we judge a person's personality through the songs they prefer?'

Stress? Sad? Emo ? then jus close ur eyes, take a deep breath and think ...
'what makes you smile when you think about it?'

at that v moment it was times to n fro ECP every week... i smiled

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nowcast: stone

why do beggars beg when they are able to work and contributes to this society? is it because of the bad economy? or issit because they are just pure lazy? or are there other reasons?

when we see such kind of beggars, shld we donate?

tmr's surf and sweat, 4 k run !! and i have not been running for like more then 3 weeks ? OMG ..

'when you think it's a right thing and you shld do it, then just do it...'

19/2/09

nowcast: windy

- pink pather 2
- RPLS trg

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saw mayce, guess she's coping well after the operation :)

trg was like waoHhh haha but it was fun.. it let me realise the difference btw my left and right arm... the strength and endurance ... guess i gotta pay more attention to my left side ..

bigger in size or 'whiter' ?

haha it's actually both i would say but not so much of size ba, cos there's only about 1.5kg difference b4 i enlist..

love the team, everyone there.

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'to keep the IG alive, the passion and commited people have to be there'

'usually the IG/ Clubs falls apart after the main character leaves... but what can be done?'

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nowcast: sunny wind

so basically:

- having fun playing 1945 plane game with marv
- some weight/resistance trg + a little nonsense here n there ('concentration vs laughter'haha) w marv, raach, andy
- aww butt got duty on tat day unable to join, have to join indi liao
- dinner/ gossiping/ chatting with sin nee, val, pecky, aunt pei min

anyway, happy 21st birthday ah pecky ! =) haha just when you tot i forgot about it totally but you are wrong =P
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"jot down those past that brings back memories"

"when memories fade, those text will still be present..."

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end of BSLC

nowcast: windY

end of BSLC

G coy, platoon 4, section 2, bed 07 ... ranked 4th out of 44 in platoon for overall performance. posted to Airforce ASLC, FDS/ CAB. 1 week block leave, reporting on 23rd feb ..

was so called the section best, thanks to all my section mates. sometimes i wonder, do i really deserve to be ranked in the top of the cream ??

moving on to another stage of NS life ...

G4.2 :)
G4.2
e no. 5th n 4th :)
jonathon.kai.eugene
shuan.kai
bed 8 n 7, buddy of BSLC

' there were selfish and lazy people, but what's more impt was, there were people who willing to give a helping hand. when you need help, you know they will be there :) '

thanks guys, for giving me the happy n memorable experience in BSLC ...

all e best guys :)

.. adios ..

nowcast: firey water

flu + cough + fever symptom = tasteless + sian ... (lucky enuff that it happen soon after the assessment ...)

finally the last book in tmr ...

everything coming to the v end soon ...

received bad new... kinda frustrated over it ... 'why me?' suay until cannot suay ... does 'express interest' helps? ...

hope to go back to coaching .. missing it ..

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270109

nowcast: stoneY

Another Chinese New Year ... another year older ... another year passed ...

visit people who we see once a year ... some were bonded , some were scattered ... when 3 generations comes together ...

sometimes when group of people comes together, there is fun, laughter and joy ... but sometimes it just means more people more 'frictions' ...

sometimes people just don understand that what you said might affect the bonding within the family, sometimes keeping quiet is a good thing... keeping a family happily bonded together can be an easy task, but it can be tough one too, i guess it's all up to the 2 'yi jia zi zhu' of the family...

I hope we will stay bonded tgt always ...

todaY is BORING ...

- who says short hair cannot style!! prove u wrong ... haha

- how old alrd still suck thumb ...
- nope suck thumb no more hahha
- ah hhHH bang !! bang !!

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everywhere you see this ...
siam siam siam ... from 'sai gang'

selfish/ helpful = smart
helpful/ selfish = dumb

that sldn be the way ... but no ones want to do that extra work ...

as people grow older .. they turn more selfish ..

but everyone have the kind nature in them, just that everyone is lazy ..

'what for you do it ?' .. ' what are the benefits from doing it?' .. 'who cares about it?' .. 'why must i be the one?'.. I guess this are the questions people ask themselve before they do it ...

the Xtra effort is just not that easy ...

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nowcast: stoneY
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finally e 4th week comes to an end, will be out at field 4 nxt 3 weeks then left with 1 more week in BSLC ...

miraculously jumped 230 for SBJ .

just do it...

becoming more restless, more unhelpful ...

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cant imagine if war really happen one day ...

seeing people falling down, bodies apart ...

what's for us after death?

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it doesnt matter which 'class' of job or duty,
it doesnt matter how others look at u,
what matters is how u look at it and perform it...

even a rubbish collector plays an impt role in this society ...
becos of their existance,
our life is different...

so nv take it for granted, when a auntie help clean the table for u ...

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BT result is out and comfirmed.. make a choice ..