26jun. Sat. Purple rain

I cant take this. it's abit too much ..

i dont need some other guy who u put as admin to invite me to your bd celebration. it just shows what i am to u and what he is to you .

so pls, do watever u two wanna do, but pls keep me in the dark. becos i had enuff of all these nonsense.

why me in the first place, whereby u guys get closer after we got tgt, so am i a toy to u two? since u guys like each other then go ahead, why drag me into the picture! whereby now my feelings are affected.

you made me feel useless, u made me feel like a fool.

i always there wanting to help, but u nv once accept it.

when u need help, i knw i nv be the first person that come to ur mind.

i have alrd choose to lenghten this path of suffering (when ur feelings is not there anymore). Just to do this one last task, and off i go (since that's what u wanted).

i choose to standby a person who doesnt give a damn or concern about me, a person who's not even trying.

it's not easy, certainly , it's just like having the 2nd stab and lenghten the stab.

thanks for the prank cupid. i feels like a fishing clown in the circus. and u wldn know how shitty i am feeling now. nth could be worse. it's just a one sided affair ultimately.

well not knowing all these will be better for u, then u wldn be so trouble.

at least at the end, the memories on ur side would be a more happy one.

soory blogg, for venting this out on u, this is the only place where my mask can be take off.

bad headache since afternoon ...

--------------------" 27060007